InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Good Girl Kagome ❯ Realization ( Chapter 9 )

Realization

( A/N ok before I start the chapter I am going to answer questions that people have asked me. The first one being to adjust how I write the story, paragraphing and such. Now I will try my best to fix it but I can't promise you anything. I am a person who doesn't really follow the story writing rules, I right straight I usually don't even include the paragraphs, I am trying my best but things like starting new paragraphs every time some one is speaking and things like that, I don't follow. It will be confusing and I'll try to fix it. Second, this is not from a personal experience thank you for your concern though. And for those of you who think that Kagome is just brushing off the fact that she was raped, She is in serious denial, and will eventually realize what has happened and I have told only one person why that will happen but I don't know when it will happen. Ok I think that is it for the boring authors note that people never read, oh and when concerning the title of the last chapter I men that the problem that was solved was where was Kagome going to stay, not her dad problem. That's way later)

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SANGO"S HOUSE/ Morning

HONK!

" come on, you guys are taking to damn long. We have to hurry." Inuyasha was getting edgy, he hated waiting. " God, we're coming Inuyasha there is no need to rush things. If I know my dad he is still passed out from last nights drinking" Inuyasha helped but Kagomes stuff from her night at Sango's in the car and they were off. They blasted to radio, and Sango decided to be stupid and put on a show for the people around her, singing and dancing and all. When the song was over people were leaning out of their cars and applauding. She blushed ad was silent for the rest of the drive.

When they got to Kagomes place to get her stuff, they parked a few houses down. "Ok, Sango, I want you to stay in the car, keep the engine running, if we come out in a hurry, drive by and pick us up." "wait, why can't I go in there instead of you yash?" Inuyasha rolled hi eyes " well, if her dad is in there, and isn't asleep I have a better chance of protecting her than you do." She nodded and Kagome and Inuyasha got out of the car.

They quietly approached the house and went around the back to Kagome's bedroom window. He crouched and braced himself and hoisted Kagome up, she popped the screen and got in her room. When she was in, she stuck her hand out and helped Inuyasha in as well. When they were both in she told him where her duffel bag was, He got in and put it on her bed then left to see where her dad was. She immediately started getting everything the could think of that she just had to have. She went in to her drawers and pulled out every piece of clothing she owned. She also got all the pictures she had, her pillow, money she had saved up, what jewelry she had and a bunch of other stuff. She zipped it up. When Inuyasha came back he lifted to bag into his shoulder and jumped out the window. Kagome put one leg over the windowsill and looked back at her room. `This was once my only escape' she thought `now I'll never see it again' she was about to leave when the bedroom door flung over and he dad staggered in. "KAGOME, where the fuck have you been you stupid bitch. Did you get my present at the concert? Come here you little bitch." She was about to scream but stopped herself, she just stuck her tongue out at him and leapt out the window, Inuyasha caught her and set her down. " We better make a break for it, he is awake and pissed." Kagome said. He grabbed the bag and her hand and started to run as fast as he could.

Sango saw then running towards her. She Stepped on the gas pedal and made her way towards them. Inuyasha opened the back door and shoved the bag in.

"YOU BITCH! GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE NOW" Sango looked to see and enraged man running towards them with a knife in his hand. Inuyasha must have seen him to because he threw Kagome into the back and jumped in the front seat. Sango sped off, but it wasn't fast enough. He had jumped on the hood of the car, Sango started swerving to get him off, but he held on tight. Inuyasha was pissed. " I'll be damned if the bastard hurts my car." Kagome just screamed and covered her eyes. Inuyasha rolled down his window and used his arm to try and hit him off, he was stabbed in the arm. He howled in pain and retracted his arm. "fuck, that hurt" Kagome looked up and saw Inuyasha bleeding. `he is bleeding because of me, I promised myself that wouldn't happen.' Suddenly Kagome filled with rage. She lunged forward and hit the windshield cleaner fluid button. Her dad covered his eyes, and in doing so lost his grip on the car and was flung off.

"Damn, nice work." Commented Sango, but Kagome wasn't paying attention. "Yash, your hurt." He looked at her "don't worry about it" "nonsense, here let me cover it up with something." She gave him a stern look and looked around the car for some sort of bandage. She ripped her sleeve off and wrapped it around his arm. "It's a little tight there but, thanks blue eyes." She smiled at their private joke from when they had first met.

When they got to Inuyasha's Sango helped Kagome carry her stuff to her new bedroom. " I have to admit Sango, I am feeling rather guilty about kicking Yash our of his own room." Sango just shook her head and helped her friend unpack. "Hey, where do you want these pictures, hey who are these people, I have never seen this picture before." Kagome walked over and looked at the picture that her friend was holding. " Oh, that's my mother, and that's my little brother." " Kagome, how come you haven't mentioned them?" Kagome took the picture and set it on the table beside her bed. " I haven't talked about them because I don't really remember them. My mother left when she was pregnant with my brother, I remember, she told me that she could support 3 people so she couldn't take me, she said that she would try to come get me one day but that day never came." Sango went over and hugged Kagome. They finished unpacking and went downstairs to get a snack. " Hey Kagome, you still remember the dare?" " yes, I do and I still can't believe you are making me do it. Ya know, I don't think I can. How about you give me something else" she pleaded. Sango grinned. " NO way kag, your not getting out if it that easy. They had decided that a snack wasn't much of anything and figured lunch was better, so they were making macaroni n' cheese. " So, how am I going to do this dare. It's not something I just do you know, will you help me with it?" Kagome seemed generally clueless so Sango agreed to help her out, ` I probably have more experience in this type of thing'

Sango left because she said she had homework to do before going back to school tomorrow. Kagome was in the kitchen thinking about what she had to do to get ready for school. She heard a gut wrenching scream, she dropped the plate she was carrying and looked around trying to find the source of the scream. Sesshomaru came in and diverted her from finding the tortured Jason in the basement `she cares so much about people she would make us let him go, no matter what the price' " Kagome, I know you don't like to talk about this but, are you ok? You can tell me and no one else will find out." Kagome smiled and patted him on the back. " I'm fine Sesshomaru, I always have been." " Kag, babe, listen to me, you were raped, do you understand that?"

" Of course I do, why would you ask that, I'm fine. I'm just fine." She said.

" Listen, I can help you I have dealt with this before, but you have to stop denying it." She walked to the table and sat down. " I'm not denying it at all." She looked away from him. "Kagome," He jerked her so she would look him in the eye ` I have to look her in the eye, then I will know if she is lying' " I need you to acknowledge that you were raped, tell me that you were raped."

"Fluffy, this is stupid I'm not going to listen to this crap." She got up to leave but her stood in front of the door and refused to let her pass.

" Say it Kagome, say it and you can go."

"No, I don't have to say anything. Now let me go!"

"Say it first!!" He was pushing her, and he knew it. But if he was to help her SHE needed to know what he was helping her with.

"NO! Let me go, INUYASHA!!!!!!" She was desperate, she just couldn't handle this right now. `doesn't he know I just can't, if I say it happened...then it really did and I wont be able to hide anymore'

"He wont come Kagome, I asked him to stay in the room. He knows what is best and knows that I can help, but it's impossible to help if you wont admit it, listen to me. You were raped, do you understand that?" She put her hands on his shoulders and bowed her head shaking `no' over and over again. "Say IT!!!!"

She covered her ears "NO!!!!, I won't say it! I can't! can't you see that?" his stern look softened as he saw the fear and confusion in her eyes.

" I hear what your saying, and I know that I can never truly understand the pain your going through, but I can help make it stop. The first step is admitting that it happened, I know its hard but I'm warning you right now that I am not moving an inch until you admit it to me and to yourself, I am also going to tell you that if you don't know it already, Yash has quiet a temper, he is probably pretty pissed right now and probably wants to hurt me for forcing you into this. But even though he is mad, he knows its right which is why he is staying away. If you don't believe this is the right thing when I tell you then you better believe him." He crossed his arms and stared her straight in the eyes ` I hope that one got to her' he thought.

All at once, her world came tumbling down, her fake smiles, and fake gestures, the lies and cover-up. She couldn't take one more terrible memory. She collapsed on the kitchen floor and started to cry. Sesshomaru looked at her `I'm sorry for being so cold, but its for your own good. Even if you hate me afterwards it will be worth it to know that you will be alright' " Stand up Kagome" she couldn't even look at him. "I know you can, don't let this shit hurt you like this, your better than them. Now, stand up and tell me what I want to hear." She got on her knees and slowly lifted herself up. When she was standing up she looked at him but turned away and mumbled something.

" what, I didnt hear you." He smiled at her strength. `she is so much stronger that in thought. It took Rin 5 hours.'

"I was......raped." it was barely a whisper but he knew she was starting to come around.

"What?" She lifted her head up to meet him and he saw all the pain she had been hiding for so long.

" I was raped." She said.

`I'm so sorry Kagome, please don't hate me' " One more time."

If looks could kill, he would be dead a thousand times over. " I WAS RAPED! There are you happy. What's my psycho analysis Dr. froyde?!?!?! Now fucking move!" He stepped aside and she ran to her room ad slammed the door. He leaned against the wall and let out a breath.

" You stupid bastard." He turned around to come face to face with an extremely pissed off brother. " you didnt have to fucking tourcher her like that. And what the hell were you doing bringing me into this, all you told me was to stay in my room and not come out. Don't you ever use me against her again!" And Fluffy got a nice punch on the nose. He was expecting it, but it still hurt like hell. Inuyasha left Sesshomaru there to tend to his hurt nose while he went and checked on Kagome.

When he got to her room he stopped at the door. He could hear her muffled sobs. He opened the door, he walked in unnoticed. ` she must be crying so hard she can't hear anything.' He shut the door behind him, that got her attention. She snapped up, her eyes were puffy and red. "Kagome, I..." She tumbled of the bed and went over to him. She wrapped her arms around his neck and cried. He didnt know what to do `Damn you Sesshomaru.' He just held her and rubbed her back. He kept telling her that everything was ok, or was going to be ok. She just squeezed him tighter, hoping he would never let him go.

They had slowly moved towards the bed and she had cried herself to sleep in his arms. He didnt move, he just laid there with her. He held her close every time she whimpered in her sleep and promised her he would always be there. Soon, he joined her and they both were in a deep sorrowful sleep.

The next morning Kagome woke up early. She got up and went to the kitchen, she was very hungry considering that she hadn't had dinner. She decided to fix breakfast for everyone and then get ready for school. She made pancakes, bacon, eggs, and toast. When she was cleaning up the dishes she was looking for a rag to dry and noticed a bloody on my the washer. She didnt know who's it belonged to but it was very curious to her. She didnt remember Yash having a bloody nose when he came to see her yesterday.

"It's mine, my little brother hit me pretty good yesterday for confronting you." She turned away from him and continued her cleaning. When he came closer to her to give her a hug and help her with the dishes, she backed away.

"yeah, um. I think I should be getting ready for school." She left in a hurry, trying to ignore the hurt look on his face. She went to her room, where Inuyasha was still sleeping and grabbed her clothes. She went to the bathroom to change. She had chosen baggy black pants and a plain black t-shirt to wear. She walked out of the bathroom and decided that it was time prince charming got his lazy but out of bed.

She slowly went into the room and shook him awake. " Yash, time to get up. We have to go to school." He brought his has up, trying to look for the annoying alarm clock that wouldn't stop talking. " Inuyasha, get up. I made breakfast, so no pop-tarts today. And you have to drive me to school." He instantly sat up at the mention of cooked food. He got out of bed and rushed to the kitchen where a plate full of delicious food was waiting for him. He noticed Sesshomaru sitting that the dining room table eating his breakfast also, he also noticed the hurt nose from yesterday.

He slowly made his way to the tale, hoping his brother would forgive his act of anger from the other day. " Hey man, I'm sorry for the whole punching you in the nose thing, I was just momentarily pissed."

It's ok Inuyasha, I understand why you did it, could you do me a favor though, next time you get momentarily pissed, hit my stomach or somewhere not really noticeable?" They both grinned and enjoying the rest of the meal in silence.

Inuyasha excused himself to get dressed and Kagome came into the kitchen and sat down next to Sesshomaru. He didnt want to anger her so he waited for her to say something.

" Sesshomaru, I'm sorry about this morning. I was just mad at you, but I thought about it and there really isn't any reason for me to be. You were helping me. And I do feel a little better. So I wanted to say I'm sorry, and thank you."

Sesshomaru smiled. ` She forgives me.' " Your very welcome babe, I am sorry to. I know it was hard."

She looked down, nodded and looked back up " you know, if your still willing, I would very much like that hug now." They both smiled and he opened his arms to hug her.

" Well, if you guys are through with the closeness, I would like to get to school. Are you ready Kag, do you need a jacket, I'm bringing mine, its sorta windy out there."

" No yash, I'll be fine, lets go, but can we drive slowly. I have to thin of a reason as to why I didnt to the dare today." Inuyasha and Sesshomaru each raised an eyebrow

" What dare?" Inuyasha asked.

"Well, you will just have to wait and see." Kagome replied, and dragged Inuyasha

They got to school at the usual time. When they were in the hallways, Inuyasha noticed Kagome was unusually close to him, and hiding her face into his side. He pulled her over to a bench. " Kagome, are you alright?"

She looked up and shook her head no. " There are to many people, I feel like they are all staring at me." She tried to cover he stomach with her arms. "would you mind if I used your jacket, please?"

"No, here." He took it off and handed it to her. She immediately put it on and stood up.

" Thanks yash." She said, hugging him. And they both continued down the hall towards their classroom. They walked in the room and noticed that their friends were there waiting for them.

" Kagome, aren't you forgetting something?" Sango asked.

"Yeah, I'm sorry, I just couldn't it was to much for school. Please don't be mad at me." She pleaded. Sango sighed. " Don't worry Kag, you do it when your felling better, but don't take to long. I don't have that kind of patience." They both giggled.

The teacher walked in and class began. With in 5 minutes they were all asleep. All dreaming about different things. Kagome's dream was of last might. Inuyasha's dream was of him kicking Kag's dad's ass. Sango was dreaming of how much she wanted to kiss Miroku. And Miroku's dream was of his hand, and he was being as lecherous as humanly possible. Their dreams were shattered when the bell rang and everyone left the room to go to their next class. Kagome and Inuyasha were sitting in the back as usual and they were talking about highlighters for some unknown reason.

" Inuyasha, they do not. Where did you hear his crap?" questioned Kagome.

" I am a fool for the learning channel, and yes it does so there." Replied Inuyasha.

" Have you tried it before?" Kagome said. " No, but I have seen it done before. If you want me to prove it I will."

"Go ahead oh wondrous one, prove the impossible." Kagome said. Inuyasha looked around for the perfect patsy. He then notice Hojo coming into the room and grinned "hey, hobo or whatever your name is, come here I want you to help me with something." Hojo strolled over and stood in front of Inuyasha.

"what can I help you with?" Hojo asked.

" Well, my friend Kagome over here, says that when you sniff a highlighter, nothing happens, and I say that she is wrong, and that you get high. I was wondering if you could help us figure out which one is right by sniffing this here highlighter."

"Oh, sure. I love experiments, give me the highlighter." Inuyasha handed him the highlighter and inhaled it 5 times. Kagome had to cover her mouth so she wouldn't laugh and Inuyasha snickered.

"Well, nothing happen *hic* I think I just * hic* proved you alls point, I * hic* will be going back to my seat now." He wobbled to his seat and thunked down. Kagome and Inuyasha busted out laughing. "HAHA, see haha kag I was haha right!."

" Yeah hahaha you were right. That was pretty damn funny." Kagome said. When the class started they slept right through it.

LUNCH

The gang was sitting at their table and Inuyasha and Miroku had just come back from the lunch line and their trays were full of food. " Hey stop talking trash about us." The girls laughed.

" So, how was first and second?" Sango asked Inuyasha. He looked at Kagome and they both started to laugh. "Did I miss something?" she asked Miroku, who only shook his shoulders. When the they had stopped laughing, they told Miroku and Sango about Hojo and the highlighter, and soon everyone was rolling on the floor laughing. When they got up Kagome felt a hand grab her arm. She froze.

" Well, my sweet. I have been thinking about that kiss all weekend. I was wondering if I could have a repeat performance." Kouga spun her around so that she was facing him and he leaned her in to kiss her.

" Kouga, get off. Let go. Please!" She struggled to get away from him. She didnt like to be close to any guy except Inuyasha right now. She was trying to push him off of her but it only egged him on. Suddenly Kouga was force back and fell on the ground

"Get he fuck off of Kagome you asshole." Inuyasha said and Kagome ran behind him.

" what's it to you, she is my woman. I have a right to touch what's mine. Now stand aside!" he got up only to be pushed back down again.

" No one owns her. Can't you see she doesn't want you touching her. Maybe she just plain out doesn't like you. Did that thought ever cross your microscopic mind? Huh?" Inuyasha asked.

"Yash, jut let it go. Ok? I don't want to fight about this right now. Kouga, just leave. I don't want to even look at you right now." Kagome turned her back and pulled Inuyasha back to their seats.

"I'm sorry kag, I gues sI got a little carried away there. I just don't like him scaring you like that. Are you ok?" Inuyasha asked.

"Yeah, I'm ok. Thanks for your help. I owe you one." Kagome said

" NO prob, just make breakfast in the morning and we will be even. Ok?" She smiled and he winked at her. They continued to eat their lunch and talk about classes and Homework.

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Ok, thats it for the chapter I hope you liked it. I did. Review please! Oh and if there are any phrases that are commonly said in the Inuyasha series that you would like to see in this story tell me and i will put them in. I love Irony LOL. I have exams all next week. So it might be like 3 days until the next chapter is out. I hate exams!!!!! GGGRRR Ok REVIEW PLEASE until next time-

~LostDreamGirl~