InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Learning from the Past ❯ Falling ( Chapter 1 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: LiquidLady 
This is my first fan-fic, so please review: No one asked about him or what happened before she left to train. Sighing to herself, she snuggled down further into her blankets. She was tired but sleep wouldn’t be coming. She had too much to think about now that she is back and the well being closer than she really wanted it to be.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Fantasy / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 06.01.2006 | Updated On: 06.01.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.4K | Visits: 443 | Status: Work In Progress
This is my first fan-fic, so please review: No one asked about him or what happened before she left to train. Sighing to herself, she snuggled down further into her blankets. She was tired but sleep wouldn’t be coming. She had too much to think about now that she is back and the well being closer than she really wanted it to be.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Fantasy / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 06.01.2006 | Updated On: 06.01.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.4K | Visits: 443 | Status: Work In Progress
I know that I had abandoned this story awhile ago but I was not happy to where it was going. So I have decided to change part of it and repost it along with a new title (aka To Fight with my own Hands). I am also done with my spring semester at school and have a small break to work on this story. I'm not the greatest wordsmither, but I hope you like it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, so please don't sue.
Teaser: No one asked about him or what happened before she left to train. Sighing to herself, she snuggled down further into her blankets. She was tired but sleep wouldn't be coming. She had too much to think about now that she is back and the well being closer than she really wanted it to be.
Learning from the Past
Chapter one: Falling
She sat at the base of what looks like an ancient tree. Legs flush against her chest and arms wrapped around them, sapphire colored eyes looking out on to nothing in particular. Mid-night black hair fluttering in the wind around her flawless face, she just sat there portraying the perfect picture of beauty she was. If some one was to walk by they would think that she was lost in the splendor of the perfect sunset that the shrine she was at is named for. How wrong they would be.
Normal humans would not see the amount of power that she was letting leak out of her poorly constructed barrier that surrounds her. She never took Ji-Chan's advice to master her Miko powers. She only learned how to do this barrier recently and she still isn't putting her heart into perfecting it. What was wrong with her? She had no life in her anymore. It is like she just wants to fade away, especially from herself.
He hated seeing his sister this way. He missed seeing her smiling face, a smile that could touch your soul with its purity. She hasn't smiled like that since the day Ji-chan found her unconscious at the bottom of the bone eaters well. That day was two weeks ago. Souta slowly took his eyes away from his sister and looked upon his aging Ji-chan next to him.
“Do you think she will ever talk about what happened to her” Souta said as he begun to sweep the steps leading into the house again.
Looking up from his work in the direction of his granddaughter with sad eyes, Ji-chan sighed “Only she can answer that, Souta. Only she can answer why she holds such sorrow and yet……..yet the feeling of unbridled rage within her.”
Said girl rose unexpectedly from her spot under the God Tree and turned to her grandfather and brother's direction. This action shocked both Souta and Ji-chan, she usually sat under the tree until her mother came and forced her inside. Walking like the dead, she made her way across the courtyard of the Shrine to them. Souta watched as a breath hitched in Ji-chan's chest as his sister, Kagome, locked her eyes with Ji-chan's.
Speaking just above a whisper, Kagome spoke “Ji-chan.....I would like to become a.....true Miko. Please....find some one to properly train me. I think it is time for me to master what Miko powers I have.” With that said she broke eye contact and moved past her grandfather into the house.
“Do you think she will ever talk about what happened to her” Souta said as he begun to sweep the steps leading into the house again.
Looking up from his work in the direction of his granddaughter with sad eyes, Ji-chan sighed “Only she can answer that, Souta. Only she can answer why she holds such sorrow and yet……..yet the feeling of unbridled rage within her.”
Said girl rose unexpectedly from her spot under the God Tree and turned to her grandfather and brother's direction. This action shocked both Souta and Ji-chan, she usually sat under the tree until her mother came and forced her inside. Walking like the dead, she made her way across the courtyard of the Shrine to them. Souta watched as a breath hitched in Ji-chan's chest as his sister, Kagome, locked her eyes with Ji-chan's.
Speaking just above a whisper, Kagome spoke “Ji-chan.....I would like to become a.....true Miko. Please....find some one to properly train me. I think it is time for me to master what Miko powers I have.” With that said she broke eye contact and moved past her grandfather into the house.
All through the one-sided conversation between Ji-chan and Kagome, Souta witnessed Kagome's power flare against the weak barrier that tried to fully contain it. He thought that the barrier will not keep its hold. That it will fail very soon. Then it will be just like the day that she came too after being found in the well. All the hells broke loose that day.
It took awhile for Ji-chan to release his breathe that he was holding while Kagome spoke to him. `Kagome spoke.' He just couldn't shake that thought. Turning his shocked face to his grandson, Ji-chan spoke his thought.
“Kagome spoke!”
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Souta remembered that day all to well. That was the first time Kagome spoke to anyone since her return from the past. Ji-chan did find some one to train her and train her well. Kagome left two days later on a Monday to begin her training at a shrine on the other side of Japan. His mother and grandfather never told him where she had gone, but that everything would turn out okay for her with time. He wished he did know where she went but his mother must have thought that he was too young to understand why Kagome had to leave.
Souta thought to himself `I know that I was young but I wasn't stupid. I know that what ever happened to her, Inuyasha had something to do with it.' He noticed that after she was found at the bottom of the well, Inuyasha didn't come to this side again. It was like he never existed in their lives because no one spoke of him.
At least not around Kagome.
He realized that he had begun to slowly hate Inuyasha after she was found. If he could he would hurt Inuyasha like he has hurt Kagome. If only she would tell us what happened. Then he would know why Kagome is hurting and how to get revenge for her. `But,' Souta thought looking up at the morning sky before returning his gaze to the street `she wouldn't talk about what happened and no one could bring themselves to ask.'
Today, she is returning. It has been two years since she left, but today she was returning. Souta was excited to see his sister again and wondered if she learned to smile like she once use too. Sitting on the shrine steps, watching a taxi lumber down the street towards him, he hoped that was her taxi.
The taxi came to a stop right in front of him and he was immediately on his feet. The back passenger door opened and out stepped a vision that he would never forget. She had grown up. Her once flawless childlike face was replaced with shear perfection of a woman's. She hadn't grown in height but her stature was strong and graceful. She moved with confidence that he had never seen her with before. Then she smiled. The smile she produced was not the one from his memory but it still settled his soul.
“Souta!!” she said opening her arms to me. I didn't hesitate; I was hugging her in a split second.
Kagome looked at her brother after their embrace. `Kami, he has grown since the last time I saw him. He is almost as tall as me now which it doesn't take much to be taller than me.' Then her thoughts turned dark on her `I'm so sorry Souta for not being here to watch you grow. To be here for you like a big sister should have been. Frankly to be any kind of sister, at least then you would have had one.' She shook her head to clear the depressing feeling that was slowly creeping up on her. `None of that Kagome, you know that you can't change what happened. You know that you would have been useless to him the way you were.' Smiling a true smile again, Kagome poked her brother in the chest “Are you going to stand there looking at me all day or are you going to help me with my stuff?”
Souta stood tall, gave his best American soldier salute “Sir, yes, sir!!” and rushed to the back of the taxi to get her bags. He stopped instantly from opening the trunk when he heard her laugh. `She laughed. Oh Kami what a wonderful sound. I missed her laugh so much. I hope she is really better now than when she left us.' Realizing that he was just standing there, he hurried up and got her stuff out of the taxi's trunk.
Not letting her carry any of her bags, Kagome followed her brother up the shrine's stairs to the house. She was nervous to see her Mother and Ji-chan again after all this time. She never called them when she was away, but she did write letters. Letters were easier to contact them with because she could hide her emotions better than she would have over the telephone. She hoped that they would not question her too much on the past. She had adjusted to what happened to her but it would be some time before she could forgive.
Today, she is returning. It has been two years since she left, but today she was returning. Souta was excited to see his sister again and wondered if she learned to smile like she once use too. Sitting on the shrine steps, watching a taxi lumber down the street towards him, he hoped that was her taxi.
The taxi came to a stop right in front of him and he was immediately on his feet. The back passenger door opened and out stepped a vision that he would never forget. She had grown up. Her once flawless childlike face was replaced with shear perfection of a woman's. She hadn't grown in height but her stature was strong and graceful. She moved with confidence that he had never seen her with before. Then she smiled. The smile she produced was not the one from his memory but it still settled his soul.
“Souta!!” she said opening her arms to me. I didn't hesitate; I was hugging her in a split second.
Kagome looked at her brother after their embrace. `Kami, he has grown since the last time I saw him. He is almost as tall as me now which it doesn't take much to be taller than me.' Then her thoughts turned dark on her `I'm so sorry Souta for not being here to watch you grow. To be here for you like a big sister should have been. Frankly to be any kind of sister, at least then you would have had one.' She shook her head to clear the depressing feeling that was slowly creeping up on her. `None of that Kagome, you know that you can't change what happened. You know that you would have been useless to him the way you were.' Smiling a true smile again, Kagome poked her brother in the chest “Are you going to stand there looking at me all day or are you going to help me with my stuff?”
Souta stood tall, gave his best American soldier salute “Sir, yes, sir!!” and rushed to the back of the taxi to get her bags. He stopped instantly from opening the trunk when he heard her laugh. `She laughed. Oh Kami what a wonderful sound. I missed her laugh so much. I hope she is really better now than when she left us.' Realizing that he was just standing there, he hurried up and got her stuff out of the taxi's trunk.
Not letting her carry any of her bags, Kagome followed her brother up the shrine's stairs to the house. She was nervous to see her Mother and Ji-chan again after all this time. She never called them when she was away, but she did write letters. Letters were easier to contact them with because she could hide her emotions better than she would have over the telephone. She hoped that they would not question her too much on the past. She had adjusted to what happened to her but it would be some time before she could forgive.
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Her Mother had declared it a night of celebration. A celebration of her return. As Kagome lay in her bed, she remembered all the questions that were asked. Ji-chan asked about her training. Her Mother asked about the sites that she saw. `Souta………..' she sighed. Souta didn't ask any questions, he just wanted to see what she could do with her powers now that she can control them. She laughed to herself at that. Seeing his wide eyed expression when she juggled three balls of pink light in her hands at the dinner table. He about fell off of his chair but then in the same instant excitably asked her to teach him.
No one asked about him or what happened before she left to train. She was glad to have such an understanding family and that they chose not to make her talk about the past. Sighing to herself, she snuggled down further into her blankets. She was tired but sleep wouldn't be coming. She had too much to think about now that she is back and the well being all knowingly too close to her.
Her Mother had declared it a night of celebration. A celebration of her return. As Kagome lay in her bed, she remembered all the questions that were asked. Ji-chan asked about her training. Her Mother asked about the sites that she saw. `Souta………..' she sighed. Souta didn't ask any questions, he just wanted to see what she could do with her powers now that she can control them. She laughed to herself at that. Seeing his wide eyed expression when she juggled three balls of pink light in her hands at the dinner table. He about fell off of his chair but then in the same instant excitably asked her to teach him.
No one asked about him or what happened before she left to train. She was glad to have such an understanding family and that they chose not to make her talk about the past. Sighing to herself, she snuggled down further into her blankets. She was tired but sleep wouldn't be coming. She had too much to think about now that she is back and the well being all knowingly too close to her.
Plus there is no reason for them to worry about her anymore than they already do. She did tell one person. It was one condition that was asked of her in order for her to begin her training. Her Sensei knows of what happened. Kagome told her everything from falling down the well for the first time to when she was found by Ji-chan the last time.
Kagome knows that she must go back and finish what was started. Something that her Sensei said, that if she didn't then the barriers between the three worlds wouldn't be erected. Kagome frowned at that thought. At least things would be different this time on the other side of the well. She had the power to protect herself…… physically. Weak Kagome doesn't exist anymore but what worried her was she able to protect herself emotionally too.
That she would find out all too soon, but for right now she is going to spend some much needed time with her family. Because once she goes through the well again, she doesn't know if she will ever be coming back.
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The sun light streaming through her window was the fist thing to greet Kagome from another night of dreamless sleep. Blinking the sleep away from her eyes, she thought about the last month that has past since she returned home. Kagome has spent her time engrossed within her family. Taking care of the house with her Mother, helping out with the Shrine with her Grandfather and playing with Souta. But that was all to change soon. She must go back and finish her destiny. Rising from her bed and picking up her clothes that were set out the night before, she made her way to the bathroom for a needed hot shower.
She had talked with her family last night at dinner about her plans to go back. Her Mother was visibly upset but understood what must be done. Souta stormed off to his room vowing never to talk to her again if she left. Ji-chan didn't say a word but she could see the sadness in his eyes. Remembering what her Mother had said. “Kagome, don't worry about your brother. We know this is something that you need to do. He is just worried about you. We all are.” Kagome smiled, she had a wonderfully family.
She was so lucky to have such an understanding and loving family. “What other parents would let their only daughter go through a well that took her back 500 years in the past to fight demons for a stupid jewel” Kagome said laughing as water streamed over her face. Finishing up in the shower, Kagome heard her Mother outside the door telling her that breakfast is ready.
Breakfast……she was leaving after breakfast. Kagome had packed what she would need for the trip last night. She didn't tell them that she may not be back for quite some time or not at all. If her Mother and Grandfather knew that she might not be back, they wouldn't let her go at all. They were understanding but they were that way because they believed that she would always come back to them. They would ban her from the well or even go so far as to destroy it if they knew the truth.
It's her destiny and she must go. `Destiny' Kagome thought as she got dressed `I'm beginning to hate that word the more I think it or even hear it.'
Wearing a pair of jeans and a simple blue t-shirt, Kagome pulled her hair up into a high ponytail. Even in its current position, her hair still reached down past her waist in waves. Looking at herself in the mirror, she still couldn't believe it was her that she was seeing. She looked so much older now but yet the same.
Wearing a pair of jeans and a simple blue t-shirt, Kagome pulled her hair up into a high ponytail. Even in its current position, her hair still reached down past her waist in waves. Looking at herself in the mirror, she still couldn't believe it was her that she was seeing. She looked so much older now but yet the same.
Where she was training, mirrors were not allowed. Her Sensei's reason was that vanity was a weakness when improving ones self. She remembered the first time trying to put her hair in a ponytail without a mirror. Needless to say, she had perfected the “messy bun” look.
Her once childlike face has lost the baby fat showing a slender face of a young woman. Her eyes are still the same sapphire blue but now hold a look of knowledge instead of innocents that was once there. Kagome knows she has grown both physically and mentally. She is still pure of heart to all but her aura of innocents is gone. `Heart of a saint but a body of a whore.' Was the thought that popped into her mind as she thought of her aura.
Her once childlike face has lost the baby fat showing a slender face of a young woman. Her eyes are still the same sapphire blue but now hold a look of knowledge instead of innocents that was once there. Kagome knows she has grown both physically and mentally. She is still pure of heart to all but her aura of innocents is gone. `Heart of a saint but a body of a whore.' Was the thought that popped into her mind as she thought of her aura.
“I'm too hard on myself” she said to herself as she continued to assess herself in the mirror.
Her body was no longer the under-developed teenager shape but looked more like Sango's, a body that has been trained to be a weapon all on its own. Long toned legs, tight stomach, slender strong arms, her body was fit for anything. She had lost the clumsy awkward look. Sango would be proud.
Her body was no longer the under-developed teenager shape but looked more like Sango's, a body that has been trained to be a weapon all on its own. Long toned legs, tight stomach, slender strong arms, her body was fit for anything. She had lost the clumsy awkward look. Sango would be proud.
Kagome closed her eyes as the pin prick of tears was felt at the thought of her sister like figure. “No, Kagome, you will not cry. To cry shows weakness. You must be strong to complete your task.” She scolded herself opening her eyes once more to her image in the mirror. “You will see her and the others soon enough, anyway.”
As Kagome made her way down to the kitchen, with eyes hardening against the tears that wanted to be released, she thought of her old friends. Just thinking of her old companions was almost enough to break down the carefully constructed walls that she has built up over the last two years. Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Koga, and Keade, they will always be a soft spot in her heart. She has missed them dearly since she has been back in her own time. She only hoped that they were okay and didn't hate her for leaving. She never told them goodbye. She just ran like the stupid, naïve, childish teenager that she was.
As Kagome made her way down to the kitchen, with eyes hardening against the tears that wanted to be released, she thought of her old friends. Just thinking of her old companions was almost enough to break down the carefully constructed walls that she has built up over the last two years. Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Koga, and Keade, they will always be a soft spot in her heart. She has missed them dearly since she has been back in her own time. She only hoped that they were okay and didn't hate her for leaving. She never told them goodbye. She just ran like the stupid, naïve, childish teenager that she was.
She will never run again, not now not ever; she thought as a scowl took over her face.
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Kagome sat in her room going over everything that she needed making sure that she didn't forget anything. Thinking back on her family at breakfast she sighed, it was a solemn event. They acted like she had already gone and died on them. Nobody but her ate their breakfast. Souta kept a scowl on his face and avoided any eye contact throughout the ordeal. Her Mother rearranged the food on her plate so many times that Kagome finally had to take the plate away. And Ji-chan, he just sat there looking into his tea cup not saying a word.
Kagome sat in her room going over everything that she needed making sure that she didn't forget anything. Thinking back on her family at breakfast she sighed, it was a solemn event. They acted like she had already gone and died on them. Nobody but her ate their breakfast. Souta kept a scowl on his face and avoided any eye contact throughout the ordeal. Her Mother rearranged the food on her plate so many times that Kagome finally had to take the plate away. And Ji-chan, he just sat there looking into his tea cup not saying a word.
She knows that they are all worrying about her but they should be happy for her. Shouldn't they? She is finally standing up for herself and finishing something very important on her own. What they don't know won't hurt them; at least too much. They will move on with their lives once she is gone.
Getting up from her bed, Kagome swung a blue and black backpack over her shoulders. Attached to the backpack was a quiver full of arrows that she had made while training. Along with her backpack, she swung her bow over her left shoulder for easy access. On her hip hung a katana that was given to her from her Sensei when she finished her training.
Getting up from her bed, Kagome swung a blue and black backpack over her shoulders. Attached to the backpack was a quiver full of arrows that she had made while training. Along with her backpack, she swung her bow over her left shoulder for easy access. On her hip hung a katana that was given to her from her Sensei when she finished her training.
Walking to her bedroom door, she turned around to look at her room once more. Thinking to herself `Kami, if I ever return, I have to change the color of this room. It is just too….pink.' Kagome shut her room door for what she thought was the last time.
She made her way through the house and out to the Shrine courtyard. She wondered why her family was not around to see her off. Her question was answered as she approached the well house. They were already there waiting for her. Her Mother had a forced smile on her face as well as Ji-chan. Souta looked so solemn with his down-cast eyes and a frown that hung on his face.
She made her way through the house and out to the Shrine courtyard. She wondered why her family was not around to see her off. Her question was answered as she approached the well house. They were already there waiting for her. Her Mother had a forced smile on her face as well as Ji-chan. Souta looked so solemn with his down-cast eyes and a frown that hung on his face.
Once he looked at her, he started crying.
“Shhhh, Souta....don`t cry. Don't cry for me. Everything will be okay, you'll see.” Kagome said as she brought him into her embrace. “You have to be strong for Mom and Ji-chan while I'm gone. Can you do that for me?”
Pulling away from her and wiping away the tears, Souta nodded his head agreeing to be strong. He was after all a teenager now.
Looking away from her brother to her Mother and Grandfather “I must be going now. I don't want to hurt you much longer with this goodbye.” With that said Kagome let go of Souta and gave her Mother and Grandfather a hug goodbye.
Walking past her family and into the well house, Kagome fought with own eyes to keep the tears at bay. She hated to see them hurting and it was her fault that they were. But she must remain strong if she was going to survive this. As she reach the bottom of the stairs that lead down to the well, her Grandfather came shuffling down behind her.
Laying a hand on her shoulder, he spoke “Kagome, I know that you may not be back.” Startled, Kagome whirled around to face Ji-chan “How do you know, Ji-chan? I haven't told any one my fear of not returning.”
Smiling at his Granddaughter “You forget, Kagome, I am a keeper of an ancient Shrine and all of its artifacts. I found some scrolls while you were gone that told of your mission. I know what you are about to face and I'm very proud of you. The only advice that I can give you is that you must follow your heart and be strong. I love you, Granddaughter.”
”Scrolls?” asked Kagome. “There are scrolls that tell of my adventures on the other side of the well here at the Shrine? Why have you never told me of them? What do they say?”
“Shhhh, Souta....don`t cry. Don't cry for me. Everything will be okay, you'll see.” Kagome said as she brought him into her embrace. “You have to be strong for Mom and Ji-chan while I'm gone. Can you do that for me?”
Pulling away from her and wiping away the tears, Souta nodded his head agreeing to be strong. He was after all a teenager now.
Looking away from her brother to her Mother and Grandfather “I must be going now. I don't want to hurt you much longer with this goodbye.” With that said Kagome let go of Souta and gave her Mother and Grandfather a hug goodbye.
Walking past her family and into the well house, Kagome fought with own eyes to keep the tears at bay. She hated to see them hurting and it was her fault that they were. But she must remain strong if she was going to survive this. As she reach the bottom of the stairs that lead down to the well, her Grandfather came shuffling down behind her.
Laying a hand on her shoulder, he spoke “Kagome, I know that you may not be back.” Startled, Kagome whirled around to face Ji-chan “How do you know, Ji-chan? I haven't told any one my fear of not returning.”
Smiling at his Granddaughter “You forget, Kagome, I am a keeper of an ancient Shrine and all of its artifacts. I found some scrolls while you were gone that told of your mission. I know what you are about to face and I'm very proud of you. The only advice that I can give you is that you must follow your heart and be strong. I love you, Granddaughter.”
”Scrolls?” asked Kagome. “There are scrolls that tell of my adventures on the other side of the well here at the Shrine? Why have you never told me of them? What do they say?”
Ji-chan just stood there with a slight smile on his face while Kagome shoot off her questions. “I cannot tell you what the scrolls hold or there will be dire consequences. You must trust me when I tell you that you must follow your heart and be strong. Just trust yourself.” Was his answer to her questions.
After one last hug with her Grandfather, Kagome squared her shoulders and turned to face the well once again. Not letting any thoughts of him or what happened last time she was there, Kagome took a deep breathe. Placing one knee on the top of the well and swinging her other leg over the lip, Kagome gracefully fell down the well instantly being caught by the caressing blue light that will deliver her safely to the other side of time.
Please review so I know whether or not to continue with this story at all, Thank you.