InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ He Will Be Loved ❯ ....is losing you ( Chapter 31 )
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By: sexy_capricorn 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 12.26.2007 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 1.8K | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 12.26.2007 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 1.8K | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: See Chp. 1
Chapter 31: ....is losing you.
Kagome's P.O.V.
It was 4 a.m. and I couldn't sleep. I was afraid that if I woke up I would be married to Hojo. Now, here I was sitting in a lounge chair on the balcony. Why was I here? What was I thinking? The recent occurences in my life made me seem to grow up faster than I should. I didn't want that. I wanted to enjoy the teenage years that I would never get back.
At least it was beautiful out.
I looked over the not quite night, but still not quite morning sky. It sparkled with left over stars and a dissipating moon. The breeze was welcomed as it washed over me. I looked down to see the wooden chapel that Hojo paid an arm and leg to get, instead of getting InuYasha to make it.
God, he was so stubborn. So selfish. So, why was I here?
Numerous thoughts clouded my mind and I wanted them to go away. I wanted them to leave me alone and let me be.
How could I be so stupid?
People warned me, but I shunned it all away and was forced to learn it the hard way. I looked over into the bedroom to see Hojo sound asleep. Why did my stomach turn when I looked at him? What was this final stab of life piercing my heart?
I love him, though.
It was no doubt that I loved him. I've known him for so long that it was completely natural to love him. Was it completely natural to marry him? Or the question of the century, was it completely natural to be so deeply in love with InuYasha, Hojo's father.
Oh, InuYasha.
That man that made my insides flop in a good sense. He was wise, sometimes, kind, and gentle. InuYasha wanted me to go to school. He would never turn me into some mindless housewife. I had to see him one last time before the sun reared its ugly head. One last meal before execution. I got up and crept through the bedroom and towards the entrance. I kept an eye on my sleeping fiance to make sure he didn't get up before I walked out the door.
'How did this happen?'
'When did this happen?'
InuYasha stared at the jewled incrusted ceiling. He couldn't understand when he started to have strong feelings for Kagome. He couldn't translate how he started to love her so deeply. InuYasha just knew that he yearned for her and he'd be lost without Kagome in his life.
InuYasha ran a frustrated hand through his platinum locks. "What the hell am I doing to myself?" He finished with a sigh
He was lost at sea and drowning himself. He was killing his own heart. Strangling his own soul. She was doing this to him. She was making him love her more than he loved himself. She was making him terminate any inhibtions he had and take her whole.
InuYasha was submerged so far in his pity, that he didn't notice the tiny creak of the door or the light padded footsteps.
"InuYasha?" A light voice called.
The said man immediately popped his head up to see her standing before him like a heavenly angel that was too pure to touch down on earth. "What are you doing here?" He said quickly gettting up to his feet.
Kagome fidgeted with her fingers and found the floor more interesting under his intense gaze. "I-I-I just....wanted to see you." She finished.
InuYasha felt warm and content. A feeling he rarely felt these days. It was the same feeling you feel on a perfect day. She was his June 15. She was his May 5. She was October 20. She was December 25. Those good days when wonderous things happen and the weather was just how you imagined. She was every season. She was perfect.
"You wanted to see me?" He asked not believing the words that came out her mouth.
Kagome nodded. "Just to talk." She recovered
InuYasha gravitated towards her. He had to be in her aura. It was what made his day; to be next to her. "Just to talk?" He repeated as he swept her luscious hair over her shoulder.
Kagome closed her eyes and relished in his touch. It was magic somehow. She would submerse herself into him if he asked her to. She wouldn't want it any other way. "InuYasha?" She lightly asked.
"Sssh." He said against her ear. "I know." He lightly kissed her cheek and trailed down to her neck.
As much as she wanted to belong to him, she didn't. She wasn't his, but Hojo's "I'm....sorry." Kagome said pushing InuYasha away and creating as much space from him as possible.
InuYasha took a deep breath. "What?" He asked throwing his hands in the air. Did she not know how she toyed with his heart was badly affecting him.
"I can't. It's my wedding day." She sadly smiled. "It's bad luck." She choked out. Kagome couldn't believe how much she was hurting him. How much she was hurting herself.
InuYasha couldn't help but to scoff and shake his head. "Your wedding day?"
"Yeah."
"So, why are you here?"
"I don't know." Kagome said. She knew why she was there. She wanted him. So, why couldn't she just say that.
"You're so...so...eighteen right now."
"What?" Kagome said.
"You heard me. How dare you come in my room at four in the fucking morning and pull this shit on me?!" He yelled.
"Sssh. You're going to wake everybody up." Kagome warned.
InuYasha gave her digusted look. "Don't 'Sssh' me. I don't care if I wake the whole universe. Don't you realize that by now." He said before grabbing her shoulders and focused his steely amber eyes onto her. "I love you and I don't care who knows it." He gritted out.
"InuYasha,..."
"Don't talk. Don't you know that every word you say to me kills me?"
Kagome looked away from his intense gaze. They were stripping her naked.
"Look at me." He said, harshly cupping her chin and forcing her eyes on him. "You think this is a game. You think my heart is a toy." He whispered.
Kagome searched through his cold eyes. They were petrifying, the way they dug into her soul and pulled out her deepest regrets. She couldn't take them anymore. "Well, what do you want me to do?!" Kagome erupted as she snatched herself loose from his grip.
"Tell the fucking truth. Just...," InuYasha sighed. "..admit it."
'I love you' knocked harshly at her lips. 'Say it! Say it! Say it!' Kagome conscious taunted. "I can't." She said.
His heart....shattered. "Is that what you want?"
Kagome remained quiet. She was afraid to blurt the worst out.
"Answer me, damnit!" He demanded. "Is that what you want?"
"I don't know!" Kagome screamed.
"You have to know. Is it or is it not?!"
Kagome remained silent as his eyes pierced into her soul like a rusty knife.
"No." She whispered.
InuYasha's breath caught at her words. Was he dreaming? Was he hallucinating? He had to be sure. "No, what?"
"It's not what I want." Kagome whimpered as tears trailed her cheek.
InuYasha felt alive and jolts of felicity flowed throughout his body. He smiled a goofy smile like a love sick teenaged boy. "Then what do you want." He pressed. InuYasha knew what she meant, but he just had to hear it.
Kagome bit her lip. "You." She whispered.
InuYasha groaned as he took two quick steps towards her to only crash his lips against hers. He broke the kiss to drag his lips across her cheek then up to her ear. "I want you, too." InuYasha whispered against the appendage.
"InuYasha." Kagome moaned before she brought their lips together once more. It had been too long since they had a chance to taste each other and neither wanted to hold back.
Sloppy kisses were exchanged as each fondled each other with vigor. InuYasha rough hands carressed her shoulders and trailed down to her back only to squeeze her ample behind. Kagome's desperate nails dragged along his bare, muscular biceps.
InuYasha gripped the inside of Kagome's thighs as he lifted her legs over his hips and she immediately wrapped her longs legs around his waist with urgency.
"Kagome." He groaned as he slightly bit her lip.
Pain never felt so good.
He stumbled a bit before Kagome was pinned against the wall. InuYasha pulled away only to pull his shirt over his head with the small help from his lover.
Kagome savored the the sight of his deliciously raw, muscular chest as she ran her fingertips down his pectorals and across his abs before wrapping her arms around his waist.
InuYasha pushed her nightgown up and quickly pulled down his boxers. He looked up into her eyes asking for silent permission.
Kagome bit her lip and nodded.
He groaned as he pulled her underware aside and slowly entered her. "Fuck." He growled. He didn't expect it to be this good. The feeling was sensational. It felt so right to be inside of her. InuYasha wanted her in ways unimaginable. Did she realize how deep his love ran for her?
"InuYasha. Please." Kagome whimpered, silently begging him to move as she grinded her hips against his.
"Fuck, Kagome. You're going to make me cum." He said as he started off with slow budding.
Kagome licked her lips and moaned at the wonderful feeling that friction brought. "Faster." She groaned.
InuYasha lapped at her neck like a puppy dog as he gripped her hips and mercilessly pounded into her. "Fuck." He groaned again.
Kagome moaned as she tightened her legs around his hips. He crashed her back against the wall again and again as he drove himself deeper into her cavern. She scratched and clawed at his back like a taloned animal. "InuYasha!" She screamed. "Make me cum." She pleaded.
"You want me to make you cum?" He whispered against her sweaty cheek.
"Yes." She breathlessly moaned. "I want you to make me cum."
InuYasha grabbed her knees and pressed them against her chest as he rammed into her like a stampede. His thrusts were hard, fast, and deep as he hit a spot that made Kagome's stomach turn with delicious pain.
It felt so good. Too good infact. Her toes curled up into knots as she grasped ahold of his shoulders, her nails digging into his damp skin. "InuYasha..." She whimpered against his chest.
"Cum for me, baby." He whispered and Kagome released the coil that built itself up inside of her.
She jumped off that cliff and into bliss as a white light quickly shined before her eyes.
Kagome could've sworn she blacked out for two wonderful seconds when she road that orgasm.
InuYasha gave a series of quick pumps before he emptied his essence into her. He let go of her knees and leaned his forehead against the wall for support. "Damn." He whispered.
Kagome giggled as she rested her head onto his shoulder, enjoying the peacful silence that followed after a moment such as this.
It was quiet and all that could be heard were their heavy and uneasy breathing.
"Kagome." InuYasha whispered.
She pulled back and looked up to bore into his deep amber eyes. "Yes." she lightly replied.
"I know already, but I just need to hear it."
"What?" She asked.
"Do you love me?"
Kagome quickly nodded. "Yeah, even when I said I didn't..." She looked down for minute. "I did. I always have."
"I love you, too." He said as he nuzzled her neck loving their combined scents.
"I know." Kagome whispered.
"But we have to seriously talk." InuYasha said.
"I know."
A/n: *Sigh* Finally got that one. I'm truly sorry for keeping you guys waiting for so long, but my computer shut down and wanted to be an asshole over the summer. I'm trying to catch up so please bear with me.
Chapter 31: ....is losing you.
Kagome's P.O.V.
It was 4 a.m. and I couldn't sleep. I was afraid that if I woke up I would be married to Hojo. Now, here I was sitting in a lounge chair on the balcony. Why was I here? What was I thinking? The recent occurences in my life made me seem to grow up faster than I should. I didn't want that. I wanted to enjoy the teenage years that I would never get back.
At least it was beautiful out.
I looked over the not quite night, but still not quite morning sky. It sparkled with left over stars and a dissipating moon. The breeze was welcomed as it washed over me. I looked down to see the wooden chapel that Hojo paid an arm and leg to get, instead of getting InuYasha to make it.
God, he was so stubborn. So selfish. So, why was I here?
Numerous thoughts clouded my mind and I wanted them to go away. I wanted them to leave me alone and let me be.
How could I be so stupid?
People warned me, but I shunned it all away and was forced to learn it the hard way. I looked over into the bedroom to see Hojo sound asleep. Why did my stomach turn when I looked at him? What was this final stab of life piercing my heart?
I love him, though.
It was no doubt that I loved him. I've known him for so long that it was completely natural to love him. Was it completely natural to marry him? Or the question of the century, was it completely natural to be so deeply in love with InuYasha, Hojo's father.
Oh, InuYasha.
That man that made my insides flop in a good sense. He was wise, sometimes, kind, and gentle. InuYasha wanted me to go to school. He would never turn me into some mindless housewife. I had to see him one last time before the sun reared its ugly head. One last meal before execution. I got up and crept through the bedroom and towards the entrance. I kept an eye on my sleeping fiance to make sure he didn't get up before I walked out the door.
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InuYasha couldn't sleep. He tossed and turned in his bed and tried to fight the dreams that jacked him of rest, but he didn't stand a chance. He didn't stand a chance against the love he had for Kagome. She was winning hands down and got every gold medal for capturing his heart.'How did this happen?'
'When did this happen?'
InuYasha stared at the jewled incrusted ceiling. He couldn't understand when he started to have strong feelings for Kagome. He couldn't translate how he started to love her so deeply. InuYasha just knew that he yearned for her and he'd be lost without Kagome in his life.
InuYasha ran a frustrated hand through his platinum locks. "What the hell am I doing to myself?" He finished with a sigh
He was lost at sea and drowning himself. He was killing his own heart. Strangling his own soul. She was doing this to him. She was making him love her more than he loved himself. She was making him terminate any inhibtions he had and take her whole.
InuYasha was submerged so far in his pity, that he didn't notice the tiny creak of the door or the light padded footsteps.
"InuYasha?" A light voice called.
The said man immediately popped his head up to see her standing before him like a heavenly angel that was too pure to touch down on earth. "What are you doing here?" He said quickly gettting up to his feet.
Kagome fidgeted with her fingers and found the floor more interesting under his intense gaze. "I-I-I just....wanted to see you." She finished.
InuYasha felt warm and content. A feeling he rarely felt these days. It was the same feeling you feel on a perfect day. She was his June 15. She was his May 5. She was October 20. She was December 25. Those good days when wonderous things happen and the weather was just how you imagined. She was every season. She was perfect.
"You wanted to see me?" He asked not believing the words that came out her mouth.
Kagome nodded. "Just to talk." She recovered
InuYasha gravitated towards her. He had to be in her aura. It was what made his day; to be next to her. "Just to talk?" He repeated as he swept her luscious hair over her shoulder.
Kagome closed her eyes and relished in his touch. It was magic somehow. She would submerse herself into him if he asked her to. She wouldn't want it any other way. "InuYasha?" She lightly asked.
"Sssh." He said against her ear. "I know." He lightly kissed her cheek and trailed down to her neck.
As much as she wanted to belong to him, she didn't. She wasn't his, but Hojo's "I'm....sorry." Kagome said pushing InuYasha away and creating as much space from him as possible.
InuYasha took a deep breath. "What?" He asked throwing his hands in the air. Did she not know how she toyed with his heart was badly affecting him.
"I can't. It's my wedding day." She sadly smiled. "It's bad luck." She choked out. Kagome couldn't believe how much she was hurting him. How much she was hurting herself.
InuYasha couldn't help but to scoff and shake his head. "Your wedding day?"
"Yeah."
"So, why are you here?"
"I don't know." Kagome said. She knew why she was there. She wanted him. So, why couldn't she just say that.
"You're so...so...eighteen right now."
"What?" Kagome said.
"You heard me. How dare you come in my room at four in the fucking morning and pull this shit on me?!" He yelled.
"Sssh. You're going to wake everybody up." Kagome warned.
InuYasha gave her digusted look. "Don't 'Sssh' me. I don't care if I wake the whole universe. Don't you realize that by now." He said before grabbing her shoulders and focused his steely amber eyes onto her. "I love you and I don't care who knows it." He gritted out.
"InuYasha,..."
"Don't talk. Don't you know that every word you say to me kills me?"
Kagome looked away from his intense gaze. They were stripping her naked.
"Look at me." He said, harshly cupping her chin and forcing her eyes on him. "You think this is a game. You think my heart is a toy." He whispered.
Kagome searched through his cold eyes. They were petrifying, the way they dug into her soul and pulled out her deepest regrets. She couldn't take them anymore. "Well, what do you want me to do?!" Kagome erupted as she snatched herself loose from his grip.
"Tell the fucking truth. Just...," InuYasha sighed. "..admit it."
'I love you' knocked harshly at her lips. 'Say it! Say it! Say it!' Kagome conscious taunted. "I can't." She said.
His heart....shattered. "Is that what you want?"
Kagome remained quiet. She was afraid to blurt the worst out.
"Answer me, damnit!" He demanded. "Is that what you want?"
"I don't know!" Kagome screamed.
"You have to know. Is it or is it not?!"
Kagome remained silent as his eyes pierced into her soul like a rusty knife.
"No." She whispered.
InuYasha's breath caught at her words. Was he dreaming? Was he hallucinating? He had to be sure. "No, what?"
"It's not what I want." Kagome whimpered as tears trailed her cheek.
InuYasha felt alive and jolts of felicity flowed throughout his body. He smiled a goofy smile like a love sick teenaged boy. "Then what do you want." He pressed. InuYasha knew what she meant, but he just had to hear it.
Kagome bit her lip. "You." She whispered.
InuYasha groaned as he took two quick steps towards her to only crash his lips against hers. He broke the kiss to drag his lips across her cheek then up to her ear. "I want you, too." InuYasha whispered against the appendage.
"InuYasha." Kagome moaned before she brought their lips together once more. It had been too long since they had a chance to taste each other and neither wanted to hold back.
Sloppy kisses were exchanged as each fondled each other with vigor. InuYasha rough hands carressed her shoulders and trailed down to her back only to squeeze her ample behind. Kagome's desperate nails dragged along his bare, muscular biceps.
InuYasha gripped the inside of Kagome's thighs as he lifted her legs over his hips and she immediately wrapped her longs legs around his waist with urgency.
"Kagome." He groaned as he slightly bit her lip.
Pain never felt so good.
He stumbled a bit before Kagome was pinned against the wall. InuYasha pulled away only to pull his shirt over his head with the small help from his lover.
Kagome savored the the sight of his deliciously raw, muscular chest as she ran her fingertips down his pectorals and across his abs before wrapping her arms around his waist.
InuYasha pushed her nightgown up and quickly pulled down his boxers. He looked up into her eyes asking for silent permission.
Kagome bit her lip and nodded.
He groaned as he pulled her underware aside and slowly entered her. "Fuck." He growled. He didn't expect it to be this good. The feeling was sensational. It felt so right to be inside of her. InuYasha wanted her in ways unimaginable. Did she realize how deep his love ran for her?
"InuYasha. Please." Kagome whimpered, silently begging him to move as she grinded her hips against his.
"Fuck, Kagome. You're going to make me cum." He said as he started off with slow budding.
Kagome licked her lips and moaned at the wonderful feeling that friction brought. "Faster." She groaned.
InuYasha lapped at her neck like a puppy dog as he gripped her hips and mercilessly pounded into her. "Fuck." He groaned again.
Kagome moaned as she tightened her legs around his hips. He crashed her back against the wall again and again as he drove himself deeper into her cavern. She scratched and clawed at his back like a taloned animal. "InuYasha!" She screamed. "Make me cum." She pleaded.
"You want me to make you cum?" He whispered against her sweaty cheek.
"Yes." She breathlessly moaned. "I want you to make me cum."
InuYasha grabbed her knees and pressed them against her chest as he rammed into her like a stampede. His thrusts were hard, fast, and deep as he hit a spot that made Kagome's stomach turn with delicious pain.
It felt so good. Too good infact. Her toes curled up into knots as she grasped ahold of his shoulders, her nails digging into his damp skin. "InuYasha..." She whimpered against his chest.
"Cum for me, baby." He whispered and Kagome released the coil that built itself up inside of her.
She jumped off that cliff and into bliss as a white light quickly shined before her eyes.
Kagome could've sworn she blacked out for two wonderful seconds when she road that orgasm.
InuYasha gave a series of quick pumps before he emptied his essence into her. He let go of her knees and leaned his forehead against the wall for support. "Damn." He whispered.
Kagome giggled as she rested her head onto his shoulder, enjoying the peacful silence that followed after a moment such as this.
It was quiet and all that could be heard were their heavy and uneasy breathing.
"Kagome." InuYasha whispered.
She pulled back and looked up to bore into his deep amber eyes. "Yes." she lightly replied.
"I know already, but I just need to hear it."
"What?" She asked.
"Do you love me?"
Kagome quickly nodded. "Yeah, even when I said I didn't..." She looked down for minute. "I did. I always have."
"I love you, too." He said as he nuzzled her neck loving their combined scents.
"I know." Kagome whispered.
"But we have to seriously talk." InuYasha said.
"I know."
A/n: *Sigh* Finally got that one. I'm truly sorry for keeping you guys waiting for so long, but my computer shut down and wanted to be an asshole over the summer. I'm trying to catch up so please bear with me.