InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Gift of a Curse ❯ Chapter 6

Gift of a Curse

 

Chapter 5: Thoughts

 

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No! This wasn't meant to happen! She was meant to escape! She meant to be free and get a human husband and have perfectly normal human children! Why was everything in her life wrong? Rin stared up at the ceiling hopelessly, lying on her bed on her back. `I'm so stupid…' She told herself, believing it completely.

 

No matter how hard she tried she kept remembering the night before. Had Sesshoumaru really kissed her? Yes…even now she could feel his cool touch. He'd pulled back and his eyes had been clouded with some strange look… and she had run away. Squeezed her eyes shut and ran.

 

No one followed her. No one tried to stop her. She'd made it to her room and collapsed on the bed she lay in now, heart pounding. He'd kissed her out of the blue. No reason… just…out of the blue. And what was more…she hadn't pulled away. She hadn't wanted too.

 

`No! He locked me up! He won't let me even go outside! He's cold! He's a demon! He's cruel! He's handsome. NO!' she closed her eyes again. Nothing was right anymore. Someone had taken her already messed up life and flipped it upside, leaving her hanging with no explanation to anything.

 

Yes. That was exactly how she felt.

 

Rin sat up, looking at her window. Some fresh air would clear her head? Maybe… but she was a little weary of the window after her near-death fall. And where was Kaori? She hadn't seen that bird…

 

Flopping on her back she tried to console herself by picturing the perfect life. It was a little hard. Other than the glimpses she had of herself as child she was unsure of what human children looked like. And she'd never even seen a human man before come to think of it. That thought nagged at her a little.

 

The young woman sighed. She couldn't even muster the courage to leave her rooms. What would she do if she saw him again? Act as if nothing had happened? Like that emotionless demon lord hadn't been her first kiss. Her first kiss. She groaned. That particular fantasy had been snatched away.

 

`Stole my first kiss…' she grumbled lightly. Somehow, Rin failed to be angry or saddened by it. `He's just messing with me.' She concluded. `I don't know why… but he's never physically hurt me… and I doubt he will. I mean. He's saved me twice. So maybe he's trying to hurt me emotionally?' That was a thought that lingered a while.

 

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“We'll kill everyone one o' them demons!” A villager yelled loudly. He was standing on top of a box, making him stand out from the crowd of a hundred or so angry villagers.

 

“Yeah!” Came the roar of the crowd.

 

“Burn tha' castle!”

 

“Yeah!”

 

“And will we show mercy?”

 

“Hell no!” They roared.

 

“That's right! Didn't show no mercy to that young'un girl!”

 

“Yeah!”

 

The hanyou stood off to the side, really bored by the whole thing. They wouldn't attack the castle… not right now anyway. They had yet to choose a leader. The one that would `lead them to battle' and all that crap. He was vaguely aware of the worried miko leaning against him until she spoke.

 

“They'll all be slaughtered… because of me…” Her voice was barely above a whisper. It made Inuyasha's heart squeeze in his chest. Soon she'd start to, yep. He could already smell the salty tear wetting his haori.

 

“Kagome. It's my fault. I shouldn't have told you…”

 

“Don't even try to blame yourself for this!” Kagome cried with a sudden angry outburst. “You know as well as I do if you wouldn't have told I would have driven you crazy trying to find out!”

 

He smirked. That was true.

 

“Keh, just don't be a cry baby about it. We'll probably stop them, somehow.” Inuyasha failed to hide the uncertainty in his voice. Even if Sesshoumaru seemed to have taken an interest in humans he wouldn't hesitate to slaughter these villagers if they attacked. It was `pride' or whatever the hell you wanted to call it.

 

“Inuyasha…” she said warningly and placed a hand over her stomach. “We have to stop them.” She said, her eyes taking on a determined look. Then she smiled. “I don't want Inu Junior born to an empty village.”

 

Inuyasha's eyes widened, a stupid grin on his face. So… that little change in her scent did mean something. “Really?” She nodded. “Wow. Now I've got to stop a whole group of humans from running off to their deaths just so my kid can be born. What a life.”

 

“You better believe it!”

 

(A/N Couldn't help myself. Inu/Kag is my favorite pairing…)

 

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Sesshoumaru stared out over the land. The sun was high in the sky, a light wind toying with his platinum hair. He wasn't sure what he felt. Uncertainty? Shame? Anger? Confusion? Perhaps even…fear? Whatever it was the Taiyoukai was too busy trying to keep his calm exterior to dwell on it.

 

He continued to look off into the distance, looking, but not really seeing. He even failed to catch any scents in the air. Something he had never failed to do before…

 

A chirp nearby, and then something on his shoulder. That stupid bird. How dare it come to him as if there was nothing to fear? He raised a hand, and the bird flew to it. White… no trace of any other color. Looking at it for a moment longer he could see it was a dove. It took to preening itself, as if he wasn't there.

 

“Milord!” came an oh-so-familiar and oh-so-annoying voice from behind him. Without turning around then Taiyoukai knew it was his loyal servant Jaken. “I have been looking everywhere for you!”

 

“….”

 

Silence… never a good sign.

 

“A servants body turned up. Decapitated. One youkai claimed a mere human was it's killer!”

 

“…?”

 

“Eh… we are pretty sure the youkai was up to no good. Seen to be sneaking off occasionally!” Jaken continued.

 

Sesshoumaru's thoughts were elsewhere. A certain human girl to be exact. Human. She was just a small, insignificant mortal. A small, insignificant mortal who held more power than she knew she had. Not only did she hold the key to keeping him a youkai -if in fact, the curse held after all- but know… she seemed to hold more than before.

 

The memory of the night before made him look down upon himself. Imagine… a human… a human girl he had kissed. It was shameful, sickening, disgusting. To think he had been provoked to do such a thing was unheard of! He'd be content with never seeing her face again… right?

 

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“It won't be long…” That voice said, failing to hide the eagerness from his voice. “I'll rule the whole place…”

 

“Yes sir. Have you planned when we will attack?”

 

“As soon as the slayers and that monk arrive…”

 

“Of course sir… but do we really need so many fighters?”

 

“Never underestimate the enemy.”

 

“Of course.”

 

He dismissed the man and now sat back, staring contently ahead. Yes… soon the name Naraku would be known far and wide.

 

(A/N Anyone surprised by whom that `drawling voice' was?)

 

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Yes. Hours had slipped by and she had finally gained enough courage to slip from her rooms and head in the direction of that book-filled room she ahd found yesterday. Rin sighed. A good book would let her escape her troubles, she hoped anyway. Maybe one day… she could write her own stories? One day when she was free.

 

She made sure to check every turn for that inu-youkai lord. Literally, she'd die if she ran into him again. It wasn't even a question… she could never face him again. Rin turned another corner, spying the door she was looking for with a small smile. She entered the room, grabbing the first book she reached and plopping down into a chair.

 

“Perfect! Just need to read.” She thought happily and opened the book. It began with the usual `once upon a time, in a faraway place…' Rin saw the words, but she didn't really read them. No matter what she did or how hard she tried, she couldn't stop thinking of Sesshoumaru.

 

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It had been three hours and now he was determined to get something done. The Taiyoukai frowned slightly. The trader's to the north were having problems. Yes. The North was always weak. Sesshoumaru stood, leaving his study and heading down a hall. He passed Jaken in the process, which squawked as he was pushed aside and walked past without even a glance. And to think how long he'd served that dog!

 

The inu-youkai stopped at a particular door, his clawed hand resting on the handle and his face unreadable as ever. Something had drawn him here. He wasn't quite aware of what until now. That scent. Rin's scent. He contemplated turning the handle and going in, killing that stupid human girl.

 

No. He'd have to wait a while longer for that. Sesshoumaru let his hand fall to rest at his side, when that door handle turned and the door opened. Rin stared up at him for a moment, before snapping her gaze away in a sudden realization of just who was standing in front of her.

 

His hues narrowed as something stirred within him. He fought to suppress it, as she stood there motionless. Just a human… a filthy, disgusting human that he couldn't wait to kill.

 

Rin's gaze bore into her feet. She closed her eyes failing to stop the slight trembling that swept through her. Why did she have to stop reading then and decide to leave? And why was he standing outside the door anyway? “I…just…was reading.” Rin said, her voice trembled, but from what she failed to decipher. “Gomen.”

 

Without warning she swept past him, taking off at a quick pace down the hall and feeling relieved as she turned the corner. `What's wrong with me?' She thought as her nerves calmed. `I'm so stupid…' she scolded herself again and headed towards her rooms.

 

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Jaken watched what had just transpired between this human and his lord curiously. Well, she seemed like she was afraid of him. That was good! A low-life human needed to show respect for her betters! Though he couldn't help but feel jealous. Had he been standing in the doorway Sesshoumaru wouldn't have hesitated to kick him aside.

 

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Notes: I guess nothing much really happened in this chapter. Sorry! Things will happen soon…but right now I need to build and clarify the relationship between Sesshoumaru's and Rin. As for the Inuyasha and Kagome tidbits… I just love those two!

 

Sango and Miroku are both in the story! YAY! Don't count on Shippou though. I've looked and just can't find a place for him.

 

Gomen: Sorry

Inu: Dog

Youkai: Demon

Taiyoukai: Demon lord or King

Kami: God, divine one

Miko: Priestess

 

Sango: Wow! Inuyasha and Kagome are having a baby.

Miroku: How about you and I-

Sango: Forget it!

Inuyasha: *blush*

Kagome: *blush*

Sess: Pathetic humans and lowly half breed…

Ray: Oh yea… Kagura. Rin.

Sess: *hides face*

Ray: HAHA!!!