InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Inuyasha's Love and Kagome's pain ❯ The Truth ( Chapter 4 )

Chapter 4-The truth

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It had been a little over a week since Kagome had been bitten by the ugly demon, and in that time she tried very hard to get used to knowing what Inuyasha was feeling. It was not an easy task, since he always tried his very best to hide everything he was feeling, and that wasn't helping matters. She still knew how he felt, but all other feelings were overshadowed by the extreme feeling of worry. Why Inuyasha was so worried every time he saw her, Kagome wasn't certain, yet she knew he was keeping something from her and she was determined to find out what it was. She just HAD to get him alone to talk. However, that wasn't an easy thing these days, because he was avoiding her. In addition to that, Kagome was having trouble getting used to her other new gifts. She was stronger then before and found herself breaking things because she didn't yet realize her own strength. She could smell things so much more clearly than before, and her hearing was better too. Every thing seemed so loud to her, but her hearing and other senses were still not nearly as strong as Inuyasha's abilities. Kagome thought that it must drive him crazy, but he didn't seem to mind having everything smell so strongly and be so loud. At least he had the advantage of having these gifts from birth. Kagome found these senses overpowering.

"How are you feeling today Kagome?" Miroku asked with a smile on his face. Kagome had been sitting outside Kaede's hut under a tree. She had spent most of her time in the last week there while recovering. It was early afternoon and they were getting ready for lunch.

"I am feeling much better now. The bite has almost completely healed." She gave him a warm smile "Kaede thinks I will be able to continue our search for the last Shikon shard in another day or two." After saying this, Kagome indicated that she would like Miroku to help her to her feet. Then she walked toward the fire where Sango was cooking lunch. "Where is Inuyasha?" Kagome asked when she noticed him missing from their group.

"Oh, he's up in a tree somewhere. He will be back as soon as he smells Ramen." Sango answered with a bright smile.

"He's never around anymore. I haven't gotten to say more than three words to him since I started to get better." Kagome sighed, looking sad. Inuyasha showed up immediately.

"What's wrong??" he asked Kagome, even before saying hello to anyone. He looked at her worriedly, as if she would break if he said the wrong thing.

"What are you talking about, Inuyasha? Nothing is wrong, except for the fact that you are never anywhere to be found!" Kagome was annoyed that Inuyasha only returned because she was feeling sad. Kagome pouted and looked at Inuyasha who again seemed to be feeling worried about something.

"I just want to get moving again! We have been sitting around for a week now! There is still one more shard to get and we have to find it before Naraku does!!" Inuyasha was lying, of course, but he hoped that his emotions wouldn't give that away.

He was staying away from Kagome because he couldn't bring himself to tell her that she could never go back to her own time. Kagome could never live the normal life she wanted, unless he was with her most of the time. He was so worried that she would never speak to him again for this. If he had to be with her for the rest of his very long life, Inuyasha didn't want her to hate him!

"You are lying! You are keeping something from me. I know it! Why can't you just talk to me already????" Kagome let a tear run down her cheek as she shouted at Inuyasha. She was angry and hurt and sad all at once, and that was effecting Inuyasha as well.

"Wait, don't cry! I am sorry! Please don't cry," he said frantically, holding his arms out in front of himself as if she were going to hit him.

"I AM NOT CRYING!" Kagome said as more tears fell. Then out of nowhere, before Inuyasha got a chance to Kagome that he knew she was lying to him, Kagome spun around and looked off into nowhere. "Jewel Shards. Two of them and they are coming towards us fast."

Inuyasha sniffed the air and looked unhappy. Kagome aware that Inuyasha was angry, turned around and looked back at him. Inuyasha just said "Kouga!" Then he stood in front of Kagome as if to block her from all oncoming visitors.

Kouga appeared as a blur. Inuyasha was now on the ground, Kouga having pushed him out of the way so he could hold Kagome's hands. "Kagome. It has been a long time. How are y…." He stopped there and started to sniff her more closely. "Kagome? Why do you smell like dog boy??" he asked her and then gave Inuyasha a dirty look "What have you done to MY woman??!?!" Kouga yelled at Inuyasha, who rose, then removed Kouga's hands from Kagome's and stood in front of her again.

"Inuyasha had to give Kagome some of his blood to keep her alive after some new detachment of Naraku's poisoned her," Miroku said plainly.

"It's NONE of his damn business what I do! She is NOT his woman!!!!" Inuyasha yelled at Miroku, then looked back at Kouga and growled.

"You gave her your blood?!?!" Kouga growled back at Inuyasha. "Now what am I suppose to do?? I don't want dog boy around MY woman for the rest of his life!! At least now you will live much longer, Kagome, so I guess we could work around your having to see dog crap over there every couple of days. As long as I don't have to see him." Kouga sighed, then turned to a now very confused Kagome.

"WHAT????????? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?????" Kagome was now screaming. She didn't know what was going on. 'Why would I have to see Inuyasha every few days? And why was he still calling me his woman??' she thought to herself.

Inuyasha quickly stepped back from the now fuming Kagome. Her emotions were so strong at the moment that he couldn't take it. She was feeling VERY angry and confused, in addition to so many other things, Inuyasha just couldn't separate them all. However, the principal feeling was anger and that scared him. "Um….I….well…." he sputtered, before she yelled.

"SIT!!!!!!" Kagome stood over a very flattened Inuyasha and said "YOU BETTER BE SCARED!" She had been looking at Inuyasha after hearing what Kouga told her and got a feeling of fear coming from him, which only intensified her anger. "Will someone please tell me what's going on???" she yelled at the rest of her companions who looked worried and a little guilty.

Miroku was the first to try and explain things to Kagome. This might not have been a good idea. "Well you see Kagome, now that you and Inuyasha share the same blood you cannot go for more then a few days without each other near by. The blood goes through some kind of withdrawal, but I am not sure why exactly. If you are apart for longer than three days you will both start to have a lot of pain, burning I would think. If you are not back together within 24 hours after the pain starts, you will both die." He said this with a serious look and a frown on his face.

Kagome gave him a death glare. "YOU KNEW ABOUT THIS?????? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME???!!!" she grabbed Miroku's hair and pulled it hard towards her face so that they were nose to nose "Who else knew about this?" she yelled in his face, and then let go, causing him to fall to the ground. Kagome then looked at the rest of her so-called friends.

"We all did" Sango said, her head drooping in shame. "We thought it would be best for Inuyasha to tell you, but he kept saying that you weren't ready to hear it yet. I am so sorry. PLEASE don't be mad!" Sango looked back up at Kagome, with tears in her eyes. Kagome just sighed and turned her back to them all.

"Wait a second. You mean you didn't know?" Kouga said and then walked up to Inuyasha's face and then looked back at the very upset group. "How could you not tell her? You did this to her and didn't tell her what it would mean?" he yelled, looking very angry.

"Shut the hell up asshole! You have no idea what happened! I didn't HAVE a choice! It was either give her my blood or let her die! There was no time to tell her or ask whether she could agree to the results. If I waited any longer she would already have been dead!" Inuyasha was trying to defend himself, even though he was mad at himself for not telling her before Kouga did. 'I knew I should have told her. Shit! Now she is definitely going to hate me!'

"Well, maybe if you were taking better care of her, she wouldn't have had to worry about dying without your blood!" Kouga yelled at Inuyasha, who looked as if he were about to kill him. A very angry Kagome stopped him.

Kagome had had enough. She moved between the two of them and pushed them both aside, "THAT'S IT!!! I AM GOING HOME!!!" She yelled and then started to walk toward the well.

"WAIT! Didn't you hear what Miroku JUST told you??? You can't leave! You have to stay by me!" Inuyasha screamed at the girl who was already making serious strides towards home.

Kagome turned around. "Don't worry. I will be back, and when I am, I hope that you will not be too close by! I don't want to talk to you ever again! I can't believe you did this to me! Why couldn't you just tell me?!" Then she ran in the direction of the well as fast as she could, making surprising headway. Inuyasha had to run hard to catch up with her. He couldn't believe how fast she could move now, but he was still considerably faster.

"Wait STOP! You can't leave like this! Please….I am sorry. I didn't know how to tell you. I panicked. Don't go." Inuyasha was scared, seriously scared for the first time in his life. If Kagome hated him, he couldn't go on. He was afraid she would reject him.

Kagome stopped dead in her tracks when she felt fear coming from Inuyasha. He was scared. Scared she would hate him, yes, but there was some other emotion there as well, and that's what really got her attention. He was feeling heartbroken. It hurt her to feel this. Kagome turned around and looked straight into his beautiful golden eyes. That's when she got the true feeling that he had been trying to hide all along. It was LOVE! 'Oh my god! He….he…loves me?!?!' "Inuyasha…." She started to talk, but stopped when she saw him come closer. She couldn't breathe. She was lost in his eyes, at that moment she would have done anything for him if only he would just tell her that he loved her. 'I would give him everything, all of me if he will just say it! Please say it! I know you feel it. Please…' Her mind was screaming but she said nothing.

Inuyasha moved closer to Kagome until he was right next to her. "Kagome," he said in a soft voice that made Kagome melt. He could not only feel but also see the love she had for him. He wanted to say something to her. He wanted to scream, "I love you" and be damned to who heard or what would happen, but for Inuyasha actions always spoke louder than words. He moved toward Kagome slowly, so slowly in fact, that it was almost painful. He waited for a sign, any sign that she wanted him to pull away, but Kagome moved closer to him as well. "Kagome..I….I…" He stopped there and kissed Kagome ever so gently at first. Then it became an all consuming kiss that neither wanted to ever stop. Kagome felt such passion at that moment that she went weak in the knees, and Inuyasha had to put his arms around her just to keep her from falling. This action only deepened the kiss further. They were lost in each other for the first time and they didn't want it to end. Inuyasha held Kagome closer to him so that she was right against his chest, and she moved one hand to his back and the other to his chest. It felt so good to be so close him.

Just then they heard a voice calling out. As it got closer, they could tell it was Shippo headed for them. They quickly released each other, even though Kagome was still weak in the knees. Shippo ran up to Kagome and jumped into her arms. "Wait Kagome! Please don't be mad at us. It was Inuyasha's fault for not telling you! Please don't go home because he was being a jerk! You are still hurt, you need to stay here!!" Shippo cried hugging Kagome tightly.

Kagome looked briefly at Inuyasha, receivingthe strong emotion of anger from him, and understood why completely. They had been so close to admitting their true feelings for each other, and then Shippo came, but it wasn't his fault. He didn't understand what he'd interrupted. "Its ok, Shippo. I am just going for the night. I need to get new clothes since most of mine were destroyed. I need to see my family also. I'm not mad at you. I just wish that someone had told me sooner. I will be back in the morning." She kissed his head and then put him down. She looked at Inuyasha who looked as if he wanted to kill the poor child. "Inuyasha, please calm down. He didn't do anything wrong. I will be back tomorrow and we can talk then." Kagome gave them both a weak smile and headed toward the well again with both Inuyasha and Shippo right behind her.

When they got to the well Kagome stopped and looked right into Inuyasha's beautiful eyes. "I have a lot to think about Inuyasha, but I am no longer mad at you. You did what you had to do to save my life. I just wish you could have been honest with me and told me everything. You had no right keeping it from me. You know it's not such a terrible thing never being able to leave you. This is going to change everything and I will have to get used to that." She walked toward him wanting to kiss him again instead of leaving, but Shippo was still there, so she stopped and gave Inuyasha a quick hug and then picked up Shippo. "Now you be good while I am gone. And don't make Inuyasha too mad. Ok?" He nodded to her. Kagome put him down and then looked at Inuyasha one last time and sighed. "I will see you soon, Inuyasha" Kagome's soft voice was the most amazing thing he had ever heard. He wanted to stop her and kiss her again or at least tell her how he really felt, but Inuyasha could feel the love she was feeling, and he knew she must be able to feel it from him as well; that would just have to be enough for now. He nodded to her and she jumped into the well and was gone in an instant.

Inuyasha stood over the well and looked into as if he thought she might somehow still be there even though he knew she wasn't. Then he turned around and looked at Shippo. "You're dead kid!!" he said, then ran after the screaming Fox child.

"WHAT DID I DO???" Shippo called over his shoulder, running for his life.

'Please come back soon Kagome. I need to know what you think about all this. And about me,' Inuyasha thought to himself as he chased Shippo.

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Well that's it for now. I hope you liked it.

Will Inuyasha tell Kagome how he really feels? Will she be happy about all this? What will her mother say??

This chapter has been reposted after being proof read by Bonnie217! I hope it's better then before.