InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Heaven and Earth ❯ Hurtful Confessions ( Chapter 21 )

WARNING! This chapter contains yaoi and incest of an explicit nature.

 

Chapter 21: Hurtful Confessions

 

Oi - hey

Uke - submissive partner (in context of a sexual situation)

Ritoru konohou - little one

Ne - indicates emphasis, agreement; request for confirmation

 

Inuyasha woke first, back to his hanyou form, with something soft and fluffy tangled around his naked body. He soon realized it was Sesshoumaru's tail. Wow, this feels really nice, he thought, as he stroked the white fur and pushed his face into the plush hairs.

 

“What are you doing to my tail?” Sesshoumaru asked, giving his transformed brother a teasing smirk.

 

“Eh? Um…nothing,” Inuyasha blushed, trying to disengage himself. He was shocked when he felt it tighten around him a bit more. I didn't know he could do that. I mean I've seen him put it around Rin but I didn't know he could use it like this. Even when we made love; it was just over his shoulder as always. His eyes went wide, transmitting his surprise to his brother.

 

“Prehensile,” Sesshoumaru told him, looking at his younger brother with a glint in his eyes.

 

“Oi, Sesshoumaru, what are you thinking?” the hanyou asked a bit nervously.

 

Sesshoumaru slithered his tail sensuously around Inuyasha's body, pulling the hanyou closer and closing his mouth over the half demons. He moaned as he felt his younger brother responding, Inuyasha pushing his tongue against Sesshoumaru's lips, wanting to explore his hot cavern.

 

Sesshoumaru opened, allowing his brother to take over the kiss. He loved the silky feel of Inuyasha's tongue as it caressed over his fangs, the way it made his groin ache as it entwined with his own tongue.

 

Inuyasha broke the kiss with a gentle groan.

 

“We have only made love to each other when we were human, shall we do it as demons?” Sesshoumaru asked huskily, stroking his brother's body with the end of his tail. Inuyasha nodded, grinning sexily.

 

“You want to go first?” The older demon asked, willing to be the uke for their first time in their natural forms. He found that when he remembered back to when he was human, he had found that to be most liberating and wanted to experience that again. Besides he could always take over if he wanted.

 

Inuyasha responded by pushing the demon over on his back, his long white hair cascading down covering both of them, cutting out sight of the rest of the world around them. He clasped his hand around his brother's looking deeply into his expressive, brown eyes. “I love your eyes like this, so much better than those cold, heartless ones,” Inuyasha whispered before bring his lips down again on his lovers.

 

Sesshoumaru moaned at the sensation of his brother's bare skin against his own and the feel of that tongue swirling in his mouth making his head swim. He kept his tail wrapped loosely around the half demon, letting the end of it trail over his brother's back to curl around his thigh.

 

Inuyasha took his lips from his brother's mouth and brought them to bear on his neck instead, using his fangs to nip gently down the pale throat until he found the spot where his marks were standing out prominently. Here he licked languorously, causing Sesshoumaru to moan out wildly, his tail to grip more fiercely around Inuyasha's muscular thigh.

 

The hanyou smirked against the skin of his brother's neck, still so responsive, he thought to himself as he continued to swirl his tongue over those four small marks. He reached downward and took his brother in his hand, stroking firmly as he now pressed his fangs into the indentations, drawing the demon lord's spicy blood into his mouth. Inuyasha's head spun and his vision blurred at the demonic energy that coursed its way through his system as he swallowed the blood. He had never felt so sexually aroused before in his life and he could wait no longer, his brother's essence acting like a powerful aphrodisiac to him.

 

“Sesshoumaru,” he said huskily against his brother's neck, “I have to be inside you, I can't hold out.” He could feel his older brother's breath panting against his cheek as he climbed fully on top of his demon lover, pressing himself against the unprepared opening.

 

“Do it, Inuyasha,” he gasped, trying his best to relax his muscles.

 

The hanyou forced the tip of his manhood in and then thrust quickly all the way to the hilt, opening the wound that had closed on his brother's neck and again taking in more of that hot, powerful blood.

 

Sesshoumaru howled out at the dual sensations of pleasure and pain, his turn now to rake his claws against the hanyou's back, drawing blood.

 

The sting of the claws against his back only seemed to fuel Inuyasha's passion and he began to thrust deeply in and out of his brother, revelling in the cries of his mate below him. He again took Sesshoumaru in hand, gripping him just this side of painful, pumping the enlarged organ hard as he moaned and growled deep in his throat.

 

“Inuyasha…I'm going to….AAAH!” Sesshoumaru screamed, his orgasm ripping through him powerfully.

 

The hanyou slammed into his brother a few more times, his head exploding as his own orgasm shook him to the core. “Holy shit,” he gasped, trying to bring air into his lungs and focus back to his mind. He rolled off his panting brother, noticing how Sesshoumaru winced when he slid out of him. “Are you…,” he started to ask and then sat bolt upright on the futon when he saw the blood coming from between his brother's legs. “Sesshoumaru,” he uttered in anguish, “Why didn't you tell me I had hurt you?” He leapt from the bed to get water and a cloth to clean the wounded demon.

 

“Uhh, do not fuss so, you are worse than Jaken. It will take more than a little rough sex to bother this Sesshoumaru,” he scoffed before his brother could leave. He sat up, again wincing slightly.

 

Inuyasha came to his side, trying to help him stand only to be brushed off. “I will be fine, I am just going to go take a bath,” he retorted, putting on a robe. “Wish to join me?” he asked, raising an eyebrow.

 

“How can you ask that? You…you were so gentle with me…and…and I hurt you,” the hanyou whimpered, feeling ashamed.

 

“Do not regret your passion's, it is one of the things I love about you, ritoru konohou,” Sesshoumaru said, leaning down and kissing his brother on the cheek as he placed a robe over his slender shoulders. He then wrapped his tail around Inuyasha's wrists, holding him tight. “But when I heal, it will be my turn,” he grinned, showing one fang, causing his hanyou brother to swallow hard. The demon lord smirked, releasing his brother and folding his tail over his shoulder, “Now, help me to the bath,” he demanded, putting his arm over the smaller demon's shoulder allowing him to support him as they made their way out of the room and down the hall.

 

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Jaken arrived at the village where Inuyasha's group were staying. He found Miroku first, helping an elderly man to fix a hole in his roof. “My lord has sent me to retrieve your group. You are to come to the castle,” he yelled up to the monk that was sitting on the roof.

 

Miroku looked down at the small toad, “We have some things to finish up around her today; we can leave tomorrow morning. How are Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru?”

 

“They're fine,” the toad answered shortly. He didn't want to stay overnight in the village and sighed at his bad luck.

 

“Does Sesshoumaru have his memories back?” Miroku continued to fix the hole, glancing at Jaken from time to time as he worked.

 

“Yes, he's back to his own self.”

 

Miroku wondered why Inuyasha hadn't come back then, if his brother was okay. He suddenly had a feeling that things were about to change and he didn't know if that was good or bad.

 

Miroku finished putting the last nail in place and then came down the ladder so his and Jaken's conversation wouldn't have to be hollered across the whole village. “Are they mates?” Miroku asked, getting right to the point as he came to stand before the small demon.

 

“I am not privy to such information,” the toad answered, knowing full well the answer. He wasn't stupid and he certainly didn't need his sense of smell to tell him what the two brothers had been up to when he saw his master hobbling to the bath with the hanyou's aid this morning. Jaken scowled, not understanding why his master would take the submissive role in the relationship. It worried him to think that the wretched pup had brought his great lord to such a state.

 

Miroku watched the expression on the toads face, I have a feeling you do know, but are unwilling to tell us. Perhaps that is why we've been called to the castle. “Let's go find the others. We'll put up a futon for you in Kaede's hut for tonight.”

 

Jaken grunted, furrowing his brow even more at the thought of spending so much time alone with these humans.

 

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Inuyasha was waiting outside in the hall as Sesshoumaru came out from tucking Rin into bed. “What is it with her? I mean, why do you have her with you?” he asked his brother.

 

“She is mine,” he answered as if that was all the explanation that was needed.

 

“What do you mean, she's yours?”

 

“I brought her back to life, she is my responsibility, she is mine,” Sesshoumaru sighed, not sure how to explain the feelings he had for the child and the feelings she brought out in him. He still allowed her to call him chichi-ue. In fact, it pleased him to no end to hear her say it.

 

Inuyasha didn't push the conversation; he too had noticed that his brother had never once told her not to call him father, even after regaining all his memories. “Well I guess that makes her mine too,” he informed his lordly brother as they walked down the hallway towards Sesshoumaru's room.

 

The demon lord stopped and looked so surprised that Inuyasha almost laughed out loud. “Even if you haven't marked me yet, we are mates,” he said to the stunned demon. “That means if you consider her your child then she is my child as well, ne?” he asked grinning. He saw his brother give a small smile just before he was embraced strongly and kissed within an inch of his life.

 

When Sesshoumaru finally released his lips he actually felt weak in the knees and would have fallen if his brother still hadn't been holding him. Kami, but he's a good kisser, Inuyasha thought, his head still spinning pleasantly.

 

Sesshoumaru opened the door to his room, holding it in invitation to his hanyou brother. Inuyasha didn't need to be asked twice and entered, his brother putting his hand on his back and entering behind him, closing the door. As soon as they were in Sesshoumaru grabbed Inuyasha in a fierce kiss making his younger brother moan and push his body towards him.

 

Sesshoumaru used his tongue to distract the hanyou as he pulled off his own haori and shatsu, tasting every part of his lover's mouth. He left those full lips to nip and kiss along Inuyasha's neck, leaving small hickies from beneath his jaw to his collar bone.

 

Inuyasha had wrapped his arms around his brother's neck, moaning at the sensation of Sesshoumaru sucking on his neck so pleasantly, making him hard and wanting. He yelped in surprise when he felt that soft tail grab his wrists and lift his arms above his head. He tried to pull his hands free causing Sesshoumaru to chuckle aggressively and hold him tighter.

 

The demon lord walked over to his large futon, dragging Inuyasha with him by his wrists. He reached under and drew out a few items that he kept hidden from the eyes of his brother.

 

“Sesshoumaru, what are you doing? What do you have there?” the half demon's tone was a bit high in nervousness. He wondered if Sesshoumaru was going to get even with him for hurting him last night.

 

His older brother turned to face him with a huge smirk on his face and then blindfolded him. He felt soft rope or cloth, he couldn't tell as he couldn't see, being tied around his wrists and then heard a rattle of something being pulled down above him. Something hooked onto the rope holding his hands together, and he was lifted into the air, his feet just dangling from the floor.

 

“Hey, let me down,” he cried out fearfully. “What the hell do you think you're doing?”

 

“Hush,” Sesshoumaru soothed. “Trust me, do not be such a baby.”

 

“Take the blindfold off, I want to see what you're doing,” he told the kinky demon a bit angrily.

 

“No, you will just have to feel what I am doing,” he replied huskily as he untied Inuyasha's hakamas and pulled them down slowly. He saw that his brother was so nervous that he had gone completely flaccid. I will just have to remedy that, he thought, grinning sensuously.

 

He ran his claws lightly all over the muscular body, starting up at Inuyasha's bound wrist and dragging his claws down his arm and over his chest to tease and pinch the small nipples making them, and other parts rise. He watched, totally engrossed at the twitching and squirming of his brother, listening to his soft sighs and groans. He wanted to make his young mate moan louder so ran his claws down the sinewy back while he nibbled at the flat, taunt stomach, twirling his tongue into Inuyasha's belly button.

 

Inuyasha was panting and crying out. Not being able to see and only depending on his sense of touch just intensified the feelings of pleasure his brother was giving him. “Aaah, Sesshoumaru, st…stop. It feels too good.” He felt a breathy chuckle against his abdomen, “You have not felt anything, yet.” Inuyasha just about screamed when he felt a wet, hot mouth cover his manhood as one slim digit was pressed into his opening at the same time.

 

Sesshoumaru was now torturing him at both ends, sucking greedily but gently along his length as he twirled and manipulated his finger along that sensitive prostrate, pushing in and out so slowly. Inuyasha had never felt such intense pleasure and he tried to thrust himself into that lovely mouth or towards that wonderful, teasing finger but could only hang, in complete control of his alpha brother. “Kami, please, let me down, just fuck me,” he whimpered, wanting Sesshoumaru inside him.

 

“Such impatience,” his brother taunted, his own sex throbbing with need, agreeing with the boy. Sesshoumaru held himself in check, putting Inuyasha's balls in his mouth and teasing them with his tongue and the suction he was creating. He added another finger with the first thrusting in more firmly and deeper.

 

“Damn it! Ungh…” Inuyasha couldn't even get out a coherent thought anymore, all he could do was feel and he went into sensory overload. He lifted his legs and wrapped them around his brother's head and shoulders as Sesshoumaru's mouth again went onto his manhood, his tongue ravaging along the length.

 

A few more strokes with his fingers and mouth and Inuyasha came screaming so loudly that Sesshoumaru thought for sure the whole castle and the neighbouring village must hear him. He licked and sucked his brother dry and then stood back, watching his mate hang from the ceiling limply, gasping for breath. He was extremely happy that he had put that little rope and pulley system in earlier. He let the little body that he couldn't get enough of down, and laid it on the futon, placing his teen brother on his stomach. He kept the blindfold and the ties around his wrists in place.

 

He reached for the other item he had hidden, a vial that he had found in the inner pocket of his haori with a note. The letter had read: “Here is something that will be much better than the last bottle you borrowed from me.” He had to hand it to the witch, she was always willing to help the Inu no Tashio clan. Even when they didn't know what they needed, she sure did.

 

He uncorked the small bottle and, dipping his fingers in it, pushed them into his brother hearing him groan again. Sesshoumaru could feel his fingers tingle and then his sense of touch increased ten fold.

 

Inuyasha went ballistic from the sensations, the small pleasure he had first felt at the intrusion of those magic fingers increasing until he was a writhing mass of need, whimpering and spreading his legs wide.

 

Sesshoumaru removed his hand from his brother and poured a small amount on his manhood, spreading the pleasure enhancing oil over it. His touch was almost painful, it felt so good. He had to stop from stroking himself before everything was over before it had begun. “Get on your knees,” he ordered his brother, his voice no more than a moan. Inuyasha complied immediately only wanting his brother take him right now.

 

Sesshoumaru pushed himself in slowly so as not to hurt the hanyou. He was only part way in when Inuyasha pushed backwards forcefully, impaling himself fully on his brothers organ. He began to rock back and forth quickly, panting and gasping. “Come on Sesshoumaru, fuck me for shits sake,” he complained as the demon lord tried not to move.

 

“Wait, I do not want it to be over so fast,” he gasped, holding Inuyasha's hips to stop him from causing him too much pleasure, he was too close to coming as it was. When he had calmed some he started to move, pushing in deep and pulling almost all the way out before thrusting all the way back in. Inuyasha moved as well, keeping time and rhythm perfectly with his panting older brother.

 

Both were moaning and sweating, the pleasurable sensations almost too much to bear as the demon lord pumped in and out of that tight tunnel, Sesshoumaru's claws dug deep into Inuyasha's hip adding the scent of blood to the room making both brothers' eyes turn red, their movements becoming more animalistic and forceful.

 

Sesshoumaru pushed in one more time, very deep, making Inuyasha whine and snap his fangs by his brother's cheek as he threw his head back. The older demon grabbed the back of his neck with his jaws, growling forcefully, holding the younger still as he shot his seed into him. Sesshoumaru still had enough of himself in control not to bite down too hard and mark the boy. Inuyasha came as well, wetting the sheets below him, not needed any touch on his manhood, the pleasure coming from inside him more than enough.

 

Finished, Sesshoumaru untied his brother's hands and pulled the blindfold from his eyes. Inuyasha blinked a few times to bring his vision back in the moon bathed room. They lay panting, side by side, to hot to touch each other at the moment.

 

“What the hell was that stuff?” asked Inuyasha, astounded at the intense sensations it had afforded him.

 

“Don't know, don't care,” stated Sesshoumaru, sounding like the former Sess. “Nice though.” He grinned and turned on his side to look at his hanyou lover, gently pushing the sweaty bangs off his face. “I still have some left,” he said cheekily.

 

“Yeah, well give it to me, it's my turn next,” Inuyasha replied. He was already trying to think of ways to outdo his brother. Even in matters of love, they were still rivals.

 

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The whole group was sitting around the large table waiting to be served. Jaken had gone to a lot of trouble to prepare a good meal for everyone, thinking that the humans were just way to fussy with what they ate.

 

Shippo had grabbed the seat on one side of Sesshoumaru, talking a mile a minute and asking question after question. Rin had the seat on the other side and she was also babbling away happily. The demon lord showed no impatience with either child; listening and answering questions as required. Inuyasha had to give him his due, he would have blown up by now and he couldn't figure how his brother was keeping the two conversations straight in his head.

 

Kagome was sitting by Inuyasha giving him strange looks on what he was wearing. He still had his normal fire rat haori and hakamas, but under the coat, instead of his normal beige shatsu, he was wearing one that came up high on his neck. He had cursed his brother when he saw the trail of hickies running down his throat. Sesshoumaru had just laughed at him.

 

“It's nice to see you're back to normal, lord Sesshoumaru,” Miroku stated, enjoying his miso soup, wondering what Inuyasha was hiding under that shirt.

 

Sesshoumaru nodded, “It is nice to be back,” he stated simply.

 

“So what happens now?” Kagome questioned curiously. She had also wondered, as Miroku had, why they were being summoned to the castle if everything was back to normal. She had a nervous feeling in the pit of her stomach as she watched the two brothers eyeing each other throughout the meal.

 

“We can talk later,” Inuyasha said, looking to the two kids. He was going to take Kagome off to speak to her alone, before telling the others what had happened.

 

Later that evening, Inuyasha came and took Kagome out into the gardens. They walked along the various paths saying nothing for awhile, both deep in thought. Finally, Inuyasha stopped and sat on one of the benches, patting the seat for Kagome to sit with him. The young girl had a very bad feeling looking at her hanyou's very serious face and tears were beginning to prick and burn in her eyes as she sat down.

 

“You're staying with Sesshoumaru,” she stated before Inuyasha could even begin.

 

“No, I'm not staying at the castle, but I…I…” damn it! This is so hard. “I want to be mated to him,” he finally told her, looking to her to try and gauge her reaction.

 

Kagome didn't know what to say, she didn't want to believe this. The tears began to leak out of her eyes.

 

“Kagome, I love him,” he sighed. He straightened his slumping shoulders and took her hands, looking into her teary eyes. “You mean so much to me, you don't even know, but I love him. I can't help it, I just…love him.”

 

Kagome was sobbing, she could see that what he was telling her was the absolute truth and she hated it. He was supposed to love her, not Kikyo, not Sesshoumaru, her.

 

“He's done something to you, Inuyasha. He's put a spell or something on you, right?” she asked/told.

 

“No. He hasn't. Kagome, I'm so sorry, I know you feel love for me, but I can't return it the way you want me to. I have to be with him.” Inuyasha dropped her hands, his ears also lowering, feeling saddened by the hurt he was causing her.

 

She grabbed the collar of his shirt and jerked it down, surprising him. She felt shock for two reasons. One, he didn't have a mating mark, and two; he had an awful lot of hickies.

 

“He hasn't marked me as his mate because he doesn't believe that I want to be his.”

 

“And now he will, because you've told me,” she returned softly, now knowing why they had been called to the castle. She let go of his collar and he put it back in place, covering the love marks he had received from his brother.

 

She wiped the tears from her eyes feeling dead inside, like her heart had broken in a thousand pieces, which she realized, it had. “You said you're not staying here?” she questioned, sniffing softly.

 

“No. I still want to get the shards from Naraku and defeat him.” He said nothing else, he wasn't sure if she was going to continue with the search any longer after hearing his news. She probably wouldn't want anything more to do with him.

 

“What happens if you're mated? You won't be able to be apart.”

 

“We can, for awhile at least. We'll just…visit each other from time to time to keep the bond intact. Eventually it won't be a problem when the bond gets strong enough.”

 

“I can't stay with you, Inuyasha,” she sobbed. “I told you before I would not stay and watch you be with him.”

 

“You're going to go home?” he asked, his voice emotionless. He had been worried about this. He didn't want her to leave. He loved her, but as a friend and he hated that he was going to lose the first person that had accepted him as he was.

 

“Kagome, you've always been so kind to me, so…I can't even describe it. I don't want you to leave,” he told her quietly.

 

“Because I can find the shards,” she intoned angrily.

 

“No, it's because I love you. I love you as my best friend and I don't want to lose that. I don't care if you ever tell me where another shard is. I don't want to lose you over this.”

 

“But you don't love me enough to be with me.” She was crying softly now.

 

“Not in that way.”

 

“I'm going to stay and collect the shards as well,” she finally told him after she got some semblance of control back. “But not with you, I can't.”

 

Inuyasha ears lowered more, they were almost flat to his head and tears were starting to come to his eyes as well. “That's okay,” he sighed out. “I'll go alone, you can stay with Miroku and Sango.”

 

She didn't want him to do it alone, she didn't want him to get hurt. She wondered why Sesshoumaru wouldn't go with him and got a little angry at the demon lord, thinking that he would allow Inuyasha to do this on his own. She sat quietly for a moment, thinking. “You stay with Sango and Miroku, I'll go with Kouga,” she finally said gently.

 

Kouga? He was going to growl and complain and then stopped himself, he didn't have the right to do that anymore.

 

“Damn it, Kagome.” Tears were slipping out of his eyes and he couldn't stop it. He was surprised when he felt her hand come up and wipe them away.

 

“I'll be okay. You know he'll protect me.” She quickly tried to change the topic before he could complain. “Why won't Sesshoumaru help you,” she asked testily.

 

“He will but I figured if I was to stay with you…”

 

“That it would be better if he wasn't around me, right?”

 

“Right,” he answered, his face blushing. “I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to shove your face in it, you know,” he told her sadly.

 

She looked at him and her heart started to break all over again. She knew that, for now, this was the best course of action, at least for her sore heart. “Maybe we can be together again, later. But I need to be away from you for now. It hurts to see you with someone else,” she sobbed. “I just can't do that now.”

 

Inuyasha understood, he didn't like it but he understood it. “Okay, Kagome. I really hope we can be friends again, someday.” He was sniffing as much as she was now. “I'm sorry,” he managed to choke out.

 

“You can't help who you love,” she replied as she rose and left, trying to hold herself together awhile longer.

 

She left him sitting on the bench, and when he knew she was gone, he broke down, holding his head in his hands and sobbing uncontrollably.

 

His brother found him still there, weeping. He had gone to find him when he saw the miko girl returning. He gathered his mate to his chest and allowed him to cry himself out as he sat and rocked him like a child.