InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Goodbye Isn't Forever ❯ Chapter 4 ( Chapter 4 )

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Goodbye Isn't Forever

Chapter 4

"Ms. Higurashi. This isn't some flu you have." He said.

Kagome swallowed. "W-What is it?" She asked afraid to know the answer.

"Your symptons result to the Hodgins disease - a type of cancer."

In that split moment the world stopped for Kagome. All the noises outside the office suddenly stopped and the world started spinning. Hodgkins disease? No...it had to be a mistake. She couldn't get...cancer. Stuff like that didn't happen to her. She still had a whole life ahead of her and she could not be dying now. She had to go to college and get a job and get married and have children! It wasn't cancer. It wasn't. It was just the flu. Just the flu, right?

She didn't know how long she was in that trance but it seemed like a lifetime until the doctor was suddenly shaking her shoulders gently.

"Ms. Higurashi. I know this is something really hard for you to take in. But you have to know...you can fight this. I'm not going to lie to you. Not many people survive this disease but if you are strong and determined you can beat this."

"No..." Kagome trailed off. This can not be true. There is no way this is happening. It had to be a nightmare.

"Kagome honey." Mrs. Higurashi was crying, she could tell she was trying to hold back. "Can we please have some time alone?" She asked the doctor.

"Of course. Just come out when you're ready." He nodded and left the office.

"Kagome? Sweety?" Mrs. Higurashi took her hand gently holding back her tears for her daughters sake.

"Mom. It's...it's not true. It's...just the flu. Right? Just the flu. It has to be." Kagome said slowly staring off into space.

"Honey. I'm so sorry. We are going to fight this. You will get through - "

Kagome squeezed her eyes shut and shook her head cutting off her statement. "Mom. Can we...just go home? Please?"

Mrs. Higurashi sighed and nodded once. "Okay." She stood up slowly and waited for Kagome.

Kagome sucked in a deep breath and stood up shakily. Grabbing her moms arm she held on to keep her balance for fear of falling from the room spinning. They walked out of the doctors office and Kagome went to get their jackets. She heard her mom tell the doctor that she would call and make appointment for next time since Kagome wasn't to up to listening to things she needed to do and definately wasn't up to running more test. A few minutes later Mrs. Higurashi came out with a few papers in her hands and grabbed her coat from Kagome. She smiled sadly as they walked out to the elevator and to the car.

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Kagome sighed as her cell phone rang again. She wouldn't answer it just like before. Ever since she got home yesterday from the doctors office she had spent her day in bed under her covers, either sleeping or staring off into space. Sango had knocked on her window last night but she had pretended that she was asleep. She would probably come back later because she didn't go to school today either. Her mother would come in occasionaly and ask how she was doing. Kagome would just shrug and stare off into space.

When her cell phone rang again she picked it up and held down the red phone button - turning off the phone. They were really starting to annoy her. Sango, Miroku, even Inuyasha wouldn't stop calling her. She just hoped Sango wouldn't knock on her window again tonight. At this moment she would really appreciate it if everyone would just leave her alone.

Putting her cell phone away in the drawer she got back under her covers and stared at the ceiling. She couldn't sleep anymore. Sleep was the only place where she could forget about everything and pretend like non of this ever happened. But now she couldn't sleep anymore. It's weird, how just a few days ago she felt like a normal teenager, and now...now she felt like she was dying. Her throat felt like it was clogged up all morning and afternoon. If it was the afternoon. She didn't know what time it was.

She hadn't cried either. Why waste tears on something you didn't want to believe? It couldn't be true. It just couldn't. She started to rub her neck but stopped. Why hadn't she noticed before? Now that she payed attention, she could tell her glands were pretty swollen. Then...it was true wasn't it? Everything came out to that solution. Her feverness, fainting, exhaustion, nightly sweats, dizzyness, and the swollen glands. The doctor said those were all symptons of it. And the blood test proved it.

But still...she couldn't believe it. She didn't want to believe it.

"Kagome?" Mrs. Higurashi poked her head in. Kagome didn't move or look at her. "Sweety. Inuyasha is here to see you." She said and walked in. She sat on the edge of her bed. "You want me to tell him to come back tomarrow?"

Kagome tore her eyes away from the ceiling to look at her mother. Her eyes were swollen and red and it was clear she had been crying. She sighed and shook her head. She couldn't keep him away forever right? "No."

"You want me to let him in?" She asked.

Kagome nodded. "Just...don't tell him about..."

Mrs. Higurashi nodded knowing what she meant. After kissing Kagome of the forehead she walked out of her room. A few moments later Inuyasha came in dropping his backpack behind the closed door.

"Hey wench. Whatcha still doing in bed?" He said kneeling on the ground next to her bed. He frowned when she didn't respond and pulled the covers away from her face. "You alright?" His tone had changed from playful to concern quickly.

Kagome looked at him with a blank expression and nodded. "It's just...the flu."

"Oh. I tried calling you earlier. I, er, we were worried since you fainted in gym yesterday and didn't come to school today." He said with a tint of light pink appearing on his cheeks for that almost slip up.

Kagome, thankfully, didn't notice and sat up. "Sorry. I-I turned my cell phone off earlier...'cuz I wanted to sleep. I'm fine though." She forced a weak smile.

Inuyasha narrowed his eyes at her. "Ok. Spill. I know you're lying."

Kagome rolled her eyes and hid her hands under the covers. She had a habit, whenever she would lie she couldn't help but cross her fingers together. She knew she was a bad liar, and she knew he was stubborn but she didn't want him to know about her illness. At least not yet. "I'm not lying. I-I'm fine really. Just the flu."

Inuyasha sighed. "Kags. I've known you since we were five. I know you're lying." A small silence passed as he looked at her and swallowed. "It's...something more, isn't it? More than just the flu?"

Kagomes eyes widened for a moment then shook her head. "What? No! It's...It's not. I'm just sick. Nothing big." She assured him.

He still didn't believe her but decided to drop it and change the subject. "I brought your homework. And I took notes for you."

Kagome smiled. It was small but real. She knew he hated taking notes and would rather sleep or doodle in class. "Thanks."

"Yeah." He cleared his throat. "You need anything? Drink? Food? You did eat today right?"

She nodded but avoided his eyes.

He caught the lie before she could even say anything. "Stay here. I'll get you some soup."

Kagome grabbed his arm before he walked away. "No. Really I ate. I'm not hungry." She hoped he would believe her. She was in no mood to eat and wasn't hungry anyways but she knew Inuyasha better than that.

"I know you're lying. One - I can tell. Two - your soup is still sitting on your desk. Now stay put and I'll go make you some hot soup and you're going to eat it." With that said he walked out closing the door behind him.

Kagome sighed and layed back down under her covers waiting for him to return. She smiled slightly at how caring he was right now. He would always try to make her feel better no matter what. That's how, she realized, she had fallen in love with him. It's been a while since she realized and she knew she had always loved him. But of course she couldn't tell him. Especially now. Not after what she found out at the doctors yesterday.

"Keh! Back in bed? Get up! You have to eat your soup." Inuyasha said taking her desk chair to sit in front of her.

She sat up wrapped in her blankets and faced him while sitting cross legged. "I told you I'm not hungry." She made a face at the soup he held out to her.

"Feh! You still have to eat. You're sick so eat. Here." He held out the bowl of soup.

"I'm not hungry." She repeated.

"Don't make me force feed you."

Kagome shook her head but then smiled. "Hm. Can you feed me?"

He gave her an incredulous look. "Keh! You can feed yourself!"

She gave him a teasing grin. "But my mom would always feed me when I got sick."

"I ain't your mom now am I?"

"I'll only eat if you feed me."

Inuyasha glared at her but picked up the spoon and fed her. "Spoiled wench."

Kagome made a face and swallowed it. Inuyasha chuckled and continued feeding her until the soup was gone.

"See. That wasn't so bad now was it?"

Kagome swallowed the last bit and glared at him.

Inuyasha put the empty bowl on her desk and faced her again. "Now you wanna tell me the truth about your 'flu'?"

"I-I don't know what you're talking about." Kagome stuttered.

Whatever Inuyasha was going to say was cut off as Mrs. Higurashi poked her head into the room.

"Sorry to interrupt. Inuyasha honey, it's about time you get home. You both have school tomarrow."

Inuyasha nodded and Mrs. Higurashi left after closing the door. He looked at the clock and stood up putting her chair back under her desk.

"I didn't realize it was so late. See you at school tomarrow?"

Kagome nodded and suddenly had a flashback about the other day when he kissed her in school. How could she have forgotten! "Y-Yeah. I-I'll be there tomarrow."

"Alright." He came closer to her and lifted her chin with his hand.

Kagome swallowed hard as he came closer and kissed her in the forehead. She was a little disappointed but didn't say anything. After he grabbed his bookbag and waved he left closing the door behind him. She layed down and put her hand on her chest trying to calm her rapidly beating heart. 'Why didn't he kiss me like the other day in school?' She wondered. Then something came back to her. 'Oh right. I'm sick. He wouldn't want to kiss me anyway. I have...cancer...nobody would want to kiss me.' She sighed again and closed her eyes. This time letting sleep claim her.

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"Kagome! Time to get up! You skipped school yesterday you are not skipping today! Come on! Chop chop!" Sango yelled jumping in through the window and pulling the covers off Kagome.

"Sango! I don't wanna get up." Kagome mumbled.

"Sango honey. Sorry but Kagome wont be going to school today." Mrs. Higurashi said coming into the room.

"Oh. She's too sick?" Sango asked bummed that she had to go to school without her best friend again.

"No. We just have some plans is all." Kagome sat up and glared at her mom.

"But...no! I wanted to go to school today! I told Inuyasha I'd be there!" She complained.

Her mom gave her a knowing look. "Kagome. We have somewhere to be. Now get ready because our appointment is soon."

Kagome growled and layed back down after her mother left. "Sorry Sango."

"It's alright. Where do you have to be?"

"I don't know. Hey, can you tell Inuyasha for me that my mom ruined all my plans of going to school?"

Sango laughed and nodded. "I'll let him know. See you later?"

Kagome nodded but didn't return the happy gesture. "Yeah. Bye."

Sango nodded and jumped out the window and crawled back in her own window. Kagome sighed and got up to get ready for whatever appointment she had. Then she froze in the middle of opening her closet. Appointment? Wait...doctors appointment?

"Mom!" She yelled throwing her door open and running down the steps. She forgot about her recent dizzyness and almost fell down the stairs. 'Damn. I need to be more careful.'

"What's wrong honey?"

"Mom. Do I have a doctors appointment?"

She nodded and avoided her gaze. "The doctor called and said he wanted to run some more test. He said it's better if we start now then later so we can catch it at the beginning stage which is one of the weakest parts."

"No! I'm...I'm not going! Know why? 'Cuz I'm not sick. I don't have cancer! I don't!" Kagome yelled letting out all her anger. She collapsed on a chair and buried her face in her arms.

Mrs. Higurashi sat next to her and hugged her. "I'm sorry sweety. I'm so sorry. But you can't keep denying it. If you want to beat this thing then you have to accept it and fight it."

"No..." Kagome sobbed letting her tears out finally. Mrs. Higurashi held her for a while until her sobs slowed down and she calmed down.

"Kagome honey. Come on. You have to get ready."

Kagome stood up wiping her eyes and hugged her mom. "I just...can't believe this is happening to me."

"I know. I know. I'm sorry honey. You'll get through this."

"Mom? Is sis okay?" Souta asked as he grabbed his backpack.

"She's fine sweety. Just go to school. I probably wont be home when you get back ok so make sure you eat something. If you need help call Mrs. Tajiya next door."

Souta nodded and left. Kagome walked back up to her room and grabbed her towel. She took a quick shower and picked out her clothes. She would wear some black sweatpants and a dark grey shirt. She wasn't in the mood to dress up at all. She tied up her hair and grabbed a black zip up hoodie to use and walked back downstairs. Her mom was ready and just had to grab her purse. She said they would get breakfast on the road since they were already running late.

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"Mrs. and Ms. Higurashi?" A nurse called.

"Yes. Here." Mrs. Higurashi said.

"Follow me." The nurse led them through a hallway and then to the same office they were in before. She told them to sit and wait and the doctor would be there shortly. A few minutes later the same doctor that told them the bad news came in and shook their hands.

"I hope you had enough time to take this all in. I don't mean to rush you into anything but like I said, it'd be best if we started sooner than later." Dr. Hiro said.

Kagome nodded. "What kind of test do you have to do?"

"Well, first we have to run some blood test here in the office. We came up with some results the other day and we are very worried about your white blood cells count. So for that we have to send you to the hospital and they will take care of you from there. You might not be prepared but I suggest after we run the test here, you go home, pack a bag, because most likely you will have to stay overnight."

"What? At the hospital?" Kagome asked.

"Yes. They will have to keep watch on you a lot and the test will take long."

"I can't! I have to go to school!"

"Kagome. It's for the best. You have to do this." Her mom said.

"But - "

"Kagome."

Kagome sighed and slouched in her chair. "We will have to take three more blood test and then in the hospital they will need to take some more test."

After he finished talking he handed some papers to Mrs. Higurashi and took Kagome took another room where he stuck three needles in her. The blood test were done in no time and sent to the hospital where Kagome would have to go. Dr. Hiro said everything was settled and that they go home and pack a bag and go to the hospital.

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Kagome packed a few change of clothes, some books, and her homework, cell phone, etc. They didn't take long to pack and soon they were back out the door and on their way to the hospital. Kagome hadn't said anything since they left. Her mother was cautiously quiet too. It took about an hour to drive to the hospital she was assigned too and she was on the brink of passing out. She felt her symptons coming back and wanted to sleep more than anything. Dragging herself out of the car she and her mom walked into the huge building and were sent up to the fifth floor. After talking to a nurse she led them to a room. It was painted white and had two beds in there. Each bed had their own dresser and t.v. and was seperated by a light blue curtain. There was a boy about her age in the bed next to her asleep.

She stared at the room with no expression on her face and dropped the bag next to the bed. She didn't hear anything the doctor said but when she left her mom explained everything.

"Kagome. She said that every day Dr. Hiro and his assistant will be here to take some blood test and some simple test later on. They are going to take you into another room and hook up to an IV. You know that you can call me anytime at night. I'll be here whenever I can during visitors hours."

"Thanks mom." She said.

"I love you Kagome. Don't worry. You will get through this." Her mom hugged her and silently cried.

Kagome layed in bed and watched some t.v while her mother unpacked her things into the dresser next to her bed. She was just about to go to sleep when a different doctor came in and asked them if they were ready. Kagome nodded and followed them. First she was sent to a room where she had to change into a hospital gown. Her mother took her clothes and followed them to another room where the doctor took her. This room had another bed and a scary looking machine next to it.

"Ms. Higurashi. Will you please sit on the bed. Mrs. Higurashi, you can sit on those chairs over there. All I'm going to do right now is inject the IV in her to keep her body stable with protein and nutritients. She will need to carry this with her whenever she leaves her room. Dr. Hiro will be here later on to take some more routine test."

Kagome looked away as the doctor cleaned her arm with alchohol and numbed her then injected the huge IV needle. She winced slightly even though she could barely feel it. After that and some check up she was returned to her room. She could hear her mom asking questions but she was already half asleep. The last thing she remembered was her mom kissing her forehead and sitting next to her until she let herself fall asleep.

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When Kagome woke up she had to remember where she was. It came back to her quickly that she was in the hospital. Her mother was asleep in the chair next to her bed. She blinked her eyes to adjust to the lighting in the room and sat up slowly. Man, she felt really tired. It was eight pm and she had to wonder if her friends had been calling her. Reaching over to the dresser she grabbed her cell phone and checked. Seven missed calls. Most of them were Inuyasha but Sango and Miroku had called too.

"Yo."

Kagome gasped and turned her head. The boy that was asleep earlier was awake now and looking at her. "H-Hi."

"What you in for?" He asked.

"I have...cancer."

"Same here. I just got here about three days ago. My name is Akio. You?"

Kagome looked away. So he had cancer too? Did he have the Hodgkins disease? He seemed pretty nice. "Kagome."

"Nice name."

"Thanks." Kagome smiled and looked back at her cell phone. She wanted to know what kind of cancer he had. "What...um...what kinda of cancer..."

"What kind of cancer do I have?" He asked. She nodded. "I have leukimia." (sp?) He said simply.

"Oh..." She felt bad. He seemed like a really nice guy. Why does life have to be so unfair? "So...how are you doing?"

"You mean...how am I dealing with it?" He asked her. Kagome looked at him and nodded. That's really what she meant. He sighed and shrugged. "Nothing I can do about it. I got it from my ex-girlfriend who got it from her ex-boyfriend. She didn't know about it and we slept together so she passed it on to me. I learned to deal with it I guess. I was pretty angry at first. I kinda am angry still but I told myself that I have to be strong and get through it." (I got a review on ff.net telling me that u dont get lukemia from having sex and you get it from family genetics. I'm sorry I didn't no that before and I am just goin to leave it how it is bcuz it would be a pain to change it.)

She looked away. "What happen with your ex-girlfriend? Why did you break up?" She couldn't help but ask.

He frowned and flipped channels on the t.v. "She passed away a couple months ago. She took longer to treat it so it took up her body and killed her. I'm new to it so I'm still fighting it."

"I'm sorry." Kagome said. It must've been really hard to lose someone very close to you for the same reason that's killing you now. She jumped when her cell phone vibrated.

"Make sure the nurses don't catch you on the phone. They don't allow cell phones in here." Akio said.

Kagome nodded and answered it. "Hello?"

"Kagome? You okay? I came by your house but Souta said you weren't home."

She smiled. It was Inuyasha and he was worried like always. "I'm..." She trailed off. If she told him now...

"Don't even think about lying. I can sense it in your voice right now. Where are you?" He growled.

She winced and took a deep breath. "I'm...I'm...at the hospital."

"What?" Inuyasha yelled. "Why are you there? What the fuck happen? Are you okay?"

"Yeah. Inuyasha, I'm fine."

"Then why are you in the hospital?" He asked.

"The doctors...they have to run some test."

"Which hospital?"

"Wha- Why?"

"Which hospital Kagome?"

Kagome hesitated. If she told him there was no doubt he would drive all the way out here. "Inuyasha..."

"Kagome..." He warned.

She sighed and rubbed her forehead. "I'm at the Shinomi Kazaki Hospital."

"That's an hours drive!"

"...Yeah."

Inuyasha was silent for a moment. "I'll be there tomarrow."

"What? No, Inuyasha. It's okay. You don't have to come. I'm fine."

"It's too late to come there now so I'll be there tomarrow after school. So be expecting me."

She sighed again. She seemed to be doing a lot of that lately. "Okay. I'll see you tomarrow."

"I'll bring by your homework too."

"Can you tell Sango and Miroku I'm fine? I don't want them worrying."

"Feh! Yeah sure."

"Okay. See you tomarrow."

"See ya." She hung up and put the phone away and flopped down on her bed.

"Boyfriend?" Akio asked.

Kagome shook her head and put her arm over her eyes to block out the blinding lights. "No. Just a very good friend."

"Cool. So you have a boyfriend?" He asked standing up and flicked one of the switches.

Kagome pulled her arm away and saw that her side of the rooms lights went out. "No, no boyfriend."

"Hm. Surprising. You're very pretty and you seem pretty nice."

She smiled and thought of how much she wished Inuyasha could be her boyfriend. "Thanks."

"No problem. I'm going down to the cafeteria to get something to eat. I think you should wake your mom up. Visiting hours are over soon." He waved and got up slowly taking the IV thing with him. Kagome looked down at her mom and shook her shoulders.

"Mom." She whispered.

"Something wrong honey?" She asked rubbing her eyes.

"No. Just visiting hours are over soon."

"Oh sorry. I must have dozed out for a bit."

"It's alright. I got a call from Inuyasha."

"Really?"

Kagome nodded and bit her lip. "Yeah. He said he's driving up here tomarrow."

"Oh well that's nice. He can visit you. After school?"

She nodded. "Yeah."

"Alright. I can't be here tomarrow morning honey. I have to work but I'll be here by six."

Kagome nodded. A nurse came in clean up some dishes and told them that visiting hours were over. She left with the dirty dishes and Kagome looked at her mom. She didn't want her to leave. If she left she would be alone until Akio got back. She defiantely didn't want to be alone.

"Mom. I don't...want you to leave." She hugged her mom and started to cry.

"I'm sorry sweety. I'll be here tomarrow. I promise." She hugged her daughter back.

"No. Please. Don't leave me." She sobbed.

"Kagome. You have to understand. I can't stay but I promise I will be back tomarrow."

Kagome cried some more and hugged her mother tighter. "Okay."

"I'll see you tomarrow." Kagome nodded and kissed her mom on the cheek. She watched her leave and climb under her covers. Why was it that now she felt so alone and afraid? She didn't want to be here. She wanted to go back home and be back in her room, in her own bed and wake up with Sango pulling the covers off of her. She didn't know why but most of all she wanted to see Inuyasha.

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Sad? A little. Fluffy? I guess you can say so. Hope you all liked it! I made this chapter a little longer than normal.

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