InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I'm Sorry ❯ Addicted ( Chapter 2 )

Mweeeee! Here we go again! I was so shocked by all the reviews I got that I just had to post another chapter soon! This is really fun! ^^ I get all my angerness and depressionosity (yes, I realize neither of those are words…) out writing this one…although, I couldn't tell ya how this chappy will turn out to be like…so here we goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo…

Disclaimer: I dun own Inuyasha, Rumiko Takahashi does. And I would just like to inform her that she is the LUCKIEST FRIGGIN WOMAN ON THIS EARTH!!!! o.o ok I'm done now…oh yeah, and I still don't own Cold, or Crossfade…

Kagome stumbled into her house, pressing a shaky hand to the counter as she held herself up dizzily. "Mom…" she whispered hoarsely, unable to muster the energy to yell.

No answer.

She was about to try again when her hand slipped over a small piece of paper. She picked it up and squinted at the writing, trying to get her eyes to focus and stop seeing double.

Kagome,

Hi honey! How are things in feudal Japan? I hope your little friends are good and healthy. Since you weren't here, your grandfather, Souta and I all decided to go on a trip to Okinawa. It's summer holiday right now, so you don't have to study! Enjoy your days off, dear! We'll be back on the 28th.

Love,

Mom

Kagome groaned. 'Great, it's always when you need someone the most that they decide to go to Okinawa for a holiday.' She shuffled over to the fridge and opened the door, relishing in its cool contrast from the hot summer day. Her eyes searched the compartment for any sort of liquid, before landing on a pitcher of lemonade. Too exhausted to actually pour herself a glass, she took the pitcher and as delicately as she could, poured it into her mouth. Unfortunately, only half of the lemonade made it into her mouth, the other half spilling all over her and seeping into the bandage at her side. Kagome dropped the pitcher suddenly, letting it splatter all over the clean floor and let out a strangled scream, tearing at the bandages wrapped so tightly around her waist. She could feel the sour juice eating away at her open wound, the burning sensation only growing stronger at her reckless movements.

It was all too much…

She fell to the ground clutching the torn dressings in her hands, choking on the sobs that sought their way up to her lips. The pain, the rejection…she couldn't take it. As she was about ready to give up, warm arms enveloped her and gently undid the bindings that were causing her such pain. She looked into the eyes of her savior and was not the least bit surprised to find herself gazing into deep pools of amber. She tried to tear herself away from his embrace, but the gash in her side made her powerless to do anything but whine softly.

"Kagome, I…" Inuyasha looked down at the frail girl he held in his arms, decked with so many emotions he felt as though he would drown. He picked her up tenderly and made the slow journey up to her room. He gently laid her on the bed and quickly running down the hallway to grab a wet towel and some extra bandages, then quickly made his way back to her bedside. Inuyasha watched with admiration as her face tightened to a grimace and her brows furrowed, attempting to keep the tears from flowing. She was so strong. So frail, yet so strong. He nimbly dabbed at the gash, trying hard to ignore the small whimpers of protest coming from the young miko. When he had finished and it looked reasonably clean, he wrapped it adeptly in the fresh bandage, pulling a blanket over the scantily clad girl. After a little while her face relaxed and her breathing began to even out. Inuyasha dragged the chair at Kagome's desk over to the side of her bed, gazing at her affectionately.

It was then that he realized how very close she had come to death. One false move and her life could've ended. "No." he breathed, covering his face with his hands. "I wish…"

What did he wish? That she hadn't fallen through the well that day? That he had never met her? That she hated him like Kikyou? No, he could never want her to hate him. But if she did…

…If she did, she wouldn't get hurt. If she hated him, she wouldn't keep coming back and putting herself in danger. A sharp pain shot down his spine and he shook his head, trying to rid himself of the thoughts. He couldn't live without her; she was his only means of survival in the cold and cruel world he knew. She had showed him kindness, compassion, things he had never known before. The joy she brought him was too much to comprehend, too much to keep bottled up inside. And yet, that's exactly what he did. Instead of telling her how much he missed her, he would tell her to hurry up. Instead of saying he cared about her, he led her to believe she meant nothing to him; that she was simply his tool. And day after day this angel continued to follow him, and day after day he risked her life for his own sake.

Kagome was too caught up in her own thoughts to tell the hanyou she wasn't sleeping. The mere fact that he was near her made her want to doze off, but she wanted to be able to stay with him for as long as she could. He made her feel so safe, it didn't even bother her the least that a million youkai were after them. Even if he was cold and distant to her, she kept coming back to him, like a confused puppy, and just so she would have him there next to her, not even saying anything. Just his presence…

Something inside her told her how foolish she was being. He didn't really care, he just felt responsible. Just like a shepherd watches his sheep so tenderly, although in the end, his intentions are only to slaughter them and feed himself and his family. She was his tool, nothing more.

"No." she heard him mumble and her eyes opened widely, glancing at the hanyou before closing them quickly. It was almost as if he had read her mind.

'Stop thinking like that, Kagome!' she scolded herself, 'you'll only have yourself broken again! Think Kikyou. Kikyou, Kikyou, Kikyou. You're just a tool.' she hated herself for her weakness. She constantly rehearsed telling Inuyasha how she felt; using a pillow or a mirror, until she felt it was perfected. But as soon as she was in his presence, all the calm words left her and she was either rendered speechless, or filled with an endless stream of insults and brazen words. It was an infinite cycle of pain, but there was always some moment, some little second where he would give her just an inkling of hope; a flash of joy, and she would think that maybe, just maybe this time it would all work out. That maybe now things would go how she dreamt they would. And then little green men would come down from the sky asking for salami…'fat chance of thatever happening.' Kagome thought, turning her head to watch Inuyasha as he slowly lifted his head to gaze back at her, a pensive look on his face.

'I can't stay away from you.'

You are the antidote that gets me by

Something strong

Like a drug that gets me high

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Ok minna! Here is your chappy! And a big thanks to all my reviewers! Not only did you guys make my week, but my ego has increased to six times bigger! Lol, juuuuuuuuust kidding! ^^;

inu.-sess.fan: thank you! I hope this chappy was good too? ^^

naraku's angel: well, I think this takes care of one of the "mores", ne? ^^; I'll keep writing as often as I can!

Krystin: lol, thank you very much! ^///^ I'm glad you thought of it that way, I think that's what I was aiming for, but I'm not entirely sure…^^; and you're not so strange, but then again, strange is good, ne?

Snoochie: Voila! Here is what happens next! And thank you! ^^ *Very flattered*

chrisy12: why, thank you! And here is your update! ^^

Pinayazngrl: yes, I know, I'm so awful, making them suffer so…I hope Inuyasha does that too, but we'll just have to see, now won't we? -_~

Well, that's all for now, folks! Oh, and if you like rock music at all, I highly suggest downloading Cold by Crossfade. It's a wonderful song and I personally think it to be quite powerful…(of course, I'm pretty easily moved by music…) so yeah…I'll update again as soon as I can!

-Nekura