InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Frozen ❯ Chapter 15: And you should know ( Chapter 17 )

Title: Frozen
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/ various, Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru, Inu Yasha/Kouga mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Frozen” by Madonna


Chapter 15: And you should know

I awoke to the smell of raw meat that seemed to tickle my nose and cause my empty stomach to growl in appreciation. I sat up carefully so as not to disturb my still sleeping daughter. I looked down at her and as I did so I thought to myself that she would need a name. I couldn't keep thinking of her only as “my daughter” or “my pup”. For now I needed food, next I would think of a name.

I sat up and scooted a little ways away from her and looked in the direction of the smell and discovered that Kouga cutting the flesh from what looked to be a deer. I watched as he placed a few thick pieces onto skewers which he then set near the fire to cook. Sesshomaru who stood beside Kouga was drying his hands and after he did so he approached holding a plate of still raw meat.

He held it out to me and I looked at it for a moment before taking a piece and putting it into my mouth. I chewed it quickly and reached out for another finding a hunger for the raw meat that I had never had before. I took the plate from him and he backed away a few feet and watched me through thoughtful eyes as I ate piece after piece until there was none left and I was licking my fingers to clean off the excess blood.

I was confused by my enjoyment of the raw meat, I had eaten raw meat when I was desperate and needed to eat and when pregnant; which I had assumed was due to the pups needs, but it had been a long time since I had enjoyed it and its taste so much.

“You lost a lot of blood and your body is healing and providing for a newborn…raw meat is usually good for a nursing demon,” said Sesshomaru as he looked down at me.

I nodded and he held his hand out for the empty plate. I handed it to him only to have him hand me a water skein in its place. I opened it and drank heavily until the skein was empty. He returned with a plate of skewered cooked meat which I also made short work of while watching Kouga prepare more as well as making a pot of rice. Kouga ate some and Sesshomaru seemed to pick at the raw meat and cooked alike, not really eating much.

When I had eaten my fill they ate a little more as if waiting for me before both of them fully ate their share. It was kind and the same thing a mate would do if it were their mate they were providing for. I blushed because my thoughts wouldn't stop thinking of them as more than friends or relatives. I knew what they were and that Kouga was attached but at the same time I also knew him as a mate and father and he was doing a good job of playing the part of a proper mate and my instincts called to him.

Sesshomaru was what had my mind and heart racing the most. This gentler side being shown to me was new and invigorating and somehow arousing. I felt embarrassed by this attraction but my inner demon had no such problem. It screamed at me that he would be a great mate and unlike Kouga I would not have to fight for affection or be a second mate, we would be first, come first. My worry stemmed from how he would treat my new pup but I knew he had cared for Rin and I could see potential in him when it came to my daughter.

As I looked down at her she began to stir and opened soft blue eyes and began to move those small fists just beginning a fit which I beat her to as I lifted her and brought her to my lips, placing a gentle kiss on her brow which quieted her and then I slid my robe open and brought her to my swollen and just starting to become painful chest. I watched as she latched on and suckled, her small hands coming to rest against my chest, opening and closing and grabbing at my robe.

I smiled down at her and played with her darkening black curls and as I did so I noticed one small patch of silver on the right side of her head right before her ear. I wondered if it was a birthmark or just some lucky mark she had gained. She certainly had luck. She probably would not have survived if it wasn't luck that had brought Kouga and Sesshomaru to us. I looked down at my lucky daughter with her patch of snow colored hair and pale blue eyes and names and ideas flowed through my head.

“Myouri…..Tsuki…….no...” not just luck by itself.

“Yuki or maybe Rikka,” as I looked down at her I saw so much potential and with it she needed more in a name, perhaps Lucky and snow.

“Myoriki…no…Myorika. That's it! Her name is Myorika, Rikka for short,” I said startling her and causing her to let go of my nipple and stare up at me momentarily before she latched on again.

I looked up grinning at Sesshomaru and Kouga and both seemed to staring at me like I was crazy, “What, she needs a name. Can you two come up with better?”

Neither said anything and Kouga shook his head, “You went through all the pain and work you can name her.”

It was quiet in the cave and I realized Ginta and Hakaku were no longer with us and I looked around sniffing just to make sure.

“Where are Ginta and Hakaku,” I asked looking at Kouga who was picking apart the remainder of the deer carcass.

“They were told to stay behind and keep an eye on Ayame. She took what I had to tell her well but I do hate leaving her without those I trust while she's carrying. Besides…I think we have things to discuss. I know you'd rather not but Sesshomaru and I are in agreement that things need to come to light.”

I looked over at Sesshomaru almost afraid I would see the look he had on his face. That look of determination that said things weren't going to stay unsaid and that he and Kouga were willing to wait to hear answers to unsaid questions.

“Where do I start? Or should you just ask your questions and I decide what to answer or how to answer,” I asked as Myorika stopped nursing on my now emptied left side and I moved her to my right.

She started nursing again and I carefully wiped at plump pale rosy cheeks.

“You implied you've had a pup before...” Sesshomaru let his sentence hang in the air.

I sighed and closed my eyes and instead of looking into theirs as I decided my answer I opened them again and looked into the fire which seemed to separate me from the two of them.

“My first pup was the result of rape when I was young, perhaps a year after I lost my mother. It seems so long ago but the memory never goes away. I was young and stupid and had no idea how to care for my self and I was too young to know what sex was or what it lead to let alone how to care for a being growing inside of me.”

The memories seemed to play as I stared into the flames and I saw the day I went hunting and remembered the pain of the beating the bear demon gave me and felt an almost emptiness as my eyes grew hot and the flames became wobbly in my vision.

“I was stupid and wandered into a Bear demons territory…It felt like the pain and fear would never end as blow after blow fell down on me. He let me live but my pup wasn't so lucky. That night I crawled back to my small den and delivered my son and that morning I buried him.”

It was quiet and I looked down at my little Rikka as she fussed, disliking her salty bath. I wiped at my eyes and cleared my throat as I gently wiped my tears from her soft face.

“It wasn't long after that I happened to run across your path and something in me caused me to start our little battle. I think at that point I was tired of being the victim and perhaps even a small part of me just wanted someone to end it. Someone to not give me pity, someone to end my misery, but no one did and I grew stronger.”

I lifted my little girl and gently massaged her back and grinned as she burped causing a little bit of spit-up to come out. I wiped her mouth and continued massaging until no air remained to burp up and then laid her in my lap.

“As far as I know my second son still lives. He was a result of my first love, a young priest who was as infatuated with me as I was with him. I knew it wouldn't work out and so I birthed and raised our son for two years by myself but he seemed to attract demons like moths to a flame so I chose the best path for him I erased his hanyou traits and left him on the doorstep at the very same shrine his father lived and worked at.”

I watched the rise and fall of my daughter's chest as she fought sleep.

“Not long after I was awoken by Kagome I sought out that small village and there I found my son. He was older but it was him. His hanyou genes left him looking younger than most his age but it was definitely him because he looked just like his father but his eyes were amber, a few shades darker than ours Sesshomaru,” I said as I looked up and grinned at my brother.

I then looked over at Kouga and back to Sesshomaru. I don't know what I was waiting for but the silence thought brief felt like hours and the den was heavy with it.

“We know you want to raise your daughter and we are both are fine with that but it would make us feel better to see you at least somewhat taken care of,” said Kouga breaking the silence.

“If you come with me I have promised the Wolf Prince Kouga that you are free to come and go as you like as well and he will be welcomed on our land to visit as often as he likes,” said Sesshomaru with a strong sincerity.

“I have talked to Ayame like I said earlier and she said that if you wish to join us in the caves she is fine with that and that your daughter will be raised and respected among our joined packs. Pack politics are a little more complicated but those are things best left for down the road.”

I nodded and sat there thinking knowing I had a difficult decision ahead of me.

“We're going to give you some space and time to think this over but we won't be far. You need only shout and we'll be there.”

With that Kouga lifted what was left of the deer carcass and left the den. Sesshomaru stayed behind a moment longer giving me one of his well known expressionless stares before turning and walking out as well.

That night it felt oddly quiet and lonely with just me and Myorika. I slept fitfully and oddly enough so did Myorika; though it was hard to tell if it was for the same reason or if she could feel the nervous energy pouring off of me and she simply reacted to it. This went on for two nights and three days as I contemplated and weighed my options adding pros and cons.

The scale seemed oddly tipped in Sesshomaru's favor. I didn't dislike the wolf tribe or their caves but I did dislike some of their politics and I was uncertain. The thought of trying to adapt to a new set of rules and behaviors was daunting, not to mention Ayame. I knew what it was like to carry and I didn't want to cause her stress or become a catalyst between her and Kouga. The two were happy together and I wanted it to stay that way.

Sesshomaru seemed quiet and understanding and he was an enemy that I knew and understood to varying degrees. We shared genetics and I saw in Sesshomaru a freedom of sorts and an agreed understanding. I could raise my daughter as I saw fit and she would be free to become her own person without the looming social and possible politics of pack hierarchy impeding her.

I doubt Kouga would say we weren't allowed to come and go but our freedom might be looked down on as a weakness on Kouga's part which once again tipped the scale in Sesshomaru's favor.

On the morning of the fourth day I fully dressed in my kimono and fire-rat robe and dressed and bundled Myorika after feeding her. I stretched and felt like my old self once again. It was amazing how making a decision makes you nervous but at the same time takes a ton of worry off your shoulders. I ate made and ate was left of the rice I had been given and what I hadn't eaten I made into onigiri and packed them away in dried leaves. I added pickles and ate some of those as well. I gathered the important things and made my way to the den entrance and cleared my throat calling out, “Kouga! Sesshomaru!”

I went back inside and paced. It wasn't long before both showed up and came inside the den.

“I've made a decision,” I said and took another deep breath as I worked out how to voice my decision.

“I am grateful to the both of you and I weighed all the pros and cons and I have decided that I will go with Sesshomaru.”

Kouga grinned and nodded. If he were disappointed he didn't show it.

“I'll come and visit as often as I can and I can only hope you will visit with Myorika. It would be nice to have both of my cubs play together as they grow,” he said with a grin.

I grinned back and nodded, “So shall we go today or should we wait,” I asked looking to Sesshomaru.

“You are packed and ready I am assuming,” he said as he looked around the den noting my small packed possessions.

“I am.”

I grabbed a thin blanket and used it as a carrier, wrapping it around my body securely under my fire-rat robe before picking up my wrapped daughter and securing her in the cloth carrier and making sure I bundled up in furs.

Sesshomaru grabbed my small bundle of belongings and Kouga did me the favor of putting out the fire and we all left the den. I turned around and looked it over and remembered all the work that had gone into it and how it had done a fine job as a den.

“Before you two head off to the western lands you should really stop in and see the old priestess and your other friends. They were kind of worried. And I'm pretty sure Rin would be happy to see you Sesshomaru and meet Myorika, InuYasha.”

As he said that he walked over and pulled my furs aside to take one last look at our daughter. He leaned over and placed a quick kiss on her forehead and then covered her back up and moved my clothes and furs back into place.

He was blushing as he turned and started walking away calling over his shoulder, “Take care of yourself and our precious daughter InuYasha.”

And then he was gone, taking off in the already melting snow.

We turned back around and began or trek through the forest. I followed him more than lead as we went from walking to doing short jumps through the trees, careful of the snow and ice that remained as we did so. We reached the village rather quickly and I followed behind Sesshomaru, nervous at showing my friends and comrades my secret.

We passed the hut that belonged to Miroku and Sango, as we passed Sesshomaru paused to turn around just in time to see the hut door open. Miroku walked out followed by Sango and Rin.

“Sesshomaru-sama~!! InuYahsa! Kaede-sama's been worried about you InuYasha. You are going to visit her right,” Rin asked she bounded up to me grinning widely.

I nodded and blushed answering gruffly, “Why else would I be here?”

We all walked together on the way to Kaede's hut, Rin chatted energetically to Sesshomaru and I talked with Miroku and Sango.

“I hear you two are starting a family,” I asked grinning.

“Yes, Sango should be due sometime in the summer,” said Miroku grinning widely.

Sango nodded and placed her hand on her slightly noticeable bulge.

We came to Kaede's hut and Rin held open the door as well all piled through including Sesshomaru.

“Well I'll be it's been a while since my hut has been this full. Oh, is that InuYasha? Finally returned since you've caused us all worry I see. Well come and have some tea. Sit and get comfortable.”

“Yeah InuYasha, you had everyone worried,” said Shippo with a big grin.

Kaede started a pot of water on the fire and went to grab tea cups with Rin's assistance. Sango and Miroku took seats while Sesshomaru hung back in a corner by the door and nodded at me to get comfortable. I sighed and began to pull off the furs I wore and then opened my fire-rat exposing the cloth carrier wrapped around my middle. As I knelt down I got plenty of odd stares which only grew as I moved into a full sitting position jostling Myorika who began fussing and then crying.

I pulled her from her swaddling furs and held her in my arms and proceeded to rock and comfort her.

“So that would be the reason you left,” asked Kaede as she brought the pot of hot water over and poured in the tea leaves, letting them steep.

“This is Myorika, my daughter,” I said as I looked up at the curious faces that now surrounded me.

“She's pretty InuYasha,” exclaimed Shippo.

“No flirting with her brat. She's only going on two weeks old,” I said with a grin.

“And where is her father,” asked Kaede.

“He's headed back to the wolf tribe in the mountains where he belongs,” answered Sesshomaru from his corner.

At the confused looks I told a short version of what happened as Kaede served tea and treats and they filled me in on what I had missed. Myorika was passed around and held by all present and she seemed to not care until she needed changed. Sango and Miroku did that dirty deed for me, Sango volunteering Miroku saying he would need practice.

It was nice to feel accepted and why I thought I would be anything but is beyond me.

After her change Myorika became extremely fussy to the point of tears and as she cried I and everyone else became panicked while I simply held my hands out for her. Sango handed her over and I opened my robe bringing her to my chest. I blushed as everyone stared at me and my nursing daughter.

“Can't birth her and expect her to find her own food. Have to have a way to feed her,” I said blushing.

The fun and chatter seemed to slow and then Miroku and Sango said their goodbyes and left. I stood and rewrapped my daughter and placed her into her carrier, and redressed myself.

As I bundled up and put my furs back on Kaede stood up to walk us towards the door.

“Where will you go now InuYasha,” she asked curiously.

“Sesshomaru is taking us in. It'll be safer for us if she is raised there. We will visit. I promised Kouga we would visit him and your place is in-between the two so we will be back. I'm placing my bet now that Sango has twins.”

Kaede grinned, “That's a given. She's much too bug to be so early in the pregnancy.”

“Well then I'll be back Kaede-baba. Take care of yourself til then.”

No sooner had we left that Sesshomaru whistled and his chariot pulled by Ah and Un landed a few feet in front of us. Sesshomaru gestured for me to get on and as I did he stepped up behind me securing me between his two arms as we took off.

We flew until I could see the castle below us and then Ah Un descended into a courtyard. I was amazed to see not only Jaken come out to greet us but a few others as well.

“Welcome home my lord,” said a tall guard in armor with long black hair in a braid.

“Thank you Kurokami, this is the brother I have spoken of. I will take him to his quarters and then meet you in the meeting room later tonight once I see he is properly settled in.”

Kurokami nodded and bowed in my direction, “Pleased to meet you InuYasha-sama. I hope you enjoy your stay here. I am sure your brother will see to all needs but should you need anything feel free to call on me as well.”

I blushed and nodded, “Just InuYasha is fine and Thank you.”

We entered the castle and as we did so I felt that I was entering a new world and with it a new life.

I followed Sesshomaru through the halls until we came to a set of stairs built of stone. He walked up them and I followed carefully behind him. We reached the top and walked to the end of another hallway finally stopping at the very end. He opened the door and walked inside. I followed behind him and entered into a lavish room with tables and chairs and dressing tables. It led further into a room hidden by silk screens and lead to a large plush bed raised a few feet from the floor covered with red covers and quilts.

“This is your room. For tonight I will send your food upstairs so you and Myorika can settle in. Take your time and get used to things. In the morning I shall introduce you to your personal servants and then I shall show you around but for tonight enjoy and explore your room. My room is connected to yours by a door. Knock or enter if you need me. I must meet with Kurokami to make sure everything has been running smoothly. My mother usually runs things while I am away but she tends to be a bit slack on some things, until tomorrow.”

He left saying more than I had heard him say in the many years I had known him. I lowered my raised eyebrows and uncovered myself until I was in my fire-rat robe once again; leaving my furs on a chair with the ones my daughter was wrapped in. I unbundled her and laid her on the plush bed as I explored the room, taking in each sight and smell. Dinner was brought to us by a young rabbit youkai clad in a pink serving kimono with ruffly apron. She was adorable and nervous. She had long white hair kept in braided pig tails and two long white rabbit ears atop her head. Her eyes were pale pink with dark red irises.

She bowed after leaving a tray of food and quickly made her exit. She seemed young but most youkai and hanyou's did.

I dug into my dinner of pork, rice and miso soup and followed it down with warm lavender tea. I cleaned my hands in the water basin by the dressing table and then dressed down to my inner robe. I made sure Myorika was cleaned and made sure she was full before lying down and pulling her against me under our warm covers and falling into a quick sleep.

To Be Continued….

Trying to finish this story up but I feel a sequel might be necessary. We'll see. Wrote this while having an America's Got Talent marathon, yeah, I was far behind…

So enjoy this chapter. More to come soon~!

Kat