InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Impurity of Selfishness ❯ Return to Self? ( Chapter 3 )

Author's notes: Hey minna- I'm back. I was working on this and I would've had it up the day after I last posted but everything got complicated here. My grandfather died. I had been spending a lot of time in the hospital with him. My 21st birthday was 11/17 but none of us really felt like celebrating. We had a little cake in the hospital, but he didn't know we were there in the room with him- or at least he had no idea what was going on. Oh well, I am dealing with it and right now using this as an escape.

 

BTW, I am making Kagome 18 instead of 15- I am just putting it slightly in the future from the anime. I mean, she should have aged a little bit since the series has been going on for a couple years now… but maybe the seasons don't correspond to years. Anyway, on to the story and by the way, please tell me if you have any ideas. I have a bunch but I am open to suggestions. Thanks for reading and reviewing!

 

Silver Magiccraft- Thank you for your encouragement! You made my day!

 

 

 

Previously in Impurity of Selfishness:

A hand reaches down and grabs the bag from my grasp. Gratefully, I pull myself halfway out of the well and turn to thank the kind person who helped me when I freeze in fear and surprise. Life is just not fair- I wish I had stayed home just a little bit longer. I keep thinking there's no place like home and try to jump down, but the hand grabs mine and pulls me out of the well. Next my hands and legs are tied so I can't escape. Then I am knocked on the head only to think…. I don't think I'm in Kansas anymore. My consciousness fades out and my body goes limp.

Pt 4: Return to self?

 

“Meg has it tough,” Charles Wallace said. “She's not really one thing or the other.”

- Madeleine L'Engle, A Wrinkle in Time

“I think your mythology would call them fallen angels. War and hate are their business, and their chief weapon is un-Naming—making people not know who they are. If someone knows who he is, really knows, then he doesn't need to hate. … When everyone is really and truly Named, then the Echthroi will be vanquished.”

- Madeleine L'Engle, A Wind in the Door

 

I swim upwards into the light of consciousness and realize I am not in my bed at home. Quickly opening my eyes and sitting up, I see the gang, minus Inuyasha, sitting around the fire in Kaede's hut. Everyone has slightly fearful looks on their faces. They seem so hesitant to say anything. Can't they see that I'm alright? Did something happen to me?

 

“Hey, minna! I'm so glad to see you all! Why does everyone look so serious? I was back on time, wasn't I? I told you I would be.” I smile at them, but now they silently stare at me in unexpressed confusion.

 

Miroku is the only one who moves to speak. “Kagome-sama, we are glad that you are awake and that you seem to be feeling much better.” He pauses and gives her a somewhat forced smile. With his usual grace, he stands up. “You must excuse us because we have somewhere we promised that we would be. We will come back and see you later.” The others nod and follow the monk out the door. Kaede-baa-chan stays with me and comes to sit closer to me. Without speaking, she looks me straight in the eye.

 

“Kaede-baa-chan, what's going on? What's with the mass exodus?” I throw my hands up in the air in an act of frustration and she gives me a half-smile.

 

“Kagome, I am relieved that you are feeling better. We all are.” She distinctly clears her throat before continuing. “When we found you, you were unconscious near the well with your bag by your side. You see, my dear, you had been a tad bit late and so the ever-impatient Inuyasha went to search for you. He brought you back here, but you remained in a coma, or some sort of extremely deep sleep. The next day, you woke up and you seemed to remember some things, but not everything.” Kaede moves closer to me and puts her hand over my left hand. I sit up and pull the blanket around my shoulders. I nod in acquiescence before responding.

 

“I had amnesia, selective amnesia? I guess I must have hit my head on a rock in the well.” She only looks at me grimly and slowly nods. Is there more than that? What else could have happened?

 

“This may sound like a rude and impertinent question, but I must know: How do you feel about Inuyasha?”

 

“Inuyasha? He comes to drag me back and forth between this age and my own.” I look at her in surprise. “He's my friend. He is dense sometimes, but there's nothing going on between us. I already have a boyfriend back home.” She sighs.

 

“Is he named Hojo?”

 

I break into hysterical giggles. “Of course not! I have no feelings for Hojo-kun! A few months ago, it seemed like he liked me, but I was not and am still not interested. Besides, I am in love with someone else.” I stare off into space and revel in the wonderful feelings. A joyous smile lights my face, but Kaede continues the third degree.

 

“What is your boyfriend's name- this boy you love so much?” She looks at me and I laugh softly.

 

“I have talked about him a million times. Oh my love… his name is…” I pause and think. Chuckling, I look into the fire. “Oh you know him, but right now his name escapes me. Maybe I'm having a few side effects from that amnesia.” After a few moments, I continue. “I could hardly believe it when he picked me out of all the girls that had been chasing after him. When we started out, we just knew that he's the one and I'm the one for him. Isn't it wonderful when everything just clicks? It is easy to be impatient to find the right person; I am so lucky that I no longer have to wait!” Bright stars shine in my eyes as I dreamily babble.

 

Kaede's face does not change in response to my effusiveness. She calls out to Shippo from where she is sitting. “Shippo, could you take Kagome for a walk please? I think it would do her a world of good.” Shippo bounds in through the door and looks at the old miko. Kaede beckons to him and tells him that I am feeling much better. He nods enthusiastically and shrieks with glee as he leads me out the door. I'm glad to be leaving the hot seat, so I wave and allow him to pull me out the door. A few seconds later, the little kitsune cub jumps to my shoulder and points me to move towards the forest. I give him a bright smile and he blushes.

 

“What is it, Kagome?” He looks embarrassed.

 

“I was just thinking how much I missed you and how cute you are!”

 

“Really?” He grins. “I missed you too. It's been unbearable without you!” He rushes into my arms for a hug and I gladly give him a light squeeze in return. Then he crawls on my head to navigate. “Let's go this way, Kagome. I saw some interesting tracks there earlier. Besides, nothing has happened in the village.” I smile and follow his directions without complaint.

 

The late-afternoon sun breaks through the trees and I walk on, chatting gaily with my little, adoring friend. He does remind me of Souta sometimes. I wish they could meet, but sadly my two worlds do not mix. Eventually I must return home; that is where I belong- with my family and my boyfriend. The friends I have made here mean so much to me, but it is almost, but not quite, enough. I have obligations to fill here and that's all. Love waits for me in my own time and that is what I want to follow.

 

 

On the other side of the village, Miroku and Sango stare at the sight before them. None of them has any words or comments that they can verbalize. Miroku shakes his head and bravely cuts the silence with a knife. “I do not understand what this means. As for the note, we should let Inuyasha read it first. It's to him after all. But why would she do this and what does it mean?” Then, his voice fades out in confusion. Sango does not speak but just continues to stare.

 

 

 

Ok, that's all for chapter four! You must be wondering- where is Inuyasha? Don't worried- he'll be appearing soon. I have pretty much decided the rest of the basic plot, unless I decide to use any suggestions I get. I hope you guys like this chapter(and this fic) because not many people have been reviewing. Of course, being someone who initially only read and didn't always review helps me to understand and be patient. Besides this story isn't exactly comic- although I'd like to believe that it'll make people think. Comic stories tend to get more reviews- either that or I should give up? No matter- I am having fun. Since I know where I am going, this should move along pretty nicely even with family crises. Oh well keep an eye out for chapter 5(tentatively titled, “Return to innocence or experience?”)! Leave a review please if you want and check out my other story. Thanks!