InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Heart Breakers League ❯ Medication ( Chapter 21 )

Alright… you may want to pull out a box of Kleenex for this chapter… seriously. That's really all I can say for now… at least until the end of it all…

 

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Rin slowly walked out from the silver elevator… her emotions fluttering within the walls of her stomach; on the outside, her clothes were ruffled and dark eyes distant, only a small secretive grin left ajar the tiny door of hidden feelings inside.

 

It was just so unexpected…

 

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Sesshomaru looked up at the seething girl before him. She had suddenly disturbed him in his quarters, barging into the room with such disrespect and nothing more but rage carved in her ever-glowing creamy orbs.

 

Rin bit her bottom lip, a futile attempt to stop the heaving breath escaping her sweet mouth. She stared selfishly into the eyes of the one man that would never accept her… want her for who she was… and for the first time, she felt lighter than a feather.

 

Audacity… she had finally done what she had always wanted to do! She would take this man on with every ounce of her being! She would stand up for her best friend… even if it meant losing the one and only man she had ever felt anything for… but that was her life… she was stupid enough to think that she would actually be allowed something and things turn out right in the end… that wasn't what the Gods wanted for her… no… she would have to sacrifice yet again.

 

Sesshomaru cleared his throat and glanced down at the curled, trembling fists upon his desktop, returning his eyes to the pretty face. “Can I help you?” He asked calmly.

 

The woman's eyes narrowed fiercely, the indifference in the man's voice adding fuel to the flames of hatred that had been burning for the past three weeks.

 

“You know damn well why I'm here Sesshomaru! It's been eating me alive for almost three weeks now! What you pulled on Kagome is unforgivable and I'm here to make you pay for it, you sick bastard!”

 

“Rin…”

 

“No! Shut up! You're going to listen to me! Kagome is one of my closest friends! And seeing her so miserable for so long… it's killing me! She loves him! She loves InuYasha so fucking much! And I can relate to her situation because now, she and I both have something we love but can never have!”

 

“Rin…”

 

“But unlike Kagome, I'm tired of holding onto someone that will never feel the same way about me as I do for him! Because he was so fucking selfish! You were so furious that InuYasha got to your `best agent' first! Weren't you!? And it ate at you, and ate at you until you finally decided to stab through it all, and watch it bleed out!”

 

Sesshomaru's eyes quickly glanced down at the white fists on his desk again, realizing that she was close to doing something drastic…

 

“Dammit Sesshomaru! I can't take it anymore! I can't stand to see Kagome suffer like this any longer! And I can't stand to suffer by having to work for you either… this is my last stand Sesshomaru… my last stand as a Heart Breaker's Agent! I-I Qui-”

 

Sesshomaru grabbed one of Rin's hands and pulled her around the desk, pinning her to the hard edge of it, running delicate fingers under her beautiful eyes and wiping away such pretty tears he had caused. “Is that… is that what you really think?” He smiled. “That I… love Kagome?”

 

Rin growled, trying to twist away, only to be pushed into a seated position on the desktop.

 

“Rin… how could I love Higurashi… what you are the woman that has been tugging at my heart?”

 

She gasped, eyes widening in disbelief. “Y-you're lying!” She cried out bitterly. “You've never showed any woman more respect than Kagome! It's obvious that you love her!”

 

Sesshomaru brought his lips to hers softly, “Only because she knew of my feelings for you... because… she promised not to say anything. What I feel for you Rin… is forbidden.”

 

The simple kiss he gave to her suddenly churned with complexity… he sent her mind blowing away completely with such confusion running in her eyes. This couldn't be right!? She had only fantasies of this in her dreams! And now here they were! Low and behold together, deepening their kiss ever-so-slightly.

 

Sesshomaru released the enchantment upon his love, tilting her chin back with a strong finger. “Tell me Rin… how could a woman like you be dragged into such a profession like the Heart Breakers League?”

 

Rin's eyes narrowed once again, returning to actuality where she thought he was toying with her emotions. “How can you ask me that!? I joined because I felt like it! And what do you mean by, a girl like me huh!? I may not be one of your top agents, but dammit, I work just as hard as they do!”

 

“It's only a question Rin… you don't have to get to defensive…” Sesshomaru chuckled.

 

“I'm not! I just don't see why men have to always pretend like they care in order to get what they want out of me!”

 

Sesshomaru pushed Rin onto her back and straddled her waist dominantly. “Don't stereotype me! I'm not pretending, I'm not lying, and I'm most definitely not trying to use you! I want to know how such an amazing woman had to walk through those silver elevator doors!” The man cried painfully.

 

“I want to know why the hell the Gods send such beautiful women into my hands! Every girl, every woman in this league… has had their hearts broken in more ways than one Rin! And they only come to me when they think that they just can't take it anymore! When death seems certain and when life seems bleak! And for you… to be one of them… it sickens me…”

 

Rin stared at the man on top of her… his pain jabbing at her conscience… she looked away with a heartfelt smile on her lips. “His name was Mitsu Hirohiji… and we were juniors in high school…”

 

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I don't need an education

I learnt all I need from you…

They've got me on some medication

My point of balance was askew…

It keeps my temperature from rising

My blood is pumping through my veins…

 

 

Sango stared into her iced coffee with a frown… Rin had just informed her that she was going to quit the league… because she couldn't take having to work for a man that hurt Kagome… and deep down, she just couldn't take the abuse of being ignored.

 

“Kagome… this feels so wrong… why don't you just find him… tell him that you still love him…” She looked up hopefully at her friend, who had just stopped what she was typing on the computer. Kagome had been lost in episodes of silence for the past three weeks and it was noticeably taking toll on her health. Keeping such painful emotions pent up inside her… it was a disease festering inside the walls of her heart.

 

“You know… Ayame told me that their concert is in three days… we could maybe… stop by and you could tell him the-”

 

 

Somebody get me out of here

I'm tearing at myself

Nobody gives a damn about me

or anybody else…

 

 

“…Stop it…” Kagome whispered resentfully. “JUST STOP IT SANGO!!!” the woman glared menacingly over her shoulder, tears swelling in her blood-shot eyes. “DON'T YOU GET IT YET!? HE WAS SUPPOSED TO KILL ME! HE WORKS WITH CRUSH! HAS ANY OF THIS GOTTEN INTO YOUR HEAD YET!?”

 

Sango kept a calm profile and sighed, “But don't you think that if he wanted to kill you… he would have? He would have killed you… but he loves you… so he didn't. That's enough to make me want to return to him… I don't see what you want from him though. I don't see what you are so afraid of… and you know what else?”

 

Kagome turned back to her work and started scribbling angrily on a post it note.

 

“I don't think I'll ever know…”

 

The woman froze, a single tear sliding down her warm cheek. “Sango… why did you join Heart Breakers?” She asked softly.

 

Sango smiled, memories of beatings and bruises flashing in her head. “My father… was an alcoholic and he had this necessity to beat my little brother and my mom.”

 

Kagome spun around in her chair at the sound of Sango's quivering voice… this was the first time they had really sat together and talked about something so personal. It was… horrible.

 

“But most of the time… almost all of the time… it was me.” Sango continued. “He told me it was because I was just a scared little girl… because I'd never make anything of myself… that I'd just be good as some man's sex item… and house wife. I was nothing… and then one day he, exploded on me… I had just walked in through the door from school when he came at me with his fist… the last thing I remember was crawling out of that house… in the most excruciating pain ever. I never looked back… and I never saw my mom or my little brother again. I still don't even know what set him off that day…”

 

Kagome's eyes focused on the tears rushing down her friends gorgeous features. “Oh Sango…”

 

“I-I l-lived… in a damp cardboard b-box for three months after that… and I got myself into some t-trouble with drugs and o-other shit. L-life seemed so cruel at the time… I was p-planning on k-killing myself that night… I had found a r-rusty knife in the garbage hours earlier… but then… he came. S-Sesshomaru… found me and offered me a place to stay… something decent to eat and w-wear… for the first time in three months… three long painful months… I felt so happy.”

 

“That's when he told me about this secret organization… the Heart Breakers League. And of course you already know… how successful I became at that.” Both girls laughed slightly, wiping away tears that had developed during the story.

 

“When I saw you walk in the next day Kagome… I took in how happy and strong and beautiful you were… and that's when I knew… I wanted to be just like you.”

 

Kagome smiled at her friend, pulling her into the warmest, most love-filled embrace she could muster… Sango had indeed, become exactly like her idol. But what she didn't know… was that she was already like Kagome from the day she was born.

 

Happy… Strong… and Beautiful…

 

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I wear myself out in the morning

You're asleep when I get home…

Please don't call me self defending

You know it cuts me to the bone…

And it's really not surprising

I hold a force I can't contain…

 

 

“Mitsu was… the most popular boy in school… and I was just an ordinary transfer student looking for somewhere to fit in.” Rin started, the dark memories haunting her through the emotion seeping from her eyes. “One day at lunch, he accidentally tripped over my bag and so I helped him up from the ground. And the look he gave me… made me blush. He asked how he could have overlooked me and invited me to sit with him and his friends… I guess I had found my place within the popular group.”

 

“By two moths, we were dating… and planning on going to the homecoming dance together. I was so ecstatic! I mean… being the one girl every girl in the school envied… it was amazing! But I guess that I should have thought twice about Mitsu Hirohiji… he took me to the dance like we had planned… but halfway through he told his friends we were leaving… I was a bit confused at first, but he told me that he wanted to go someplace where we could be alone…”

 

A sickening instinct in Sesshomaru's gut started twisting. “So you… slept with him?”

 

Rin gave him the saddest, most pitiful smile he had ever seen. “I did… and the next day… I went to school only to find pictures of us posted everywhere in the hallways. It turns out that his friends had followed us… and took pictures from a distance… he had sex with me to win twenty bucks from his friends… I was just a joke… a bet.”

 

“To make matters worse, I got pregnant… and when my parents found out… they kicked me out. I was forced to live at a home for unwed, pregnant mothers and at school, I was constantly being taunted and abused by my classmates… even the teachers would whisper things about me. And then one day after school… my history teacher tried to force himself on me; I smacked him and screamed that I would get him fired for trying to rape me but… he just smirked and told me that he'd get me sooner or later because… I was easy.”

 

“I ran down the stairs that day… crying… wishing that I had never done what I did… and I fell…”

 

 

Somebody get me out of here

I'm tearing at myself

Nobody gives a damn about me

or anybody else…

 

 

Sesshomaru's eyes shadowed over with fear. “You lost the baby?”

 

Rin shook her head. “No… but, because of the fall… it was born two months early…” Tears began falling from her eyes now, and her so far calm voice began coming out in chokes. “H-e was the most handsome baby b-boy I had ever seen! A-and I had to hold his lifeless body within my s-shaking arms! I c-ried for a baby that I never even w-wanted! A baby that I felt, had c-cursed me! But then when I was holding him… crying for him… I remembered that it was my fault! He should be alive today Sesshomaru! I should have died that night! I should be the one who's dead!”

 

Sesshomaru embraced Rin, knowing there was no way that he could fully console her… not even an ME could erase the pain she had gone through… ME's couldn't erase any of these miraculous women's pain. Sesshomaru pulled her closer to him… gripping her so tightly that is hurt even his chest… how he admired this girl… no, woman… how he admired them all… they had suffered so much and despite everything… despite the cruelty and pain… they continued living on… and he was their reason for living. He provided them such an amazing opportunity… and he now understood why he was graced with such wonderful gifts.

 

The Gods weren't sending them to him… he was searching for them.

 

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And still you call me co-dependent

Somehow you lay the blame on me

And still you call me co-dependent

Somehow you lay the blame on me…

 

 

Sango wiped away the tears in her eyes and smiled guiltily at her best friend. “I'm sorry… all my bickering must look so silly to you!” She laughed.

 

But Kagome frowned and shook her head. “No… not at all… but Sango… I feel it's my duty to tell you why I became a Heart Breaker.”

 

“I already know why…” Sango sniffled. “You're dad walked out on you when you were little.”

 

Kagome's lower lip began to tremble. “No… I lied Sango…”

 

The woman froze, “What…?”

 

“My dad didn't walk out on us… I told you that because… I didn't want to look weak in the eyes of other employees…”

 

“Kagome… I never think of you as a fellow employee… you've always been my best friend… I could never think less of you… no matter what.”

 

“Sango… my dad… was somewhat like yours except… when he beat my mom… he was perfectly sober.” Sango's smile faded instantly at the hazy pain in Kagome's eyes. “He never laid a hand on my brother and me though… it was always my mom. I remember asking her every night… `Mommy, why are you crying?' And the only thing she would do was smile, tuck me in, kiss me goodnight and tell me that the angels are watching me.”

 

“I guess finally she found the courage to find help… because for about a month I never saw my dad… and at first I wondered where he was… but as the days went by I noticed that… my mother began to smile more and more… and to me, as long as she kept smiling… I didn't care where daddy had gone.”

 

“And then he came back…” Sango could almost feel the flames burning in the way she had said those words… she really hated him. “It was really late at night when mom suddenly come running into my room with my six year old brother in her arms… and I could hear shouting and loud banging coming from outside of the house... it was daddy.”

 

Somebody get me out of here

I'm tearing at myself

I've got to make a point these days

To extricate myself…

 

 

“There was a lot of confusion on my part… because I was only eight at the time but… the desperateness in my mom's voice had me convinced that I needed to be a big girl… if just for that night. She told us both that she loved us… that she was sorry about always crying and never spending enough time playing with us… and that she loved us some more. By this time… I could hear glass shattering from downstairs and then things became more hectic and quick. She warned us… no… ordered us to stay quiet… that it was important we not make any sound and to stay under my bed no matter what happened. I could hear daddy storming up the stairs now… screaming some more… his speech slurred as though he were drunk. Mommy said her last goodbyes and rushed back to the stairs… trying to push him back down the hall.”

 

Kagome inhaled deeply, her hidden past flowing from her lips like a tragic nightmare… but it had really happened… it was real… it was horrifying… and she wanted it to end! “Souta and I watched from the open bedroom door… as mom kept screaming at him to get out of the house… that he wasn't allowed there and that she would call the police if he didn't leave. But he only slapped her and pushed her into a wall… and that's when I saw it… he pulled out a small pistol from under his shirt and aimed it at her pleading crying body…”

 

Somebody get me out of here

I'm tearing at myself

Nobody gives a damn about me

or anybody else…

 

 

Sango's heart skipped a beat, there was no way… “H-he shot her… through the stomach! He sh-shot mommy… and the loud fucking noise made both Souta and me jump… that's when he turned towards my b-edroom and began walking… we scrambled farther under the bed, thinking that he was going to come after u-us next but… he just sat down… and shot himself through his head!”

 

Kagome placed her head in her hands, allowing the years of pent up hatred and anger and sadness and pain to fall freely from her eyes and lips. “The look mommy g-gave him before she died… I-I thought that i-it was hatred… but… I was too young to realize that… it w-was fear.”

 

And still you call me co-dependent

Somehow you lay the blame on me

And still you call me co-dependent

 

 

“Th-the police brought both our parents out in b-body bags almost three hours later… and we were sent into foster care because neither one of my parents had living relatives… and the ones who were alive… on my m-om's side… hated us… we didn't belong… they would always tell the police that they didn't want their children playing with a killer's child!”

 

Sango wrapped her arms around her sobbing friend, knowing that this was the first time she had ever told anybody of her disturbing past. `InuYasha probably doesn't even know…'

 

Kagome quickly managed to regain her normal breathing pattern and started her story again. “When… Souta and I finally moved on from our childhood, he fell in love with a girl named Mizuki… and when he told me that they were getting married and were moving to Kyoto… I fell to pieces… I was losing another person whom I loved dearly… I never went to his wedding. I haven't seen him… in almost three years… but right now… all I want is…”

 

Sango smiled and hugged her friend tighter. “It's alright for you to say it Kag… it doesn't make you weak… having someone you love doesn't make you weak… just say it Kagome… tell me what you want… tell me what you deserve…”

 

“I WANT TO SEE INUYASHA!!!!” Kagome cried out desperately, clinging to her best friend for dear life. She did… she wanted to see him… she wanted to remember his smile, his laugh… she wanted to remember his kiss and touch… she wanted him. And she regretted ever letting him go…

 

“Alright Kagome… I'll find him for you…” Sango quietly promised… she would find him for her no matter what it took.

 

Somehow you lay the blame on me

Somehow you lay the blame on me

Somehow you lay the blame on me…

 

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“Are you sure that you want to do this…?”

 

Kagome had stabbed through his heart and ripped it out completely… he was now ready to do what he had to, in order to move on. InuYasha looked up at the beautiful young woman sitting on top of her desk and took his shirt off.

 

“Yes…”

 

 

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Rin slowly walked out from the silver elevator… her emotions fluttering within the walls of her stomach; on the outside, her clothes were ruffled and dark eyes distant, only a small secretive grin left ajar the tiny door of hidden feelings inside.

 

It was just so unexpected…

 

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WAAHHH!!! Don't murder me!!! I know it took me a long time but… I did it! I finally wrote more to my fic! I really really reallllly want to thank Miss Portia (ADarkNightsObsession) Her review seriously made me so giddy I just had to freakin write more! LMAO Thanks a lot sweetness! I Heart you!!!

 

The Sad song I used here was called Medication by Garbage.

 

See ya'll soon! You'll love the next chap… I think… LOL