InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ If He Dosn't Love. Why Try? ❯ it was happening again ( Chapter 1 )

The beginning or the end?
I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters in the show/movies.

She was running from it again. That feeling, that strange feeling she got in the pit of her stomach. The one that tossed and turned and fluttered all at the same time, it left her feeling strange. She didn’t want to feel it, feeling that would mean feeling something real. She didn’t want to feel that way for him. She liked being numb, void of all emotion. She hated feeling. It was a sign of weakness, one she could never afford to have. Finally she was getting closer, she was going home. There would be no coming back, she didn’t care. At least that is what she kept telling herself. She didn’t really believe that. The man made her melt. No she knew she would be back. She always came back, but that didn’t mean she had to want to come back. No that was a lie. She did want to come back and that was the problem.

She loved him. She hated admitting it but she did. But he didn’t love her back. He never would and never could. At least that is what she kept telling herself. Did he? Could he? No, he couldn’t wouldn’t. Oh kami I hate him. No I love him and that is why I hate him. Isn’t it? Or maybe that is why I love him so much. No, I just want to go home.

“Kagome, why the hells are you so mad at me?” snapped Inuyash.

“I’m not mad so stop snapping at me!” Kagome yelled back at him. Oh no there it is again. My hearts beating like before. I have to stop thinking about him. Why won’t it just go away and leave me alone. I can’t feel this way for him.

“Hey look at me when I’m talking to you! Hey I said look at me! Damn it are you listening!!”

“Sit boy!”

Kagome sighed. She was trying hard not to look at him. She knew if she looked at him she would be embarrassed. He was still yelling at her. When all of a sudden he got up and walked over to her. She hated it when he yelled and she had started to tear up a little bit. He had a look of worry on his face as he walked up to her.

“Kagome, are you ok? I didn’t mean to make you cry. I’m sorry.” Inuyash gently took her chin and moved it to face him.

Her heart skipped a beat and she began to melt. She hated this. She didn’t want this. It drove her insane that feeling. That stupid, stupid feeling, it wasn’t even it just she……..didn’t know. She cared for Inuyasha she did. But she didn’t love him. Not like she used to.

Why can’t I just tell him how I feel? I want him to know but I’m scared to. I’m scared to because I don’t want Sango and Inuyasha to be mad at me and what if he didn’t feel the same way I feel for him. No I can’t think that way. Inuyasha is my best friend he will accept me no matter what! And so will Sango. Besides Sango loves someone else.

“Inuyasha…” Kagome breathed. She had to tell him it was now or never.

“Yeah?” Inuyasha was staring into those big brown eyes of hers.

“Can I tell you something? Without you getting mad? And you have to keep it a secret between the both of us!” Kagome asked her voice barely above a whisper. He was thankful to have super hearing because he was sure if he didn’t he wouldn’t have been able to hear her.

Kagome turned away from him to stare off into the distance. She hadn’t even told Sango this. Now here she was telling Inuyasha. She couldn’t believe it. “Inuyash…… I love Miroku. I don’t know why I mean he is a total lecher and I just seem to be attracted to him. I know he will never love me back because he’s in love with Sango but I can’t help it, and I don’t want to be, I just am.” She was now in tears. She was sobbing she knew the man she loved would never be with her but she couldn’t help it. There was something about Miroku that she loved. Inuyasha pulled her into his arms and held her tell she fell asleep.

They walked back into camp Inuyasha holding her gently. Everyone turned and look at the two as they walked into the clearing. He carefully laid her in her sleeping bag. She shifted but stayed asleep.

“Is she ok? Did something happen to the two of you, Inuyasha?” Sango whispered worriedly.

“No nothing happened to us she just….. She was tired that’s all. You know completely exhausted from today. It was pretty tough and all. We killed two demons in a row so. I guess it took a toll on her, that’s all.” Inuyasha replied casually.

Sango looked really worried. But Miroku just gave him a perverted grin and said “sure that’s what happened… we believe you.”

“Shut up Miroku! You pervert!” Inuyasha snarled

Plezzz review this is my second attempt at the chapter so I hope it’s better. I’m going to post the other chapter up later. I hope u like it.