InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I Loved Him ❯ I Loved Him as a Soul Mate ( Chapter 12 )

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LES: The chapter that we’ve all been waiting for! The Kagome chapter! It goes without saying that this chapter contains mature content. This chapter is the longest one yet! It is easily five times longer than the other chapters! Enjoy!

It had been three years. Three fucking years since the last time that Inuyasha had seen Kagome. So why was it, exactly, that his asshole ‘friends’ wouldn’t let him have a single moment of alone time with her? Ever since the well, when their friends had interrupted their reunion, they had been completely hogging Kagome’s time.

Of course, Kagome had felt that she needed to catch up with everyone, especially with Miroku, Sango, and the three young children that she’d never met before. She’d squealed with delight over the twin girls and Sango’s new infant son.

Yes, Inuyasha understood that Kagome had missed everyone while they were separated, but he really needed to talk to her alone. There was no way that he would be able to speak his mind with an audience.

It was not until that evening after the children had been put down to sleep for the night that Inuyasha finally found his chance. She had been on her way to stay the night with Kaede when her path was suddenly blocked by Inuyasha’s familiar form.

“Inuyasha?” She gasped, a little surprised when he materialized out of the darkness.

“Come with me.” He ordered softly.

It did not take long for a soft smile to form on Kagome’s lips. “Okay.” She replied, following the Inuhanyou as he led her past the edge of the village.

As they walked, Inuyasha remembered the last time he had seen her before the well had separated him from her for three painful years. She had been reunited with her family after spending three days trapped inside the hell that was the Shikon jewel. There had been tears all around and Kagome clung to her family, so happy that she was back.

She had been so happy that Inuyasha couldn’t bear the thought of asking her to come back into the past with him permanently. That had been his plan all along: destroy Naraku and make Kagome his. But now that the time had actually come, he couldn’t find the words. Could he really selfishly ask her to give up her life, her family in the future?

It was if the well had sensed his indecision because that was the exact moment when it began to pull him forcefully back to his own time. The last thing he had seen was Kagome crying out for him as he disappeared in time. He knew that she was distressed, but he’d always thought that she would be ultimately happier on the other side of the well.

But it turns out that he should have learned his lesson a long time ago. He couldn’t trap Kagome in her own time. No matter how impossible it seemed for her to return, she’d always found a way back. And now, three years later, she had found a way back… and it was very likely that she would never be able to travel through the well again.

She was trapped now, in the past. And as much as Inuyasha wanted to believe that she’d come back for him… he still couldn’t quite believe it.

As he thought this, he led her past the edge of the village. It turned out, after the defeat of Naraku three years ago; the villagers were not nearly as angry about the thought of an Inuhanyou living in their village. Indeed, Inuyasha had been offered a piece of land within the boundaries of the village to build a hut for himself. He’d been shocked and honored by the offer, but still refused. He just was not comfortable with the thought of being surrounded by humans all the time. So he willingly built his house beyond the edge of town, near the edge of the forest. That way, he was close to the village, but not too close to disturb his sense of personal space with the humans. That house is where he was leading Kagome now.

It was a modest structure, certainly not fit for a creature of noble birth like Inuyasha. But the Inuhanyou was not picky about his house. For the past three years, it had just been a place to sleep. Perhaps, if Kagome were to… Well, perhaps he could soon turn this house into an actual home.

Kagome noticed the new structure right away. “This wasn’t here before.” She commented.

“It wasn’t. I built this house after Naraku’s death and after the well…” Inuyasha trailed off. Kagome didn’t need for him to finish that sentence to know what was on his mind. The last three years had been hard on both of them.

“I’m here now.” She told him simply.

Inuyasha smiled at her and nodded his affirmation that, yes, she was here now before leading her into the semi-dark of the interior of the hut. “Hold on.” Inuyasha said, peeling away from her and moving into the darkness. A few seconds later, light began to fill the hut as he built a fire in the central fire pit. Small flames at first, and then larger and larger as the flames began to catch on the wood. He didn’t need the light, but Kagome did. Inuhanyou eyes were not the best for seeing things at night, but they were still better than a human’s.

Once the fire was a good enough size to burn steadily, Inuyasha returned to Kagome’s side and led her into the hut. It was just like any of the huts in the village, except perhaps less furnished. Kagome smiled at the familiarity. Bachelor pads were the same no matter what century you lived in.

Inuyasha sat down by the fire and Kagome joined him without prompting. Inuyasha noticed that she was sitting closer to him than was strictly polite, but he tried not to read too much into it. After all, in her own time, getting that close to a man who was not your husband was more acceptable than in his time. That wasn’t to say that he didn’t enjoy the closeness.

“You know, as much as I missed everyone…” Kagome began. “I’m glad to finally have some time alone with you.”

Inuyasha stared at her. “Are you kidding? You’ve felt that way too? I’ve been trying to get you alone all afternoon!”

Kagome laughed softly. “Well, we are alone now.” Without another word, Kagome leaned into him and wrapped her arms around him. Inuyasha froze up a little, but then returned her embrace firmly. “I missed you so much, Inuyasha. Every moment I was gone.” She whispered into his chest.

“I… I missed you too, Kagome.” Inuyasha whispered. It was the first time that he had admitted it out loud. Everyone knew that he desperately missed the futuristic miko, but he never actually said it. He pulled away from her slightly so he could meet her eyes. She did so without complaint. “Why did you come back? Don’t you realize…” Inuyasha trailed off. “The well will probably never work again. Your family…”

“My family understands.” Kagome replied. “They knew that I still had something very important to do in this world. And now that all my obligations of that world are complete, I could finally return to the most important thing.” Her soft fingers ran down his cheek. Inuyasha closed his eyes, almost purring in contentment. “I didn’t want to live the rest of my life without you, Inuyasha. I came back for you.”

“Kagome…” Inuyasha breathed heavily, taking in her scent and the fact that she was here with him now.  “You mean that?”

“Of course I do.” Kagome answered. “I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you before… but I love you, Inuyasha.”

Inuyasha had known that Kagome loved him for months before her departure back to her own world. He’d even heard her say those words out loud once, but they had never been spoken to him. And, to be frank, he enjoyed this whispered and sincere declaration more than her shouting it for the world.

“You have no idea how you make me feel.” Inuyasha replied softly. Without him needing to say another word, Kagome suddenly leaned into him and pressed her lips to his.

It only took Inuyasha a few shocked moments before he recovered himself and returned her kiss, applying pressure into the lip lock. Kagome wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him closer to her body so that their chests were now touching. Inuyasha groaned into the kiss, his clawed fingers resting on her hips to hold her close to him.

Kagome used his groan of pleasure as an opportunity to deepen the kiss. She pressed her tongue against his lips and he granted her access to the interior of his mouth without any hesitation. Now it was Kagome’s turn to moan in pleasure as she explored his mouth and he explored hers in return. She ran her tongue carefully around his fangs, but she knew that he would never hurt her. And then their tongues met and tangled again with passion.

After what seemed an eternity, Inuyasha and Kagome pulled away from each other, content for the moment to look into each other’s eyes. Kagome smiled when she saw the love in his eyes. He didn’t have to tell her that he loved her. She could see it plain as day in his golden eyes.

“Kagome?” Inuyasha began, swallowing a nervous lump in his throat. “We gotta talk.” He didn’t want to have to talk. He wasn’t good with words and, more often than not, utterly screwed up whatever he was trying to say. He’d gotten osuwari’ed enough for that reason in the past…

“I agree.” Kagome replied, catching the nervous look on Inuyasha’s face. “Don’t worry, Inuyasha. Take your time with what you need to say. I won’t subdue you for anything you say, I promise.”

Inuyasha sighed with relief before taking a moment to gather his thoughts. When he was finally ready, he met Kagome’s eyes. “First, I want you to know that your trust in me is not misplaced. No matter what else I say, I’m glad that you are here, with me, now. I want you in my life, Kagome… now and forever. I want you as my mate… my wife… however you want to call it. You and only you.”

“I want that too, Inuyasha. I want that so much. I’ll gladly be your mate and wife.” Kagome whispered excitedly.

Inuyasha sighed, remembering his conversation with Miroku so long ago, when the monk had urged him to be honest with Kagome regarding his past relationships… both of them. His first relationship with Miyako, which was entirely physical; and his relationship with Kikyou which was entirely emotional. His relationship with Kagome was so much better than those two previous relationships. He both emotionally and physically loved Kagome. But she had to be sure of that. “About Kikyou…” He trailed off, knowing that Kikyou had always been a sore spot between them. For her credit, Kagome didn’t flinch or frown or anything. She simply watched Inuyasha, waiting for him to continue. “You all ready knew that Kikyou was an important part of my life. I can never say that Kikyou wasn’t an important part of my past… but that’s what she is… my past. She’s been laid to rest now, and I think she’s at peace now. She…” Inuyasha trailed off. “She was happy at the end, and I think that’s the best gift I could have given her.”

“I know that Kikyou has always been a tough subject with us. I’ve always known and understood that she was important to you.”

“She was important to me. But you are more important to me now.” Inuyasha replied. “My feelings are so much… bigger with you, Kagome. I know, without a doubt, that I… I love you. Right here and now.”

“I love you too, Inuyasha. So much…” Kagome whispered, kissing him. Inuyasha gladly returned the kiss, still reeling from the fact that he could kiss her. He’d never thought that anyone would truly care for him as a hanyou. Thank the Kami that Kagome had proven him so wrong.

“There’s… uh… one more thing.” Inuyasha began, growing really nervous for the first time. Kagome had been well aware of his relationship with Kikyou for a long time, but could she ever expect that he was not a virgin? If Miroku’s reaction had been anything to judge by, the idea of him having had sex was nearly impossible to consider. How could he tell Kagome that she wouldn’t be his first?!

At the time, he had not regretted one moment of the time that he spent with Miyako because he didn’t see any way that he could regret it. At the time, it was all about having an experience with a woman, even if that woman was a complete stranger. Now he found that the only thing keeping him from thinking that if he could go back in time and undo that meeting was knowing that he had probably been the only experience for Miyako. She had been a hanyou, just like him, and living under the unbearable pain of belonging nowhere. He wouldn’t want to take away her happiness.

“I’m… um…” He almost lost his courage, so he closed his eyes and whispered. “I’m not a virgin.”

For her part, Kagome wasn’t exactly sure how to react. Unlike Miroku, she didn’t instantly assume that Inuyasha had lost his virginity with Kikyou. She had been there the first time that Kikyou had even kissed Inuyasha and told him that she had longed to do that while she was alive. If she hadn’t even kissed Inuyasha in life, then she certainly wouldn’t have had sex with him.

Inuyasha waited for the hammer to fall, but to his shock Kagome simply asked “Who was she?” But she didn’t sound mad at all, only curious.

“You’re not… mad at me?” Inuyasha asked.

Kagome shook her head. “Why would I be mad at you for the past?” She asked. “In my time, it’s not uncommon for two people having sex to not be each other’s firsts. You told me yourself that you wanted me for your mate and wife. So why should I be mad that someone else got your first time when I can have every time after?”

Inuyasha was so deeply touched by her understanding that he had to kiss her fiercely, which he did. Kagome returned his kiss before pulling back. “So, who was she?”

“I was young then… barely into physical maturity. She was a Nekohanyou named Miyako who I just happened to meet in the woods. She was a little older than me and, well… she was a bit more aggressive than I was. She came onto me… not that I really resisted. We were both hanyou, hated and feared by Youkai and humans alike. I went along with it because I thought that I’d… never get another chance.”

Kagome could understand why he’d done it. There were many people in her time that would have sex simply so they could experience it without waiting for someone you cared for. Of course Inuyasha, who had been an outcast simply because of what he was, would feel the same way when it came to having his first sexual experience. Not only could she forgive him, but she couldn’t fault him at all given the circumstances.

“What happened to her?” She asked.

Inuyasha shrugged. “We parted ways and I never saw her again. This happened before I got sealed to the Goshinboku, so she’s likely dead now…”

“Well… if she has passed on, then I’ll bet that she was fulfilled.” Kagome replied. “But, you know, Inuyasha… it’s my turn now.”

Inuyasha froze for a few seconds and then nodded. “Yes. Yes, it is.” He got up and pulled out a futon, laying it down on the floor. Kagome stared in amazement. Futons were still pretty rare in this time. It must have cost Inuyasha a great deal, especially when he tended to sleep sitting up against a wall or in a tree.

“You have a futon?” She asked.

“Call it a desperate hope.” Inuyasha responded. “And here you are now… my hope fulfilled.”

Kagome moved over to him, pressed her body against his and kissed him. Her fingers lingered on either side of his jaw, gently holding him against her… not that he had any intention of backing away. He wrapped his arms around her waist, hauling her even closer.

A small laugh escaped Kagome lips as he pulled her body flush against his. She tilted her head, melding her lips with his as their kiss deepened and became more passionate.

Inuyasha gently guided Kagome until they were both seated down on the futon. He pulled away from her briefly and pulled off his haori and kosode, leaving himself bare-chested.

Kagome smiled as she reached down and pulled her own shirt over her head. She tossed it aside carelessly. The clothes would have to be stored away later, as they were the only piece of her home time that she had brought with her; the only reminder left of her original time. She mentally mourned for family who would not be born for centuries. But being with Inuyasha, and knowing that she would soon be his wife, greatly eased the pain of separation. Moments after, she unhooked her bra and tossed it aside after her shirt.

Inuyasha’s eyes grew wide as he stared at her exposed breasts. He had seen her breasts before, when she was fifteen years old. A woman by his time’s standards but a child by her own. Now she was absolutely a woman. Her breasts were larger than before, but still perfect in his eyes. He reached out like he was going to caress one, but then hesitated.

Kagome took his trembling hand in hers and pressed it to her left breast, encouraging him to palm and squeeze the fleshy mound. “Touch me, Inuyasha.” She begged, arching her back into his touch. “My body, every inch of it, belongs to you and you can touch it however you want.”

Humbled by her obvious arousal at his touch, Inuyasha did as she asked, bringing up his other hand to palm her opposite breast.

Kagome moaned, having dreamt of this moment for years and out of her mind with happiness that it was actually happening. She wanted him desperately. Her hands found his shoulders, but did not stay in that area. She eagerly explored his arms, neck, chest, and stomach with her fingers, loving the soft little whines of pleasure that she could induce in him.

Her hands drifted down to his hakama, tugging at the knot that held his pants up around his hips. But she could also feel his arousal through the fabric, so she took just a moment to palm his erection through his pants. The noise that Inuyasha made as she took his erection in hand was hard to describe: somewhere between a canine howl of pleasure and a human moan. But the translation was easy enough to understand: Inuyasha liked how she was touching him.

Wanting more, Kagome pushed his hakama down off his hips, exposing his erection since Inuyasha went commando a majority of the time. Taking care of his fire rat robes was easy since they mended themselves and grew with him. But taking care of his other clothes was too much hassle for the hanyou. He had enough trouble mending or finding new kosode, let alone having to deal with fundoshi.

He shifted, helping her fully remove his hakama, and then he froze. She had seen him naked before, a few times, but never before had he been aroused during those times. And her reaction to his body had not been positive. Once when he’d run into her room naked after her little brother had tried to boil him in a bath, she’d thrown her waste paper basket at him while screaming at him to get out. Not exactly encouraging.

He waited for her reaction, and it certainly was not like the previous times. Instead of freaking out, she smiled at him and wrapped her hand around his hard shaft, squeezing and pulling on him. Inuyasha grunted, thrusting his hips into her hand once before he regained control of himself. “Wait, Kagome…” He whispered, wrapping his clawed hand around hers to stop her movement. “Not right now. Not like this. I want to cum inside you the first time. You need it more than I do right now.” He encouraged her to lay down on the futon, which she did. Once she was comfortable, he shifted down her body until he face was hovering right over the junction between her legs. He worked carefully to remove her shirt and panties, knowing how much they meant to her and refusing to destroy them even in his lust.

“Inuyasha…” Kagome panted, gazing down at him with her eyes glazed over with lust. Inuyasha met her eyes with a smirk playing on his lips. He had always thought she was beautiful, even when he professed differently. But her beauty was something different now: sexy and wanton. The ache in his groin intensified with his need, but he refused to acknowledge that.

That one night with Miyako, he’d known that the first few minutes were not pleasant for her, if her snarls had been anything to go by. But he’d honestly not cared. Besides, she was a hanyou and could take pain. Kagome was a different matter entirely. He loved her and she was human. He would sooner cause pain to himself before he caused her any unnecessary pain. Some pain was unavoidable, but if he was careful, he could minimize it.

So he lowered his face against her thighs, patiently waiting for her to open up to him. That wasn’t to say that he didn’t encourage her, if his tongue running up her silky thighs were any indication.

Kagome gasped as the wet appendage glided across her skin and her legs parted for him. Inuyasha smirked as he inhaled the scent of her arousal, nearly driving him to the point of insanity. He could see that she was all ready plenty wet, but he was on a mission to bring her all the pleasure he could before partaking himself since his turn was unlikely to be very pleasant for her. So he moved closer and ran his tongue along her folds in a lingering lick.

Kagome let out a near-silent scream at the pure sensation that he could create in her body. Her hand found the top of his head and pressed him harder into her womanhood, begging for more. He happily gave her what she wanted.

He ran his tongue over the full length of her folds, suckled on her clit, and occasionally delved his tongue into the depths of her channel. He longed to touch her with his fingers, but was too afraid. He did not want to get his claws involved and risk injuring her in such a delicate area. He could still see the scars on her arm from the last time he had hurt her with his claws, and he never wanted to do that again.

But if the noises that Kagome was making were any indication, she didn’t mind that Inuyasha had restricted himself to just using his tongue.

Kagome’s moans grew louder as she began to rock against him in time with his movements, thrusting her hips against his mouth. She was absolutely soaked now, and so close to orgasm that he didn’t have the will to stop and deny her.

And then, in one breathless moment, Kagome was pushed over the edge into the most intense orgasm that she had ever experienced. She cried out, heedless of how loud she was as she rode the waves of pleasure to their peak and down again as her body settled.

As she gasped for breath in the aftermath of her orgasm, Inuyasha pulled away, gazing down at the beautiful goddess below him. He waited until her heartbeat had calmed down before he spoke.

“Can you get up now?” Inuyasha asked softly.

“Huh?” Kagome asked, honestly unable to understand his question.

Inuyasha smiled. “Can you get on your hands and knees now? I want you so much, Kagome.”

Now Kagome understood. He wanted to make love doggie style. It wasn’t that Kagome wasn’t willing to let him take her from behind. Hell, she’d be willing to do anything that he was up to. It was just that she had wanted to look into his eyes as they made love the first time.

“Um… Inuyasha?” Kagome began.

His eyes furrowed with concern. “What is it, Kagome?”

“I do want to make love with you right now, but I want to see your face while we do it.” Kagome said.

For a few minutes, Inuyasha just met her gaze, confused. When he’d fucked Miyako he’d taken her from behind. And all the animals that he’d seen mating in his life had always taken their partners from behind. He thought about it for a moment, but he honestly couldn’t think of a way that he and Kagome could mate while allowing her to see his face. His ears pinned down against his head. “How?” He asked.

Instead of laughing at him, knowing that he was likely just ignorant about other sexual positions because his sexual knowledge was based on instinct. (Which made Kagome realize that, despite him not being a virgin, she probably knew more about sex than he did.) That meant that she couldn’t wait to teach him about what fun sexual variation could be. But, for now…

He was all ready swatting down, facing her, so that was half the battle. She sat up and encouraged him to move closer to her, which he did without hesitation. She lay back down, pulling him down with her so that he was lying down on her body, between her thighs. In a flash, Inuyasha understood how this whole ‘facing each other’ thing was supposed to happen. And, now that he knew that you could mate like this, while looking into Kagome’s eyes… well, he could get used to this.

“Is this the human way?” Inuyasha asked. Kagome nodded, too caught up in the feeling of his stiff arousal against her sex to reply properly. “I think this is a good way to mate.” Inuyasha whispered to her, pulling her into another breath-taking kiss as he gently pushed himself forward into her body.

Kagome winched slightly at the intrusion, but the foreplay had done its job… it wasn’t as painful as it could have been. Mostly, Inuyasha’s intrusion just felt like a burning in her virgin channel. Kagome wrapped her arms around his back, holding him close to her and seeking relief in his presence.

Inuyasha grit his fangs as he sank within her. It was better… so much better than the night with Miyako. Because Kagome was a human who loved and accepted him without reservations, not because she had to or was obligated, but simply because she loved him. And he loved her in return, with every breath, every beat of his heart, and with his entire soul.

One fuck in the woods with a complete stranger could never compare to something like the magnificence he shared with Kagome.

After what seemed an eternity he was fully sheathed within her. He stopped then, waiting for her signal that it was okay to move. He ignored his instincts screaming at him to thrust hard and fast into her. He’d never risk injuring her. Never. He would wait for her, even if he had to wait forever.

But he didn’t have to wait forever. After about a minute, the burning had eased up and Kagome’s body relaxed around him, easing up the pain even more. She buried her fingers in his silver hair and kissed him. Inuyasha kissed her in return, allowing his tongue to meet hers as he felt the signal that he’d been waiting for. She thrust her hips against his. Just a little movement, but enough for him to feel it.

He carefully began to move, grinding into her body more than actual thrusting, waiting to see if she was really in pain. To his relief, the sounds that came from her were not pained groans, but soft moans of pleasure and calling his name, begging for more.

He gave in at last.

He picked up the force and speed of his thrusts, increasing the sound of Kagome’s cries of pleasure as he moved inside her.

Kagome gazed up at him with half-lidded eyes, watching the pure amazement and love on his face as he found his pleasure within her body. Making love with Inuyasha was everything she ever dreamed it would be, and so much more. They touched and caressed every part of each other’s bodies that they could reach. Inuyasha even let her rub his ears. And instead of pulling away and asking her not to, he actually leaned his head into the touch, groaning with pleasure.

They left love bites all over each other, not caring for one moment who would see the next morning. All that mattered was the here and now, working together to bring each other this holy pleasure.

She was awed by the sight of him, covered in a fine sheen of sweat and panting as all his muscles moved with the singular purpose to create as much sensation as possible. To him, she looked just as glorious, covered in sweat herself and gasping a broken version of his name in time to his thrusts.

All too soon, he felt his orgasm approaching, but was also helpless to stop it. Mating with Kagome felt too good, too wonderful, for him to hold back and suspend his climax. “Kagome…? I’m gonna… gonna…” He tried to get the words out, but his mouth was working even less than usual.

“It’s okay.” Kagome replied brokenly, getting the message that he was trying to communicate anyway. She kissed him deeply. “Cum for me, Inuyasha.”

That was the final straw. Inuyasha let go completely, thrusting wildly against her and howling loudly as he came within her. Perhaps the people in the village would just mistake the noise for a dog. His hips locked against hers as he spilled his seed within her. Thankfully, he was part-dog and not part-wolf so he and Kagome were not tied together. Even still, they couldn’t even think about separating right now.

Inuyasha lay down on top of her, and she wrapped her arms around his body. They were both panting and covered in sweat which mixed together on their bodies. Kagome pressed her lips against his skin, kissing him tenderly and he couldn’t help nuzzling her in return. Kagome couldn’t help laughing at how inu-like he was acting in the aftermath of sex.

Another eternity passed before either one of them broke the silence. And it was Inuyasha who did so. “Koichii?” He asked.

It warmed Kagome’s heart when he called her his beloved. “Yes?”

“I love you. I really do.”

Kagome smiled and kissed him. “I love you too, Inuyasha. And I’ll stay by your side… now and forever.”