InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Hidden Past ❯ Chapter 9 ( Chapter 9 )

When Miroku, Sango, Shippo, and Kirara arrived back at the hut, Kaede was just leaving carrying her medical kit. Even after Inuyasha had gotten Kagome back to the hut he couldn't get her to calm down, the incident was too much. Finally, in desperation, he had sent a nearby villager to fetch Kaede, hoping she could do or think of something to help. In the end, Kaede had suggested that in her current state Kagome was not ready to think clearly, and had suggested that sleep might be the best option for the moment. After approval from Inuyasha, she had made a special herbal tea that would put her to sleep, which she and Inuyasha had given her before putting her into bed. When the group entered the room Kagome was in, they saw Inuyasha was still there watching the younger miko toss and whimper slightly in unsettled dreams.

 

When they handed Inuyasha the herbs they collected for Kagome, Inuyasha just nodded slightly while waving his hand at a bare corner of the room, indicating that they should put the plants there. Sango wondered why there was a bare corner, since it was usually crowded, and mentally gasped as she realized. That was the corner where Kagome's huge yellow bag usually went.

 

Shippo realized this too, as his frown grew bigger. He wasn't sure exactly what happened to Kagome, only that it was really, really bad. No one would tell him, they would only make sad faces. After a few moments of silence, except for Kagome's whimpers and movements, Shippo walked over to Inuyasha and sat down next to him, watching over Kagome with him. Looking up at Inuyasha a few minutes later, He spoke in a small, tired voice.

 

“I…I got her something…”

 

Inuyasha looked down at Shippo, surprised. Nodding down at him, a ghost of a smile on his lips, he replied to the small kit.

 

“You can put it down next to her, I bet she would like that.”

 

Inuyasha was still deathly mad at the man who did this to her. The scent wasn't familiar, so it wasn't Hojo. It was a human's scent, so it wasn't a youkai, although that didn't mean it wasn't from this time. He would need to ask Kagome who the bastard was so he could murder him. No one, NO ONE, touched Kagome like that. No One. He didn't know what to do though, cause he knew Kagome definitely didn't want to talk about what happened. He had to stay calm, if he snapped, it would definitely scare Kagome, and he didn't want to do that. He sighed, again, he just didn't know anymore. What if Kagome didn't like him anymore? He wasn't there to protect her…He wouldn't blame her is she hated him, he hated himself too.

 

Miroku couldn't believe it happened to Kagome. Why? Why Kagome? She was the most undeserving person of this… this crime. Kagome was pure, was happy, had a smile and laugh that could cheer up anyone. But now…Now he doubted she ever be the same. It didn't matter what he, Inuyasha, or anyone else would say. He had seen this happen before. As a monk, many young woman came up to him (much to his pleasure) They would ask him if they could ever redeem themselves in the name of Kami-sama, and once Miroku learned of what happened, all lecherous thoughts vanished. He wasn't that bad. But he knew, he knew there were woman out there that never recovered.

 

Sango couldn't believe it. Kagome, why Kagome? This wasn't the first time she had seen this. Back in her home village there was a woman. A woman that like her, cam to the village to train and become a demon slayer. She never did. A month after she came, she was raped. The woman disapproved, the men stayed away. Although the rapist was banished for his crimes, she couldn't recover. That same month, she killed herself. A young woman, training hard to become a demon slayer. Sango knew that it would be different for Kagome. Kagome was different; she had friends that would support her no matter what. Kagome still had Inuyasha.

 

 

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When Kagome first opened her eyes, the first thing she saw was a bouquet of flowers. Startled, she gave off a small shriek, awakening the two other members in the room, unknown to her. Calming down, she outstretched her arms to grasp onto the flowers. She pulled them closer to her. She breathed their scent in, when it all came back to her. What happened, 24 hours ago. She thought. How long has it been? She jumped up and looked around her, the flowers slipping down. She realized she was back in the feudal era, but she didn't know how long she had been asleep. She had to go back, or else her father would get even madder at her. She didn't know why she bothered to come back anyway. It wasn't like she could be accepted here. She knew how things were different here. Virginity was considered Kami's greatest gif to humans, and hers was ripped away. She could never be treated as an equal here. Inuyasha probably hated her now. Why would he even like her when he still had Kikyo, pure and untouched. A simple wish on the Shikon no Tama could bring her back to life and they could be the couple they were. Tears came to her eyes, before she leaned over her knees and started to cry. Why her? Why did she have to be raped? And by her own father…. Her cries turned to sobs, until she felt a hand on her shoulder. Her eyes widened and she did the first thing that she thought of. She screamed. Loud. It worked though, the hand was gone. But not for long, two warm hands came around her and brought her in a warm embrace against a strong chest. A familiar strong chest. Eyes wide, she pulled back, but the arms just pulled her closer.

 

“I'm so sorry” A strong voice whispered in her ears.

 

And she couldn't take it. She leaned back so fast and slapped whoever's face was there. Hard. The sound implied that the slap was stronger than she thought she could ever make. Blinking fast and breathing hard, she looked up to see who it was and tried to figure out what just happened.

 

 

 

When Kagome first screamed, Inuyasha didn't really know what to do. He knew she was scared though, so he nodded in Shippo's direction to go fetch Kaede, Sango, or even Miroku, As long as they knew what to do. Shippo ran out the door, and Inuyasha, unsure what to do while the time passed, leaned over to embrace Kagome in what was supposed to be a comforting hug. When he felt Kagome pull back, he pulled her closer, all though he wasn't sure why. He knew she was scared, it was obvious, but it was as if his arms He whispered into her ear, saying he was sorry. Sorry for not being there… sorry for everything. He wasn't sure what happened next, but all of a sudden his arms were empty and he heard a crack. His cheek was now throbbing as he tried to process what just happened.

 

They both heard thudding sounds and turned to face the door, where Sango, Miroku, Kaede, and Shippo. Sango ran to comfort Kagome, who was still breathing hard. Miroku gave Inuyasha a look and sat down next to him, knowing that a man was probably not who Kagome wanted to see at the moment. Kaede walked over to Kagome as well, with Shippo perched on her shoulder, glaring at Inuyasha and then turning his attention to Kagome. Kaede kneeled down next to Kagome and began to whisper soothing words to her as she opened her medicine kit. Sango was rocking Kagome to calm her. Inuyasha didn't miss the glare Sango shot at him.

 

Although Kagome was grateful that her friends did indeed care for her, or at lest wanted to help her, she couldn't help but feel so helpless, so dependent on everyone else. She knew in the old days this would never have happened. She blinked her eyes, trying to stop the tears from coming. She hated it. She hated feeling so useless… She just stared at the wall in front of her as Sango and Kaede both tried to soothe her. She suddenly felt added weight on her lap and looked down, startled, but determined not to scream. Shippo was on her lap, his tiny arms wrapped around her in an embrace. Every cell in her body was screaming at the pain, physical and mental. It still hurt…down there… And having weight on her lap, even though it was Shippo, it still felt so heavy to her. She couldn't help it, she gave off a small gasp. Shippo immediately looked up. Seeing the look of pain on her face, he jumped down and sat next to Sango, staring worriedly up at the woman he called his mother.

 

Sango smiled reassuringly at Shippo, then continued to focus on Kagome, The poor girl was shaking uncontrollably, thought there were no tears coming out, she knew the Kagome desperately wanted to cry.

 

“It's Ok Kagome. You can cry. Cry all you want. We don't care.”

 

And she did.

 

VVVV

 

“Kagome.”

 

Kagome looked up. The tears were still coming, Kaede had left, having other people to tend to, but Sango was still comforting Kagome, Shippo was still watching Kagome, and Miroku was praying for Kagome. Inuyasha still sported a mark on his cheek, but he didn't say a word to her.

 

“Kagome.”

 

There it was again! But who was it? It wasn't coming from the room.

 

“Kagome. Come back. Don't be a bad girl now.”

 

And she suddenly realized who it was.

 

“NO! go away! I don't......I don't want…” She broke off. She couldn't continue. Her life would always be like this she realized. She didn't like it, but that's how it was now. She could never be the girl she was before. Never. Life would be different now. Every day would be like this. Medicine from Kaede, comfort from Sango, and glances from everyone. No one would be able to accept her anymore. She was sure of it. Everyone would look at her the same. A helpless girl raped, by her own father. She made her decision. She would return. She didn't care anymore, she couldn't take it. She felt so helpless. She just didn't know what to do anymore. She was tired of crying, but it felt like it was all she could do.

 

So she screamed. She put everything into that scream. Her hatred to her father, her hatred for everything. She would never be the same anymore. All because of one man. One twisted man. He ruined everything. Her hopes, her dreams. Her future. She screamed again, trying to release her feelings. She broke down sobbing. She couldn't do it. She just couldn't do it. She curled up as small as she could, shaking off Sango, and spoke. Her voice hoarse from all the crying and screaming.

 

“Please…Please just leave.” She whispered. She didn't miss the surprised glances, but they all complied. Getting up, they all left one by one, they turned back, giving Kagome a small comforting smile, but she just turned around. She couldn't deal with it. Soon, she was alone. All alone. But for some reason, it felt worse. She turned and faced the wall. It was what separated her from everyone else. It was what made her alone. Screaming, she punched the wall as hard as she could, as she broke down crying. It was because of th damn walls that no one helped her! If the stupid walls weren't there, someone would have heard her. She would have been heard. She wouldn't have been raped. She continuously slammed her fists against the walls, until they started to bleed, but still she continued. She didn't know how long she had been hitting the wall, but she suddenly felt a comforting hand on her wrist.

 

“Stop.”

 

Kagome looked up, the tears still coming down, although not as hard. There was Inuyasha, his face in an expression she had never seen before. Just looking at Inuyasha and his expression brought a new round of tears.

 

“It'll be ok.” He whispered. Pulling her into a warm, comforting embrace.

 

They both knew he was lying.

 

**Sniffle** I'm sooooooooo sorry for the super long update. I don't know what I was thinking! But please don't kill me! You all should thank one person though. On mediaminer.org, I received a comment that really inspired me too write, no offense to other comments and reviews! But this person, her review made me feel so happy that I decided to write a new chapter, and it's ok. It might seem overdramatic to some, but I think that its good. It's pretty emotional. Lots of crying and screaming. Not too much dialogue, but still an ok chapter. I don't know. What do you think? I won't know unless you tell me! And I know it's been a really long time since I wrote, but that's because im not receiving that many reviews or comments. They really inspire me to write, as you may have noticed. When there are little or no reviews, I think you don't like it so I don't write. This chapter has been my longest I think. It's 4 and a bit pages. I think that's all I have to say in this authors note. Until next time! (and `next time' will depend on how many of you review!)

 

OH! An by the way, the really inspiring review is from Princess Stormcloud0217 Thanks a lot!!!!