InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ It's For The Better ❯ Dont leave me ( Chapter 1 )

Summary - whoopidie do!!!!!!!! A nice little one-shot ficlet…. Nice spiffy take on Inu's feelings towards Kagome after jewel ish complete ….. It's my first time, so be gentle….flames are encouraged… Do not read….. side effects are nausea, dizziness, immense bouts of unexplained anger towards newbie authors, rapid blinking and uncanny cravings for cyanide covered pickles.

 

 

Ruhr oh…. Plastik is at it again……. I guess this is where I put a disclaimer..?? Well fuck you rumiko!!!!!!!! Inuyasha is m-! *Travis smashes cloth over mouth* Sorry kids. Plastik is currently being held hostage. This fic is owned by her, but the characters were created completely by the lovely rumiko takahashi. Don't sue. `kay? *lets a dazed Plastik out of the straight-jacket* F------------------!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Thoughts yelling. Emphasized yelling. Emphazed pissed off yelling. Capiche?

 

 

 

 

Kagome lay stretched out leisurely in the grass under the Goshinboku. Leaves of red, yellow, and dark gold tint fell lazily around her, getting caught in a few wispy locks of her black mane. She breathed in the crisp spicy scent of autumn, and of course, as usual her thoughts led straight to Him. The only one that could have ever possibly made her so insightful on the future. Four years ago, she would have stated that she didn't care what happened in the past, or future. To blissfully live out the moments that surrounded you at that moment. Pfft, as If I could `blissfully' live anything out right now... I'm about as `blissful' as that dead pile of dirt.. Almost instantly her calm serene face shattered into a teary-eyed, bitter image of misery. Then, it all goes back to Him.. she loved Him.. she would have given anything for Him…. Her home, her life, her family, and most of her education. With the help of her benevolent teachers and many hours of sitting at her age-ravaged desk, she managed to complete and pass all her classes. The accomplishment even got her accepted into a second rate school. Speaking of which….. Stinking hells…Inuyasha is going to be so pissed……. That selfish dog face.. who am I kidding anyways, the Jewel is completed, and now he can wish back his beloved dead bride and go have little dead dog babies in HELL…. Tucking her arms under herself, she gracefully pulled herself off the ground and shook a few leaves from her sweater. This would be last two days she would ever spend in Feudal Japan.. then she would start her own life… trying her damnedest to forget the friends, the family, and the boy with the golden eyes that she adored so much. This would be a new beginning for her….so.. shouldn't she be happy?

 

 

Meanwhile, the certain mentioned `Him' sat draped across the limbs of the Goshinboku, idly toying with the blue stained mahogany and fang beads around his neck. His curse, his only connection with his little wench. He looked through the dying leaves of the tree and spied on his muse below. Keh, stupid girl, just laying around being lazy… useless, good for nothing………..No. Not useless. Not anymore. Ain't never been…..Feh! I'm going soft… damn woman.. encouraging all this “love” and “friendship” shit….. women emotions………. He snorted softly and looked back down at the petite figure. He felt his own mind grow fuzzy at the thought of her here… with him……and not somewhere in her own time, not somewhere with that `hobo' person… but with him.. a worthless mutt…. A worthless mutt who could never really get what he wanted in the first place. His gaze drifted to the small pink orb perched above her fragile collarbone, held on by a simple piece of leather. His original idea came to him. To become a full youkai, to have immense power to prove to everyone on the face of the planet that he was good for SOMETHING. Then again……….. his thoughts spun back to his memories of his lost Miko. She had wanted his soul, his heart, but not him. She wanted him in a human body… she wanted him as her own to grow weak, fragile, old, and die with her. She never could accept who he was…. He snorted again bitter. And now she still wants me…….except dead.. miserable.. in Hell…. Why the fuck… He glanced back down to Kagome, who was still gazing blankly at the sky, her emotions on her current thoughts flowing through her bright cerulean eyes and enlightening her smile and face. I'm….I'm sorry `Gome… I'll never be what either of you want…I'm such a bastard…. I took your friends, family and time away from you… I'll fix it.. I swear…. Even if It means giving myself to some dead girl just to let you go. His attention flared at the sight of her push herself off the ground and shake the leaves off her `jee-ns' as she called them. She didn't look as serene and content as she had before…something was on her mind….. anxiety rolled off her in waves, the bitter and worried smell hitting him full force. Without thinking, he leapt out of her hiding spot and landed directly before her.

 

She bit her lip and tried to calm herself… this wasn't a big deal… the Jewel is done, and she was no longer needed here…so she could leave the jewel to Inuyasha and be done with everything here..right? She felt her heart crack around the edges a little at the thought of leaving him and never coming back.. but It had to be done… she had fulfilled her job and it was time to say goodbye. *cruUUUNch* She glanced up from the ground just in time to make contact with bright amber eyes. “AIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! You jerk!!!!!!!!!!! Sit!” He growled as the beads began to glow. “you fucking bi-mmmpfhhfhph!” Once again, she stepped around him as he finished his newest makeout session with the dirt. She clenched her fists and counted backwards… just as mama taught her. By the time her temper had cooled, Inubaka was already peeling himself off the ground. His cheeks flushed red and his mouth opened wide to issue a string of curses. Before a single word left his mouth, she interrupted and turned to face him. “Inuyasha.. please.. let's not fight…. Just pleast… I want to enjoy my last two days with you.. and I don't want us remember each other as the usual `sit' and `thump' routine.” Her pleading eyes cast a visable tremor down his back. Smiling slightly, Kagome reached out and clasped his fingers with her own. “Walk with me..” she murmered. His fuzzy mind registered what she had just said. Wait… w-wait a minute…. `last two days'?! She can't.. she.. she wouldn't…. she promised…… Anger flashed through his entire body, sending electric shocks to all his limbs. His fists clenched, his grip on her hand increased until she nearly winced at the pressure. She stared up in shock as his eyes bled into a deep red and narrowed menacingly. “WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN `LAST TWO DAYS?!' WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR PROMISE? Or would you have told anyone anything to make peace at the moment?! Answer me bitch!” He pulled her forward and gripped her shoulders tightly. She uttered an audible gasp and her eyes widened as she took in the sight before her…. He.. he's transformed… and I havn't even told him yet-! Fear clenched her heart as she gazed up into his furious face. Anger flashed through her eyes as she steeled herself against his gaze. “You know damn well what I mean dog boy…. Don't you get pissed at me, you knew this was coming every day… Hell you should be HAPPY I'm leaving! You're right, you're always right! I have no use here, I no use here, I never have! If I had been Kikyo, I would have at least done SOMETHING right!! So just be happy I'm finally out of your hair,INUYASHA!” She spat angrily back. His large, now golden eyes widened considerably. His firm hold on her arm loosened and his hands fell numbly at his sides. He stared at her, with an expression akin to horror and stepped back from her. Something remotely similar to shame and sorrow flitted across his face. “K..K'gome…” She stepped forward and jabbed a finger into his chest. “You listen here you ! You know I'm right! Just admit it already so I can get back to Kaede's!” He suddenly reached out and pulled her forward into his chest. She stood silently as he leaned down and stared past her at the ground. “I never thought… I never thought you really believed that…I've never..” He cut himself short, remembering all the insults and hateful words he had thrown at her over the past four years. `Stupid, ugly girl…. Worthless… Why can't you do anything right?! You know, if It had been Kikyo here..' He stepped back and mashed her hand against his mouth, his lips pressed against his teeth. He smothered a mute sob and stared into the girl's depression etched face. Her angry façade was clearly failing, as he could see all her emotions filtered through her gaze… he had never realized… each time he abandoned her to see Kikyo.. each time he compared the two.. each time he called her worthless, stupid, bitch, ugly and weak… her soul seemed to crumble from her heart onto the dirt below him. He lowered his eyes as she spun on her heel and faced her back to him. He had broke her… really broke her.. slowly and bit by bit….. He winced and reprimanded himself… You don't deserver her… worthless half breed… you never did……… you might as well let yourself get dragged to hell… hell is what you deserve after all… Damnit!!! Her watery voice broke through his self pitying thoughts. “I'm going to leave tonight, Inuyasha. I don't need to worry the others… they will know…. Sango and Miroku will start a life… adopt Shippo…… I'm not needed here…I..I'm going to start a new life..” She bit back a whimper as tears stung her eyes and slowly filled her gaze. She put on a bright paper Mache smile and turned back to face him. His confused and lonely expression almost made her tears begin to flow freely. She sniffled and reached out to his rosary. “I should have done this before…. You're free Inuyasha… free to do as you please,” She ripped the jewel from her neck and placed it and the beads into his palm. “ And you're free to go with whoever you want… use the jewel.. it can wish her back you know…you two…y-you can live like you were supposed to before Naraku.. Goodbye Inuyasha….” She pushed his palm to his chest and spun on her heel, running past the trees and to the path to the well. She didn't even hear him move a muscle… he just stood there… He..he doesn't care…. He's not even going to say `goodbye' back.. she choked back a sob and broke through the brush to the well's clearing.

 

He stood there, immobile, allowing her words to sink in… he opened her palm and stares down at the jewel and his beads.. It dawned on him… she was gone.. he had lost her.. and she would never come back.. Oh my fucking god…. And.. I'll never get to tell her… his eyes widened as the realization washed over him. He loved her. More than he had loved anyone else… Kikyo used to have his trusted…. But this shell.. this cold dead gazed woman was not his love. The good in Kikyo had gone to Kagome.. and he was losing her all over again. He clenched his fist over the items in his hand and took off towards the well in a dead run.

She was standing on the edge of the well, peering sadly into it's depths. Taking in a shuddering breath, she glanced once more around this age that she had fallen in love with, and stepped one foot over the edge. She fell forward into the darkness below.

Coming to an abrupt halt, she stared still into the inky blackness. A clawed hand gripped her around the waist and held her dangling above the entrance of the well. Her breath caught in her throat as she was pulled out of the well and immediately was pressed into the dark red fabric of his haori. He tightened his arms around her frame and buried his nose into the crook of her neck. Her knees buckled and sent them both to their knees on the ground. She slowly wrapped her arms around his shoulders and held him just as close. This was not..not meant to happen.. please stop this.. stop torturing me…just let me go.. LET ME GO DAMMIT! Her mental tirade was cut short as she felt his shoulders shake and a peculiar dampness against her neck where his face was pressed. Oh-Oh my god.. he's… She squeezed her eyes shut and allowed her tears to flow just as freely as his.

What seemed like hours later, he pulled back and stared into her forlorn face.
“Please… please don't…. I know I'm not the best of….of guys… but please don't leave me…. You're all I've got…. If I lose you.. I'll have lost myself.. please don't..-I'm so..sorry..” His voice broke as he stared into her impassive face. He raised his hand and layed it softly against her cheek, lining her lips with his thumb. He took a deep breath and murmered “I love you…. Please don't go..” Her eyes widened and filled with tears. Oh..shit… Fuck! That wasn't right… way to go you asshole.. you made her cry…… He waited for her to shoved him away and recoil in disgust, anger, to cringe at his sight and tell him to take a hike. She said nothing for the longest time.. Feeling her rejection sink into his bones, he lowered his face as his bangs fell over his eyes, shadowing them. He stood up and made to turn away, when he felt arms thrown around his waist and her face pressed into his stomach. Her shoulders heaved as she sobbed into his shirt folds. His surprise quickly turned to confused as he tried to make out her jumbled words. He reached down and lifted her face from his stomach. Her bottem lip quivered as the sobbed out “I'm sorry.. I wont.. I can't… God….I love..y-you…b-but Kikyo.. please don't go with her… don't..” She bit her lip and hiccupped. His heart lightened and a jubilant smile broke across his face. He swept the confused girl off the ground by her waist and swung her around, pulling her close and laughing, overjoyed. She hiccupped again and blinks back her tears as he pulled her even closer and pressed his lips against hers. Her shock overrode her current state of emotional breakdown. She smiled against his lips and wove her arms around his neck, stealing her first taste of heaven. He felt her respond and feverishly kissed her cheeks, brow, nose and her lips again. He wrapped his arms around her and held her in his embrace for the rest of the night. I'll never let her go… she's mine…

I'll never let him go… he's mine…….Mom and Souta will understand….

Ha ha Kikyo… you dead bitch…... ~*Fine*~

 

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!! I FINISHED IT!!!!!!!!! *cracks open a wine bottle and whizzes around the room* So. This was my first try at a fic.. tell me whatcha think about it.. and please be gentle…. *Puts on fire resistant suit* bring on the flames… I'm readeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *smiles with all her might*

-Plastik Houdini