InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ How Could This Happen To Her? ❯ How Could This Happen To Her? ( Chapter 1 )

I do not own any of Simple Plan's songs, nor do I own Inuyasha.

 

This is an alternative writing of Kikyo's final moments, not a re-telling.

 

How Could This Happen To Her

 

“Kik…yo…”

 

Kikyo's brow furrowed as a hand came up around her back and pulled her up. Her eyes opened slightly to the concerned hanyou holding her.

 

“I…Inuyasha…” she whispered. Her eyes fell closed again, and the claw on her back tightened slightly.

 

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.

I can't remember how

I can't remember why

I'm lying here tonight

 

“Don't worry, Kagome can purify the shouki, and with that bow we found…” Inuyasha rambled.

 

“Inuyasha,” Kikyo said, and he quickly stopped. “Do not deceive yourself,” she ordered. Inuyasha gave a small grunt, and he bowed his head.

 

“Kikyo…I'm sorry,” he whispered. Kikyo's eyes opened again, and she let out a small gasp as another shock of agony coursed through her body.

 

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away

No I can't stand the pain

 

“What did you ever do to be sorry for?” she replied, lifting a hand to cup his cheek and turn his face up. Inuyasha's confused expression rose.

 

“Everything…I couldn't save you from Naraku then…and I couldn't now,” he explained. Kikyo's face twisted into a sad smile. Had her misguided vengeance truly warped the hanyou's views so much?

 

“It is no fault of yours. There is no guilt in failure unless you have not done everything you can. And you've done more than your share. Do not shoulder blame that isn't yours,” she scolded lightly. Inuyasha turned his head away at her words.

 

How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes

Got nowhere to run.

 

“I spent months blaming you for my death, and when the truth was discovered I took my leave and let you live. Even if you haven't forgiven yourself, I have. A life of guilt and pain is no life at all. There is only one way such a life can end,” Kikyo said.

 

“But,” Inuyasha protested.

 

“No. The time for apologies and shame passed long ago with the two of us. You were fortunate enough to escape death, as was I. But only you were able to truly be reborn and let go. I wasn't, and it is my fault, not yours,” Kikyo continued.

 

The night goes on as I'm fading away

 

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?

 

“I…what do you want me to say?” Inuyasha asked.

 

“Is this anything you can say to change what happened? Now, or then? I died long ago, Inuyasha. I am nothing but a few fragmented souls animated by a witch. The Kikyo you knew died, and words cannot offer comfort to the dead,” Kikyo replied. “And we have both prospered from our deaths, if only you will realize it.”

 

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

 

“What do you mean?” Inuyasha asked.

 

“I was able to know the truth of my murder, and assist you in the battle against Naraku. I can return to me rest peacefully. And you have at last found the acceptance you always desired. We have found peace, and if it is not with each other, than it cannot be changed. Fate will take its course,” Kikyo said, wincing at another pang of pain from the poison coursing through her clay body.

 

“I…I did love you, Kikyo,” Inuyasha whispered, drawing her closer.

 

So I try to hold

On to a time when

Nothing mattered

 

“As much as you were able, and as much as I would let you,” Kikyo corrected. “We never fully trusted each other, Inuyasha. True love cannot exist without trust. We loved. But we hated and suspected as well. It is better this way. The Shikon-no-Tama would have twisted our feelings to fit its own whims had we made our wish. Even if Naraku had not risen from Onigumo, chaos and destruction would still have had their way. Our relationship could not have ended happily.”

And I can't explain

What happened and I can't

 

Erase the things that I've done

No I can't

 

“I know,” Inuyasha admitted.

 

“But it doesn't make it any easier, does it?” Kikyo whispered. Inuyasha hung his head, giving her all the answer she needed.

 

“Let go of the past. It took me two deaths to release my hatred and find peace. Do not make the same mistake. There are others who need your protection now, and there is someone else who needs your love. And you need hers.” At her words, Inuyasha lifted his head and turned away. Kikyo could guess where he was looking.

 

How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

Got nowhere to run

 

Inuyasha's head whirled around as a white light shone from Kikyo's chest.

 

“NO! Don't go!” he screamed, tightening his grip on her. He looked down to see Kikyo's feet dissolving in a burst of light.

 

The night goes on as I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?

 

“It is too late,” Kikyo whispered, so low even Inuyasha could barely hear her. “My time here was merely borrowed. Let go of your guilt and forget about what you think you did. I set your heart free, Inuyasha. Live and be joyful, for both of us.”

 

“Kikyo…” The claw on her back came up to the back of her head, and Inuyasha brought her up for a final kiss as the light enveloped her.

 

Glistening white shinidamachu glided over his shoulders as Kikyo vanished into a burst of pure light. Inuyasha's hand fell as the particles fell into the small claws of the soul catchers and were carried into the night. He lifted his head and watched them fly, the shining souls in their grasp mixing in with the stars above until there was no longer a distinction.

 

I've made my mistakes

Got nowhere to run

The night goes on as I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me?