InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ He Loves Me, She Loves Me Not ❯ Tears of the Broken Hearted, Inuyasha POV ( Chapter 1 )

He loves me, she loves me not

A story by: Ai no Sakura

Disclaimer: The author does not own the anime/manga series Inuyasha nor the characters from it. They all belong rightfully to Rumiko Takahashi.

A/N: But I do own my own character Sakura Sazuke! Yey! * dances happily around, getting weird looks from people*

*stops in mid-step * Heh!

I don't think she'll be in this fic…

IMPORTANT: This is my 1st fic that I consider worthy enough to have a place on the net. The others are unfinished and are probably in the Dumpster by now.

This is an AU fic with a great deal of OOCness, but I can't help it that I haven't seen enough Inuyasha episodes. They don't air them here where I live * in the brink of tears *!

Summery: After their shard hunt is complete and Naraku has been defeated, Kagome tells Inuyasha she doesn't love him anymore. How does Inuyasha cope with this information and whom will he turn to? A story about breaking and mending a heart.

Pairings:

Inuyasha & Kagome

Sesshomaru & Inuyasha (?)

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Inuyasha walked through a forest, not really knowing where he was going nor carrying.

There was something heavy on his mind.

* ~ Flashback ~ *

The wind blew slightly making her hair dance behind her softly.

Black met gold for a second, which felt like an eternity, before the gap between them was no longer there.

Inuyasha leaned into Kagome, sniffing her hair and memorizing her scent, before Kagome pulled back from the embrace.

"Inuyasha…" she whispered softly, searching for something in his eyes, he doing the same to hers,

"I have to leave."

He was taken back by that.

"Nande?" he asked, his doggy ears drooping low,

"Why do you have to leave?"

Kagome stared him straight in the eye now, stopping her search.

"Because I don't belong here," she said quietly and cast her eyes to the ground,

"And because… I don't love you anymore."

Inuyasha felt his heart being ripped in two.

"Nande? Itsu?" he asked, almost choking on his own words,

"How long?"

Kagome sighed and hugged herself, then raised her head to see Inuyasha on the brink of tears.

"Inuyasha…?" she whispered, worried about her friend and stepped closer, draping her arms around him,

"Gomen nasai. I'm so, so, so, so sorry."

Inuyasha held onto Kagome as if she was his lifeline.

"Kagome," he choked out, trying to fight back the sobs that were pushing to get out,

"Don't go! Don't leave me! Please don't leave me!"

Kagome stroked his hair, trying to reach for an ear, but it kept moving away from her touch, not accepting it anymore.

"Inuyasha," Kagome sighed and raised his chin so they were face to face,

"You were my first love and I will never forget you, but I believe this was never meant to be."
Then coldly she added,

"Not even with the miko Kikyo."

Kagome searched Inuyasha's eyes for a moment then stopped.

"I am really sorry Inuyasha, but I have to leave. My future mate is in my time and yours is right here," she said softly, then placed a kiss on his cheek,

"Thank you for being my friend."

With that she turned on her heels and ran towards the well.

"Sayonara Inu-kun!" she yelled, waving back at him as she ran.

Inuyasha snapped out of the trance he'd been in and sprang after her,

"KAGOME!!"

Before he reached the well, Kagome had already jumped in.

"SAYONARA KAGOME-CHAN!! AI'SHITERU!!!" he yelled after her, then sank to his knees and cried onto the cool surface of the well.

* ~ End Flashback ~ *

Inuyasha sighed sadly at the incident that took place a few hours back, a stray tear sliding down his cheek.

"Nande Kagome?" he whispered and started crying again, low, heartbreaking sobs raking through his chest.

Soon he could no longer walk, as he felt too weak.

So much crying in so little time.

Inuyasha sat down onto the ground unceremoniously on his butt, then lay on his back.

"If I'm gonna die, let me die now," he whispered, closing his eyes as a fresh wave of tears splashed down his face.

When he didn't open his eyes, he started to doze off.

*~ Inuyasha's dream ~*

Darkness.

I see nothing.

"Hello?" I shout, but my voice comes back to me as an echo,

"Anyone here?"

I start to walk. It turns into a trot. Then I'm running.

The darkness is everywhere.

I can feel it consuming me, my very being.

My very soul.

Then I see something.

Two huge flaming red eyes stare at me, the gaze rooting me to my spot.

As soon as it has come, it is gone and I am not sure if I even have seen them in the first place.

Again the darkness is here, consuming me.

Eating at my soul.

"Yamete…" I whisper, then say it a little louder,

"Yamete."
"Yamete!" I shout as I clutch my chest, above my broken heart, then scream,

"YAMETE!!!"

*~ End of Inuyasha's dream ~ *

Inuyasha woke up, drenched in a fine sheen of cold sweat. He sat up from the futon…

FUTON?!

"Watashi wa dochira desu ka?!" he cried out, panicking more than slightly.

"Urusai."

Inuyasha immediately stopped his shouts, but inside he was still screaming.

"Use your senses bakayaro!"

Inuyasha winced at the insult from the obvious male voice, but where had he heard that voice before? It sounded really familiar.

It sounded like…

Sniff… sniff…

"Sesshomaru…" Inuyasha said in an inane voice, waiting for his half-brother to drown him in insults.

Then it hit him.

Tetsusaiga!

Before Inuyasha could look down to see if his sword that was given to him by his father was still there, Sesshomaru snorted.

"You held it tightly while in your deep sleep, and for that I am glad and indignant," he told his ignorant half-brother.

Inuyasha relaxed slightly.

"Aren't you trying to kill me?" he asked, looking at Sesshomaru with a look that said `kill me if you want. I don't care right now'.

Sesshomaru studied Inuyasha.

"Ie," he said simply, then continued,

"It would not be as pleasurable while you are like this."

Sesshomaru sat down next to Inuyasha on the bed, making Inuyasha flinched away slightly.

"I wish to know what has caused this sudden change in you," he said, his face and voice voided of all emotion,

"The cause of this pain."

Inuyasha's dog-ears drooped down and he lowered his gaze away from Sesshomaru, feeling the fresh wave of tears springing to his eyes.

"I…I can't!" he choked, trying to hold back the sobs that were taking over his body.

"Yes you can," Sesshomaru reassured (A/N: weird, huh?).

Inuyasha looked into Sesshomaru's eyes, searching for something, anything.

Then he saw it.

The slightest flicker of worry, but the next second it was hidden better than before.

Confusion filled Inuyasha's mind.

Should he tell him? Should he trust his weakness to his enemy?
Or to his brother…

A stray tear slid down Inuyasha's cheek, sliding down his chin and dropping onto the silk sheets of, what Inuyasha had noticed, Sesshomaru's bed.

"This pain…" Inuyasha whispered,

"Feels worse than any wound I have bared."

He took in a shaky breath and let it out slowly, trying to calm himself.

"This pain…" he whispered again,

"Feels like many blades shredding my heart."

Another stray tear fell down Inuyasha's face and Sesshomaru watched as it dropped onto the silk sheets.

"This pain…" he whispered, but his voice cracked as sobs raked his body,

"W-was caused by K-Kagome!"

Inuyasha hid his head in his hands and cried.

Sesshomaru sat there quietly, unknowing what to do, but wait for his half-little brother to spill the whole story.

And he did.

"She ain't coming back!" Inuyasha cried,

"She told me that she doesn't love me no more, then jumped into the well!"

As Sesshomaru was confused, Inuyasha told him about the well, about Kagome and her time.

"I see," Sesshomaru said and glanced at Inuyasha.

All he saw was a puppy.

A sad, little puppy.

A sad, little puppy who happened to be his brother.

"Ototo," he whispered to himself and Inuyasha looked up in surprise, then confusion.

"Sesshomaru, Nani yatten no?" he asked, but then realized what he had said.

Before Sesshomaru could stop him, Inuyasha flung his arms around his big brother and hugged him tightly.

"Ani-san," he whimpered softly as Sesshomaru placed his arms around Inuyasha's waist, pulling him closer.

Inuyasha cried onto his older brother's shoulder, his sobs' heart wrenching, while Sesshomaru waited for him to calm down, placing his chin on top of his head.

After a moment, Inuyasha stopped crying, wiping his eyes furiously, and had a blush of embarrassment on his cheeks.

"Arigato… ani-san," he whispered and pulled back from the embrace, instantly missing the contact.

Just then there was a knock on the door and it slid open slowly, a small human girl walking into the room, her eyes on Inuyasha.

"Sesshomaru-sama? Why is Inuyasha-sama so sad?" she questioned and glanced quickly at Sesshomaru, then back at Inuyasha's face.

Inuyasha sighed exhaustedly, but tried to smile for the girl who was always happy, but now she looked sad.

"Rin-chan," he started,

"I just lost a person I loved."

Rin gasped and climbed onto the bed, squirming herself between Inuyasha and Sesshomaru.

"Is Kagome ne-san…?" she asked, her voice trembling in a dangerous way girls voices do when they're about to cry.

Inuyasha shook his head and Rin sighed in relief.

"She went back home, a long distance from here," he told her sadly.

Rin glanced between the two brothers.

"Is Kagome ne-san coming back?" she asked and Inuyasha shook his head in sorrow.

Tears started to fill Rin's eyes.

"Sesshomaru-sama!!" she wailed, latching herself onto Sesshomaru's chest and cried,

"Kagome ne-san didn't say good bye to Rin-chan!"

Sesshomaru wrapped one arm around Rin's waist, the other stroking her head gently, then glanced up at Inuyasha.

"I swear, if Jaken was to run into this room right now, wailing about that bitch, I would not hesitate on killing him," he whispered, not wanting Rin to hear, but for Inuyasha to barely hear him over her sniveling.

Inuyasha was stunned as he saw his brother's mouth twitch, his lips forming a ghost of a smile.

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Inuyasha: Why did you make me cry so much? And in front of him * points at Sesshomaru accusingly*

Fluffy: * growls at Inuyasha*

Sakura: * snatches Tetsusaiga and Toki-jin before their hands even inch closer to them* Oh no you don't!

Inuyasha & Fluffy: HEY!!!

Sakura: I won't have you both killing each other.

Inuyasha & Fluffy: * turn away from each other with a huff*

Sakura: -_-U I made you cry so much, Inuyasha, because that's just something Fluffy here * points at said person* would never be caught doing… ever.

Inuyasha: * crosses arms to his chest* Keh! I'm no weakling!

Fluffy: * opens mouth to say something* -

Sakura: * glares at Fluffy* Don't. Say. Anything. * smiles at Inuyasha* Your not weak Inu-kun

Inuyasha: * doesn't like Sakura's sweet smile that promised no good*…

Fluffy: * doesn't like Sakura's smile either*…

Inuyasha: * turns to Fluffy* Sesshomaru? Why do you let her call you Fluffy?

Fluffy: * looks confused*???
Sakura: * glares daggers at Inuyasha* If he notices the slip, I'll tell Kagome to come back, just to "sit" you to Hell!

Fluffy: * thinks back to the start of the conversation*…

Inuyasha: * gulps audibly*…

Fluffy: * finally notices the slip* DON'T CALL ME FLUFFY!!!!

Sakura: * grins maliciously at Inuyasha and mouths: You're so in for it*

Inuyasha: * fights back a whimper*

Fluffy: * still in his ` I'm-not-Fluffy' tirade* I hate it when you people refer to me as that Fluffy person! I just happen to own a nice, fluffy and comfortable fur boa, which I carry around with me everywhere! You don't want me to wear it? Should I just…

Inuyasha & Sakura: -_-U …

Translation for the Japanese words:

Gomen nasai: I'm very sorry

Miko: Priestess

Sayonara: Good-bye

Ai'shiteru: I love you

Nande: Why

Itsu: When

Yamete: Stop

Futon: Japanese bedstead/ mattress

Watashi wa dochira desu ka: Where am I

Urusai: Shut up

Bakayaro: Idiot/ Fool

Ie: No

Ototo: Little brother

Nani yatten no: What are you doing

Ani-san: Older brother

Arigato: Thank you

Ne-san: Older sister

A/N: So people, what do you think? Should I continue or is this complete BS? Reviews are accepted with gratitude, flames about the characters being OOC I won't stand. Warned you in the beginning and had a rather good and really annoying reason for that too. Love the show and I'll say it once again.

It don't air here where I live!!!

a) Should this be a one-shot?

b) Should Inuyasha and Fluff… err… Sesshomaru be a couple?

c) How in the Hell did Inuyasha meet Miroku and Sango?!

Someone please enlighten me on that.

I'd appreciate it!

^_^

-Sakura