InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kagome! Where are you?! ❯ What do I do? ( Chapter 38 )

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Kagome! Where are you?!

Chapter 38: What Do I Do?

Some sexual situations in this chapter . .

Corrected by angelica birmingham

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‘My instincts are screaming at me to take her. Her love for my brother was the problem and now
. . it's gone. A few well-chosen words . . . and she's mine.'

"Inu-yasha . . " she whispers into his chest.

‘My mind is telling me that is a bad idea. Sooner or later, probably sooner . . . she'll remember
my offer to help . . and if I don't try to help her regain her love for my brother . . she'll never
forgive me or trust me again . . . '

"Sesshomaru . . . " she whispers into his chest . . .

"What do I do?" they whisper at the same time . . .

Kagome sits next to Sesshomaru hugging him, her head on his chest, tears beginning to fall as
she thinks about Inu-yasha . .

Sesshomaru continues to brush Kagome's hair as he thinks,
1. ‘Yes. I've got to help her.' he grimaces. ‘It will help in the end. She'll realize that I could have
ripped my brother's reputation into shreds, instead, I . . I'm going to have say nice things about
him.'

"Kagome." he whispers. "It'll be all right." He swallows hard. "You've just been shaken by
today's events and need time to recover." He pauses. ‘This is going to hurt . . '

"I'm sure, once you've had time to think and reflect that . . . that you'll realize your . . . love . . .
for Inu-yasha is still there."

Kagome, her checks covered in tears, her eyes red, lifts her head off his chest and looks into
Sesshomaru's face.
"I must be dreaming . . . " she whispers.

Sesshomaru grimaces, but looks into her eyes,
"I refuse to believe that any curse could destroy your love, Kagome," he sighs, "even if it is for
my brother."

Kagome lowers her head onto his chest,
"Thank you . . . " she whispers.

Sesshomaru opens his mouth to say something . . but he pauses. ‘No . . . I will think about that
later, not now.' he thinks. He clears his throat, he mummers,
"I know that you've run home after fights with him, and you're probably thinking nasty thoughts
about him when you do so, but you always come back to him. So, what do you think about when
you're away from him?"

"After a big fight?"

"Yes." Sesshomaru hisses

"Once I've calmed down, I think about the good times." Kagome mummers. "And . . . how I'm
sure that things will get better in the future."

"Then . . . " Sesshomaru pauses, "my love, think about the good times. I'm sure you'll find that
the curse's damage . . . " he grimaces again, "to your love can be fixed with a good night's rest."

"Sesshomaru?" Kagome's lips move across his chest.

"Yes."

"I love you."

"I love you."

Kagome begins to cry into Sesshomaru's chest, her arms wrapped around him, hugging him close.

Sesshomaru, after a pause, begins to slowly and carefully brush and comb her hair with his
clawed fingertips, lightly grooming her long black silky hair. ‘This will be worth it in the end.
She'll remember this time . . . and remember how supportive I was.' He swallows, ‘It was so . . .
very hard . . not tell her that the reason her love for Inu-yasha failed was because it was meant to
fail. But . . . if I told her that she might have thought the same thing about her love for me . . .
and . . . I could not take that chance.'

After a few minutes Kagome's crying stops and her breathing slows as she goes to sleep.

Sesshomaru's mouth twitches, as he whispers,
"She never did clean up." a pause, "Good. With a little luck, in the morning, we can have a full
bathing and grooming session, that should take her mind off him." his maleness throbs. ‘The
odors of her heat are getting more intense and I'll need some relief in the morning.' he thinks as
he calms himself. His hands slowly begin to move Kagome, so he can lay down, with Kagome
laying upon him. ‘Damn rocks, but I'm not going to move and wake her up.' he thinks as he
lays, uncomfortably, on the ground.

He wraps his tail around Kagome and himself. His arms wrap themselves her. Sesshomaru
mentally communicates with the spirits of his and her clothes. Their clothing shifts, becoming
heavy cloaks wrapped about Kagome and Sesshomaru's nude bodies.

He kisses the top of Kagome's head, ‘My father . . . for all I hate him, was both correct and
mistaken. He was correct that emotions are something to be avoided and love is the worst
emotion there is. He was mistaken, though, when he said that my life will be better without
knowing love. My life . . . how many years can be summed up in the sentence, ‘He wandered,
aimlessly, across the countryside.' And now . . ' Sesshomaru's mouth twitches. He whispers,
"Each new day, sometimes even each hour, brings something new that I'll never forget until the
day I die. I was missing this . . . for so very long . . . I knew I was missing something in life . . .
Rin helped me and given time with her, I would've found what I was missing but, Kagome. . ."
pause, "Loving you . . . is the best thing that has happened to me." he mummers. He kisses her
head again. ‘Now . . let me think about how to make sure I'll never lose that love. I've been
reacting to events between the two of us. In a war that is bad, I need to be directing events, not
reacting to them. So . . . think about this, like it is a war and I've got battles to fight. To win the
war . . . my goal is too live happily with her . . . ' he thinks.

He frowns and he brushes Kagome's hair again, ‘Tonight . . . proves that she'll never,
voluntarily, let go of her love for Inu-yasha. He's going to have to break it, because she'll never
break it. Very well, how do I get him to break up with her?' His lips purse, ‘When we return . .
he will find out about our love and he'll fight me. I'll win, of course . . ' He shivers, ‘What a
horrible thought . . . I will beat Inu-yasha, but, I will have just hurt or, more likely just killed,
someone she loves, and during the fight between the two of us, she would be treated like a
possession, to be fought over . . . and she'll reject me as well. ' His hand fishes for the necklace
around Kagome's neck. He picks it up and looks at the clear bottle of shards hanging from it.
"That's how the triangle between myself, Kagome and Inu-yasha will end, won't it?" he asks the
shards. "Inu-yasha dead, Kagome heartbroken and I lose . . . "

The shards twinkle in the fire light . .

"I'm going to beat you. I will find a way, no matter what the cost, to live happily with Kagome.
I, Sesshomaru, Lord of the Western Lands, swear." he growls. "Hmmm . . . if Inu-yasha . . .
beats me." he whispers. "She'll stop him before he kills me that I'm sure of. And he'll be the one
that's caused her pain . . . so . . . when we return . . . I'll have to lose that fight." He nods, "Like
losing a battle, but winning the war. I will win the war, even if that cost is losing to Inu-yasha."
He grimaces, staring at the shards.
"But even that plan will not work, will it? She's still going to be treated like a possession, and
Inu-yasha, since he's still alive, will never give up and it'll become his mission in life to destroy
my happiness, even if that means destroying Kagome's, since he'll be sure that he can make her
happy, once I'm dead."

"It would be best if somehow Inu-yasha dies . . . and it's not my fault." Sesshomaru mummers.

He sighs as he thinks, ‘I could do it, easily. But, now . . . I know her too well. She'll find out
about any plan like that.' His eyes flick to the shards, ‘They'll make sure of that. And I lose,
again.' He growls in frustration . . .
"Is there something else that I'm ignoring?" A pause, Sesshomaru looks down and brushes the
hair off Kagome's forehead, so he can look at her beautiful face.

"Inu-yasha . . . " Kagome whispers in her dreams.

Sesshomaru grimaces in pain.

"Somehow, she must choose me . . . " He purses his lips, "Knowing your enemy and what they
want to do is important in warfare. So, knowing what Kagome wants . . . and changing things to
meet those wants . . will that work?" He looks into her face . . . "What do you want, Kagome?"
he whispers.

‘She doesn't like fighting. So . . . fighting Inu-yasha, especially if I attack first, is not going to
help me.' He nods, agreeing with his thoughts. ‘She doesn't want to be treated like a possession.
So I cannot force my love on her. Inu-yasha . . . he will treat her as a possession. Will that do it?
Not likely, she's been with him long enough to ignore that.'

‘She loves both of us. And I love her . . . and, as much as I hate to admit it, I must assume that
Inu-yasha loves her, as well. And choosing between us will hurt her and also hurt one of us, so . .
. unless forced, and I can't be the one that forces the choice, she'll never choose between us. So .
. that leaves what?' he thinks as he shakes his head.
"Sharing her? There'll be no fighting and she won't be mine nor Inu-yasha's sole possession,
which she should like, and she'll be able to continue to love us both. So, she should like that
offer . . . " He shakes his head, and he whispers. "Impossible. Every love triangle ends, sooner or
later. And I need to make sure this one ends with me getting Kagome." He purses his lips, ‘But .
. . does she know that? If I make that offer . . . want will she do?' he thinks. ‘Maybe . . . even
making that offer might make her love me more. She understands that such an offer . . . would be
unique.' Sesshomaru's eyes narrow.
"And . . if Inu-yasha is told about such an offer and he rejects it, like he will . . I win. Because if
he rejects that offer, which is an offer to try to live in peace with him . . . that could be the
breaking point for Kagome's love . . . "

"What do I have to lose by making that offer?" he whispers.

"Inu-yasha will make sure that it'll never work, so . . " He nods and smiles, "Tomorrow then,
Kagome, I'll tell you then." His eyes flick to the shards, "Hmm . . . the three of us . . . living in
peace . . . is impossible. But, he will be the one to start the final fight . . . perhaps . . . this is a
plan, probably not the best plan, but it is a start."

The shards twinkle in the dim firelight . . .

He replaces the necklace between Kagome's breasts. His fingertips brush her nipples. ‘No . .
there'll be time to play with them later, when she's awake and can appreciate it.'

His hand goes to the hilt of Tenseiga.

*Is this world's copy of myself, dead, like she said?* he thinks to his sword.

*Yes. Kikyo chained his soul in hell. *

Sesshomaru grimaces.

*However, in addition to communicating with myself, I used the energy pulse to unchain his
soul. * Tenseiga states.

*Good! And? *

*I could not raise him from the dead, but, with his soul released from hell, this world's version of
myself, in the hands of Inu-yasha or Kagome, should be able to resurrect you. *

*Excellent. * Sesshomaru releases Tenseiga's hilt and his hands return to slowly combing
Kagome's hair as she sleeps.
"I do need to rest, but, that can wait until she's awake. Until then . . . " His mouth twitches, "the
ground might be rocky, but . . . Kagome's body on top on mine is heavenly . . . " His maleness
throbs . . .

Time passes . .

"...." Kagome begins to twitch in her sleep.

Sesshomaru's eyes snap open, he closed them for only a second, he'll swear. ‘A dream?'

Kagome's arms and legs begin to move.

‘No. A nightmare.' he thinks.

"NO!" Kagome screams as she awakens. She lifts her up and looks around, a haunted look in her
eyes.

"I'm here, Kagome." Sesshomaru whispers and his arms reach up and wrap around her.

She collapses onto him and hugs him, shivering . . .

"A nightmare?" Sesshomaru whispers.

"Yes . . . " she hisses.

"Would it help to tell me?"

"..." Kagome pauses, then she begins to whisper, "After Vlad turned me into a vampire, he had
me kill a little boy. It was to help him make an amulet, and his sadistic way to make sure the
curse had control over my body."

"And you were reliving that." Sesshomaru whispers.

Kagome nods. "I. . . I was awake then, you know. I couldn't stop myself from biting the boy's
neck, drinking his blood and killing him . . . "

Sesshomaru frowns.
"Why didn't you mention this earlier? I would have thought that you would have wanted me to
raise the boy?"

"His body was destroyed in the ceremony. It was cut up and Vlad Tepes' servants ate it."

Sesshomaru hugs her. "I'm sure you did everything you could to stop yourself, but the curse was
too powerful. Sometimes . . . a person might lose a battle, but win the war. You did defeat the
curse in the end." he whispers.

"Ahh . . . But I didn't do everything I could." Kagome whispers, in a ghost of a voice. Tears
begin to fall down her checks.

A pause . . .

"I did not use our love to fight the curse until it was too late for the boy. I could have. I thought
about it, but didn't use it . . . until I saw your eyes." she whispers.
"And now you feel guilty." Sesshomaru lifts her head and wipes the tears away.

Kagome nods.

"Don't be, Higurashi Kagome. If you had defeated the curse then, I'm sure that my opponent
would have found other, stronger, ways to bind you to him. So . . . it is a good thing you did not
use our love until I was there to protect you."

"Maybe . . . maybe you are correct . . . " Kagome shivers.

"Of course, I am, Kagome. You are not perfect and you will make mistakes."

"And I try to fix them." Her mouth twitches, "And I did destroy the curse . . . that has to count
for something."

"Yes, you revenged his death by punishing the entity that did it."

"I hate revenge and talk about it. I've seen too many times, how a person will get so wrapped up
in revenge that they destroy far more than they might save."

"I've seen that as well, Kagome." Sesshomaru nods.

"Do you think his ghost will forgive me?"

"You destroyed the entity that killed him and helped me destroy the society that caused his
death. I know that I, in that situation, would forgive you."
"Thank you, Sesshomaru. I know you're trying, but that wasn't very convincing . . . " Kagome
hugs him, tighter.
"Guilt about killing isn't something I know a lot about, Kagome." Sesshomaru hugs her back.

"I'll just have to work it out." A pause . . . "We'll have some hours of daylight before the cube
can shift us, right?"

"Yes."

"Could you, please, find a nearby village?"

"Why?"

"So I can go there and help some people . . . as a penance for my failure to save that boy's life."

Sesshomaru raises an eyebrow, "I think that's a waste of time, Higurashi Kagome. Everyone will
have seen the fires during the night and they are going to be very suspicious."

Kagome grimaces.

"And you saw how that first village treated us. If you must help someone, and I'm sure you do,
can it wait until the next world, or does it have to be this one?"

A pause . .

"I'd like it to be this one, Lord Sesshomaru. But, I do understand what you're saying." . . . "I'd
still like to visit a nearby village, but, I promise if they ignore me, like you think that they will,
we'll leave."

"Acceptable, Miko Higurashi Kagome."

Kagome's eyes flick to the stars . . .
"How long before sunrise?" she asks.

"An hour or so." Sesshomaru replies.

"Have you slept?"

"No."

"I don't think I'm going to, Sesshomaru, so if you need the rest, go ahead."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Are you going to stay on top of me?" Sesshomaru wiggles under her.

Kagome looks down, smiles, "Yes. You make a very comfortable mattress."

Sesshomaru smiles, "And you make a very comfortable bed partner."

Kagome lays down on him, and stretches.
"You had the spirits change our clothes?"

"Yes."

"Good."

A pause . .

Kagome lifts her head to look at Sesshomaru's face.

His eyes are closed and his breathing is soft and steady.

Her mouth twitches, "Asleep?" she whispers.

Nothing . . .

‘He trusts me . . . ' she thinks. She lays her head back down on his chest. She reaches out and
gathers up his tail and she begins to comb and groom it.

Sesshomaru begins to purr . .

Her head snaps up. ‘Still asleep . . . ' she thinks. ‘I need to think . . about him and Inu-yasha and
the mess we're heading toward . . . ' she thinks. ‘When we get home . . . there is going to be a
huge fight between Inu-yasha and Sesshomaru. Both of them are possessive and jealous, and
both will want me to belong to only to one of them.' she nods.

‘How can I stop that fight? ‘Sit,boy' is not a solution. It might delay the fight and if I use it
during the fight, Sesshomaru will, win . . . is that what I want?' She grits her teeth. ‘No. I do not
want any fighting at all.' She nods. ‘But. What can I do? Choose Inu-yasha? And shatter
Sesshomaru. Well . . . Rin . . . she might be able to hold him together, but . . . ' Kagome shivers.
‘No. Not after his speech about suicide, I can't take that chance.'

‘So . . . if I choose Inu-yasha . . . Sesshomaru dies. Which is not going to happen.' She grimaces.
‘If I choose Sesshomaru? Inu-yasha will choose Kikyo and go to hell. Which, also, is not going
to happen.' She grits her teeth. ‘Plus. If I choose either one, there will be a huge fight. Oh,
depending on how much I watch them, I might delay the fight, but sooner or later, they'll just
leave and have a private battle between them. And . . . if anyone knows these two like I do . . .
that battle will have only one victor and the other will be dead.'

‘Death . . . ' Kagome's eyes fill with tears. She uses Sesshomaru's tail to absorb them.

Sesshomaru twitches.
Kagome looks up at his face, it's still calm and peaceful.

‘If I choose . . . I will cause the death of someone I love.' Kagome nods. "So . . . I can't choose.'
She slumps against Sesshomaru. ‘That's not a solution . . . they'll force me to choose.' Kagome
begins to feel Sesshomaru's maleness throb and grow beneath her. She looks at his face. He is
smiling. ‘Yes, he did say I was in heat. His body must be reacting to mine.' She reaches down
between them and gently moves his maleness so it's not trapped between them. ‘There. That
should make him more comfortable.'

Sesshomaru purrs . .

Kagome looks at his face. ‘In addition there's sex . . . Sooner or later, Sesshomaru and I are
going to make love and when I return home . . . There is no way Inu-yasha would ever let
Sesshomaru make love to me without an argument. But . . we've had arguments before . . . and
as long as it stays an argument . . '

Kagome places her fingertips on Sesshomaru's chest and begins to lightly circle his nipples.
‘What was that American staying . . . ‘Make love, not war.' perhaps?...' She smiles as she
whispers,
"Can I love both of them and not allow them to make war?" She nods, "It's definitely worth the
try. This way I'm at least trying something to stop them." She bends down and kisses
Sesshomaru's nipple. His maleness throbs beside her leg.

"Kagome . . . " he whispers . . .

"I'm here, Sesshomaru." she whispers as she brushes his tail.

He purrs . .

Kagome's eyes flash . . . she smiles, ‘And I've just thought up the perfect thank you for tonight.'

Kagome relaxes against Sesshomaru's body, slowly combing his tail.

She shifts her legs, trying to get comfortable as her heat begins to build between her legs.

The heat from Sesshomaru's maleness grows and it throbs against her thigh . . .

A couple of minutes pass . .

Sesshomaru's eyes snap open.
"Kagome. Stop please."

Kagome drops his tail. "Sesshomaru?"

He takes a deep breath. ‘Almost . . . a few more seconds . . and things would have gotten very
embarrassing.' he thinks. He calms himself. Sesshomaru's eyes flick to the sky. Dawn is
beginning to break.

"Dawn."

Kagome's eyes flash to the horizon.
"Yes. Time to get up, huh?"

Sesshomaru nods.

Kagome shifts herself, on top of him, rubbing against him. She kisses the tip of his nose, staring
into his eyes.

"Lord of the Western Lands, thank you for last night. I would never have thought that . . . "
"Lady Miko, I may not like my brother, but I do respect him." Sesshomaru interrupts. His mouth
twitches, "If you can care about him, he must have, even if I can't see them, some good points."
Kagome's mouth twitches, "That, Sesshomaru, was mean."

He shrugs, "It's the truth, Kagome. I had been, and I still am, planning to work with him to
overthrow my mother. I would not have thought about that plan, if I did not respect him."

Kagome sighs. "Yes. I suppose you do. Still I'm sure last night was not pleasant for you."

"No. it was not."

"Sorry."

Sesshomaru stares into her eyes, "Although, Lady Miko Higurashi Kagome, it did force me to
consider the triangle that is among the three of us."

Kagome stares back, she whispers, "And . . "

‘He's going to ask me to choose . . . ' she thinks in a panic.

"I have a plan, not a good one, to be sure, but something that might work and allow you to love
me without his interference."

‘He is . . '

Sesshomaru sighs. "Explaining this plan though . . . it's harder than I thought it would be . . . "

‘He's having second thoughts?' she thinks in confusion.

He purses his lips, "You do know that samurai can serve two masters."

"What, Sesshomaru? I suppose so." she says in confusion. ‘Where did that come from?' she thinks.

"And as long as the two masters are allies, the triangle among the three survives and can, on
occasion, flourish."

"Wait, Sesshomaru, samurai's normally only have one master."

He nods.
"Two masters do occur. One might be a childhood friend and the other his traditional ledge lord.
Sometimes a family will split in two and a samurai will serve both halves. Sometimes, especially
during a war, a samurai might make several alliances."

"Ok. I get the picture. I just don't see how this applies to you, me and Inu . . . " a pause.
Kagome's eyes grow wide. "Continue, Sesshomaru. I want to hear this out of your mouth."

Sesshomaru sighs. "Remember I told you about my father, my mother and Inu-yasha's mother
and how they destroyed my family?"

Kagome nods.

"If they had worked together, then . . . things would be very different."

Kagome nods.

Sesshomaru licks his lips, "I am better than my father . . I can't promise you that this will work,
but . . . I will try not to fight my brother and . . . work together to love you." He swallows, "And
allow you to love . . . myself and my brother."

Kagome lays down and hugs him. "Thank you, Sesshomaru. That, I know, was hard to say."

He nods.

A pause . .

Kagome giggles.

"Kagome?"

"You were using the simile about a samurai, myself, having two masters, yourself and Inu-yasha."

"Yes."

Kagome lifts herself up, kisses Sesshomaru on the nose. "I think this might be a better one. I, the
husband, and my two wives, you and Inu-yasha." She grins as she stares down into his eyes.

Sesshomaru blinks . . . "I never thought about it in that way." he mumbles.

"Can you be better than your mother?"

Sesshomaru pauses, lifts his head and kiss Kagome on her nose. "I can. Can you be better than
my father?"

Kagome kisses his nose. "Of course."

They share a smile for a few seconds.

Kagome sighs and lays down on Sesshomaru's chest. "You know this isn't going to work, don't
you?"

"I don't see where I've got any other choice, Kagome. Every other plan I can think of leads to
death and destruction. And while . . . " he pauses, ‘Honesty, she'll know if I'm lying.' he thinks.
He licks his lips, "And while killing Inu-yasha"
Kagome stiffens.
"Is something that I can do, I will lose you by doing that."
She nods.
"So, I've got to live with him . . . in peace, because that is what you want. So . . . "

"So . . . the plan you just mentioned."

Sesshomaru nods. "Is what's left."

Kagome sighs, "Even if it works for a little while . . . sooner or later, yours or Inu-yasha's
jealousy will destroy that peace."

Sesshomaru whispers, "All I can do Kagome, is try." He grabs her chin and moves her head,
looking into her eyes, "But . . . if it's necessary to live in peace with Inu-yasha to keep your love,
I'll do it."

Kagome hugs him, "Thank you, Sesshomaru. I can't ask for anything more."

Sesshomaru hugs her back. "Even if it doesn't work, Kagome. We can at least pretend it will, for
now."

Kagome looks at him, "That line is just an excuse for you to get into me." She wiggles her hips
against his maleness.

Sesshomaru smiles, "And?"

Kagome, in a very serious voice, states, "I'm making a mistake, you know. But . . . " she reaches
up and brushes his hair away from his face. "Like you, all I can see in the future is the death of
someone I love. I will do anything to prevent your death or Inu-yasha's death."

Sesshomaru nods, a very serious _expression on his face. "And I will do what I can to prevent
that future as well."

Kagome nods. She smiles and says in a husky, lust-filled voice, "And . . . I think I will enjoy
myself, trying to make sure you and Inu-yasha don't fight."

Sesshomaru smiles and whispers, "And how will you make sure Inu-yasha and I don't fight?"

"By wearing you out in bed, so you won't have the strength to fight each other . . . " Kagome
wiggles her hips, again.

Sesshomaru pauses, he reaches out with his right and cups Kagome's breast. "Talking about my
brother was not pleasant, and I would prefer that we move on to, other, more pleasant things."

Kagome's eyebrows raise, "Oh! And what pleasant things are you thinking about?" she whispers
in a sexy voice.

"We stink of smoke and fire . . . and a good long grooming is a nice way to start the day." he purrs.

Kagome smiles, but she shakes her head, no. "We do need to clean up, but, just clean up,
Sesshomaru."

Sesshomaru's eyebrow rises and his fingertip flicks Kagome's erect nipple.
"Your body says differently."

"My body. Is getting ahead of itself." Kagome replies, with a smile on her voice. She reaches
down and begins to flick his nipple. "I was thinking about something you said last night,
Sesshomaru."

"Which is?"

"You mentioned that a god was putting us through this mess with the cube."

Sesshomaru nods.

"We exist on this world, and so, I assume the gods we worship also exist on this world."

"That follows." Sesshomaru's eyes narrow. His voice changes in a sexy purr, "Continue . . . "

Kagome smiles, "You've figured it out, I see . . "

"Tell me. I want to make sure that this Sesshomaru understands."

"I am a miko and it is part of my power to speak with the gods."

Sesshomaru nods.

"I am the daughter of Uzume. Surely, if I ask her, she tell me something?"

"She should."

Kagome smiles, "So, I was thinking that, once we've cleaned up, of course, that I'd try to
summon and talk with her."

Sesshomaru purrs, "Exactly how do you plan on summoning her?"

Kagome purrs, "How do you summon a goddess of joy and pleasure?" Kagome bends down and
laying her head against his head, she whispers into his ear, "And I do need to thank you for last
night."

Sesshomaru purrs into her ear, "Let's clean up then and prepare for that ceremony."

They slowly stand up and wrap the cloaks around themselves. It is a cool autumn morning.

"That stream is going to be cold, Sesshomaru." Kagome mentions as she starts to dig through the
backpack looking for the bath supplies. "Should we help each other?"

"Just clean?"

"Yes."

Sesshomaru sighs, "Yes. You are correct and you are human and you shouldn't be exposed to
cold water to any great length of time."

Kagome shakes her head, ‘I still have to get him out of the humans are weak speeches . . . '

"Found them!" Kagome moves over the stream.

They begin to clean each other, while they stand in the cold, knee-deep water.

"Lady Miko Higurashi Kagome?" Sesshomaru states in a serious voice. ‘I need to take control of
how we travel, so the mistakes we've been making stop.' he thinks.

Kagome moves so she can look into his eyes as she replies, also in a serious voice, "Yes, Lord of
the Western Lands Sesshomaru?"

"We need to think about what we do when we arrive at a new world."

"Oh . . . " Kagome says in a contrite voice. "Yes, I did make a mistake when we arrived here,
didn't I."

"And at the previous world with those orcs."

She sighs, "Ok, what are you thinking about, Sesshomaru?"

"That, unless we appear in the middle of combat, we should try to be circumspect and avoid
people. My speed and powers do allow me to scout areas quickly."

Kagome nods. "And once we've done some scouting and thinking about where we are, then and
only then, do we try to meet people."

"Not just march up and announce ourselves." Kagome whispers.

"Correct."

Kagome sighs. "Ok, Sesshomaru. I agree to your plan."

Sesshomaru smiles, ‘I had thought she'd put up a fight.'

"But, remember each world is different and we might have to change that plan on a moment's
notice."

Sesshomaru nods. "That, Kagome, goes without saying."

"Good. I just wanted to make sure."

They leave the stream.

"May I dry you?" Sesshomaru whispers.

Kagome nods. "As I dry you?"

Sesshomaru nods.

They grab the towels that the Elves supplied for them.

They quickly wipe off most of the cold water from their bodies.

But . . . especially as they dry each others hair . . . Time slows, as they spend a great deal of time
making sure each other's hair is just perfect.

Sesshomaru's maleness throbs and grows as they groom each other.

Heat grows between Kagome's legs as they groom each other.

He sniffs, deliberately loud as he looks at her pubic area.

She blushes, but slowly drapes her towel across his maleness.

Then she lowers her eyes, she sighs, and in a heavy voice she says "Do I try to summon Uzume
or do we try to find a village first?"
"The guilt about that boy is that strong?"

Kagome nods.

Sesshomaru sighs, "Very well, let's get dressed and I'll find a village for you, Lady Miko
Higurashi Kagome." He abruptly, turns away from her.

Kagome grabs his arm. "Sesshomaru. I'm sorry. It's just . . . " she begins to apologize.

Sesshomaru turns, "Kagome." He grabs her chin and looks into her eyes. "It will be better if you
are not feeling guilty. I understand this."

"Thank you . . . "

"I do not understand why you are feeling guilty, Kagome. You tried to stop the boy's death and
you destroyed his killer, which is all you could do. However, I do know that you are feeling
guilty."

"I am . . . " she whispers.

"This is important to you, so I will help you find a village. Even though I don't think you'll
succeed in helping anyone."

Kagome slumps. "I have to try . . . "

"And . . . when you summon Uzume, it is best if all your thoughts about happiness and joy, not
guilt. So, you need to work off those thoughts first."

Kagome nods.

Sesshomaru bends down and he kisses her right nipple. "And I don't want you thinking about
anything else but me when we make love."

Kagome whispers, "And I want to only think about you, as well, Sesshomaru." She sighs and
looks around, shaking her head. "Let's dress, Sesshomaru."

Later, around noon . . .

At a different hilltop. The trees and plants on it are somewhat more luxurious than the previous
hill. There is a small river and a pond, nearby. It's not as romantic as the spot on Middle Earth,
but it's better than the spot where they spent the night.

Sesshomaru chopped down a tree for fire wood and torches.

They have just finished eating and are preparing for Kagome's ceremony to summon Uzume.

Kagome is sitting on the main log of the felled tree, softly sobbing. ‘Sesshomaru was right. They
just ignored me. I couldn't help anyone . . . '

Sesshomaru sits next to her and gathers her in his arm. "In the next world, I will help you find
someone to help, Kagome."

Kagome sighs, "Thank you, Sesshomaru." She shakes her head, "The vampires have so
frightened everyone on this world . . . " She shakes herself and wraps her arm around Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru's eyebrows raise.

Kagome brushes his hair away from his ear, whispering, "I need to get ready to summon Uzume,
Sesshomaru." She licks his lips and kisses him.

He hugs her. His hands begin to roam over her body.

Her hands begin to roam over his body.

"Last time, Sesshomaru. You were the aggressor. Today . . . it's my turn." she purrs into his ear .
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The end of Chapter 38.

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Chapter 39 will have sexual activities . . .

Hentai grin . . . and drool . .

Any comments about Sesshomaru's and Kagome's plan?

Oh, in case readers are wondering why I didn't go into detail about Kagome's thoughts about
Inu-yasha . .

Basically I'm treating what happened, similar to a major fight between Kagome & Inu-yasha.
And as such . . . after some time to think . . . Kagome's basic feelings for Inu-yasha will return.

Thank you for reading, Jeff Shelton.