InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ If only in my Dreams ❯ The Only Way ( Chapter 28 )

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If only in my Dreams ch28

Sesshomaru stood and moved to stand silently beside Rin. The boy Kagome and Inuyasha had defended still lay unconscious just a few feet away. His mind sought answers to the many questions that were assaulting him. Why hadn't Inuyasha's demon blood returned as it had before when his life had been threatened? Was his youki still too drained from his earlier channeling to his pup? It had to be- it was the only answer.

His gaze fell upon Tetsusaiga; its blade pulsing within the slackened hold of his half brother. Was it not strong enough to reach him? And if so, would his own sword- Tetsaiga be just as useless if he, himself tried to bring Inuyasha back?

His thoughts raged silently while he watched the Miko cry in hushed sobs above his little brother. She rocked herself back and forth; her words muffled into Inuyasha's undershirt. Her right hand lay upon his cheek while her forehead lay resting upon his shoulder. Her left hand rested upon the small rounding of her belly as if she were trying to sooth their child. Her words floated to him, and he realized that she was praying to someone she called 'God.'

Dear God, please watch over him
Let him be happy and free
Let him see his baby
Grow big inside of me

But if you must take him
Please hold him in your heart
And know that I will love him
Though losing him tears me apart

And to you, my dear Hanyou
Know that I love you
And no matter where you are
I'll always be true

You are the strength that guides me
And the love that keeps me whole
And always with you beside me
We'll watch our baby grow.



Closing her eyes, she cried harder- her tears scorching her smooth skin as begged God to be her strength- to stay beside her and to help her ease the pain of losing the only thing in the world that meant more to her than her own life. Pressing her hand against her stomach gently, she welcomed the soft nudge of her pup. Her hanyou had been her strength- her love- her very soul. And losing him was crushing her will to move on. So she prayed, and she held tight to the belief that God was all around them- regardless of what era she lived in and what religion was practiced, and whether those who prayed did so within the sacred walls of a shrine or the brick walls of a modern day Church. She had to believe that a prayer was heard regardless of where it was made..



Dear God, can you hear me?
Do you remember my name?
I wonder if I'm alone now,
Lost in all my pain.

I know that you are up there,
I don't doubt in your being.
But sometimes I wonder,
If I'm beyond your seeing.

Do you hear my prayers,
Though they're not made in a Church?
Will you forgive my sins,
And can you help me heal my hurts?

Am I still your child,
Though I have lost my way..
And will you stay beside me,
Each and every day?

Do I have the right
To beg these things of you...
When all that I can offer
Is my belief in you...





And with that she lay her head upon Inuyasha's chest and sighed softly; her sobs hitching in her throat as she waited for the moment when she'd have to say goodbye.

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Sesshomaru listened intently, his hand raising to rest upon Rin's shoulder. He'd made his decision- a dangerous one that could very well end in a battle between himself and his little brother. But it was the only was he knew of that might force Inuyasha's demon blood to surface. His brother's youki had reminded him of his Father's. He could only hope that with it his brother had inherited at least some sense of control for the beast that lay with him.

“ Do you trust me Rin?”
She raised her dark eyes to stare into his. His face was serious- more so than she'd ever remembered seeing it in the past and in that moment she realized that something very dangerous was about to take place.

: “Without question my Lord.” she replied, her eyes relaying the truth of her words.
Without another word he moved his hand to pinch a tender point in her shoulder- his body instantly moving forward to catch her as she fell. She would sleep. He only hoped he'd be around to wake her.

She was light within his arms, and without further thought he moved her to lay beside the boy known as Kohaku. The boy wouldn't wake either judging by the exhausted scent that radiated from him. It would be better if neither were awake to witness what was to happen here tonight.

Steeling his resolve he silently willed himself to move toward the miko. He had never in his long life thought he'd do what he was about to do. He only hoped Kagome would understand. He would have to challenge his brother's demon blood by taking the only thing more precious to him than his own life- his mate. But it wasn't the threat of taking her life that would wake Inuyasha's beast.

Bending at the waist he reached for her-his clawed hand grasping hold of her upper arm as he pulled her shocked form close to his own.
“ Listen well Miko, for I will say this only once. If you wish to protect them..” his head nodding slightly toward Rin and Kohaku's unconscious forms- her eyes following his before returning to meet his gaze” you will place a barrier around them, and you will keep it in place. If you do not - they WILL die. “

She was confused by what he was telling her and shocked to find him standing so close to her person. But what terrified her the most were the subtle changes that were occurring within him.

She had only seen him this way once- the day he'd tried to kill her for giving the Tetsusaiga to Inuyasha. His fangs were lengthening- a reddish tint darkening the golden depths of his eyes. The claws upon the hand still clutching her arm had grown longer and were biting into her skin.

“Sesshomaru, what are you doing?” she whispered.

He could taste her fear even as he felt her barrier swirl around Rin and Kohaku. It crackled angrily against his youki, but this had to be done and he couldn't risk her purifying him. With her power focused elsewhere she would be less of a threat.

“ You and the pup are to be mine. You will be my mate now- I have decided this.” Sesshomaru growled , his demon blood coursing through him.

“ I am Inuyasha's mate. I will not belong to anyone but him. He isn't dead Sesshomaru. You can bring him back- you can use your sword and you can bring him back. You don't have to do this.” Kagome murmured. She tried to twist from his grasp. In response, his hand tightened and he turned her to face Inuyasha. Pulling her backwards he moved them further away from his brother's dying body.

“ His blood won't answer the call of his own sword Miko. It will likely not answer my sword's call either.
He will die if his demon blood is not awakened.. If he were in his hanyou form he would have healed by now, but as it stands he is not powerful enough to withstand the poison. His youki is far to weak to bring forth his demon blood even though his life is at stake. Without his demon strength he WILL die. It is only a matter of time. “

What he told her was the truth, though his threat to take her as his mate was only to raise her fear.

She struggled against him- her power useless as she had diverted most of it to protect Kohaku and Rin. She would not risk their lives to save herself. Without Inuyasha she was dead already.

His arm snaked around her waist bringing her body flush against his chest. Her hands fell- each pulling against the solid force that secured her in place. She felt his hand fall to her growing belly. Would he take the pup from her womb and replace it with his own as the blue-haired demon had threatened to do?

His aura spun around them and she felt her terror rise . His cheek brushed past her ear
and he sniffed the mate mark upon her neck- the mark Inuyasha had given her to signify that she belonged to him and no other and she cringed. “ No! Sesshomaru, no..this isn't right. Please. Don't.” she begged.

“ I must. It is the only way.” he whispered. He needed her to fear him-needed the terror in her scent to reach the hanyou. Now all that was left was the challenge.
Opening his mouth he licked her mate mark- her distress soaring to new heights.
He could feel Inuyasha's youki surge, and he knew at that moment that the challenge had been received. Good. He didn't want to distress the Miko any further than necessary. Just one more thing...

He positioned his fangs over her mate mark and bit gently, though not hard enough to mark her.

It was up to Inuyasha to answer the call of instinct. Silently he prayed that he would have to go no further. He had no desire to claim the girl. He just needed to wake the demon who lay trapped within the hanyou. Once a female was marked, none could lay claim to her . Unless the male she belonged to was dead.

He just hoped that the threat of another demon claiming his mate would strengthen Inuyasha's demon blood. His right as her mate had been challenged. If he didn't answer that challenge then she would become mate to someone else; regardless of what her wishes were in the matter.

“ Stop, please..don't do this.” she pleaded. She was terrified. In her mind she could hear his words..
“ I must. It is the only way.”
What had he meant? If Inuyasha's sword couldn't help him, and Sesshomaru's sword was useless as well- then what would doing this prove? Sesshomaru had no interest in her. She knew that he didn't want her as his mate. But why was he doing this...unless.
Understanding hit her then. But the feel of his fangs pressing against her mate mark horrified her.

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Darkness consumed him; pain still raging within his torn soul. He felt lost, and yet he could still feel her-his mate-their ties still strong though he knew he was being pulled from her.

His demon blood howled within him; its cry desperate as it struggled to regain its strength. His human blood was failing; to weak to sustain the life force that pounded throughout his being. Distantly he could feel Tetsusaiga calling to him, and he struggled to latch on to its energy.

His mind replayed images of his past; the laughter of his friends , and the joy upon his mate's face at the feel of their child moving within her womb.

He fought harder, begging every God within hearing to allow him the validity the reclaim the demon power he had been born with; to grant him his desire to return to his mate. He could feel her heartache- her fear. He could smell her tears and nearly feel their sting as they poured over his injured flesh.

But his youki was spent . He had already shared its growing energy with his unborn pup just hours ago.
His pup. Would he have Kagome's beautiful brown eyes? Would he have his silver hair or exhibit the demon characteristics of his lineage? And would he ever know the love of his Father?

He could feel Tetsusaiga pulsing-calling, and yet he was being pulled further and further away.
Something brushing past his senses alerted him to a new danger; some scent on the tip of an imagined breeze bringing with it an unmistakable challenge. His demon reacted fiercely- the feeling of uncontrolled fury building within him- angry and defiant. Instinct forewarned him that something was challenging his right to his mate. A sudden surge of her terror had his demon snarling in rage, and distantly he could hear his human side uttering an almost silent prayer before his voice was silenced.


Kami if you can hear me
Please listen to what I say
I need my mate beside me
I can't live any other way

I know that I am different
Far from perfection most will say
But I will love her absolutely
Until my dying day

Please grant me a wish
For it is all that I will ask
Let me be a Father
Let me finish my task

Let my pup look upon me
With eyes full of trust
For in their protection
My sword shall never rust

Kami if you can hear me
Please listen to what I say
You have given me a family
All I ask is that I can stay...


A sudden rush of youki pulsed through him, his body screaming silently as his soul surged forward- towards her- his mate- his Kagome.


The darkness faded around him, and he found himself lying alone upon the forest floor; the sound of his mate's terrified voice floating around him.

“ Stop, please..don't do this.”

Everything lit up before him; each object within his sight surrounded within the reddish haze of the blood lust that clouded his vision until his eyes found what they sought. HIS mate. And his brother Sesshomaru- the demon who would die for challenging his right to her.

He stood; ears flickering atop his head before laying flat upon the silver mass of hair that framed his golden eyes and extended fangs. Knuckles crackled ominously as he watched Sesshomaru raise his head from the sweet slope of his mate's shoulder. Her eyes raised as well- terror hidden in their glorious depths.

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Another cliffy...sooo sorry, but at least I was able to post..yes? I am sorry for any errors as I didn't get the chance to re-read this before I posted, but I promised many of you I'd have it up today and I couldn't disappoint anyone by holding it longer than promised, so please forgive me.
The poems in this are mine, though I debated including them. But they are here none-the -less so I will leave them and get this posted since it is running later than I had intended...

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