InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ If only in my Dreams ❯ Why Am I Human? ( Chapter 22 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
If Only in my Dreams
"Why is your youki changed?" Sesshomaru questioned, his body still seated in the same position he'd been in now for the past few hours.
"Keh, what's it to you, what do you care?" Inuyasha grumbled, his attention straying from his mate to his brother.
"You're still human." he replied, his attention lingering upon Inuyasha's face and the shock that now registered across it.
"What the hell?" Inuyasha growled staring at his undeniably human hands in confusion.
"Your youki was different yesterday, why?" Sesshomaru asked...again, his gaze straying to the pink and red hues that accompanied the sunrise.
"What'd ya mean yesterday? Yesterday I was normal, it's today youshould be worried about." he hissed, his mood going south very quickly. He hated being human.
"I still sense your youki. It's weak, but it's there. It may take a few days but it should build back up and return to normal. But even at that, it will be normal where yesterday it was off, why?" he asked... for the third time, his irritation steadily growing.He wasn't in the habit of repeating himself, and yet with his half brother it seemed he had to push the subject if he wished to get any kind of answer.
" And what about my pup? What about Kagome? I can't protect them like this!" Inuyasha ground out. Naraku was finally dead- things were supposed to fall into place now. They were supposed to be able to settle down and raise their family.
Sunrise had caught him by surprise. Kagome still lay sleeping though her shaking and bleeding had stopped. The jewel sparkled from its place at the hollow of her throat, its pieces fused together though it still lacked Kohaku's shard. But it was one shard...one shard until they could have the life they had both wanted for so long now. He longed to hear the beat of his pup's heart, but as it was, he was human, and that fact still had him stunned. Why did things always have to be so damned difficult?
"What caused your youki to shift Inuyasha? "Sesshomaru replied, his patience very nearly exhausted.
The hair on his neck bristled suddenly, his youki sensing something amiss. The forest floor seemed to disappear, its earthen base covered first by a thin layer of mist, then by a swirling mass of what appeared to be smoke.
A woman's voice, soft and motherly drifted from its depths. "I think I can explain."
Sesshomaru moved, his form a blur as he hovered protectively over Kagome's sleeping figure. Inuyasha smirked, his eyebrow twitching slightly as he watched his brother.
"Dream Spirit." Inuyasha muttered, his words directed to his brother.
"Indeed." Sesshomaru replied.
"You see, I was afraid this might happen." the disembodied voice said softly. "When Inuyasha was given a part of my youki, it had been intended to make his youki whole. And it worked- he maintained his hanyou appearance but wielded a full demon's powers, a full demon's youki. However..."she paused "...I failed to take his human blood into account. At some point it had to take over, for it is as much a part of himas his demon blood is, just dormant throughout the month, only presenting itself in the few visible characteristics- his ears for example."
"What does this have to do with anything" Inuyasha growled impatiently.
She silenced him with a look.
"Last night your human blood flared to life, its power overtaking your demon blood thus, overtaking me as well. As your demon blood then became dormant, my youki became no longer accepted. "You see... she continued..."you are able to use my youki when your demon blood is dominant, but your body will reject it once your human blood takes over. My youki will not fully merge with yours, therefore, it is of no further use to you. Your human blood will remain dominant until your body is certain that nothing remains of my youki. Had you been a Dream demon our youki would have merged successfully."
Her voice swam around them, its exact place of origin still a mystery.
"And how damn long do I have to stay like this?" Inuyasha growled, not happy at all with his current situation.
"That, I know not. A few days- a week perhaps. Depends on how your body perceives my absence."
"And just how the hell am I to channel to my pup. It won't make it that long without my youki!" he yelled, his hand moving toward the hilt of his sword. Oh how he would have liked to beat the life out of something right about now.
"For that I am deeply sorry- had I known this would happen I would have refrained from helping you. The woman- your mate, her body also rejected the part of my soul I offered. It seems the woman who died here last night returned to her the missing piece of her soul. Mine was forced from her in the same instant that their powers exploded. She now has a whole soul, all her own. Neither of you have any further need of myassistance. I am truly sorry, for,I only meant to help." her words whispered past Inuyasha, moving upon the breeze. Her misty form swayed on the currents.It shifted around Sesshomaru uneasily, her voice drifting faintly past his ear before she disappeared all together." You are lonely, perhaps I can help you find what it is your heart desires."
"This Sesshomaru needs no such help." He murmured in obvious annoyance, only to be left talking to himself.
Sesshomaru contemplated what they'd just been told, shrugging off her whisper-soft voice. There were other things that needed to be considered.
It would be dishonorable to leave Inuyasha and Kagome now. The pup would ,after all, be a part of his pack-just as Inuyasha was- though, that piece of information needed no announcing. They had each risked their lives to protect him and his own, and he wouldn't leave until he was certain they were both capable of protectingthemselves, and their pup.
"I have already offered my assistance until your mate and pup are well. If that means staying until you are returned to your half demon status, then so be it." Sesshomaru reasoned.
Well THAT just topped off the whole day...not only was he human, but he'd have to rely on the one person he wanted absolutely nothing to do with to help protect his mate from any who might seek the power of the jewel, and to provide his pup the youki it would need until his own demon blood returned.
"Great! Just great..."he muttered before turning and making his way through the forest. Perhaps it would help to KILL something for breakfast...
Sesshomaru shifted, his hand tightening slightly upon the hilt of Tojikin. His half brother had always managed to work his way under his skin, though his irritation remained hidden, but only by his sheer will. He would not allow his temper to get the better of him- even though most would agree that Inuyasha could provoke a saint into violence.
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Sango and Miroku made their way through the forest. Shippo, Rin and Kirara wandering a little further ahead .
Miroku stopped just short of the tree line, his hand catching Sango's arm as she made to step around him."You guys go on ahead- let Kaede know what happened, but don't tell her of Kikyo... not yet." Sango said .Shippo nodded before the small group headed off leaving the two alone.
"It's like it was when we thought we defeated Naraku the last time, or at least when we thought we did. You remember?" he murmured.
Sango stood quiet, her eyes resting on Miroku's tense frame.
He eyed the palm of his hand, it's smooth texture void of the abyss that had filled its center for so many years. Nearly all his life.
It had kept him from following his heart, from marrying for fear of leaving his bride a young widow, or even worst, leaving his children without a father.
"Do you think Naraku's gone this time? I mean really, truly gone?"Miroku asked.
"Yes." she whispered.
Her hand slid into his, her fingertips caressing his palm ,where the wind tunnel had once been.
"I meant it Sango." he whispered, his eyes locked upon their hands.
"Meant what, Miroku?"she replied as she allowed Hiraikotsu to fall softly from her shoulder."That I want you to be my wife, to bear my children...I meant it. But I'll understand if you've changed your mind."
She was silent for a moment, and he thought for certain he'd lost her. They'd waited so long now to be together. And now that it was finally possible, it was too late. His heart fell.
"I have to find Kohaku, I have to know where he is...what happened tohim. "
"I know, and I'll be there to help you in your search." he replied, sure his heart could be heard cracking within him.
She caressed his hand lovingly, awed by the smooth, flawless skin that now covered what had once been so destructive.
She pulled his hand to her mouth and kissed his palm- heard his sharp intake of breath, watched as his eyes fell closed.
"I meant it too." she whispered as she took a step closer.
" Meant it too?" he questioned, his eyes raising to hers.
"Meant it when I said that I wanted to be your wife, that I wanted to be the mother of your children." she whispered gently, her face flushed yet she held his gaze. Do you love me Miroku, do you love me enough that I'll be all you'll ever need? Because I can't- I won't share you, Miroku. I want you all to myself."
"You've been my only one since the day I asked you to be my wife." he replied, his voice breathless, his eyes wide in surprised happiness.
He leaned forward then, close enough to allow her to close the distance between them if she chose.
"I love you my dear Sango." he whispered.
She leaned forward then, her lips catching his in a soul-searching kiss that left her knees weak and her heart racing. Her hands came up to hold his face tenderly, her eyes opening to gaze upon his.
"I love you, too Miroku.." she murmured before he found her lipsagain.XXXXXXXx
How was it all...I want to thank Azaleea for her editing skills..and a HUGE thanks to ALL who reviewed..I am SORRY I wasn't able to thank you all individually as I usually do, but this week has been riddled with doctors appointments and it just wasn't possible, but thanks to you all ...
"Why is your youki changed?" Sesshomaru questioned, his body still seated in the same position he'd been in now for the past few hours.
"Keh, what's it to you, what do you care?" Inuyasha grumbled, his attention straying from his mate to his brother.
"You're still human." he replied, his attention lingering upon Inuyasha's face and the shock that now registered across it.
"What the hell?" Inuyasha growled staring at his undeniably human hands in confusion.
"Your youki was different yesterday, why?" Sesshomaru asked...again, his gaze straying to the pink and red hues that accompanied the sunrise.
"What'd ya mean yesterday? Yesterday I was normal, it's today youshould be worried about." he hissed, his mood going south very quickly. He hated being human.
"I still sense your youki. It's weak, but it's there. It may take a few days but it should build back up and return to normal. But even at that, it will be normal where yesterday it was off, why?" he asked... for the third time, his irritation steadily growing.He wasn't in the habit of repeating himself, and yet with his half brother it seemed he had to push the subject if he wished to get any kind of answer.
" And what about my pup? What about Kagome? I can't protect them like this!" Inuyasha ground out. Naraku was finally dead- things were supposed to fall into place now. They were supposed to be able to settle down and raise their family.
Sunrise had caught him by surprise. Kagome still lay sleeping though her shaking and bleeding had stopped. The jewel sparkled from its place at the hollow of her throat, its pieces fused together though it still lacked Kohaku's shard. But it was one shard...one shard until they could have the life they had both wanted for so long now. He longed to hear the beat of his pup's heart, but as it was, he was human, and that fact still had him stunned. Why did things always have to be so damned difficult?
"What caused your youki to shift Inuyasha? "Sesshomaru replied, his patience very nearly exhausted.
The hair on his neck bristled suddenly, his youki sensing something amiss. The forest floor seemed to disappear, its earthen base covered first by a thin layer of mist, then by a swirling mass of what appeared to be smoke.
A woman's voice, soft and motherly drifted from its depths. "I think I can explain."
Sesshomaru moved, his form a blur as he hovered protectively over Kagome's sleeping figure. Inuyasha smirked, his eyebrow twitching slightly as he watched his brother.
"Dream Spirit." Inuyasha muttered, his words directed to his brother.
"Indeed." Sesshomaru replied.
"You see, I was afraid this might happen." the disembodied voice said softly. "When Inuyasha was given a part of my youki, it had been intended to make his youki whole. And it worked- he maintained his hanyou appearance but wielded a full demon's powers, a full demon's youki. However..."she paused "...I failed to take his human blood into account. At some point it had to take over, for it is as much a part of himas his demon blood is, just dormant throughout the month, only presenting itself in the few visible characteristics- his ears for example."
"What does this have to do with anything" Inuyasha growled impatiently.
She silenced him with a look.
"Last night your human blood flared to life, its power overtaking your demon blood thus, overtaking me as well. As your demon blood then became dormant, my youki became no longer accepted. "You see... she continued..."you are able to use my youki when your demon blood is dominant, but your body will reject it once your human blood takes over. My youki will not fully merge with yours, therefore, it is of no further use to you. Your human blood will remain dominant until your body is certain that nothing remains of my youki. Had you been a Dream demon our youki would have merged successfully."
Her voice swam around them, its exact place of origin still a mystery.
"And how damn long do I have to stay like this?" Inuyasha growled, not happy at all with his current situation.
"That, I know not. A few days- a week perhaps. Depends on how your body perceives my absence."
"And just how the hell am I to channel to my pup. It won't make it that long without my youki!" he yelled, his hand moving toward the hilt of his sword. Oh how he would have liked to beat the life out of something right about now.
"For that I am deeply sorry- had I known this would happen I would have refrained from helping you. The woman- your mate, her body also rejected the part of my soul I offered. It seems the woman who died here last night returned to her the missing piece of her soul. Mine was forced from her in the same instant that their powers exploded. She now has a whole soul, all her own. Neither of you have any further need of myassistance. I am truly sorry, for,I only meant to help." her words whispered past Inuyasha, moving upon the breeze. Her misty form swayed on the currents.It shifted around Sesshomaru uneasily, her voice drifting faintly past his ear before she disappeared all together." You are lonely, perhaps I can help you find what it is your heart desires."
"This Sesshomaru needs no such help." He murmured in obvious annoyance, only to be left talking to himself.
Sesshomaru contemplated what they'd just been told, shrugging off her whisper-soft voice. There were other things that needed to be considered.
It would be dishonorable to leave Inuyasha and Kagome now. The pup would ,after all, be a part of his pack-just as Inuyasha was- though, that piece of information needed no announcing. They had each risked their lives to protect him and his own, and he wouldn't leave until he was certain they were both capable of protectingthemselves, and their pup.
"I have already offered my assistance until your mate and pup are well. If that means staying until you are returned to your half demon status, then so be it." Sesshomaru reasoned.
Well THAT just topped off the whole day...not only was he human, but he'd have to rely on the one person he wanted absolutely nothing to do with to help protect his mate from any who might seek the power of the jewel, and to provide his pup the youki it would need until his own demon blood returned.
"Great! Just great..."he muttered before turning and making his way through the forest. Perhaps it would help to KILL something for breakfast...
Sesshomaru shifted, his hand tightening slightly upon the hilt of Tojikin. His half brother had always managed to work his way under his skin, though his irritation remained hidden, but only by his sheer will. He would not allow his temper to get the better of him- even though most would agree that Inuyasha could provoke a saint into violence.
X
Sango and Miroku made their way through the forest. Shippo, Rin and Kirara wandering a little further ahead .
Miroku stopped just short of the tree line, his hand catching Sango's arm as she made to step around him."You guys go on ahead- let Kaede know what happened, but don't tell her of Kikyo... not yet." Sango said .Shippo nodded before the small group headed off leaving the two alone.
"It's like it was when we thought we defeated Naraku the last time, or at least when we thought we did. You remember?" he murmured.
Sango stood quiet, her eyes resting on Miroku's tense frame.
He eyed the palm of his hand, it's smooth texture void of the abyss that had filled its center for so many years. Nearly all his life.
It had kept him from following his heart, from marrying for fear of leaving his bride a young widow, or even worst, leaving his children without a father.
"Do you think Naraku's gone this time? I mean really, truly gone?"Miroku asked.
"Yes." she whispered.
Her hand slid into his, her fingertips caressing his palm ,where the wind tunnel had once been.
"I meant it Sango." he whispered, his eyes locked upon their hands.
"Meant what, Miroku?"she replied as she allowed Hiraikotsu to fall softly from her shoulder."That I want you to be my wife, to bear my children...I meant it. But I'll understand if you've changed your mind."
She was silent for a moment, and he thought for certain he'd lost her. They'd waited so long now to be together. And now that it was finally possible, it was too late. His heart fell.
"I have to find Kohaku, I have to know where he is...what happened tohim. "
"I know, and I'll be there to help you in your search." he replied, sure his heart could be heard cracking within him.
She caressed his hand lovingly, awed by the smooth, flawless skin that now covered what had once been so destructive.
She pulled his hand to her mouth and kissed his palm- heard his sharp intake of breath, watched as his eyes fell closed.
"I meant it too." she whispered as she took a step closer.
" Meant it too?" he questioned, his eyes raising to hers.
"Meant it when I said that I wanted to be your wife, that I wanted to be the mother of your children." she whispered gently, her face flushed yet she held his gaze. Do you love me Miroku, do you love me enough that I'll be all you'll ever need? Because I can't- I won't share you, Miroku. I want you all to myself."
"You've been my only one since the day I asked you to be my wife." he replied, his voice breathless, his eyes wide in surprised happiness.
He leaned forward then, close enough to allow her to close the distance between them if she chose.
"I love you my dear Sango." he whispered.
She leaned forward then, her lips catching his in a soul-searching kiss that left her knees weak and her heart racing. Her hands came up to hold his face tenderly, her eyes opening to gaze upon his.
"I love you, too Miroku.." she murmured before he found her lipsagain.XXXXXXXx
How was it all...I want to thank Azaleea for her editing skills..and a HUGE thanks to ALL who reviewed..I am SORRY I wasn't able to thank you all individually as I usually do, but this week has been riddled with doctors appointments and it just wasn't possible, but thanks to you all ...