InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Goodbye to You ❯ Goodbye to You ( Chapter 1 )

Author's Notes: My first real song fic one shot thing! Yay for me! Anyways, this really centers around something I wrote a long time ago, but I think it goes perfectly when it comes to Inuyasha, and Michelle Branch's song 'Goodbye to You' really seemed to put the icing on the cake. (CAKE!? WHERE???) :::Sweat drops::: Anyways, if I get positive feed back, I might continue the one shot in like a sequel or short little chapter story thing. You'll get what I mean by that soon enough... that is if you actually read it anyway!

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha, but I sure as hell wish I did! :::Sigh::: If only... :::Day dreams about owning Inuyasha even though it will NEVER happen:::

~Goodbye to You~

The stars above once again twinkled innocently as Kagome stared out at the wide expanse that was the sky. The Sengoku Jedai's fresh air and beautiful scenery always seemed to cheer her up even when she was in the worst of moods, and today was obviously no exception.

Kagome had been through a lot of things during her time in the Sengoku Jedai. Yet, even after all the possessions, the near death experiences, the threats, hell even the freaky looking demons, only one thing could have caused her to be so morose...

Inuyasha had gone to her...

Again.

Not that that wasn't to be expected at this point in their journey. In fact, Kagome didn't even act upset about his little 'trips' anymore. She just couldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing she was hurt...

At least not anymore.

He loved her incarnate more than life itself... something she had grown to accept. Not that he hadn't made it anymore clear that he loved ONLY Kikyou during their time together, but still.

It was the principle of the thing she had had to accept.

Kagome also knew that Inuyasha always felt bad every time he to see Kikyou. She wasn't THAT blind. But why was the question that always lingered on her mind. What was the point of feeling bad? He loved her. She loved... err... hated him. To each his own.

But that also didn't matter anymore. Kagome refused to be toyed with any longer. She knew she promised she would stay with him and all that jazz, but it was clear... he didn't want her to stay. She was so dumb as to only notice this now.

But that was ok too. Because she realized it now, and she would grant his wish.

It was time to say goodbye.

Of all the things I've believed in...

I just want to get it over with.

Tears form behind my eyes,

But I do not cry!

Counting the days that pass me by.

She didn't want to leave of course.

Oh, the gods that be knew that was the last thing she ever wanted to do. But she was tired of being strong, yet still being so weak. Of being everything, yet nothing at the same time.

Kagome had actually been thinking about leaving for a while though. It wouldn't be so tough for them without her, at least shard hunt wise. They had defeated Naraku and only a couple of loose shards remained counting Kouga's shards. But the jewel hunt was not why she was so weary of leaving.

Half of her family was here.

No matter what anyone tried to say, their little rag-tag group had slowly but surely become something more than just a group of friends looking for revenge, but a family. A slightly chaotic, broken family, but a family none the less.

But even though everything seemed so great, the cycle of pain that always lead back to a certain hanyou hurt too much to be ignored anymore. Here's how it always seemed to go:

First: he would give her some hope, and slowly gave her an illusion of a chance that they could be together.

Second: then he would lighten up her heart to the point of which she was almost positive they would be together. There were doubts, but she could feel the affection.

Third: and finally he would do something stupid (like go see an undead miko and proclaim his undying love)and crush all her faith in him love wise, only to go back to step one only a day after.

When you thought about it, who wouldn't get tired of such a vicious sequence?

But still... it had been three years damn it! Didn't he get that she only loved him?! That she wanted to be with him?! Why didn't he seem to get it... I mean, it was SO OBVIOUS to everyone else!

I've been searching deep down in my soul.

Words that I'm hearing...

Are starting to get old.

Feels like I'm starting all over again!

The Last three years just pretend,

And I said...

Or maybe he did realize she loved him... but just didn't care! Or... or... well. It didn't matter now. Not that it didn't hurt to think about, but back to the problem at hand.

It wouldn't be easy to just pick up and leave. That much was obvious. Oh gods, would it not be easy. But for so long she had been the unselfish one...

Now, it was her time to finally say-

Goodbye to you!

Goodbye to everything that I knew!

You were the one I loved...

The one thing that I tried to hold onto.

Kagome finally got up from her spot on the ground, rubbing her eyes clean of any unshedded tears. Like she had said earlier, she wouldn't let him know how much it hurt. At least, not just yet...

Kagome then turned around, ready to go back to camp before jumping back in surprise.

"Inuyasha?"

Kagome stared deeply into his golden depths, trying to decipher his reason for seeing her after crushing her heart once again, but still trying not to getting lost in his gaze at the same time.

And that brought up another question left unanswered. How many times had she drowned herself in his amber stare? Truthfully...

Kagome had lost count.

But that didn't matter anymore.

Being here with him wasn't right... because she just knew they weren't meant to be.

Ever.

And she could deal with that. Or at least, she could try to deal with it in the comfort of her own time.

I still get lost in your eyes,

And it seems that I can't live a day without you.

Closing my eyes,

You chase my thoughts away...

To a place where I am blinded by the light,

But it's not right!

"Kagome..."

He stared back into her own cerulean depths with a deep sorrow. She knew what he was going to say. He always said it... or at least expressed it in some way after he went to see his ex-lover.

He was sorry.

Yet sorry wouldn't cut it this time.

This time it was her turn to speak, and she wasn't going to get sucked into his little sorry act again.

It was her time to finally say to him...

Goodbye to you!

Goodbye to everything that I knew!

You were the one I loved...

The one thing that I tried to hold onto.

"Stop. Don't even speak, because you've said everything you needed to say many times before. Now... it's my turn."

Kagome took one step towards the slightly shocked hanyou before cocking her head to the side in resolution.

Yes, it was finally time.

"I've done so much for you... for everyone. I'm actually very proud of what I've been able to accomplish in the past three years I've been here. My strength has grown, my resolution, my aptitude... my heart."

Kagome sighed shakily as she built up her courage. This... didn't seem real in her eyes... but it had to be. He would never be her's, nor would she ever truly belong here.

What made her even slightly believe she could exist here!?

"I don't belong here anymore Inuyasha... I know that for a fact. And... I won't keep pretending that I do. It's time to let go Inuyasha. It's time... to say good-"

"NO!"

Inuyasha could only gape at Kagome in uncertainity. She wanted to leave him?! Alone?! But she couldn't leave him! She, she had promised him she wouldn't!

She was his first friend...

His ultimate strength...

His only weakness...

His light of hope.

"Kagome, you can't-!"

"Yes, I can and I will. I understand now. What I want... can never be mine."

It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.

I want what's yours and I

Want what's mine.

I want you,

But I'm not giving in this time!

"Inuyasha."

Inuyasha looked up at the miko with a cold countenance. It was like he was being betrayed all over again.

No.

This felt worse than betrayal.

At least when you were betrayed you knew the person didn't care at all about you. You knew that you could cause them pain without any regret in the matter. But she wasn't doing this out of hate...

And that's what hurt the most.

"Kagome... why are you doing this to me? To the group?! I know for a fact you don't want to leave, that much I can truly say I do know. What's more is that you promised you would stay with me! YOU PROMISED!"

"COULD YOU PLEASE STOP ACTING LIKE THE VICTIM FOR MORE THAN FIVE MINUTES!?"

Inuyasha's mouth clicked shut at the unforeseen scream and stared at the ebony haired beauty. Her body language seemed to position itself in a way that assured anger, but her azure-gray eyes couldn't belie the emptiness to them.

That emptiness was what really shut him up.

"It's true, I don't want to leave Inuyasha, but I just CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! So there is only one thing left to say, no matter how much you wish to think otherwise. And that's-"

Goodbye to You!

Goodbye to everything that I knew!

You were the one I loved...

The one thing that I tried to hold onto.

And with those final words, Kagome stomped up in front of Inuyasha's stunned face and gently grabbed his hand. Before he could react in his shocked state, she roughly pulled something from her neck and laid in onto his palm. Kagome then reached up to his neck and pulled something off of it and let it fall to the ground in a slight thud.

"At least one of us should have what we want Inuyasha, and you've gotten both. I grant you your freedom and all ownership rights to the jewel. Do what you want... but just remember one thing..."

Kagome then stood on her tippy toes and gently pressed her lips to his, pulling away just before he could react to her sudden kiss.

"I'll always love you, no matter who or what you are."

And with that Kagome ran around him and left him to his own wishes as she ran as fast as she could to the well, her tears her only companion.

Kagome did not see the look of overwhelming sadness on Inuyasha's face as she said those words, nor did she hear the strange dog like whimpers that emitted from his throat as she ran.

She hadn't watched him as he fell down to the ground in agony, nor had she gazed into his tawny eyes as the last of life slowly slipped away from his grasp.

Kagome had only heard her own anguished sobs and seen her blurred over tears as she ran away from the only man she could ever love.

The only time she did stop running was when she got to the well. She glanced once more towards the open sky, and let out a fresh batch of tears as she watched a shooting star fall across the heavens.

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake...

As Kagome jumped over the lip of the well, hoping to never have to return to this time ever again, only one thought came to mind.

'Inuyasha...'

You are my shooting star.