InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Into The Darkness ❯ Chapter Eleven ( Chapter 12 )

 

 

It feels like forever since I posted for this story, and it's taking a darker path. This chapter was brought to you by “SOS” by Rihanna, without it, I doubt I would have been able to write up this chapter.

 

 

 

Into the Darkness

 

 

Chapter Eleven

 

 

By Miztikal-Dragon

 

 

Rin had a lot of explaining to do, more so than she ever had to do during her teenager years combined and this time there was no avoiding it. InuYasha spent the previous two weeks watching her, following her, demanding information in a way everyone had tried, but this time she broke down.

 

 

There were so many excuses Rin could have hid behind to feel less guilty while spilling her heart to the half-breed; although, the truth was simple, she was beginning to lose herself. She was falling in love with Sesshomaru despite trying her hardest not too and as a result her world was crumbling down around her.

 

 

Naraku was slowly getting closer, slipping into the back of her mind and destroying her. She could feel him, his icy hands, burning red eyes tearing her apart piece by piece from the inside out. The empty feeling was disappearing, but what it was being filled with Rin didn't quite understand. It was as if she was becoming a stranger to even herself.

 

 

She didn't want to acknowledge the subtle changes and she tried her hardest to avoid them, but the minute everything thing was out on the table for InuYasha, she couldn't. By telling him and reliving her secretive nightmare there was no way to go back and pretend to be a normal girl thrown into a difficult situation. She had become a piece of the skillfully designed web Naraku spun because for so many years she allowed herself to be weaved in the deadly strands. Rin could never be viewed as an innocent bystander after selling her soul to the devil and doing his bidding willing.

 

 

When all the explanations had been given and Rin sat quietly watching InuYasha it seemed to take forever. He didn't say anything, but the look in his eyes told her everything she needed to know. Sighing heavily, Rin closed her eyes trying her hardest to slow down the quickly building tears, he was disgusted.

 

 

Why couldn't she even get one break, she wondered rubbing her eyes. The situation suddenly had her feeling drained and she didn't stick around for any accusations that InuYasha could think of to say. Instead she headed to the comforts of her room, she needed some time to herself to think of her next step.

 

 

With everything that had transpired recently she was feeling more neurotic and paranoid than she would normally and with the absence of Sesshomaru the last few days it was beginning to take a toll on her. Rin hadn't realized exactly how much things went smoother for her when he was there, watching her with his stoic and guarded eyes, or the soft touch of his hand on her.

 

 

It was maddening to her, the way the people she thought to be dead to be wandering around the house as if nothing happened and though she had an explanation for why there were still alive, it didn't make things any easier to cope with. She wanted to pull out her hair and scream like a banshee until all she had left was herself, no alien thoughts, no feel of Naraku breathing down her neck, or anyone else for that matter.

 

 

There had to be a way to get around this mess she created for herself, a way that she could finally be free from the pain and she wished she knew how to do it. Rin didn't like being lost in her thoughts, didn't like being afraid that at any given moment something would jump out at her and drag her back into the darkness that she had once been accustomed to.

 

 

Kagome had come a few times to check up on her and each time the older woman tried comforting Rin, but to no avail. Rin was to blame for her problems, no one else and she didn't want to see the pity in anyone's eyes, she didn't deserve anyone's pity. So in order to hide from the rest of the guests and housemates, Rin went to the only place she could think of, the roof. She'd been up there on a few occasions when she wanted to be alone and so it was only natural that she went there to hide.

 

 

It was empty and void of any sounds so Rin welcomed it, plopping herself down on the ledge letting her feet hang over the side. The sun would be setting soon, the dancing waves of reds, oranges, and yellow coloring the clouds above her. The quietness of her surroundings helped calm her racing thoughts and for a moment, she felt truly alone.

 

 

Sure it wasn't the best of feelings, but at the moment it was what she needed and Rin eagerly breathed it in. She tried piecing together everything that happened, tried figuring out which part of the jigsaw puzzle that was her went, but it didn't seem to help much.

 

 

“Sesshomaru would be pissed if he came home and found out that you jumped off the roof,” A soft voiced assaulted her ears and she turned around to see someone she'd met not too long ago.

 

 

His hair was sandy brown and pulled tight into a ponytail, the wisps of his bangs making his emerald eyes sparkle no matter which way the light hit them. He was lean, with more of a feminine figure and if Rin hadn't heard his voice the first time they met she would have assumed he was a girl.

 

 

“Don't worry Shippo, I'm not a jumper I promise,” she told him swinging her legs back onto the roof and standing. “How'd you find me anyway?”

 

 

His eyebrows rose curiously and when he realized Rin was serious he laughed, “It was hard not to spot you, when I came walking up through the front I saw your legs and your hair. Rin for someone who likes to be by herself you sure do know how to point out your whereabouts.”

 

 

“It doesn't matter,” Rin said heavily glancing at Shippo. “Not like I can disappear if someone tries hard enough to look for me.”

 

 

“Yeah right and I'm the pope,” Shippo snorted. “You try telling that to the people who are searching for files on you. Hell, tell Miroku and Sango that you can't just randomly disappear and they'd probably shit themselves laughing.”

 

 

“What are you talking about?” Was Shippo saying it just to get a rise out of her or was there more to a story that she hadn't even know existed.

 

 

“You and I both know what I'm talking about,” he continued not looking at her. “They've got hundreds of files piled up at their house not to mention diskettes of information here on all the cases linked with Kohaku, but not once did they find anything on you. Hell I'm the best hacker there is and I can't find anything. It's like you fell from the sky.”

 

 

Rin narrowed her eyes watching Shippo suspiciously until his rambling stopped. There were files on her? People were trying to find information on her that linked her to the files on Kohaku? There were files on Kohaku? Why? Why was Shippo telling her these things? Was he really that much of an idiot or was he more dangerous than she originally thought him to be? Did that mean Sesshomaru was doing the same while he kept her here?

 

 

Well whatever the real answers were, Rin didn't want to find them out by sitting around an enormous house doing absolutely nothing. She wasn't going to get caught in the headlights like a helpless deer, not this time. Shooting towards the door, Rin shoved passed Shippo and back into the house; she couldn't stay here any longer. With everything that was going on should have been a hint that somehow Kohaku was involved. How could he not be when Koga had been watching and Naraku was hiding in the background?

 

 

It made too much sense and she couldn't understand how she could have been so stupid. Rin needed information she knew she wouldn't have access to here, not without asking for help, and she scoffed at the idea. Asking for help always seemed to get her into these fiascos, so this time—this time she was going to do it all on her own.

 

 

She wasted no time grabbing together few of her belongings, some changes of clothes, the necessities she'd need and a decent sized pack that she could just throw over her shoulder if needed. It wasn't like she'd be able to simply walk out, she doubted anyone of them would let her, but if push comes to shove she was going to leave.

 

 

Rin slipped on a pair of tight leather pants Kagome insisted every girl needed and a white tank top, she wasn't going to be able to walk off with one of the cars, since she didn't know how to drive them, but she was positive she could manage to get one of the motorcycles parked in front of the house. Pulling her hair up into a tight ponytail, she yanked on her shoes and grabbed her pack, if she wanted to leave she'd have to do it before they could stop her.

 

 

Shippo's leather jacket and sunglasses lay on the counter along with the keys to his bike where he left them and without a second glance, Rin scooped all three up and jogged out the front door before anyone knew she was leaving. Rin needed them to be oblivious for it to work and she jumped on the bike as she pulled on the jacket and sunglasses, hearing Shippo call down to her from the roof as she revved the engine.

 

 

InuYasha was the first one out the door as she spun the bike expertly in the right direction, dirt spraying him as the back wheel turned and she shot off down the road. Her hair fluttered behind her, the roaring of the motorcycle engine drowning out all other sounds as Sesshomaru's home grew smaller in the distance. It felt exhilarating, adrenaline coursing through her veins and if she hadn't know how important it was to keep focused on driving she would have crashed easily with how badly she was trembling.

 

 

Trees whizzed past her as she drove, and she even swore she saw a vehicle pass her not too long before, but she didn't dwell on it. What Rin needed to do was focus on getting home, back to her real home find out the answers that were being kept from her.

 

 

The drive alone was almost agonizing, the cold wind whipping at her, chilling her despite the heavy leather jacket and she had to stop a few times or else she would have passed out from dehydration. With each stop it made it easier not to look back and after consulting the pit-stop cashier for directions, she was back out on the road consumed by the night. The headlights were bright, but not overly so that it illuminated the road and she was glad that she had finally made up her mind to do something.

 

 

Rin could feel the minutes ticking down in her head, the silent whispers that there would be hell to pay, but she ignored it to the best of her abilities. After all, she knew what kind of trouble she would be in, but maybe subconsciously not to how bad it could get now that she was in the open. Her need for knowledge was what made her push herself harder, riding longer, and more determined to get as far from Sesshomaru as possible.

 

 

He wouldn't understand what she was doing, he couldn't understand and though he could have if Rin had bothered to tell him the truth, she just didn't want to bare the thought that he'd turn away from her. It was a feeling in the back of her mind, that no matter how things turned out it would be Sesshomaru that would be the one walking away. The thought of it gave her a pain in her chest, but she swallowed the fear that came with it so she could continue.

 

 

Her stomach was already disagreeing with her, churning violently with the vibrations of the motorcycle, yet she refused to stop until she made it to the town's entrance. She would stop and rest then, but not a moment before, Rin wanted to prove to herself that she was capable of taking care of herself, that she could be strong for herself.

 

 

Rin was on the dark road a few hours longer before the soft lights came into view and she could read the sign before she passed it. She was home. She almost stopped so she could have a moment to compose herself, but she decided against it to get to an inn quickly. She was tired, dead tired and she wanted a place to rest her eyes before she began to look for the answers she needed.

 

 

The teller was annoyed by the racket the motorcycle made as it pulled in, but that wasn't something that Rin could really help. Her arms felt like jelly shrugging the bulging pack over her shoulder; however, the moment she entered the small Inn room, she felt herself fall apart. The pack fell from her grasp onto the floor with a loud thunk, and Rin had barely enough time to make it to the bathroom as bile rose to her mouth.

 

 

It wasn't the best of feelings, the suffocating gagging feeling as the stomach acid burned the back of her throat. She hadn't eaten anything before she left and now she was regretting it. Sluggishly Rin washed out her mouth from the tiny faucet before lying down on the uncomfortable full sized bed. It wasn't the best, but it was perfect to her and it didn't take much for the sleep pulling at the back of her mind to completely consume her, throwing her into a dreamless sleep that haunted her more than any nightmare she could have thought up.

 

 

Rin slept late into morning, rising well after noon and she groaned running her fingers through her sweat-damp hair. Her entire body ached, her muscles were stiff and she had cottonmouth like it was nobody's business. She faintly remembered feeling this way once before, but when exactly was constantly escaping her mind.

 

 

She didn't let that keep her hostage in the small Inn room, instead she tugged on a pair of jeans, growling almost angrily when she had to lay on the ground in order to button them up, she was adding things to the ever expanding list of what wasn't right with her, and being bloated was one of them. Rin opted out of riding the borrowed motorcycle and simply walked around the still rather small town that she'd grown up in so long ago.

 

 

Almost nothing had changed and Rin felt like she'd stepped into a dream or at least a time machine. She curiously went to all the shops, snacking on warm bread from the bakery she had worked at over the summer her high school career. She hadn't been expecting people to stare at her, she didn't want to seem like she'd come back from the dead, but it disappointed her that she was ignored like any other teenager.

 

 

Dumb, she knew that it was for wanting some random old person to shout out that they knew her like someone who'd gone senile, yet she half expected it to happened with the luck she had. The memories she held hit her like a ton of bricks as she passed a street or a certain building and several times she had to stop and take a breather lest her heart jump out of her chest of simply implode.

 

 

However, on one occasion or two she couldn't help but wonder if she was reliving a memory, or seeing reality. Several times Rin thought she spotted someone similar to Kohaku walking around, felt a chill run up her spine when she crossed the cemetery, but she desperately wanted to believe it was her mind playing tricks on her.

 

 

She wanted to go inside the library and find the answers that she'd come for, the after laying her eyes on it, Rin couldn't find the courage to step up the few steps to the entrance. Her eyes clouded with unshed tears and she turned away from it, allowing herself a bit of cowardice as she slowly fled. A part of her didn't want to find the answers, because it meant staring in the eyes of the truth and she wasn't sure if she could handle it just yet.

 

 

Instead she headed directly to a place that had always been her safe haven, the town park. It was a little smaller now, the old jungle gym traded in for a huge piece of plastic and metal, winding slides, monkey bars, and a holey metal contraption that reminded her of an upside down bowl and a spider web. A few children littered the park, a parent or two watching the smaller ones and she couldn't help but frown.

 

 

Things were definitely different than what they'd been when she'd been growing up and it was odd seeing so many parentless children. Did they not keep an eye on them like they used to? Rin settled herself on a swing, letting her feet rock her back and forth watching the life around her. It felt weird, but in a way nice that everything was slowing down to a snail's pace.

 

 

“Next time you want to take a trip out to the boondocks, ask someone to come with you,” Rin had been lost inside her head when the teasing voice tickled her ear. “Don't start stealing people's bikes, you're going to get us killed.”

 

 

“I'm sorry,” she said glancing up watching InuYasha plop down into the empty swing next to her. “I guess I wasn't thinking at the moment, my bad.”

 

 

His loud chuckle had a smile slipping onto her face and she temporarily forgot about the conversation they had earlier the day before. “Sesshomaru nearly skinned the brat for spooking you like that. With everything that's happened the last thing we want now is for you to run.”

 

 

“Why?” she spat suddenly angry with InuYasha. “Am I that important to keep tabs on? Do you not have a life outside me?”

 

 

“It's not like that Rin and you know it,” InuYasha said uneasily, his hand squeezing Rin's shoulder. “You just kinda dropped into our laps.”

 

 

Rin rolled her eyes lifting herself off the rubber swing trying not to let her irritation show, boy did that household have a way with words! What was she some pathetic lap dog? “Gee thanks InuYasha, now pleas excuse me while I go play in traffic.”

 

 

“Rin wait,” his hand wrapped around her wrist and softly pulled her back. “Tell me one thing, just enlighten me… Of all the places you could go

why did you come back here?”

 

 

“Why not?” She told him lamely, “I grew up here, all the memories I have are from here… I mean Jeez it's not like I went to the hospital where Kohaku died.”

 

 

“Hospital?” Rin shrugged out of InuYasha's grasp not liking the way he was looking at her. It made her insides churn and she suddenly wanted to go back to the Inn where she could be alone. “Kohaku didn't die in a hospital Rin.”

 

 

“Yes he did!” Why was everyone calling her a liar, she remembered reading about it, Rin remembered reading about Kohaku's heart attack in the nineties. “He had a heart attack when he was fifty-two.”

 

 

This time InuYasha grabbed Rin's shoulders and forced her to look into his eyes, desperately trying to see if she was just playing him for a fool. Rin had to know that Kohaku hadn't died in any hospital, it had been all over the papers, the tragic car wreck and missing minor.

 

 

“Rin,” InuYasha said seriously, instantly grabbing her attention with the tone of his voice. “Kohaku died in the wreck you two were in on November of nineteen sixty-six. They pulled his burned body out of the wreck.”

 

 

“No he didn't!” She shoved him hard away from him, her blue eyes narrowed angrily. “You're lying.”

 

 

“I'm dead serious Rin,” He said hating the way she looked at him, she had been duped from the beginning and Naraku was to blame. “Sango's kept all the original newspapers from then. I'm sorry.”

 

 

 

E/N: Because I find myself ridiculously hilarious I ended it here. Will be working on a new chapter to Getting to know you, since I know some of my readers are hating me because I haven't updated it!

 

 

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