InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Hate Is Thicker Than Blood ❯ A New Life ( Chapter 2 )

A/N: Warning! This chapter contains rape, murder, and attempted suicide. Read at your own risk…

 

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha. But in some parallel universe I do. Still looking for the portal to get there…

 

Chapter 1: A New Life

 

Trembling hands reached up to touch a rapidly heating face. The clammy, coldness of her flesh that she had felt on her face for the past six years, was no longer cold as death. She could feel the hot blood pumping through her veins. Her shaking hand slid under her white top to press against her beating heart. This could only mean one thing. She was alive again.

 

Someone had used the jewel to restore her to life. She was no longer the undead.

 

She sank to her knees in the moonlight as she felt emotions slamming through her body. After six years of feeling nothing, but hatred, sadness, and bitterness, she could now feel something more.

 

Warm, salty tears poured from shimmering green eyes as a genuine smile graced her beautiful, but often serious face. Happy laughter filled with disbelief escaped her. She could feel the love she felt for him.

 

Inuyasha.

 

Inuyasha. She loved Inuyasha. It had taken her so long to realize it. All the things that he had done for her, and she had never told him a simple thank you. He must love her very much for all the things he had done for her.

 

And now she knew she loved him. The next time she saw him, she would tell him. Then they could be together like they had planned on all those years ago.

 

At the time she hadn't loved him, but she had cared about him a lot. It was true that she had fallen in love with the half of him that was ningen. Growing up as a powerful miko, she had been somewhat reserved in showing her feelings for the hanyou boy, because of his youkai side.

 

She had always known that he was so different from the other youkai and hanyou she had come across. He might be gruff, arrogant, and rough, but he had a gentle soul.

 

He craved nothing more than to be loved. To belong. The beautiful soul he had was visible through his large, deep golden eyes.

 

“Kikyo.”

 

She turned around at the sound of his voice. She eagerly waited for him to come to her and claim his love and devotion to her. “Inuyasha!” She ran to him, throwing herself in his arms. “I'm alive Inuyasha! I'm alive!”

 

He hugged her tightly to him. “I know, Kikyo. Kikyo, I…” His words went no further as Kikyo pressed her lips to his and kissed him deeply. With a groan, he began to kiss her back.

 

Just as suddenly, he pulled away. “No Kikyo. This isn't right.” Inuyasha stared into her eyes.

 

Kikyo shook her head. “What? Why? Don't you want to be with me, Inuyasha?”

 

Inuyasha tried not to flinch at the loving look in her eyes. Never before had the woman he had loved for so long, looked at him like that. He had almost fallen in love with her all over again when he saw the look in her green eyes.

 

Almost.

 

Kikyo stepped closer to Inuyasha and gently grasped his hand, bringing it against her cheek. She knew he could feel the warmth and life coursing through her now living body. “Inuyasha,” she sighed.

 

“Kikyo,” he began.

“I love you, Inuyasha. I want to be with you.”

 

Inuyasha stared at her, before pulling back. “I'm sorry.”

 

“What?” Clearly she hadn't heard him right.

 

“I can't be with you Kikyo. I'm sorry, but I love Kagome. Not you.”

 

“No!” She nearly shouted at him. “You can't love her! You brought me back to life with the jewel! That means that you want to be with me.”

 

Kikyo was desperate.

 

She knew he was serious. If he wasn't going to be with her, why did he make her a living human again? If he didn't stay with her, she had nothing.

 

She would be alone.

 

When she had had a few weak emotions, being alone didn't bother her. But now that she could feel everything, the thought of being alone was terrifying and unbearable.

 

Inuyasha's ears pinned back at the blatant terror on Kikyo's face. He couldn't understand why she was so afraid. She should be happy that he cared enough about her to wish her back to life. He could have just as easily used his wish to make himself a full youkai, or Kagome a hanyou. “What's wrong with you, Kikyo?”

 

Kikyo grabbed his wrists and held them tightly in her small hands. “You can't choose her. We love each other. Why can't we be together like we were planning on, before Naraku?”

 

Inuyasha sighed. This was pathetic. “Because too much has changed, Kikyo. There was once a time that you were the only person other than my mother that I loved.”

 

“Why can't it be like that again?”

 

“Because I don't love you anymore,” he said softly. She was really starting to piss him off. This was hard enough as it was. Why did she have to make it more difficult than it had to be? Why couldn't she just be happy for him and Kagome? Why couldn't she just be happy for herself?

 

“But you wished for me to be alive again!” Kikyo cried out.

 

“Because I owed it to you! Now I am free of you. And I don't owe you anything.” He shook her off him. “Goodbye Kikyo.” He turned to walk away.

 

“Please don't do this!” She shouted at him. “I love you! Inuyasha! I love you!”

 

He whirled around. All irritation was gone and the only thing left was anger. “You've never loved me for me! You cared about me because you felt sorry for me! And the only part of me that you have ever loved was my ningen side! You hated my youkai side! I deserve more than that! And Kagome is the one that taught me that. She loves me for who I am! Not what I am or am not! She doesn't just love one part of me! She loves all of me. She loves the ningen, hanyou, and youkai parts of me!”

 

“I was wrong! Please Inuyasha? I love you! I won't be able to live without you.”

 

Inuyasha sneered at her. “You're pathetic.” He then did the only thing he could before she made him feel so guilty that he decided to stay with her. He ran from her.

 

Kikyo ran as fast and far as she could, not paying one bit of attention to where she was going. When her legs gave out, she fell to her knees and began to sob. She was alive now, but what did that matter? She was alive and had no one. Kaede had chosen Kagome over her as well. The only person Kikyo had left was her mate and she'd be damned if she went back to him. After all, she had chosen Inuyasha over him all those years ago.

 

She didn't know how long she sat there and cried, nor did she care. She wished that she could find someway to kill herself. After everything she had done, she didn't deserve to be alive. Inuyasha leaving her after bringing her back to life was a cruel thing to do.

 

“Look at what we have here.”

 

Kikyo jerked her head up to see the group of four human bandits standing in a circle around her.

 

“She's a pretty little miko, isn't she?” One spoke.

 

“Yeah. It's been a while since I had a woman. She'll do just nicely.”

 

Kikyo dove toward the smallest man, knocking him to the ground. She struggled to her feet and only ran three yards before she was tackled to the ground.

 

“Did you really think you could get away, you stupid little bitch?!” One of the men spat as he roughly flipped her over and straddled her.

 

Rough hands began to tear at her clothing. “Stop it! Somebody help me please!”

 

The man on top of her slapped Kikyo. “Shut the fuck up!”

 

One man held each leg while the third held her arms still. This is how they planned on taking her. They would alternate while they each took a turn raping her.

 

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Inuyasha held a crying Kagome against his chest as they sat in the sacred tree. She was joyful because he had chosen her, but heartbroken because the well had closed off leaving her in this time, away from her family. Inuyasha had assured her that she would see them again. He had discovered that when they mated, she would become a hanyou.

 

She had told him that all she wanted was to be him as long as possible. She would gladly become a hanyou to spend eternity with him.

 

She was the one Inuyasha loved. How could he not love her? Over the past six years, Inuyasha found that it was impossible to not love Kagome.

 

They both heard the screams for help. It was obvious that they were Kikyo's. Kagome froze in his arms. “That's Kikyo.”

 

Inuyasha's ear pinned back. “So?”

 

“Aren't you going to go help her?”

 

“No.” His face nuzzled her throat. “You need me here. Kikyo and I won't be seeing each other anymore. I love you, Kagome.”

 

“I love you too, but what if she's in trouble? What if…”

 

“Kagome.”

 

“What?”

 

“Shut up.” His mouth closed over hers and they kissed with all the passion between them. Kikyo forgotten. By dawn, Kagome was a hanyou, just like her mate.

 

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Kikyo's head turned to the side as the final man pounded into her. His disgusting mouth roughly suckled at her nipples as his hands dug into her hips.

 

She had stopped screaming and pleading. Her voice was gone. Her spirit was broken. She was alive again, but all she could wish for was death.

 

The others left to go find some food for them. She was lucid enough that there was no need to hold her down anymore. They had left the final man with a dagger to finish her off with.

 

Kikyo's arm was out to her side. Her right hand wondering through the wet grass, encountered something smooth, cold, and metal. Her eyes locked on the dagger the man had left so close to her body.

 

Her hand closed around the hilt of it and she caressed it as the man continued to rape her. Out of the corner of her eye, she watched his eyes flutter closed and his mouth fell open with a groan as he climaxed.

 

He didn't even have time to register the sound of her animal like growl as she drove the dagger into his jugular.

 

Blood sprayed all over Kikyo when she pulled it out and shoved the man off her. Her face and bare breasts were spotted with the blood of her rapist.

 

The fluid trickled from his mouth and ran down his neck into the dewy grass. Shock was in his eyes as he watched the miko they had violated drive the dagger into his stomach several times.

 

The only sounds that escaped Kikyo's lips were animalistic growls as she drove the dagger into him over and over and over, long after he had died.

 

Her eyes were wild, barely even human as she regarded the man under her. Finally, she stopped and climbed to her feet. The clothing was hanging off her in shreds. She staggered into the surrounding woods and neared a stream.

 

She sat on the bank. Thinking about how good it had felt to feel his blood on her hands and body. She watched in fascination as blood ran down her arm as the cold metal sliced into the soft skin on the bottom of one wrist, then the other. She fell onto her back and waited.

 

Although the three other men that had raped her had escaped, one had not. He would never rape anyone again.

 

Kikyo smiled softly at that thought and at another.

 

Soon, she would find release.

 

A/N: So, what do you think? If you have read it before was it better? Was it worse? If you're new, what do you think?