InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Jump Over the Wall of Freedom ❯ Reasons ( Chapter 18 )

 

Chapter 18: Reasons

 

A/N: Hello my dear readers, I decided to post the new chapter a day early. Hope you will enjoy…

 

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Note: This chapter will contain dark themes and character death so…

 

 

 

“Speaking”

`Thinking'

 

 

*Flashback*

 

“It's mother I cannot find her, she is not in her room” as if to emphasize his worries a loud and bright lighting flash made the old maiden gasp.

 

“Come master we shall find her” she said while taking his smaller clawed hand in her larger wrinkled one. It was not often that Sesshomarou would let anyone touch them under any circumstances.

 

They went through the entire mansion but still no sign of the Lady of the Western Lands.

Sesshomarou was growing anxious at each passing second and he could not shake off the bad feeling spreading through his stomach.

 

Then as they were heading towards the red bedroom once again, the young demon stopped abruptly and headed outside under the pouring rain. He could not tell why but something was calling him outside. He knew it could not be his mother's scent as he was but merely a pup and would not be able to pick it up under such a heavy rain.

 

He kept running not paying attention to the old woman's plea to come back, he ran towards the south aisle of the mansion as he was standing right under the window of the crimson bedroom he abruptly stopped: there it was what had been calling to him…

 

She was still as beautiful as ever. Her pale skin seemed to be glowing in with the occasional lighting flashes. Her long wet black hair was falling messily all around her face, looking like a dark halo. She was lying still on her back, her eyes closed and a small smile floating on her lips, she appeared so peaceful that her son was afraid to come too close and disturb her.

 

As Sesshomarou leaned next to her he could smell blood but he could not see where it was coming from, as the night was dark and the pouring rain was not helping.

He gently touched her cheeks they had lost their usual pink glow and now were pale and cold, so cold to his gentle touch. Not gaining any response from her he tried to speak to her but, for some reason a lump was forming in his throat and talking was becoming harder by each passing moment.

 

Sesshomarou than inhaled deeply and asked “Mother are you asleep? Answer me mother. I made your favorite dish, it's upstairs, will you please have some? You haven't eaten in so long. It can't be good for the baby”.

 

He could still remember the day a few months ago when he was told that he would have a younger sibling, he was so happy and wished everyday to have a younger brother he could play with, not that he did not enjoy spending time with his twin sister but as he said “with a boy it's different”.

 

The young demon was very puzzled and could not understand why his mother was not answering him. Just as he was about to talk to her again he sensed someone behind them. He barely had time to turn around that he heard Miss Hitomi push a deafening scream; she quickly scooped him in her arms with unbelievable strength and ran towards the mansion.

 

Not understanding Sesshomarou tried to yank himself away from her and join his mother but the old maiden wouldn't give in.

 

“Let me go, we have to help her, she's going to catch a cold!”

 

The old women looked down at him and he could smell the salty scent of tears coming from her. She shook her head and finally said:

“I am very sorry master Sesshomarou but there is nothing we can do for her now, she…she…she is dead. The Lady killed herself.”

 

With those four words the young demon's world came crashing down. He then realized that in all the time he had been by her side his mother had not breathed once. For the first time in his young life he cried as he let the old governess comfort him and cradle him in her arms.

 

When Sesshomarou realized that he had lost the two most important women in his life. He then swore to himself never to let anyone be important enough for him, so that if they were ever to leave they would leave a large deep hole in his heart….

 

* End of Flashback*

 

 

But here he was today with a daughter and a very tempting wind sorceress. The latter reminded him of his mother beautiful, strong, and proud but Kagura was definitely more stubborn and feisty. But contrary to the late Lady of the Western Lands, the wind witch also had a ferocious will to live that the demon lord could only admire.

 

It suddenly dawned on Sesshomarou that maybe the reason why he took both Rin and Kagura in, was because they reminded him so much of his own mother. They were both greatly injured alone and he was the only one here to help them, of course he did not have to but he felt like he wanted to.

 

“Hum Sesshy?! You okay? Can you stop spacing out it's kinda creepy you know?” Kagura asked standing in front of him her face mere inches from his, she was very irritated that he could just tune her out like that.

 

“Sorry I was reminiscing” he said Kagura noticed the sadness in his eyes, she could feel something burning in her chest.

 

“Are you okay? You don't seem well. What's the matter” she asked really concerned, this time she did not care who would win their little battle of wits.

 

“It's nothing I am just tired” he then answered. “Your turn” he said quickly. But after saying the questioning look on Kagura's face he added quickly “why did you sever all ties with your family?” He knew Naraku had something to do with it as he recalled when she was talking to her baby.

 

She sighed heavily and said “it's more like the other way around: they severed the ties with me. Let's see where to start?” she turned around and sat on the comfortable and soft bedding, and she fought hard not to think of how pleasurable and comfortable laying between Sesshomarou and the sheets felt and how much she would like to find herself in the same position. But it became harder as the said dog demon sat next to her and was looking at her intently with mesmerizing golden orbs.

 

“Am I right to presume that a demon lord like you must know of the ways an elemental demon family works or am I wrong?” she asked, she could not help but tease him a little.

 

“Indeed, it is almost similar to the dog demons: the family is governed by patriarchal authority, and the father's word is law. Defying him means being thrown out” he answered really interested to know where she was heading to.

 

“Yep, when I got hum....let's say…for lack of a better word involved with Naraku my father wasn't all happy and decided that if I did not break up with him he would repudiate me and forbid any member of my family to ever come in contact with me again.”

Just remembering about this painful conversation made her want to cry, and soon enough a single tear went down her cheek and she could not speak as a painful lump formed in her throat.

 

She felt the soft and warm hand of Sesshomarou wiping her tear and he nodded slightly silently inviting her to keep going.

 

She let out a shaky breath and said “since I am how to put it…”

 

“Stubborn as hell” he supplied for her.

 

Kagura sent him a scolding look, but the effect was ruined as a small smile graced her lips. She then continued “My mother tried to stick it out for me, but she could not go against the will of her mate, and she gave in eventually”.

 

The wind sorceress did not want to say any more about the topic. So the two of them stayed in silence for the longest time before Sesshomarou said:

 

“It appears neither of us comes from a solid family environment.”

 

“Nope but at least I am given a second chance” she smiled and rubbed gently her stomach, “and I will make it right, but for that I need to get free from Naraku”. She spat his name venomously and her eyes harden as if she was trying to burn a whole through the wall.

 

All of a sudden Kagura took Sesshomarou's hand and put it on the growing bump on her stomach. As he was about to shot her a questioning glance, he felt something move and realized it was the baby kicking. She once again smiled at him and to her surprise he smiled back.

 

He had to admit that it was the first time he really thought about the fact that she was carrying a child. Up until know he only thought of `Kagura being pregnant' but now it dawned on him that in a matter of months she would give birth, and the child would grow and then have his or her own life.

 

He did not think before he asked “what do you plan on doing after your baby is born?” His gaze met a pair of shocked red eyes.

 

Kagura thought `This is the question I have been asking myself since I got here! The same question I lose sleep thinking about. I'm so scared and I have no where to go!'

 

“I don't know” she only whispered back. “It's not like I had a life plan or something, but it sure as hell did not involve ending up a single mother”.

 

“You could stay here until you figure out an answer to this question.”

 

He then heard her sigh heavily before she asked “why? Why are you helping me? Aren't you suppose to be the cold hearted arrogant jerk Sesshomarou Inuyoukai, lord of the West and ruthless businessman?!” she asked confused, happy and angry at the same time: so happy and hopeful to finally have a way out of this mess and also confused thinking that Sesshomarou could be the one providing it, as her feelings towards him were so mixed. She could not tell why but the idea of him as her savior both appealed and angered her.

 

“Woman! Aren't you happy instead of questioning this Sesshomarou shouldn't you just thank me?! Besides, maybe I have my own reasons!” he answered hurt by the name calling.

 

“Which are…let me guess none of my concern.” she added filled with sarcasm as she stood up.

 

“Indeed” he answered angry to have her mocking him.

 

“Okay, Sesshomarou I have another question for you.” Hearing him sigh she asked “why did you unlock your mother's room? Why did you put me there?”

 

He looked at her and said “Are you aware wind witch that you just asked me two questions and not one”.

 

She was irritated and answered “Don't you dare try to use simple details to crawl yourself out of an honest answer!”

 

“This Sesshomarou doesn't crawl! And to answer your second question, you reminded me of her. Besides since you almost wear the same size I figured you could wear her clothes.” He answered truthfully.

 

“Is the fact that I reminded you of her a good or a bad thing?”

 

The little look through his past was really starting to irritate him and he answered tired “Well Kagura it is whatever you make it to be. Now if you don't mind wind witch this Sesshomarou is going to bed.”

 

He then stood up and walkd around the bed, ready to slide under the covers, when he heard Kagura whisper “Can I stay with you tonight?”

 

 

 

To be continued…

 

 

 

 

A/N: Ooh! Poor Sesshy it was sad with his mom. There might just be some lemon \ in the next chapter. Saphira hasn't decided yet, so your reviews might just influence her (Still talking of myself at the third person. Yeah I know something's seriously wrong with me…)

 

Don't miss the next chapter, it will be named In his arms.

 

OMG! I just realized I never told you guys which story I decided to write next! I am so sorry about that. I have decided to go with Indecent Proposal(which doesn't necessarily means I forgot about the other ideas…)

 

Summary AU For one million dollars would you bear the heir of the handsome, rich, conceited and all around unbearably annoying silver haired head of the Tashio Bank? That's the question Kagura is faced with. Rated M for language and citrus. A Sessh/Kagu story with some IY/Kagome.

Keep an eye opened for it!