InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Hearts in Denial ❯ Fear on Silenced Lips ( Chapter 5 )

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Disclaimer: I didn't get InuYasha for Christmas pooh, oh well I did get an InuYasha tee shirt as well as Vol. 12, 13 and 14 of the Manga.

(A/N: Well, here I am, I'm updating this story, hope this chapter is interesting to you all who have been kind enough to review. This chapter includes a song written by yours truly. It's called Fade Away; if you think its crappy, well, then I'm sorry for those of you who think so.)

Chapter 5: Fear on Silenced Lips

By Tainted InuShemeeko

Even his demon speed couldn't help him find Kagome's doctor very fast, which only served to tick him off more, why was it you could never find someone when you really needed them? This was a hospital; you were supposed to be able to find help when you needed it. InuYasha then grabbed the nearest nurse he could find.

“Hey you, I did a doctor in Kagome Higurashi's room right away. She's starting to regain consciousness.”

The nurse looked at him in confusion.

“Excuse me, sir, what did you say?”

Once he hadrealized what he had just said, InuYasha shook his head clear.

`Damn, Rin and Sesshomaru were right. I need some rest, I can't even talk right. Never mind about that right now, Kagome needs me right now.'

“Never mind what I said before, I need a doctor in Kagome Higurashi's room right away. She's starting to come to.”

Once hearing InuYasha's correct words, the nurse hurried off to page a doctor.

“Dr. Jiro, report to room 221. Dr. Jiro, report to room 221.”

Once he was sure a doctor was on the way he slowly started to make his way back toward Kagome's room. She had to come back to them, to him. They'd been through so much together through out the years. He just couldn't lose her, not yet; then again he might lose her any way. Being paralyzed and mute; that was a lot for a person to handle.

`Just hang in there Kagome; I'll be by your side the whole time.'

InuYasha continued to think things though in his mind as he made his way back to Kagome rooms. His ears and nose twitched at the sounds and smells in hospitals. He really did hate them, but for Kagome he would put up with them for as long as he had too.

`You held my hand throughout the years,

You warmed my heart with your smile.

Now, I find myself racing through time,

I've gotta stop it somehow

And find a way to keep you here, beside of me ~

Once he got there, InuYasha watched as Kagome's eyes fluttered open, and her fingers twitched as she moved her fingers. His golden orbs focused in on Sango as one of the nurses escorted her out of the room. InuYasha sighed as he saw and smelled fresh tears roll down her cheeks. He really hated it when people cried. Then again who was he to talk, hadn't he cried as well?

Not knowing what he could do to comfort her, InuYasha walked up to her and gently touched her shoulder. Before he even had a chance to say anything Sango turned and leaned into his shoulder as she continued to sob.

“She tried to speak to me while you were gone.”

Fresh tears cascaded once again down her cheeks as she looked at InuYasha. The look in Sango's eyes as she continued to speak caused his heart to bleed.

“Kagome looked happy at first, but then when she tried to speak… she looked so scared and I couldn't do anything for her.”

InuYasha's ears twitched and swiveled in the direction of Kagome's room. His sensitive ears could hear one of the nurses talking to Kagome in a harsh manner, which InuYasha didn't approve of at all. Gently releasing Sango, he then made his way back to Kagome's room.

`Now you're slipping away

you're fading away and

you're leaving me behind

in a haze, I find myself

without you, trying to hold on`

He was surprised by what he saw going on in Kagome's room, an intern doctor and a few of the nurses. Were getting a little rough with Kagome or at least InuYasha thought they were. InuYasha's heart crack as he watched Kagome struggle against the people trying to hold her down. That's when he snapped; he just couldn't stand there and do nothing.

“Hey what the hell are you doing? You're scaring her more than you're helping her.”

The young doctor turned to look at InuYasha.

“We need to check her vitals and give her another dose of pain medicine. We can't do that if she doesn't sit still. Restraining her is the only other way to do this.”

InuYasha couldn't believe what he was hearing; he was acting like Kagome was some sort of animal. She was a human being, she even worked here and by the looks in some of the nurses' eyes, they were friends with Kagome.

“I could be wrong here, but wouldn't it benefit Kagome if you actually treated her like a person?”

He ignored the stares he received as he pushed his way into Kagome's room. She needed him right now; the fear that he sensed rolling off of her caused his own stomach to roll. InuYasha put on his best smirk as he made his way to Kagome. Yet the moment his golden orbs caught hers a deep wave of guilt crashed into him.

Kagome's normally bright eyes were glazed over with tears. She was so scared yet at the same time he could see anger sparking its way into her eyes. InuYasha knew who Kagome was angry at, she was angry at herself for not being able to stop the demon who had done this to her. Something else shone in her eyes a dullness that had never been there before. It made InuYasha wonder if Kagome would ever be the Kagome they all remembered, ever again.

`Lost in a Labyrinth, trying to find

my way out of the darkness

I need you beside me

Tell me how do I get back?

Can you show me the way to go?~

InuYasha glanced over at the nurses and then at the intern doctor. That's when a low yet audible growl rumbled from inside InuYasha's throat. The growl was so forceful that it caused the nurses to back out of the room slowly, while the intern ran out the door screaming. However the young man's actions only caused InuYasha to smirk after him. When he turned back to Kagome she was glaring at him, to which InuYasha frowned back at her as he spoke.

“Hey, don't get mad at me, it's not like I did anything to him. He was being an ass to you, it wasn't right.”

The fire that had been in Kagome's eyes a few seconds ago, were quickly replaced with tears once again. At the sight of tears InuYasha scrambled to get them to stop. For if she starting crying he was afraid that his own defenses would break again.

“Aw, come on, Kagome, please don't cry. You know how flustered I get when you cry.”

He then gently placed a hand beneath her chin, and slowly lifted her head up, until her chocolate orbs met with his honey ones.

“Come on Kagome, will you smile for me, please? I was really scared, Kagome. I was afraid that I was going to lose you. I don't know what I would have done.”

Kagome's chocolate orbs glittered with tears as she forced a small smile to her lips. Her heart stopped for a moment as InuYasha placed a gentle kissed on her forehead. The minute they had met in College the two had clashed at first, and then some how they had started to become friends instead. Yet the moment he kissed her forehead, Kagome felt herself freeze as her stomach hardened; right before the butterflies appeared.

However instead of backing away, Kagome found herself falling forward into InuYasha's embrace. Feeling Kagome's small frame leaning into his well defined chest, he slowly and gently wrapped his strong arms around her. The moment he did this he felt Kagome's body shake as whizzing sobs racks her body. Those tears that she had tried to hold back just for him came spilling out, soaking the front of his red shirt as he sat on the bed with her.

`I was so afraid InuYasha; I didn't think I would ever see you again. The thought of leaving without saying good bye hurt more then you'll ever know.'

InuYasha rubbed Kagome's back soothingly as he spoke to her in a gentle voice.

“Everything's going to be ok; I'll be here the whole time to help you through this. I'll never leave you alone again. I should have stayed there that night; if I had, none of this would have ever happened. ”

`Cuz, you're slipping away

you're fading away and

you're leaving me behind,

in haze I find myself, without you

I'm just trying to hold on. ~

Kagome stiffened at hearing InuYasha's words. He was blaming himself for what had happened to her. No he couldn't do that he just couldn't it wasn't right. InuYasha wasn't the one to blame for her being beat, mutilated, and almost raped.

`No InuYasha, don't blame yourself. Please don't do that for me it's not your fault, you're not the one to blame.I am. I'm the one to blame;I should have listened to you.'

InuYasha slowly lifted his head to see Dr. Jiro walking into Kagome's room. His molten honey orbs then drifted to Kagome, who had fallen asleep against him. Dr. Jiro waved to him not to move her as of yet.

“You're fine; InuYasha with Kagome asleep against you like that it makes it easier to give her something for the pain. I am deeply sorry it took me so long to get here, another patient was keeping me.”

InuYasha however just shrugged his shoulders as he watched the doctor slide the needle into Kagome's arm and inject the medicine. Kagome barely moved at all, she seemed sure that she was safe where she was. Dr. Jiro just smiled up at InuYasha as he spoke to him.

“Kagome seems more relaxed now that you are here. I apologize for my intern's behavior. Nobunaga means well, I'm sure Kagome scared him as much as he scared her. It's only his third day on the job. I have faith in him, you should too. Then again I may never get him back after you growled at him.”

InuYasha's cheeks flushed as he looked away from the doctor. His reaction caused Dr. Jiro to chuckle lightly.

“It's all right InuYasha, Nobunaga is new here. So he is still getting use to the reactions of some of the locals. I'm just lucky you weren't so angry at him that you lost control over yourself.”

Dr. Jiro's warm honey brown eyes glanced over at InuYasha once more. He had known InuYasha for half of his life and he knew that he would probably die long before InuYasha. However there was something special about him, his loyalty to his friends out weighed everything else. The sound of InuYasha's voice brought him out of his thoughts.

“I didn't really mean to scare him; I wasn't even planning on growling. When I saw him leaning over Kagome like that, with his hands on her shoulders; I just lashed out I had to protect her.”

A warm chuckle came from Dr. Jiro once again as his honey brown eyes glanced over at InuYasha once more.

“Don't worry about it, InuYasha; you were just doing what came natural to you. You were protecting someone that you cared about; there is no harm in that. Like I said earlier, Nobunaga still has a lot to learn, but he'll get it soon enough.”

InuYasha's golden eyes glanced at Kagome's sleeping form as he gently laid her back in her bed. His eyes then met with the warm yet sad honey brown eyes of Dr. Jiro.

“Tell me Dr. Jiro, will Kagome ever be able to talk or walk ever again. I'm grasping at straws here and I need to know. I need to know if I'm going to lose her.”

`So can you stay with me tonight,

and promise you won't fade away?

Don't fade away, fade away

Cuz, I can't live without you. ~

Dr. Jiro's voice was somber as he spoke to InuYasha. He wanted to tell him that there was no away he was going to lose her, however he just couldn't guarantee it. Of course he knew that InuYasha was not afraid that Kagome was going to die any longer. It was of her mental health that InuYasha was worried. She had suffered a traumatic experience and her ability of speech as well as the ability to walk had been stolen from her.

InuYasha's golden orbs took in the doctor's face; it proved the one thing that he was afraid of. Dr. Jiro fear the same thing that he did, they both were afraid that Kagome would slowly start to close herself up in a shell. In doing that she would be doing her best to keep them out. The calm and serious voice of Dr. Jiro voice as he spoke knocked InuYasha from his thoughts.

“There are at least two surgeries I would like to have done on Kagome's vocal cords. There is a very high percentage that we will be able to help her body fix the damage done to them. Of course I will be bringing in the best doctor in that field. She's a specialist in this particular case, Dr. Ayame Kuni. I have the utmost respect for her, and although she is very talkative, she takes her work seriously.”

InuYasha thought over the things that the doctor had just told him; there was a chance that Kagome might be able to speak again, which meant there was a good chance that she would be able to tell them who had done this to her.

InuYasha slowed his pacing as he looked over at the doctor again and asked,

“So then if Kagome has these surgeries, then there's a chance she'll be able to talk again?”

Jiro's voice was soft yet still remained serious as he answered InuYasha's question.

“Yes, InuYasha, I truly believe that she will be able to speak again some day. However, it will not happen quickly it will be something that will happen over time. Kagome will also have to go through speech therapy, something that will no doubt frustrate her at first.”

InuYasha nodded his head in understanding. He knew that the task that now lay before Kagome were not going to be easy one's for her to accomplish on her own. That's why he had already made plans to be there for her at every step. There was just one more thing that he needed to ask Dr. Jiro before he let him go, he just had to know.

“What about her legs? Will she ever be able to walk again?”

A wave of guilt crashed into InuYasha hard, as he saw the saddened look on Dr. Jiro's face. The doctor's honey brown eyes were cast down in sadness as he spoke; his voice was barely above a whisper. If InuYasha has been a human right now he was sure that he wouldn't have heard what the doctor was saying to him. The fact that the doctor was no longer using his first name was a little unsettling.

“Mr. WindScar, I wish there was more to tell you there. Truth be told, I have no idea whether or not Ms. Higurashi will ever be able to walk again. However, I have a friend and colleague that lives's in Kyoto. I plan on calling Mr. Sohma this evening once my shift is over. I plan on filling him in on Ms. Higurashi's condition, my one hope is that Mr. Sohma will feel up to the task and take Kagome's case.”

InuYasha's gaze never left the doctor as he spoke to him.

“You trust him that much with Kagome?”

Dr. Jiro laid a comforting hand on InuYasha's shoulder, as he spoke words of reassurance to InuYasha.

“Frankly, InuYasha, I wouldn't trust anyone else with this. I would entrust my own life in the hands of Dr. Sohma. That is how much faith I have in his abilities, I can think of no one else to look into what kind of nerve damage was done to Kagome's spine.”

Jiro then looked at his watch and kindly excused himself.

“I must be on my way InuYasha. I have another patient waiting to see me; if you need me for anything, you know how to get a hold of me.”

InuYasha nodded a yes to Jiro as he turned to leave, to which the doctor then turned around to look at him.

“InuYasha, if you plan on being there for Kagome you should get some rest. Remember even demons need sleep sometimes. You won't do her any good if you becomeill because of lack of sleep.”

For a moment InuYasha just stared after Dr. Shuzo Jiro, as he disappeared down the hallway. That's when a memory from yesterday came to him; it was something that Dr. Jiro had said that had triggered it.

“Come, InuYasha, you will come home with Rin and me tonight. For if you refuse I will have to commit you to the hospital tonight, you will do the girl no good if you do not take care of yourself.”

It was now that InuYasha realized something; not only were the two looking out for him, but they were right. He wouldn't do Kagome any good if he came sick or was too tired to be there if she needed him. InuYasha then turned and headed back toward Kagome's room, he glanced at Sango who was once again at Kagome's side. Yet he paid her no mind as he made his way to the small couch that sat in the room.

He wasn't sure how long he had been sitting there watching Kagome as she slept. Sango had left a little while ago to get something to eat and drink. She had offered to bring a snack back to him, but he had kindly said no and that Rin had fed him a late breakfast so he was fine. It was now that InuYasha felt his eyes drifting closed as continue to keep an eye on Kagome.

`Damn, I didn't realize just how tired I was until now.'

A few minutes later and InuYasha had fallen into a peaceful sleep. Sango had smiled at him as she saw that he had fallen asleep while she had been gone.

`He puts up a tough guy act, just so he won't appear to be weak to anyone. If he could only see how strong he truly is already.'

Sango then sighed as she continued her visual over Kagome and the now sleeping InuYasha. She then giggled as something Kagome had said to her years ago. Kagome was right InuYasha was cute when he was asleep, especially the way his ears twitched back and froth on top of his head.

Time had passed quickly as Sango had sat in the hospital room with Kagome and InuYasha, so much so that Sango herself had fallen asleep. Her eyes snapped open suddenly at the feeling of a new presence in the room with them. As she turned to see who the new presence she was surprised by who she saw there.

“Sesshomaru, what are you doing here?”

Sesshomaru stood a mere three inches away from her. The expression on his stoic face was unreadable; his normally cold eyes held something strange within them as he watched Kagome battered body continue to hold onto life.

“I have merely come to drag my pathetic little brother home with me, so he can rest. However it would seem that he has already fallen asleep, that will only make it easier for me to get him home.”

Sango then watched as Sesshomaru walked over to InuYasha's sleeping form and lift him into his arms. If InuYasha was already sleeping then why was Sesshomaru taking him home?

“Sesshomaru, I don't understand InuYasha is already asleep. So why does he need to go home with you?”

Sesshomaru smirked at Sango's stupidity then again, a lot had happen over the last couple of days. So it would have been easy for the human to forget so easily.

“Tonight is the night of InuYasha's change. It is the night of the New Moon; he is more vulnerable at that time then any other. I may despise him at times, however he is my little brother and if he is to die one day, I shall be the one that decides this.”

Sango continued to stare at Sesshomaru as he seemly prepared to leave with InuYasha. There was one thing she was glad of; she was glad that Sesshomaru wasn't her brother. She had always known that InuYasha and Sesshomaru were rivals, but she would have never guessed that the one wanted to kill the other. Suddenly a question surfaced in Sango's mind causing her to speak it aloud.

“Um Sesshomaru, if you don't mind me asking. Won't InuYasha's transformation? Be seen, while you are taking him home?”

Sesshomaru smirked at Sango's naïve question; it was now that he realized that perhaps the woman should have followed in her ancestors' footsteps. If she had then she would have more knowledge of just what his kind was capable of doing. Once he had decided that he had been silent long enough, Sesshomaru's cold and stoic voice broke through the silence.

“You forget, Sango, that I am not a mere human like yourself, but an Inu Youkai. I do not need to travel by car as you do, for I have my own natural transportation that is even faster then a simple vehicle, so I will reach my home in a matter of seconds and InuYasha's hidden weakness will be safe.”

Right before he and InuYasha disappeared in a bright ball of blue and white light, Sesshomaru said something to Sango that caught her completely off guard.

“As for you, you should call it a night. It would be unhealthy for you to put any more stress on your body. Surely that can not be good for your unborn child.”

After that was said, Sesshomaru and InuYasha were gone, leaving behind a very stunned and disbelieving Sango. Was he telling her the truth? Was she truly pregnant like she had first thought? Then again Sesshomaru was an Inu Youkai, and his and InuYasha's sense of smell was incredible. Sango had guessed that if InuYasha had been so distracted that he would have said something to her himself.

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InuYasha's smoky brown eyes slowing started to take in the room he was in, as his human eyes adjusted to the change of light. Once he had fully taken in the bedroom he was in, his eyes widened in surprise. InuYasha rubbed his eyes franticly hoping that this was all a dream and he was not where he thought he was. After rubbing and then blinking his eyes, InuYasha had to accept the reality that he was in. By now InuYasha was positive that he was in one of Sesshomaru's guest rooms.

The only thing that he had yet to figure out was how he had gotten there in the first place. The last thing he could remember was being in Kagome's hospital room and instead of waking up there he was in Sesshomaru's home.

“SESSHOMARU!”

InuYasha growled as he sat up in the bed. His ebony locks falling forward with the movement. That's when the soft and familiar voice of Rin interrupted him.

“Oh I see that you are awake. Sesshomaru warned me that you wouldn't be happy with him when you woke up. Oh you have some visitors here to see you; they came a few minutes ago. I told them you were asleep and they said they would wait awhile and see if you woke up. One of them is Kikyo and the other one is…”

Rin's words trailed off as the morning sun started to rise over the horizon. Rin's warm cinnamon eyes widened in amazement as InuYasha's human body pulsed as his demon powers slowly started to return to him. Once every ounce of his demon powers had returned, InuYasha's body stopped pulsing. His nose twitched as a pungent order drifted to his senses. A low growl rumbled out of his throat as InuYasha snarled out one word, as though the mere thought of it made him sick.

“Naraku. What's that bastard doing here?”

Ignoring Rin's pleading and warning, InuYasha stomped out into the living room. His molten golden eyes were on fire as he glared draggers at Naraku. Kikyo didn't seem to notice how the two hanyous were glaring at each other.

“InuYasha, I am glad that you have been able to get some true rest. I was beginning to worry about you.”

InuYasha on the other hand just snarled at Kikyo.

“What the hell is he doing here? Sesshomaru banded him from ever stepping foot in this house ever. So why the hell is he here now?”

Trying his best to stay calm, as well as stay in front of Rin the best he could. His voice was low and dangerous as he spoke to Kikyo.

“Kikyo, I want to thank you for coming. Now get him out of here before I kill him.”

Rin was starting to panic as she watched InuYasha's eyes flash from gold to red and then back. Her voice followed by her body started to shake as a dark aura started to pour off from Naraku.

“Um, Kikyo, I think InuYasha is right, the two of you should leave.”

At first Kikyo was going to ask just why they had to leave, when as of yet Naraku hadn't done anything. That was until…

TBC

(A/N: Sorry for the long wait, had other ideas I had to take care of first. See as promised the story line will continue to get interesting. I want to thank everyone who has been reading this story, whether on ff dot net or Media Miner dot org.

Ja ne!

Tainted InuShemeeko)