InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Glass Angel ❯ Glass Angel ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

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Rin looked out the window. Sesshoumaru was finally coming home from his 2 year battle.

She had dressed in a blue Kimono to accentuate all her new curves, since he had seen her last. The same Kimono that he had given her before he left, saying he couldn't wait to see her grow in to it.

Over the years she grew a new love for him from his letters. She knew that she was in love with him. And she also knew from his last letter, that he was in love with her.

Rin sighed and clasped the worn letter. It had been over 4 months since the last letter. Their life lines to each other.

She knew what was written on this last letter word-for-word, by memory.

The smell of her precious Sesshoumaru, and the battle that he was in, had long since disappeared, but she still, once in a while, brought it to her lips to kiss it, and quickly smell the tattered piece of paper. More for the thought that this was a piece of his thoughts and to get closer to him, then actually to try and rescue a piece of his smell.

The letter, which was being crumpled by her fists holding on to a piece of her Sesshoumaru-kun (as she now called him with pride), was slowly opened by Rin.

She waited with baited breath for her Sesshoumaru. And tried to calm her with re-reading his letter. Even thought she really did not need to reopen it, to know what was written there, since it was engraved in her memory word-for-word

My dearest Rin,

As you know, I told you 2 years ago, that when I would come back from battle, I would find you a suitable mate. One that would care for you. And live for only you.

I promised a youkai. One that would most likely be not of noble blood, but one that would want a human none-the-less.

Gomen, my dearest, but I am unable to perform, such a task, since I find myself in love with you. I guess I have always loved you, but war and death put such things into perspective, unlike anything else.

I am unsure if this is news to you or not. I know how perceptive you can be. Knowing things beyond my own grasp. Especially, when they are right before my eyes. (She had always known. Rin always smiled at thatsentence)

I wish with all my heart that you reciprocate the same feelings. If you do, please respond in such, that you will be my mate when I return. I will get word to you as soon as possible, but this battle should be won within the start of next season. At which time, I hope to come and claim you as mine.

You never were mine. You were only one that was within my care. But now I am asking you. Pleading with you, to accept me.

My only request is that we keep this silent. Firstly, I do not wish my baka brother who is battling with me, to find out of my feelings for another, since he would remark on such.

Also, and of course more importantly, if any one of the enemy nature, may hear of my intentions, they may seek you out and hold you for advantage over us.

Please be careful my love. My koi.

Sesshoumaru. The one who wishes you.

Rin's eyes originally had teared at the letter. Never had he shown so much love, let alone any sort of emotions such as this. At first she thought it may be a trick. That it was someone else who sent it as a mean trick. But she knew her Sesshoumaru's hand writing. And his scent was uniquely him.

She sent word through Jaken the next day, who went bi-monthly with supplies and other letters to and from the battle grounds.

It was settled quickly and quietly. She was to be the great tai-youkai's mate. Rin giggled continently at it. "I'm to be Mrs. Aristocratic Assassin. Makes me so dangerous for a weak human."

She fantasized of the day he would come home for her. This was supposed to be today.

Her stomach never ceasedto be put into butterflies at the perspective of mating with him.

She could picture it in her mind. Her dreams were haunted with the same vision of mating with him. Only today she wouldn't wake up in a cold futon, with no one beside her.

She knew her vision so well, it was as if it had happened and she felt so sure she was already his mate.

There were days her hand would caress her neck to touch the mating mark that she was sure was there, and be surprised it was not .

In her mind and her glorious dreams it had happened=>>>>>=

She knew when he would come home. Upon entering the great western mansion Jaken among others would make a commotion.

But she lay awake the night she knew he was coming home. Her heart beating in her chest, and her sheet on her futon not heavy enough, to still her trembling body.

Laying awake, waiting to hear the soft click of the bedroom door, to announce his regal entrance.

It finally came. Her back towards the door, when she heard it.

The click was so inaudible she thought it was her imagination acting up once again that night.

Her body stiffened at the feel of the air rushing in from the drafty hallway, knowing that there was another presence in the room.

Rin, trying as hard as she could to still any movements that might show that she is still awake. This is the game that they would play.

He, knowing full well she is awake, allowing her her little delusion, that she would think, that he, the lord of the western world, did not know if a human was sleeping or not.

Shaking his head he realized he could play to this game as well.

Walking slowly and soundlessly, up to the futon, he knelt down "Rin? Are you awake Rin?"

Rin smiled but made no other moves.

His hand snaked around her waist, finding the front tie. "Rin? It's is I, Sesshoumaru, wake up my dearest". His whisper was barely hearable, but in the room, it felt like it was being echoed on the walls, and booming in Rin's ears.

"Hhm, my Rin is fast asleep it seems. But I am in desperate need of her. To make her my long awaited mate. Well, I must remedy that. Whether she is asleep or not she will be my mate. Although I would rather want her awake, to scream my name." He smiled at the hentai thought he allowed to cross his mind. The same ones that plagued his dreams ever since she agreed to mate with him.

His one hand, which in the mean time had successfully, untied her front tie, fell away from the sleeping form of her kimono. Taking with it, half of her front kimono

Rin's body shivered, but not at the now lack of clothes at her bosom, but at the hand that was snaking it's way across her chest. Feeling each crevice.

Her body reacted to each of his finger that made its way on to her skin. This feeling entirely new to her.

Sesshoumaru brought up his other hand, which he had gained a few months before he left, from a dark priestess, and peeled off the other side of her Kimono, now revealing herself entirely to him.

Sesshoumaru's mouth was starting to go dry. Never had he seen such a lovely sight before him. Let alone as tempting as this. And as wanting as he knew Rin was

He licked his lips and glanced at Rin's face. A smile mixed with worry was etched on her young "sleeping" features. Sesshoumaru frowned. ==she should not be worried. This Sesshoumaru would never cause Rin harm==

Rin could feel his concern. His misgivings. She moaned, and moved into his hand that was near her collarbone. Hoping he would understand. She wanted this, but was unsure of herself. She was not unsure of him.

Taking her movements for a consolation he sighed. ==she does want me== His youkai was stirring. Wanting. All because of Rin.

"Rin, koi. Wake up." Sesshoumaru moved over Rin. Whispering into her ear. He completely cleared off the fabric that was above Rin and kissed his way down. Following the trail his claws had made earlier.

Rin's body reacted. Moaning, and moving forward into his lips. But she kept her eyes shut. She could not look at Sesshoumaru just yet. She didn't want to see him disappointed in her. For not being demon. A female demon would have been prettier, stronger, more appealing in every way. But for some reason he picked her over them all. She didn't want to see it, if he decided to change his mind.

"Kami, Rin. You're the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. I need you to wake up Rin. I need to tell you this."

Sesshoumaru lifted himself to cover Rin's body completely. He had one leg on either side of her, and he was resting himself on the tips of his elbows. His hands were near his own ears, trying to keep his hair out of her face.

Sesshoumaru leaned down kissed the tip of her nose and then decided he needed her. Hoping she would understand, he tipped her chin back with his nose, and leaned in and licked her lips. After being satisfied that they were wet enough, he lightly touched her lips with his.

Not expecting him to kiss her so quickly her eyes shot open.

Sesshoumaru had a cocky have grin on his face. One that she had seen on Inuyasha's friend Miroku numerous times.

"You're Awake! Good. I was worried that you had died and left me with an extremely tempting corpse."

Smiling and blushing furiously Rin kissed him lightly back. Hoping to any Kami that would hear her, that he would not reject her with this kiss.

"You kiss is as an angels Rin. Which is unfair for a demon. Tempting me with the thought of everlasting happiness in heaven, knowing I will be banished to hell, without you one day. You are my angel Rin. Frail like glass that I must protect with all my being."

Rin smiled at the compliment of her kissing. But what made her blush even more crimson red was what he was saying to her, companied by the look on his face. It was pure agony, with pure bliss. Two complete opposites were seen in his features by her. Which surprised her more then seeing emotions in general.

"I love you Rin. You are my glass angel. I know you agreed before but I need to know before we continue. Because this Sesshoumaru would not be able to stop. Gomen."

Rin saw the smallest wave of guilt, or was it worry, pass over his features. She moved her hand to stroke his face and allowed her fingers to caress the stripes along his face as she has longed to do every since she realized her feelings for the demon.

"Aishiteru Lord Sesshoumaru. I do not wish you to stop. But if you realize that I am not worthy, please tell me now. I could not live with rejection after having you. Please my lord."

Rin has tears streaming her face, but would not allow herself to fully outright cry.

Sesshoumaru was shocked at her words. == doesn't she realize how I feel? Of course not baka! A letter can not undo the years of treating her as nothing but another ningen. I must make my mate realize she is worthy of the great Taiyoukai. ==

Sesshoumaru leaned down to kiss her, gently. "Does my Rin believe that I, the great lord of the western world would choose a mate, a mate to have forever, badly! That I would choose then believe my choice to be a mistake?"

"That is not what I meant my lord." Rin felt ashamed. She had not meant it the way it sounded. == How could I insult him, like that? How could he ever love me? ==

Rin made to move away, but he grabbed her arms. "And stop calling me 'lord'. I am about to become your mate. Mates do not use titles with each other."

Rin looked at his face, in near shock. He held great love. Love for her in his eyes. And she smiled.

"Aishiteru Rin. I have loved you for a very long time. Do you love me?"

"Yes my Sesshoumaru."

"Will you mate with me tonight, Rin?" His hands moved from her arms to her face and her ears, and her neck. Caressing the sweet flesh he found their. Willing himself to wait for her answer before allowing himself to taste it. To show her what she meant to him.

"Hai. I will be your mate Sesshoumaru." She smiled at him and nuzzled his hand

"Good." He barley had time to let out the one word after her response before he was kissing the same places his hands had held flesh.

One hand slowly mad a decent to her navel and played with the little indent that was found on her smooth stomach.

He lightly trailed his claws over the flesh, circling it around the center point of her abdomen.

Rin snaked her hands up Sesshoumaru's arms, before making their way to his chest.

Sesshoumaru moaned at the touch he had been waiting for, for the longest time.

"Mine." His grip increased, but was far from painful in anyway. He was careful of his claws and his strength. He new that not only him, but his Youkai nature wanted nothing but to love and protect her.

"Yours." She smiled and made sure her lips were on a part of him, and her hands were in constant contact with him. She needed to know he was real.

Sesshoumaru moved from her navel slowly down, but skipping over an important area. He touched her left, her inner leg and made swirling patterns lightly with her claw. Causing her to laugh at him tickling her.

He loved to hear her laugh. ==how I've missed it. Her==

His hands would come hear her entrance and back away, never actually touching her most sacred area. He moved one hand down to caress her bottom, and do the same thing. To come near to her, but not yet touch. He wanted her to want it

It was driving Rin nuts. "Please Sesshoumaru; do not tease your Rin like that."

"Gomen Rin, of course I won't, anymore, right now."

Sesshoumaru's restored right hand slipped upwards and caressed her folds with the back of his hands

Rin had never experienced a man touching her. Or herself for that matter. It was just unheard of, so the feel of his hand was electric.

Her breath sped up ten fold.

Sesshoumaru took his index finger and rubbed her folds slowly separating them. Looking into her eyes, he slowly moved the first finger in.

Rin gave a gasp and closed her eyes tight

"Rin, you will not look at me?"

She could not answer. "Very well then, at the moment I will allow it." He smiled, at her reaction ==so innocent. Unlike any other female I have been with. Ningen or Youkai==

He moved the finger that was already there out a bit and watched her reaction intently. He slowly sped it up, and curled his finger hoping to whatever Kami would listen that his claws wouldn't hurt her.

"Do you like this Rin?"

Rin had developed a very bright red blush and was breathing sporadically. All she could manage is a nod. Her hands still firmly planted on his arms, one moving with his.

"Good" slipping another in he watched her face contort into pleasure and confusion that made him want to laugh ==I must not at the moment. It would hurt her feelings==

Rin was reeling. No thoughts, just pictures in her head of Sesshoumaru and what he must look like at the moment. She could not fare open her eyes to see if her imagination was correct, until his third finger entered her and sped up once again.

Sesshoumaru had not taken his gaze from her face, and was shocked to now be looking into her chocolate eyes.

"Are you ok Rin?"

"Hai. Do not stop."

Sesshoumaru smiled and leaned down to her ear, breathing heavily upon it. "I do not plan to Rin."

At that she lost it. His breath on her ear sent shivers down her spine to where his hand was connected to her.

She let out a muffled gasp and low throaty scream.

He hit her mark and she climaxed. His hand slipped out extremely easily now, and he brought it to his mouth.

"I would taste you with my own tongue but I need you more then I need to taste you." With that he brought his fingers to his lips and sucked gently on them "Oh, but you taste good Rin."

Rin was shocked at what was happening. She was never really explained to what happens in the actual act, and was letting Sesshoumaru take over, while completely submitting to him. But what he was doing made her feel more then excited.

"Taste yourself Rin." he leaned down and kissed her. She opened her mouth to a slit, but he opened it further by plunging his tongue in side. He grazed her own tongue and flicked over her teeth. And came back up.

"Rin." She looked at him. He moved to be over her a bit more. Her legs were already slightly apart from his exercises a few moments before. But with the help of one of his knees he split them far enough for him to settle comfortably in-between them.

Rin could feel him on her. Hard, and she could tell very large. He leaned up away from her. Rin shivered from the lack of his body heat.

He saw her _expression. "Do not worry my love, I am only away from you long enough to disrobe." As he was talking she saw him untie his haori, then his inner haori, the amour being left at the door when he came in to the mansion. He threw them aside. == I wish she could do this for me, but I must be patient. I can not rush her. She is too innocent for such a thing==

She thought she would have wanted to disrobe him herself, but when the time came she was very glad her lord had not asked it. Rin was unsure of herself. And unsure of what to do afterwards.

He slowly undid the tie at the front of his hakama, and stood up holding it so it would not falter his action. Loosening it, he let it drop.

Rin's blush quickly restored itself to the brightness of her climax and she went to look away.

Sesshoumaru growled ==my mate will not look away from this Sesshoumaru==

He stepped out of the white hakama on the floor and tossed it in the general direction of his haori.

Kneeling down he looked at Rin. "Look at me Rin."

She turned her head to his face, and smiled unsurely. He leaned forward and took her hand in his. "Do you trust me Rin?"

"Yes. With my life."

"Do you wish to please me Rin?"

"Of course Sesshoumaru."

"Then look at all of me. And touch all of me." he took her hand and placed it on his lower abdomen. He was hard and waiting but he would not force her to touch him.

She repeated the same thing he had done to her earlier. Making swirling patterns around his navel. She skipped over the protruding member and went for his leg. He moaned, knowing she was shy and inexperienced, but the suspense was killing him. But he would not force her to do anything else.

Rin dusted her fingers along side his hip, then took a breath of air and closed her eyes. Again, with what she was about to do, she did not want to see his face if she displeased him.

Carefully feeling the air above his hip she moved her hand over. Brushing against more skin she realized she made her goal.

Sesshoumaru saw the interaction on her face. When he felt her hand brush against him, his breath came in a gasp.

Rin's left eye peeked open. "Did I hurt you my lord?"

Sesshoumaru chuckled at her "no my Rin. Just the opposite. Your hand feels like silk. Please continue." It was almost hard for him to speak with her hand on him for the first time ever.

Rin started to let her finger tips walk over his manhood. Grazing down to the bottom, then slowly in circles up to the tip. Rin allowed her eyes to open fully so she could see Sesshoumaru's face.

His eyes had closed above her, and he was moaning very softly.

Taking this as a good sign she took the palm of her hand and wrapped it around him, and held him tighter. Rin's hand moved with a steady rhythm of her own heart.

"Oh Kamis Rin, please, faster."

Rin smiled. She had never heard Sesshoumaru come anything close to begging. ==I do that to him? == With a happy sigh she complied with his request.

She sped up and tightened her hold automatically. Sesshoumaru was so very close, not that Rin knew, but he certainly did.

He moved his hand down to hers, to stop her.

"Did I do something wrong, my lord?"

"No, and stop calling me that." he broadly smiled at her and moved her hand away.

"I want to be inside of you when I first cum."

Rin blushed at his blunt comment but could only nod.

Sesshoumaru lowered himself so his member was near her now slick entrance. And looked at her. One hand about to direct him inside, the other petting her hair, in an attempt to calm Rin's raging heartbeat, which was almost deafening to the demon lord.

"Relax Rin, it will hurt a bit, but I promise you, I will wait inside you until you're ready. But you need to tell me. You need to tell me everything. If you're in pain, how much pleasure your experiencing." Sesshoumaru smiled at the thoughts running through his head. "I promise you I will do the same for you. I will let you know how much you please me."

"And if I don't?"

"That would be impossible Rin. Glass angels are perfect."

Rin blushed again, and looked into his eyes. Honesty was in them. She knew he thought she was perfect. And it made her smile.

"Aishiteru Sesshoumaru."

"Hai, aishiteru Rin."

Sesshoumaru waited with baited breath. "one more thing. A request, my Rin. Please, look at me. Look into my eyes. I need to see your eyes. They were something I missed so much while I was gone."

"Hai, I will try my best not to close them."

Sesshoumaru smiled, and moved to slide in. Looking at Rin he moved forward. And with one quick movement he broke the barrier he had dreamt about feeling for the past many months.

Rin jerked up, and went to close her eyes tightly against the pain she felt. But remembered her promise and pried them open.

Sesshoumaru saw the tears glistening in her eyes, and kissed her face. Waiting for them to fall so he could kiss them away.

Rin, saw before he leant down to kiss her, the utmost concern for her.

"Rin?"

"It hurts."

'It will pass, I promise you."

"Hai." Rin tried to steady her breath but let her tears fall for Sesshoumaru to kiss away. His kisses and his hand still petting her hair and neck helped to calm her.

"Rin, you feel so good. Relax though, it will feel very good for you as well in a minute."

Already the pain was subsiding, and she thought it might be better to just continue. Rin's one hand reached up to tug gently on Sesshoumaru's bright silver hair, which had cascaded around them.

"I'm ready Sesshoumaru."

Not wanting to question it, since he felt as if he could wait no longer, he moved. It was almost painfully slowly to him, but he knew he had to do this for Rin.

"Your so wet Rin. That makes it good. You feel good Rin. This makes me happy."

"Thank you Sesshoumaru."

"No thank yous, not until later."

"Hai."

Sesshoumaru was slowly speeding up, and Rin was slowly starting to feel something good. As if the feeling from his fingers was there but back tenfold.

Rin's breathing started to become more like a pant. Which Sesshoumaru took for a very good sign and increased speed once more.

"Hai, faster feels better, my lord."

Sesshoumaru chuckled at her all too innocent comment "Hai, but you haven't felt anything yet, my love."

Rin's fingers threaded themselves into his hair she was tugging on before and became a fist. His speed was making it hard to stay in once place, and she needed something to hold onto.

Rin moaned involuntarily but since Sesshoumaru didn't say not to, and she felt the need to again, she did.

==ah. Music to my ears== Sesshoumaru growled low in his chest at her moaning and made sure his Youkai was in check. == No way is he getting her tonight. She is all mine==

"Mine." Sesshoumaru was so close. Rin's moaning, his speed, and them finally being here-together was just all too much for him. But he refused to come before the girl underneath him.

With his free hand he moved it near where they were joined and brushed over a particular bundle of nerves that he knew Rin would be sent over the edge with.

Rin eyes were full of lust when he brushed against her spot. He kissed her in a passionate joining, and he could feel her near her end.

"Rin. Kami you feel good."

"You feel...amazing...Sesshouma...maru." panting in-between each few syllables.

Once again Sesshoumaru rubbed her jewel, and Rin was there.

Her breath was almost at a stop. She wanted to scream but nothing came out.

Sesshoumaru felt her clamp down on his slick member and that was it for him. He came inside of her "RIN! Aaagggg." while she was near the end of her climax Sesshoumaru kissed her now sweaty neck, and licked away all perspiration.

Kissing her neck one more time he allowed his Youkai to finally surface and then he bit down on her. The blood that flowed from her neck was as crimson as his eyes.

Coming back up to look at his Rin, logic was lost to the Youkai above Rin until the 2 words left her mouth once more.

"Aishiteru Sesshoumaru."

Sesshoumaru shook his head clear of the Youkai spirit. And nodded. "Aishiteru Rin."

Sesshoumaru slowly took himself out of her, and looked at Rin as he laid down and lifted her, so she was using his chest as a pillow

"That was the best thing I have ever felt, my love."

Sesshoumaru smiled. "I believe the same can be said here, my mate."

The words were heaven to here ears. "Mate."

"Hai my glass angel. Who ever thought a demon and angel could be mates."

Rin giggled.

Sesshoumaru looked at the tired human on his chest "Go to sleep mate. You will need energy for later."

Rin yawned and looked into his eyes with confusion. "Later?"

The glint in his eye told her all she needed to know. "Ah, later. Hai."

Moving her head back down to her Sesshoumaru pillow, she slowly fell asleep. Sesshoumaru waited until he heard her heart beat regulate before he even gave himself the luxury of sleep.==of all the wars I have fought, this is by far the best homecoming I have had. Sleep now my mate. For I don't think I will ever leave you again==

=<<<<<=

Rin slowly awoke from her day dream at the sound of a speeding messenger carriage.

==that's certainly going way to fast for a normal message. Maybe Jaken found out Sesshoumaru will be coming home early! ==

Rin ran from the window she was seated at to run to the front door.

The carriage had stopped abruptly, throwing Jaken to the ground in front of it.

Rin swung the doors open in time to see Jaken's acrobatic flight.

"Jaken! Are you ok?"

"Hai, I guess. For the most part." Jaken stood up and whipped the dirt from his clothes. Running, or rather waddling back to the carriage he picked out his staff of heads. And then turned to run inside.

Rin could tell he was very upset. His face was angry, sad and panicky.

Running inside to follow the little green toad, Rin started to panic. "What is it?"

Jaken stopped on the stairs. "The battle, it's moving, moving westward. Just when we thought we had the upper hand, those conniving...never mind, they just played dirty, and now they seem to be winning. We have to pack. Inuyasha gave orders that you and I, have to get needed supplies to the battlefield, then come back, only to pack what we need and leave."

"LEAVE!" Rin slumped to the banister. And Jaken turned to face her. Obvious emotional pain was on his face.

"Inuyasha told us to leave. He even wanted that Ningen girl he has with him to leave but she refused. I think that's the first time I've seen Inuyasha cry. He begged her to leave. When I left thought she was still by his side, arrow in hand."

"I wish I could be as strong as Kagome. Then I could stand by Sesshoumaru."

Jaken looked at Rin and she saw tears in his eyes == poor Jaken. He must have seen some horrible things==

"Come Rin, we have to pack. You pack only what you need when we leave. I'll pack the supplies. Then while you load the carriage, I'll pack for my departure. Ok?"

"Hai."

Jaken made to run upstairs again. "Oh and Jaken?"

Jaken froze at her. He knew what she wanted to know. He also knew that it wouldn't be good at the moment. She was a strong girl, and she needed to be strong while running. But not if she asked the question he knew she was about to ask

"How is my lord?"

Jaken thought for a moment. "You will see him at the battlefield, but please, put him from your mind, and get to work."

"Hai."

=>>>>>=

At the battlefield there was a standstill, apparently the commanders on both sides were in debates at the moment, so each side was allowed to venture in the fighting area to retrieve their dead.

The carriage pulled up slowly. Filled to the brim with extra supplies. Rin had decided to ride on Ah-un's back to be able to bring my medicine.

The place stank of rotting flesh, and smoke.

Rin's eyes were wild trying to find the man who was to become her mate. Or any one that she knew.

When Ah-un finally came to a stop, it was near a very regal tent. Rin slid of the beast and walked forward.

"Rin, stop! You have to help unloading these medicines first."

"Hai." Rin sounded defeated.

About to turn around Rin saw the flap of the tent open to reveal the Ningen girl that stayed near Inuyasha. "Kagome!"

Kagome's head shot up at once. Tears in her eyes. "Oh my heavens Rin! Thank the Kamis you're here."

Rin frowned. "I'm very happy to see you Kagome."

"Rin! Medicines!" Kagome looked at the demanding toad. "Leave her alone Jaken, she's coming with me."

Kagome grabbed her hand and walked toward the tent but turned back. "Um Rin. I know how much you love Sesshoumaru. I got my hands on some of the letters you sent him. And I know you want to see him, but listen to me. You have to be strong Rin."

Rin hearing her words and remembering how Jaken acted feared the absoulute worst. "Is he, I mean..." Rin's eyes teared. She couldn' t bring herself to say the words.

Kagome saw the look of pure fear on her face and her face fell. "Oh Rin. A poison demon attacked him, and his poison mixed with the other demons and became fatal. It's too soon to tell thought of he'll make it, but with you here there is a better chance. He only asks for you."

Rin nodded, and Kagome continued. "And he has to get better. This war would be easily won if he could. Inuyasha is a great leader, but Sesshoumaru knows tactics. He grew up with them. Inuyasha didn't. So please, go to him." Kagome opened the flap of the tent for Rin to enter.

Stepping inside she saw her regal lord on a futon, looking pale. She ran to his side and grabbed his hand.

"Rin? My love is that you?"

"Hai."

He coughed a bit and tried to sit up. "Do not sit up Sessh."

"Nonsense. If you can risk your life to come here I can risk mine by sitting up to look at you better."

Rin frowned. == He looks pale, and has lost a lot of weight==

"Rin. I know I should be furious at you for coming here, but I am weak in my heart, and very glad you came to see this Sesshoumaru."

"I will not leave your side my lord."

"Hai." With that Sesshoumaru moved to lay back on the futon and closed his eyes.

Rin waited and when she thought he was a sleep took the cloth that was near his side to wipe away the perspiration that had collected on his forehead.

"Aishiteru Rin."

"Aishiteru Sesshoumaru."

with those last words, Sesshoumaru let his last breath escape his lips. His youkai had held on for as long as it could, waiting for its soul mate.

Even though, Rin and Sesshoumaru had not even made there way to a futon, Sesshoumaru was barried with a prestigious headstone at the end of the war, which Inuyaha helped to win.

Kagome, Inuyasha, Sango, Miroku, Jaken, and a few demon lords helped bury Sesshoumaru. Rin stared at the wood box that was lowered with a jarring drop. Her eyes were as glass, with unshed tears.

Kagome had found her in the tent, laying beside the dead demon, asleep. When she woke her and told her about his death, Rin left the tent. And watched the enemies gather their dead along side her people.

Rin walked over and helped a young human boy pick up a warrior.

Kagome said nothing, and knew Rin needed time. Kagome had seen it countless times. Ones that did the oddest things when loved ones died. It was a sign that their emotions were in overdrive.

Rin did not leave with Jaken that day. She stayed and battled, putting herself in harms way more then once. Not once, though, did she break down in tears.

At the ceremony for his burial, she slid against a tree and looked upon the group, about 20 feet away. She could hear the well-wishes, along with the silent tears from Jaken.

Rin, had a lump in her throat that made her want to cough. ==I will not cry. Sesshoumaru would want me strong. I will not cry==

Many had looked her way with obvious signs of pity etched in their faces ==I do not need pity== Rin was upset. Angry. How dare they give her pity. How dare Sesshoumaru die.

"NO!" Rin's sight was only on the grave stone, which the had amassed for him. The ones that were remaining turned to look at Rin who was sitting near the tree.

Inuyasha gripped Kagome tighter around the shoulders, knowing that Rin would make her more emotional. "I'll go to her."

All Rin could see was the grave. She could not see people, or trees, or the odd sakura blossom that blew past her.

Inuyasha didn't realize she was still talking till he walked closer to her. "How dare he. He said he loved me. How could he. Kami how could he." her eyes grew glassy with tears, that she refused to let gravity take.

"He promised me, no. he cant be dead. Please let me wake up."

'Rin. Why don't we take you home now. To Kagome's and my hut. You can sleep. You need rest." Inuyasha's ears were plastered to his head. He did not know how to help her

"No. he cant." Rin stood up and walked to the grave that still did not have dirt over the box

Rin kneeled hear the gravestone and read the words for the first time:

Lord Sesshoumaru Inu Takahashi

Died in peace as a brave soldier for the western rights

Loving husband and soul mate of Rin, who will dearly miss him.

This sent her over the edge. She no longer cared for the ones around her. She let tears fall, and started to breath with a choppy tone, but did not take her eyes of the engraved stone. Running her fingers over each word.

"Yes mate. I will dearly miss you.I will not leave your side my lord, I will follow wherever you may go." The last part said in a whisper that took Inuyasha who had walked up close again to Kagome, who was now balling, a few moments to register. "Fuck.No Rin!"

Rin had reached in to her pocket and pulled out the pocket knife Kagome had given her a few years ago. And brought it to her chest. Stabbing herself in the heart.

"Aishtieru Sessho..."

Rin collapsed aside the open grave. With open eyes.

The onlookers ran to her, in vain hopes of saving the poor girl, who still had tears running down her cheeks.

Three days later, another body was added to the same box, curled up in Sesshoumaru arms. The stone read above them read:

Lord Sesshoumaru Inu Takahashi

Died in peace as a brave soldier for the western rights

Loving husband and soul mate of Rin, who will dearly miss him.

Lady Rin Takahashi

Died by her love Sesshoumaru

Followed him wherever he may go.

True love is found here.