InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Heart of the Pack ❯ Heart of the Pack ( One-Shot )

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha!

Rating: NC-17

Genre: Angst/Shounen ai (No romance though)

Heart of the Pack

Nobody knows the bullshit I have to go through. It's really stupid too. Trying to keep my pack happy. It's a tough job. But Hakurou had to choose me. That's what I get I guess. Many would be obligated if they had gotten the role of leader of the pack.

Nevertheless, I didn't want it.

Sure, I boast about it to other people. Saying I am a leader of one of the divisions of a wolf pack, making me a prince to wolves. However, I only boast to keep people's little imaginary world up. Don't want to break any dreams… now do I?

Being the leader of a pack is the most whacked up job anyone can get. Tell Inukoro to be a leader of a pack like mine, he'd be happy. His 'pack' consists of my woman, a small raccoon or badger demon whatever the younger one is, a monk, a taijiya, and a cat demon.

If Inukoro would be the leader of a real pack, he would think it would be cool. He'd boast about it, until he had to really be there for them. You have to always be there for them… in everything! You are the one who has to protect them, tell them where the food is, the one giving orders, the one delievering the pups, the one making the pups, the one satisfying anyone of the pack's lustful desires.

As foolish as it sounds, but as pack leader, you have to give in to a bitch in heat, it is your duty to see that everyone is happy. That is one of the reasons why I am trying to convince the elders I have fallen in love with Kagome.

Being a pack leader and loving a human is unforgivable to the wolf elders. They just tell me I am lying. They are in denial! I really love Kagome! I love the way she smiles, the way she yells at Inukoro, the way she cares about me, the way she laughs, the way she walks, the way she talks, I love her silly kimono!

But the one thing I do not love, is that she doesn't love me. Everyone thinks that I don't know she doesn't love me… whatever… I may act dumb, but I know she loves that Inukoro, but I forgive her for that… I kept trying to change her love for him by coming around her as much as I can.

I don't want to loose her.

Then there is Ayame… Now here is a fucked up thing, I love her too. But not as much as Kagome, mind you! I love Kagome with everything I got, it's just a part of me feels bad for Ayame, and I love her… but she could never compete with a pure soul like Kagome's.

Ayame is very determined and feisty, I like that. But then again, so is Kagome. When I look at Ayame I see that moon's rainbow, everyone thought I forgot, like I said… let them live in their dream states. I'd rather them see me as a forgetful fool than what I really am…

A beaten okami youkai.

Inukoro has beaten me for Kagome's love, Naraku has beaten me, and I know that I'll probably end up dying in the battle, another reason to make sure Ayame stays away from me. But most of all… My comrades have beaten me physically.

They never have hurt me; no, they just beat me down with their lust… that's all they think about. I don't know how many times I've had to go through a threesome between Ginta and Hakkaku. That's one reason they are always so close to me. They like my sex.

I hate to boast, but I must be an animal at sex, because everyone always compliments me about my sex, how good I am, how good I taste… everything. I tell them thanks and that they are good as well. Which makes them happy, and that's what I live for… to make my comrades happy.

My first time I had sex was when I was just an adolescent. Hakurou had chosen me to become the next leader of course, I was excited! I never knew he would have chosen me, it just made my day. Until that night…

~~

It was a cold night, I had to spend the night with Hakurou, getting to know the ropes of leadership. Hakurou smiled at a young Kouga. "Kouga… you have to do everything for the pack when you become leader." Kouga smiled. "I know! I am going to make a good leader!" His tail wagged.

Hakurou chuckled. "Such a good boy Kouga." He smiled. "Now for the last lesson…" My last lesson as he called it was my worst nightmare… Hakurou took off Kouga's armor, slowly. Kouga blinked in confusion as he sat naked. "Hakurou-sama?" Hakurou put a finger to his lips. "Shh…"

Kouga's eyes widened as he saw Hakurou underess, seeing his massive member. "You're so beautiful Kouga… compared to all the other okami-youkai… you'll have a tough time when you become leader, all the okami youkai women will want to mate with you."

Hakurou captured Kouga's lips. How I wanted to bite those lips that were tainting me, but I knew of the consequences when you hurt the leader. Kouga whimpered as he felt the hard member of Hakurou. Hakurou chuckled as Kouga's boyhood hardened. "For a kid your age, you have a big one."

Kouga sucked in a breath as Hakurou patted at the genitalia. Kouga panted. Hakurou put a finger in his mouth, dripping it with saliva, inserting into Kouga's entrance, causing him to yelp. Hakurou smiled as he moved the finger around, then added another. Kouga growled in pain, soon three fingers were in his entrance.

Hakurou smiled. "You're ready." He thrusted his manhood into Kouga's entrance. Kouga yelped loudly as Hakurou pumped in and out, Kouga whimpered as he felt himself go weak of pain. I hated that bastard who took my innocence away…

"Okay Kouga, now you have to do the same with someone else. I don't care who." Kouga looked up at him. "No way…"

~~

I didn't want to do that to anyone after that… after all that pain I went through, but if I didn't, I'd be forced to leaving the pack, and being a lone wolf wasn't what I wanted so I chose my closest and dearest friend… he was older than me by three years and that made him a man.

~~

Kouga sighed. "Ginta… ano…" "Hai Kouga? Or should I say Kouga-sama!" joked Ginta. Kouga smiled. "Iie… that's quite all right… Hakurou… he wanted me to… um… have sex with someone and…" Ginta smiled. "Kouga! I'm honored you'd choose me!! But I have a better idea."

Leave it to a perverted male, yes, he is man, but he had just turned man, making his hormones running a muck. "Let me call Hakkaku in." He ran off, leaving Kouga confused, once he returned Hakkaku had a lecherous grin on his face. "Okay…"

The two had begun to undress. Ginta grabbed hold of Kouga, who was stripped by Hakkaku. Kouga winced slightly as Ginta thrust his merchandise into him, but unlike Hakurou, he waited until everything was all right and then started the rhythm. Kouga grunted in pleasure.

Hakkaku smiled. "Now say 'Aah'." "Aa--!!" Hakkaku had stuck his manhood into Kouga's mouth. "Don't panic Kouga, just bob you head in and out rhythm." Kouga did as told and heard Hakkaku moan, Kouga lapped at his manhood, as he felt Ginta pump into him like crazy. Hakkaku took Kouga's boyhood and pumped at it.

Kouga screamed as he released. Ginta groaned loudly as her released his seed, Hakkaku followed him, the two left Kouga, who was panting, wiping his mouth and shivering.

~~

Many find it disgusting, two or more males going at it, but with us wolf demon, it doesn't matter as long as it's your own kind and you get your business done. How I hated that. Why could I be with Kagome? That stupid Inukoro doesn't know how to treat a woman; hell, he doesn't even know how to talk to one without being yelled at.

Why can't he just run off with that dead bitch he is cheating on Kagome with!! No, that would only hurt Kagome, and send her away from here… back to her own country. Life sucks, especially for me… Because even if given the chance to be with Kagome… I wouldn't take it.

My hands, my body, my eyes are too tainted for her… I don't want to taint her anymore than that Inukoro already has. I would kill myself I ever did. I love her too much to do something like that to her.

Therefore, for now, I act like the fool everyone thinks I am, when deep inside… I am not as they see me… I am not the simple, forgetful Kouga everyone says I am. I dream of the sky, which I want to touch.

I think of all the things I did in my life, and wish it were different. However, most of all… I ache for Kagome to accept me, to wash away burden of the pack, and run along side me. Just ignore my faults and my past and love me.

For me.

<THE END>

One of the few Kouga fics out there ^_~ I hope you Kouga fans enjoyed. I truly think this what happens in packs, but maybe that's just me. ^^;;