InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I wish you would ❯ The relationship ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Kagome loves Inu Yasha with all her heart, but he.... doesn't. Will he ever, or never, find out... KaIY Rated for Inu's(and sometimes even sweet Kagg's) mouth, maybelater for Lemon, not so sure about this. My newest one!

Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 01.23.2006 | Pages: 6 | Words: 5.0K | Visits: 357 | Status: Work In Progress

I wish you would

Disclaimer: Inu Yasha and all the other characters belong to the wonderful mangaka Rumiko Takahashi.

Alex and Maria, thank you for encouraging me and reading this and almost crying... o.-

Alex, because normally she doesn't like Inu Yasha (or any Manga, except of Chobits and Princess Ai) and doesn't read fanfics at all..... (Genau, Alex, so a scheiß, oda? Wenigstens lest meine, des reicht ma scho o.- )

Maria, who always soughs up my happiness (no, I'm just kidding) and shares my passion (passion?) for Shonen-ai (Andere Leit wissn hoid nix zu schätzn, geh, Maria?)

Soo... I wrote a new one. It's something special to me. It took long for me to write it and in the beginning it was a one-shot. Yes.... That's it. So, read and review, I hope there's someone who likes it.

Sorry for the time jumps. I'm not this good at writing long stories. ^.^

(The song text extract below is from Meat Loaf's “Two out of three ain't bad”, which inspired me to write this.)

Chapter one

The relationship

I want you...

I need you...

But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you....

...Don't be sad...

Slowly Kagome opened her eyes and yawned. She snuggled deeper into the warm body behind her. A low purr came from there and she giggled a bit. She took the hands in front of her, intertwined her fingers with his and kissed the palm lightly.

She received a kiss on her neck from Inu Yasha. She sighed blissfully and turned around.

“Good morning....”, she said and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

“Morning....”, he grumbled sleepily and kissed her on the lips.

Since they officially had been a couple, everything seemed to be easier. Or more difficult. But that's what it's all about.: Solving one problem and then, short after, having the next.

But it was this way: They held hands the whole time, they cuddled, they kissed, they slept together, she confessed her love for him and he... didn't. All he said each time she said it were things like :”I know.”. He never said it. Never, not even once.

She sighed again, but this time it was full of sorrow. At first she always thought that he'd just need a little bit more time but now... She wasn't sure if he loved her at all.

“Hey, what's up? Something's wrong?”, he said concerned.

At least he cared. A lot.

“No, nothing!”, she happily said and looked up to him. He kissed her deeply.

“I love you.....”, she whispered, always looking into his eyes. He smiled warmly and nodded, then he kissed her again.

It's just like he's avoiding an answer... he's never going to say it...he's never going to feel it...

But she hoped that he loved her deep in his heart, hoped it so much, it almost hurt.

She embraced him and pressed her naked body tightly up to his. He smiled and laid his arms around her. He buried his face in her thick, raven-black hair and breathed in her scent.

I'm sorry... I'm really sorry. ,he thought and squeezed her, like he was apologizing to her for not being able to say it. He couldn't lie, even if it would make her happy. He never lied. And this one thing would never change.

***

“Good morning, you two!”, Sango said cheerfully.

“Sorry for being late.”, Kagome apologized as she gave her best friend a quick kiss on the cheek.

“It's okay, tomorrow you'll prepare breakfast.”, she laughed with a wink.

Kagome smiled, nodded and sat down between Sango and Inu Yasha.

“Where are we going today?”, Miroku asked.

“Don't know... Ka-chan, are you feeling a Shikon-shard?”, Inu Yasha looked at her.

She blushed a bit because of the nickname, but answered: “Yes, I think we should go south.”

“Then It's decided.”, they said and ate their breakfast.

“I hope Shippo's well.... I feel guilty for leaving him at Kaede's.”, Kagome murmured.

“The runt will be alright.”, Inu Yasha reassured her, and added whispering: “When he's here we can't have fun.”.

“Oh you...”, Kagome giggled, but gave him a intense kiss anyway.

***

“Good night!”, Inu Yasha and Kagome said to Miroku and Sango and went into their room.

They were lucky that they had found a castle where someone believed in Miroku's “There's-a-ominous-cloud-over-your-castle,-I-will-exorcise-it-just-gi ve-us-two-rooms-and-food”-speech.

“Sometimes it's good to have Miroku, isn't it?”, Kagome laughed and took off her shoes and socks, then her clothes and put on her nightwear, which actually couldn't be considered as non-transparent, but taking it off always was fun. ^.^

Inu Yasha let out a small laugh too. “Yes, and otherwise, we would have found another place....”, he smirked and stepped over to Kagome and pressed his naked body to hers as he embraced her tightly.

“Like the tree last week? Wasn't that a bit uncomfortable for you?”, she grinned and gave him a light slap on his butt.

“Uhmm... the day after wasn't nice but in exchange for the night before, it was bearable.”.

Both laughed as they got into bed to have fun... the whole night through.

But Kagome always had this one sentence in the back of her mind, and couldn't erase it, no matter how strong she was concentrating on other things which seemed more important for him: she was his mate, his bride for life, he wouldn't leave her.

He doesn't love you... ....but perhaps one day he will.

But not even her heart was so sure anymore.

***

Kagome was quite some time awake before Inu Yasha was, and so she had a bit time to think, which was difficult when he was awake, he always distracted her.

She looked into his face.

His white hair hanging softly on his tanned skin, his beautiful amber eyes hidden beneath thick, long almost feminine eyelashes, his full mouth opened slighlty.

She could not understand why something so beautiful was laying beneath her and had chosen her to be his mate, and not somebody he loved. Tears formed in her eyes and slowly trailed down her cheeks, as she began to sob softly.

No! Don't cry! You'll wake him up and you'll have to explain why you're crying. Stop it!, she said to herself and forced the sobs to vanish and the tears to dry.

She laid there a few minutes longer, as he stirred and slowly opened his eyes to look at her.

“Good morning!”, he said and gave her a kiss, then he sat up, looked at her face and sniffed the air around.

“You cried? Why?”, he softly said. He didn't like it when she cried, it always remembered him of his mother. He always had made her cry, because he was different from the others.

And now again he made Kagome cry, the most important person in his life, his mate. Why did everyone cry because of him? Was he really so different?

She looked away. “I didn't cry.”, she whispered.

“Sure you did! Come on, tell me. What did we say? No secrets?”, he looked at her with this caring expression he always wore, and she broke out in tears.

Caring... but not loving!

“Kagome! Hey, what's wrong with you?”, he felt bad. Somehow, he felt guilty. Somehow he knew it was his fault.

“You don't...”, she sobbed quietly, then she took a deep breath and stopped it.

“I don't... what?”, he asked.

She looked into his eyes and he froze. There was so much pain... and so much love.

“Kagome...”, he whispered.

She continued staring into his eyes and he couldn't brake the contact.

“You don't love me.”. So. There she had said it.

Do something, Inu Yasha, do something!, he said to himself and was about to kiss her as she stopped him.

She shook her head slowly.

He sat down again and looked at the floor, his bangs covering his face.

“Look at me!”, Kagome ordered, nothing soft in her voice anymore.

He obeyed her order and looked into her face. Her eyes so full of pain, but he couldn't lie to her. Not even if it meant he would never see her again.

“You don't have to lie. You never did.”, she said.

“No...”, came his whispered answer.

Kagome closed her eyes and breathed in deeply.

“And you never will...?”, she said with a broken voice. It wasn't a statement, it was a question.

“I don't know.”

“It's Kikyo, isn't it?”, she asked.

“Maybe, but I don't know. I don't even know what I feel.” , he replied.

“I'm not Kikyo.”, she whispered. He took her wrists and made her look at him.

“I don't want you to be her. This is you, Kagome. Kikyo is another person, and you know that as well as me.”

“Then why am I your mate, and not her ? Why do you fuck me, and not her? And why do you let us both suffer? That's so egoistic of you. You're such an ass and I still love you. I love you more than life itself and you throw it all away.”

He dropped his head and looked at the floor, but not releasing her wrists. A few moments there was silence between them.

“Don't leave me.”, he whispered with a shaking voice. “Please.”

A single tear dropped on her arm, and his grip on her wrists tightened.

He's ..... crying? Inu Yasha's crying?

“And why shouldn't I?”, she asked, her voice not as cold as she wanted it to be.

“Because...”, he looked into her eyes and she stared into his teary ones. “Because I need you, more than Kikyo. More than anything else in this world.

She kissed him and laid her arms around him.

“I love you.”, she whispered, as he laid his arms around her waist tightly.

“I know... and I'm sorry.”.

***

Soooooo.... I read Harry Potter 6 (in English )(a long ime ago…. Oh my gosh…) and I was really shocked because I didn't knew exactly that `mate', had other meanings too, and so very different meanings! When I think of `mate' than it's this `bride-for-life-bite-blood-bound'-thing! And not this `best friend'-thing! ^.^

Oh my god, I was really confused when Harry said that Ron was his mate... o.O (Because I like HarryxDray pairings *lol*)

I really have to learn a lot!

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This was chapter one. It's short, but that's the best thing for a first chapter, isn't it? I hope it gave a little insight in the fanfic.

Sorry that I'm still bad at tenses! ^.^ Gomen ne!

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