InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Heartsick ❯ Heartsick ( One-Shot )

Title: Heartsick

Author: Niku

Summary: A one-shot in Kagome's point-of-view about her feelings for a certain hanyou.

A/N: Originally I had a one-shot called 'Love is Painful'. But I deleted it and so I'm revising it with this new and better one-shot. Enjoy ^_^

Disclaimer: I will never own Inuyasha, *sigh*

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Three years…Has it really been that long?

I couldn't believe how much time, years, months, minutes and seconds passed when with you.

I could still remember when I climbed out of the well to this unknown world.

When I met you with so much curiosity blinding my thoughts.

Since that day I never saw it coming, what fate had in store for me.

I wonder what would have happen if I listened to wise words instead of you.

Would have I died at the wrath of the centipede demon while you watched trapped on that tree? What about if I never shot that arrow at the crow demon?

I never thought in my wildest dreams, I would have to fulfill this journey with you.

To have destiny come knocking at my life saying to stay with you in this world of yours.

I never knew what would happen when I tried to gain your friendship or trust.

I never knew that I would have these feelings, these emotions that would be strongly for you.

I should have ignored those feelings thinking is was nothing. But it wasn't, I've realized they were stronger than that when I learned and saw a glimpsed of your past.

And knowing you can not feel the same when you stare at my face thinking of her.

Someone who would hold your heart strongly.

How can I compete with someone like that who risked their life being with you and eventually died, but came back because of you?

I wonder if you notice me staring at you longingly, sadly while you promised yourself to her. And when you tried to protect and reason with her from the enemy and I ran away from your sad expression. Then, I learned the truth in my heart. I loved you.

But I knew it was a pointless emotion for you feel this feeling for someone else. I would just keep these feelings locked up inside me.

Maybe there is hope, but I'm never sure. There is still this deep feeling of doubt.

Just knowing you care enough to trust me...protect me feels my heartsick void, but never enough to make me feel wholesome.

So I will just hold this secret from you. And I would still feel myself floating in my void that would never be full.

Maybe someday I might open my treasure chest and show you my most cherished fortune. And I'll give you my whole.

But would you reject it? Will you throw it out for making me to pick up the pieces?

Or will you smile and return the feeling?

I will never know…But what if my emotions are not returned what will I do?

What will I do if you don't feel the same?

Can I forget you? Can I try to move on?

Maybe… but I know it will be tough. I'll be filled with much grieve, but I'll try.

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I deeply want to say,

What's in my heart.

But if I was to tell you the truth,

It will bring me to tears.

You think that I only see you as a friend,

But I can't get you off my head.

I need to organize my thoughts.

See I don't really know what I feel.

This is too painful to be real.

I remember the first time I saw you,

I never thought I liked you.

Now I know that I can't go on,

Without you my life stops.

I know you will never feel this way,

And I refuse to play this silly game.

So I guess this is goodbye,

I just don't want to try.

Hope you have a good life,

I'll eventually get you off my mind.

---- Lizeth Ramos

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A/N: So tell me what you think and review (Can't you almost hear me begging? ^^)