InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Invincible ❯ Sudden Changes ( Chapter 3 )

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A/N: Sorry It's taking so long to update. I lost this whole chapter four times due t o my stupid computer.  
And dammit it was once 16 pages long. So I've been a little dishearted. Hopefully Fifth time's the  
charm. ~Disclaimer~ And as always, I do not own Inuyasha. He firmly belongs to Rumiko Takahashi.
Thoughts
“Spoken† ;
~Chapter 3~ Sudden Changes
March 5, 2011
Dear Dairy, 
Five years. Five long horrible years. I still wake up crying, screaming his name. And yet time marches 
on. Funny, but I don't even know dog's real name. I'm just so confused. What does he mean? He say's  he's lonely. He hate's when we don't talk. Last week I was so busy with work and school and when I 
finally got on he said he had gotten worried. He was afraid I was gone forever. I told him to stop be 
silly and that I'm not leaving. His reply was that's what she said. And he signed off. Where does this 
line end? This  ;line of sorrow? Must I live on in my own heart? Can I really move on? I wish I could 
ask Kaede or Sango. Could I trust Stephanie with this? Would she even believe me? I don't know what 
to do. Hard to believe in a year this will be a memory. In a year I will go home. But is it my home? Life 
goes on. Can I go on like this torn in two? 
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B: Hey! Whatcha doin?
F: Nothing . And it's killing me.
B: Awwwwwwww, why?
F: Hey,
F: Do you still think about him?
B: â€¦....
B: Everyday.  
F: I thought about her today. I miss her. 
B: Who was she?
F: She was the fire in my life. My sun, my air, and my rain. She saw beauty, where I saw only a 
monster. She hung the moon and stars. She was pure and innocent. She was kind. She was all that is 
good. My world hung on her smile. When she cried, I died a little. I loved to make her angry. Her pout 
was too cute. It's been so long. I can't even remember the date that I lost her. It's been too long. She said 
she wouldn't leave, but she did.
B: ....
I'm sorry. But don't be sad. Something that rare always finds a way to happen again.
F: Maybe, yet I feel so empty without her. You remind me of her. I didn't feel so alone until I met and 
lost her. And yet little-by-little this hole seems to be filling. I don't feel so alone when I talk with you.
B: I don't know what to say.
F: Thank you. I have to go, work. >;P

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B: Bye Dog. I hope everything works out for you.
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I shut my laptop and put it to the side. Lying on my back starring at the ceiling. It's funny how time < br> flies. Thoughts of him still linger. And apparently thoughts of her still linger for&n bsp;dog. What exactly was 
he to me? He was my protector, my hero. He caught me when I fell. I knew no matter what I could trust  
him. He filled me with power and with strength. He was my everything. H e made me feel alive, he 
made me whole. Everything I am not he was, and everything he wasn't I am. He was my equal. My first 
love. I have to talk to Stephanie, I need to; yet, will she understand? 
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The look on Stephanie's face was priceless. She seemed to be fighting to see if I made up the whole 
story, if I'm pulling a wonderful prank, if I need some mental help, or am I actually telling the truth. 
After about ten minutes of silence she finally spoke. 
“Well, I need some proof this is all real. Nothing too bad, can you flare your miko aura? Make it 
visible?†
I stared incredulously she believes me? Well to a point I mean it is a lot to take in. Just proof huh?
“I don't know. I've never tried before.â€
“Well give it a& nbsp;shot or tomorrow we're going to a forest so I can see an arrow or two.â€
I crossed my legs on her bed and started to concentrate. My skin started to feel warm and fuzzy, then it 
started to tingle, then-
“Alright, alright stop blinding me now seesh.â€
Well I guess it was a success. I hesitantly looked up at her and she gave that smile of hers that says it's 
gonna be alright. I couldn't help myself; I launched myself into her arms and wailed like an infant. She 
just held me and rub my back and told me it's all gonna be okay. After a while I pulled away from her 
and she still just smiled at me. Then it got bigger as she said “I guess this means a trip to the cultural 
library.â€
I just stared at her. “Huh?†
“Well&nb sp;I now have something I need to research before I try and give you advice. But I will say this, 
don't be afraid to love again. It's hard and it's fitful but life does move on. Maybe the well will let you 
return when you've grown a little. Or maybe your destiny is fulfilled there and now it's time to live 
here. So it's time for you to live again, and stop being a living monument for the long since dead.â€
I have to admit her words stung. At first I got mad and was about to tell her off; then I realized she's 
right. Crying over Miroku and Sango wouldn't magically bring them back to me or me to them. And 
crying over him doesn't bring us any closer. My should slumped and I felt very small. Arms encircled 

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me and she whispered “I know it's tough but sometimes you just have to think about you ans yourself.†
She kissed me on the forehead as she moved to get dressed.
“Does it ever get easier? Do you ever forget them?â€
“Easier yes but why would you want to forget?â€
And to that I had no response. I left her room thinking about all I had and all I truly wanted. 
Hitting play on the stereo I slipped into my bath. 
When you feel you're alone
Cut off from this cruel  world
Your instinct's telling you to run
Listen to your heart
Those angel voices
They'll sing to you
They'll be your guide
Back home
Ste phanie's words echoed throughout my brain. Living again. Is it really so simple as that?
When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind It keeps us kind
That's it. Memories; they're not really gone as long as I hold them in my heart. I'll bring my world 
together and sow myself back up.
When you've suffered enough
And your spirit is breaking
You're growing desperate from the fight
Remember you're&nbs p;loved
And you always will be
This melody will bring you right
Back home
Tears fell from my face as I remember my home with them. Climbing out of the bath; I look in the 
mirror and see the side of myself I thought I lost long ago. Looking at my eyes I see myself and realize 
I look old. Touching the mirror I realize I look like my mother. With a glance at the clock I step into my 
room. And I pick up my phone. One ring.....two.....and then “Moshi moshi.†â€&oelig ;Hey Mama.†
A/N: I'm getting better and I'm writing longer and longer chapters. I am going to really try and update 

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more often. Sorry for the wait. ~Cricket42 

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