InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kagome ❯ Kagome ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

The policeman on the intercom said to release the hostages, to come out with my hands held high and to surrender. I thought to myself, 'I'll let the hostage go, and the rest of them, well we'll see, as for surrendering, I have surrendered many times before and it never seemed to work for me so I don't think so.'

"Can you just let us go? We're sorry for the way we treated you, and we promise to treat you better." said Yumi. I looked to her. "You really don't understand do you? The first promise you made to me wasn't worth shit, why would I give you anotyher chance to make me feel like shit? I guess you didn't know that but that's what you all make me fee like every day. You make me feel like I'm not worth the fucking dirt you walk on. I feel like no matter where I go I'm being judged. I can't go anywhere without feeling like I want to disappear and just never come back, I want to go to a place where I know I can belong and I know this just isn't the place. Because of what you did to me I can NEVER feel like I can be loved, I can NEVER feel equal to anyone in this FUCKING WORLD!! No matter how many times you say 'sorry' or 'we promise we won't do it again.' No matter how many times thats said, it will never change the fact that it will ALWAYS HURT ME INSIDE!!!" At this point I was sobbing letting my tears fall and hit the cold, hard, linolium covered concreate.

"Kagome, we may say some things and do some stupid things, but we don't always mean what we say. In the end it will all go away and everything will be okay and we can all move on with our lives. Things pass and people change, and we can all move on, and look back and say: 'Those were times when people were cruel and those times are over and done with and I can live freely.'"

I looked to Hiro and thought about what he said, and anger just welled up inside of me again, "It may be nothing to you, and you may be able to move on, but to me, it will ALWAYS, ALWAYS HURT AND NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE!! FOR THOSE WHO TEASED LIFE WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME, THEY WILLL FOREVER BE THE TEASERS AND THE ONES THEY TEASE WILL ALWAYS FEEL LIKE ME!!! YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT EVERY FUCKING DAY IT HURTS AND IT HURTS SO MUCH THAT I JUST WANT TO DISAPPEAR INTO A DARK HOLE ALL BY MYSELF AND I THINK I WILL FINALLY BE AT HOME!!! You just don't get it, after today, how can I take back what I've don'e and what I've said? I can't so I have to go on with what I originally planned to do."

"What's that?" asked Michiko.

I fully cocked the gun and picked it up once more, but pointed it at nothing... yet. "I came here to say that this is the end of our paths, thsi is where we say good bye."

"Say good bye? What the hell do yo mean?" asked Sasuke.

"I mean it's time for all of us to say good bye. Ranma I'm counting on you to get that letter to my mother after this understand?" He nodded in reply as to my wish. "This is my only release. The end of my story and my path in life i'm sorry........ good bye."

I finally aimed the gun.