InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lessons ❯ Lessons ( Chapter 1 )

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This has Lemony Content if you're not old enough to read it then don't. It contains swearing and explicit and non consensual situations o_0 NC-17 just to be safe. Told in both Kagome and Inu Yasha's Points Of View. COMPLETE, I am considering extending it longer, but it will probably depend on the reviews. I have not read any stories like this. PLEASE DON'T PLAGERISE, I'M HAPPY TO SHARE, JUST ASK ME FIRST ^_^.
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Lessons

Kagome's POV

I remember the first time Inu Yasha took me. Ages ago it seems; blood, claws, fangs, followed by; pain, humiliation, rage and the deafening shatter of my heart. I love him, despite of what he has done to me and that is the biggest problem. My mind is in constant war with my heart. I thank all the gods I can think of that I started taking birth control pills a few months before. I have no idea what I would do, if I was pregnant at 18, un-married, and still traveling back and forth from the past searching for the shards of the Shinkon no tama. I am so stupid, how can I possibly be in love with a selfish, son of a bitch, half dog demon? I can't live like this; this dirty secret is killing me.

Inu Yasha's POV

What else was I suppose to do? I would not lose the bitch I've been protecting for almost three years. Not to Kouga, Hojo, or any other male that has been sniffing around. Kagome is mine! She has been mine from the beginning. I thought being my mate would make her happy, Kagome told me she would stay by my side no matter what happened. What else could that girl possibly need? I protect her, provide for her, and have made her my mate. I chose her over Kikiyo. I don't know what she is so upset about.

Kagome's POV

At first, I tried staying closer to the other members of the group; Inu Yasha was less inclined to come for me if they were near. But I couldn't avoid solitude forever, and every time I was alone he would take me. Most of the time, my underwear was the only clothing Inu Yasha would remove or just simply move aside. I want to laugh, how pathetic is it that I have had a mate for almost a month and I have still never seen Inu Yasha naked, or even been kissed on the mouth? The skin along my hips and along my neck is a mosaic of scars, fortunately still hidden by my uniform, but I won't ever be able to wear a bathing suit in public again. I have quit fighting him, and sitting him never deters his voracious appetite. Sango is getting suspicious I'm sure. I have had to stop taking baths with her. I keep my perfect façade of happiness in place, but can't look any of them in the eye.

After our last battle, Miroku had used one of his ofuda to immobilize a large bat youkai. It seemed almost cruel to pin this monster down before we killed it, but all in the name of shard collecting right? Anyway, an idea came to my mind on how I could restrain Inu Yasha without having to use the subduing spell. Don't get me wrong, I have though long and hard about the repercussions of trapping and purposely hurting an extremely temperamental half dog demon. I have even prepared myself for the likelihood that he will kill me, but I must do this for the sake of my own soul.

I will go home on Friday, knowing that my family will be gone for the weekend. I have the ofuda in my bag, and getting those out of Miroku was not an easy task, I swear I don't think my face has ever been that red. We headed back to Kaede's village; the excuse of needing more supplies always works. Inu Yasha put in a weak attempt at arguing, that we were wasting time, but I know better. He will follow me through the well as soon as he thinks no one is watching, and I should have enough time to get ready for the events to come. I almost feel sorry for Inu Yasha, he has no idea of what's in store for him, then the soreness of my body reminds me and the evil smirk that covers my face goes unnoticed and I start to hum happily.

Inu Yasha's POV

I pretend that I'm pissed off at Kagome for wanting to return to village already, and for appearance sake I start an argument on how we are wasting time and need to keep moving. I know Kagome doesn't buy my act, but she goes through the motions anyway. The rest of our little band is glad for the break, so they roll their eyes at me and keep moving. I hear Kagome start to hum, and I try to keep my scowl in place but the corners of my mouth start to turn upwards and I begin to picture how I'll get to spend some private time with my mate.

Kagome's POV

After resting and talking with Kaede for a while, I pick up my pack and start heading towards the well. Leaving Sango and Miroku in the village, Shippo accompanies me along with Inu Yasha. Shippo always whines a bit when I go, but I always promise to bring him something from my time and he is instantly happy. Inu Yasha gives me a heated glare but says nothing. Finally, back in my room; the one place where I thought I could forget all my problems, wrapped in the softness of my blanket, I think of the days of my innocent fantasies. Where Inu Yasha would love me, hold my hand, kiss me softly and be the Price Charming I always longed for. The hot tears that slide down my face strengthen my resolve. Inu Yasha will know the pain I feel.

It has been over two hours, the worry shows on my lip as I chew on it restlessly. Maybe he won't come; maybe something has happened to him. I keep filing my nails into sharp points, I know that they are nothing like the talons that Inu Yasha has, but hopefully they are sharp enough to break the skin. Then I feel it, the shiver that runs the length of my spine when ever he comes near. My awareness of him is purely instinctual; I press myself against the wall with the ofuda in my hands. I strain my ears for the sound of Inu Yasha's nails on the window sill; he is trying to be sneaky. The window slides open with barely a whisper and he begins to climb in. As soon as the bulk of his body is through the window I let the subduing word spill from my mouth. !!Osarui!!

Inu Yasha's POV

That Bitch! That stupid dam bitch! Here I am trying to spend some time with my mate and the first thing Kagome does is slam my head to the ground. I can smell her fear and I snarl. I can't think of anything I have done to deserve this and I can't figure out why Kagome is afraid. My confusion makes me even angrier, and I growl and curse at her. Kagome is kneeling in front of me and she has put something on my wrists. The lingering scent of Miroku enters my nose and my wrists start to burn slightly. What the hell is this bitch doing? The subduing spell is wearing off, but I still can't get up. Then I realize what Kagome has done, that bitch has pinned me to the floor with Miroku's ofuda.

Kagome's POV

Holy Shit! I can't believe I did it. I have Inu Yasha pinned to the floor and he can't move. His growling and swearing has gotten so loud that I can't take it anymore and I seal his mouth as well. The rage is coming off of Inu Yasha in waves, and the smell of my fear is so strong that even I can smell it. I sit back and try to calm my racing heart. I can see that Inu Yasha is trying to look up at me from his position on the floor, but I don't want to look into those eyes so I get up and move to his side. I grab a glass of water off the desk and take a few sips, my throat is unbelievably dry. Biting my lip, I slip my hands under his waist and loosen the knots that hold his hakama in place. I pull off his pants; I was a little surprised that he was not wearing anything underneath. Moving the tetussigia out of the way, I push the haroi and under kimono up toward his shoulders and look at his nakedness. Inu Yasha'a skin is absolutely flawless and there is soft white hair covering his legs. I push his thighs apart and kneel in between them, I noticed that his breathing has gotten shallower and the growling has lowered in pitch. I reach over and grab an old hairbrush and thrust the handle end into his opening as deep as I can, raking my `claws' over his hips, surprised that a few actually draw blood, then I lean over to his ear and whisper…

How do you like it you fucking bastard?!

Inu Yasha's POV

When Kagome began to undo my pants, I have to admit I got excited. My anger subsiding as she slipped off my pants and pushed my haroi up my back, so I lowered the pitch of my growling but I can't help myself when I start panting. I still don't like being pinned to the floor like this, but I lose my train of thought as she spreads my legs and kneels in between them. All of a sudden something hard is shoved up into me and I feel sharp nails claw my hips. The pain is instant and unbelievable, that bitch is in so much trouble it's going to take a week for her to recover! I almost choke on the smell of my own blood, I howl and squirm, then I feel her breath against my ear and she whispers,

"How do you like it you fucking bastard?!"

My mind goes completely blank and all my growls of protest die immediately in my throat. Kagome's words keep replaying in my brain; I lower my forehead to the floor and start to whimper. I'm trying not to cry, but I can feel the wetness on my cheeks. I am a fucking bastard. All this time I have been hurting my mate, my Kagome. How could I have been so blind to the pain I am inflicting on her? I feel as if my heart has collapsed. Oh Gods I want to die.

Kagome's POV

I felt immediate elation that my plan had succeeded, then as Inu Yasha began to whimper I began to feel even more guilt. I have stooped low, debased myself with my petty revenge and hurt the man I love. I think back to the first time Inu Yasha took me, sobbing at the rivers edge as I washed the blood away, He had a confused look on his face, but did not offer me any comfort. Now that I have done this, I guess I should have tried talking to him more. I can't hold him entirely responsible, how is he supposed to know anything about foreplay? Inu Yasha has been own his own since he was a child, and animals and demons rutting in the woods is no where near the expectations of an 18 year old human female in love. I know that Inu Yasha is smarter than he lets on. He can learn how to bring us both pleasure when we mate. We'll start from scratch, that is, if he doesn't kill me when I release him.

I have to get away for a little while. I remove the brush but nothing else. Throwing the brush in the trash, I leave my bedroom and walk slowly to the bathroom. I can still hear Inu Yasha whimpering through the door as I wash my hands and face. Finally I look into my eyes; the mirror holds the reflection of innocence lost. The harsh reality crashes down on me. I crumble to the floor and sob. I cry for myself, for the pain I have received, the pain I've caused, and how we will never be the same.

Inu Yasha's POV

Kagome removed the object from me but hasn't spoken to me. I can hear her sobbing in the bathroom and it makes me sick to my stomach. I have ruined Kagome, my beautiful, sweet mate. The pain I felt, is that what it's like for her? I hate myself even more. I bite my tongue until blood fills my mouth, I bite my lip until it's almost punctured, I press my claws into my hands until I feel the moisture. I can't bring myself enough pain in this position, I deserve more. Being pinned to a tree, with an arrow through my chest did not even hurt as much as this does. I am a monster and I deserve to die.

Kagome's POV

I woke up on the bathroom floor; emotionally and physically exhausted. My body is cold and cramped, but I want to sleep more. I creep into my bedroom trying not to draw Inu Yasha's attention. A soft whine brings my eyes to his and I see such pain and regret in them. I lay down next to Inu Yasha, remove the ofuda from his mouth and gently scratch behind his ears. After an eternity of silence seems to pass and I open my mouth to speak, but what can I say?

"I'm sorry Inu Yasha."

I notice the blood on his lips and on his hands and I feel the flood of tears racing out of me.

"I know you are furious with me, and I am prepared to receive punishment. I just want you to know that I still love you."

I pull the comforter off my bed, pull my clothes off. Laying the blanket on the floor, I roll over and remove the ofuda from his wrists. Closing my eyes, I tip my head back and wait for Inu Yasha to strike.

Inu Yasha's POV

I sit up and stretch, licking the blood off my hands and lip, the holes already mended. I look down at this astonishing creature next to me. I can not believe this girl. She has released me and waits quietly for me to kill her. There is no longer fear in her scent, only sorrow. At first, I could feel my demon blood demanding that she be punished, but I could never kill my own mate. I slide my haori off and reach over to Kagome; she tenses but doesn't open her eyes. I pull her into my lap and cradle her in my arms. I stroke her hair and breathe in her gentle scent. Those perfect eyes finally open and gaze into mine, holding her closer to me; I tell her how sorry I am for hurting her, for not understanding and for not being a good mate to her. Her arm snakes around my neck and she pushes her nose into my throat. I need to get cleaned up so I pick her up and head toward the bathroom. I set Kagome down and wash my hands.

"Inu Yasha I want to show you something."

Kagome slides behind me so I can look at us both in the mirror, she is slightly to my right and she begins stroking my cock. I'm surprised at first, and then I realize that I have never looked into her eyes when I mate with her. I lower my head in shame.

"Look at us Inu Yasha. Is what I'm doing giving you pleasure?"

How could she not know how amazing it feels having her touch me, every inch of me is screaming to take her, but suppress my desire and nod my head at her question,

"What about my pleasure Inu Yasha?"

I look deep into her eyes and I can't bear to see the pain there. I pull her hands away from my body and sink to my knees. I hang my head in total dejection. Kagome sinks down to me and hugs me tightly. I whimper into her neck as I wrap my arms around her.

"Kagome, I don't know how to be with you the way you want me to be. If you don't want to be my mate anymore, I wouldn't blame you."

Kagome's POV

Why does love have to hurt so much? I shed many tears trying to convince myself to just leave Inu Yasha, but I can't do it. I love him, and I know in my heart I will never want another. I have to fix this; I know I can make this better. I have fought so long that I don't know what it is to fail, well other than that blasted algebra, but that old nemesis is another story. I will be an adult, I will heal us both with love, and I will stand beside my mate through this crisis and any crisis that presents itself to us. I kneel down in front of Inu Yasha and pull him close to me.

I know he is afraid to touch me. Inu Yasha has always felt unworthy of love, and the realization of hurting me has cut him to the core. I slowly weave my hands through his beautiful silver hair in search of those sweet puppy ears and begin to rub them softly. Inu Yasha tries to pull away from me, berating him self for feeling pleasure instead of shame; I just hold him tighter, begging him stay with me. He returns my plea, ashamed of his need for help. His arms wind around the small of my back, molding himself to me and he begins to growl softly. Actually I suppose it is more like purring, and it sends an odd sensation through me. It makes me smile, how my dog demon sounds more like my cat Buyo.

Inu Yasha's POV

I don't know what to do. Seeing the scars I have put on her body will be an eternal reminder of my vicious lust. I beg her to help me; Kagome seems to be soothed by my purring, so I just hold her tighter waiting for her to make the first move. Kagome unfortunately removes her hands from my ears and starts pushing my shoulders away from her. I begin to understand that she is just pushing me towards the floor, so I move my legs out of the way and lay on the soft carpet. I want to see what she is doing but she asks me to close my eyes and use my other senses to tell her how she makes me feel. I feel her nails on my chest and I can't help but hold my breath. Expecting pain from them like before, I am relieved that the pressure is light and causing a tingling sensation to run the length of my body. The breath I am holding comes out with enough force to leave me lightheaded. Kagome continues exploring my body with these light caresses and my ears twitch to catch her breathy sighs. Her legs straddle my hips and she touches her mouth to mine. I brief flash of Kikiyo enters my mind. I remember her putting her mouth to mine right before she tried to pull me into hell. My eyes snap open and I look into her eyes. Kagome gives me a soft smile and rubs her nose against mine. She closes her eyes and presses her mouth to mine once again. Her lips are warm and soft, so much different than those of Kikiyo. I relax against her when her tongue slides out and moistens my lips. A moan escapes me and she pushes her tongue into my mouth searching for mine and coaxing my tongue to mimic hers. I begin to follow her movements almost shyly, and I can't help but feel the blood rush to my cheeks and other various parts of my anatomy.

Kagome grabs my hands and places them on her breasts. I don't want to scratch her so I use the palms of my hands to press against her warm flesh. My ears twitch with the sounds of our mouths mating and the sighs and moans that are coming from both of us. My nose picks up the change in her scent. I can no longer smell the sorrow on her; I am excited by the smell of arousal. Not just my own, but my mates as well. I am becoming more and more frantic, my instincts are demanding that we mate, but I know if I don't suppress my urge to thrust into her I will ruin everything. Growling deep in my throat I release my control to Kagome. I will let her lead us to whatever ends she sees fit, and the realization of being led so blindly scares me to death.

Kagome's POV

My first real kiss! It began slightly awkward but was still as intense as I hoped it would be. I can sense his fear and it is only a little less than my own. This uncharted territory is daunting but exhilarating as well. I break the kiss, gasping for air and begin to move down his body. Spending enough time to leave my mark on his neck, I continue south, nipping down his chest; giving ample attention to his nipples, I watch his face for his reactions. I smile against his skin as a low growling begins in his chest. His hands clench and unclench in time with the movements of my tongue. The rosary slides up and covers my mark when his chin tips up slightly. I never realized how arousing it could be to pleasure someone else, so I continue my mission, determined to make my mate climax using just my hands and mouth. I begin stroking Inu Yasha's hard cock; I revel in the fact that I am capable of turning my proud hanyou into a quivering mess.

My tongue darts out and licks the top of his arousal. I pause briefly as Inu Yasha chokes and gasps; his eyes glossy with desire as he looks down at me. Holding his stare I lick him again, the moan shakes his frame and his head hits the floor once more. I press my arm across his hip, just in case he tries to thrust up into me. Enclosing the tip in my mouth, I slowly descend on his shaft. I take in as much as I can and use my hand to hold the base of his cock steady. I set a pace that is comfortable and continue to roll my tongue over him. I hear Inu Yasha panting and I know that he is close to release. Preparing myself to be filled with his seed, I take him a little deeper and graze my teeth against him. I hear Inu Yasha cry out in an almost strangled moan as he peaks. The taste is strange but not bad. I swallow attentively, lick my lips and gaze up at him.

Inu Yasha's POV

I can't believe Kagome just did that! That was the most intense thing that has ever happened to me. My head is swimming as I try to focus on her beautiful face. She gives me a shy little smile that matches the blush on her cheeks perfectly. She stands and reaches out for my hand and leads us to the shower. I nuzzle against her back as she adjusts the water temperature; satisfied, we climb into the shower. I flatten my ears when she pushes me underneath the falling water, switching places in the stall, Kagome then begins washing my hair. I rinse and she applies a second solution. This one is thicker than the first and she calls it con-diton-er, and she starts rubbing my ears again. Kagome then grabs the soap and a small cloth and begins to wash my body. I bite my lip as I watch her, hoping that she will let me wash her as well. Kagome hands me the soap and cloth while she starts putting some stuff in her hair. I look at my claws and then look back her with apprehension. Her smile and nod, give me courage to wash her gently. I spread my fingers out as far as I can in order to keep my claws off her skin, but Kagome presses my claws to her skin and began to move them.

"I don't mind your claws on my skin Inu Yasha."

My hands brush along the scars on her body, looking into her eyes I know she can see my hesitation, but the look of complete love and trust shine back from her eyes and I proceed to wash my mate, stopping every few minutes to place my lips to the newly cleaned skin.

Kagome's POV

Freshly washed and warm I step close to Inu Yasha and hold him tightly to me. I think this is probably the longest and most exhilarating shower I've ever had. I feel soft and sleepy, so after kissing him for a few more minutes, I shut off the water and we step out of the shower. I reach over and grab a few towels; I can feel Inu Yasha watching me. I look into those golden depths as I begin to dry his body. After drying his hair as much as I could, I wrap the towel around Inu Yasha's waist and stand before him. He begins drying me off in the same fashion, pausing every few minutes to sniff or kiss my skin. I know he appreciates the fact that I stopped using a lot of the heavy scented products I used to. The memory of his sneezing fit due to the hairspray and perfume I wore one day brings a small smile to my face. Inu Yasha catches my smile and gives me a smile back. Wrapping the towel around my shoulders, he scoops me up and he head back towards my bedroom. Pulling the towel away from me and dropping it unceremoniously on the floor, he places me in the center of my bed. I try not to stare so obviously at his naked body when his towel hits the floor, and he playfully growls at my blushes.

Inu Yasha climbs over me carefully and straddles my hips. His silver hair brushes against me, like a beautiful silver curtain, and it causes goose bumps to appear on my skin. Using the same technique I used in the bathroom, he slowly kisses my mouth until I'm panting. Inu Yasha then begins kissing along my jaw to my neck and chest. Brushing his claws against my skin makes me gasp, and he looks up at me with concern. A large smile spreads across my face and Inu Yasha smiles back at me. He continues on his mission south settling between my thighs. When his warm tongue began to lap between my legs, I can't help but buck my hips. Inu Yasha growls at me and presses my hips firmly to the bed. He dips his head again and with almost agonizing slow strokes begins to build this amazing pressure. My moans are loud in my ears and my whole body is tense with anticipation.

Inu Yasha's POV

I can't believe how delicious Kagome is. Everything about her is saturating my senses. I seem to be doing ok, the scent, taste and sounds that she is making is enough to drive me wild. I can feel my cock straining against the bed with need but I continue to lap at her. I can't believe how much better mating with her has become in just a short while. The thought of losing her without ever experiencing these sensations is enough to keep me between her thighs for days. I am so thankful that Kagome still wants to be my mate. I can't believe how lucky I am to have this fantastic girl. Kagome suddenly tenses and cries out my name, and my mouth is filled with more of her sweetness. I just hope Kagome can keep up with me, now that I have had her like this, I don't ever want to stop.

Kagome's POV

The stars begin to clear from my sight, but I can still feel my self panting. My heartbeat in a drum in my head, and the whole rest of my body is humming with pleasure. Inu Yasha continues to lick at my thighs and my core, until I can't take anymore. I press on his head slightly and he kneels up licking his fingers and lips. I can't help the head splitting grin that has etched its way across my face and still it is nothing compared to the one on my mate. Inu Yasha sits back on his heels and waits for the next phase. I hold my hand out and beckon him closer. Inu Yasha crawls up my body with the grace of a jungle cat, causing me to shiver. I kiss him with as much strength and passion that I have in me, and he is responding perfectly. I'm ready to feel him inside me and I wrap my legs around his hips and pull him closer to my opening.

"What are we doing Kagome?"

"I want to mate now Inu Yasha."

He begins to move to the side of me, and pulls on my hip trying to get me to roll over. It took me a second to figure out what he was doing then I stopped him.

"No, Inu Yasha I want to see your face when we mate."

I can see the confusion in his face, and the waging or war with his instincts. His instincts tell him what to do, but I'm asking for something different.

Inu Yasha's POV

How can we mate if Kagome doesn't turn around, I know that I have to be behind her. Maybe she is just being stubborn, or is she just making fun of me? No, stop it, this is Kagome, she loves me and wants me to mate with her. I guess I just have never seen anything like that; well this whole experience is brand new. I don't want to sound stupid, but I don't want to stop and upset her either. Cursing my sudden shyness I tell her.

"I've never seen it done like that before Kagome,

I don't think we can mate face to face."

Kagome just smiles and brings my head back down to her lips. Kissing her slowly while she maneuvers my legs back in between hers, I can feel those little claws of hers pulling my hips down. My whole body freezes when the head of my cock comes in contact with that hot wetness. My eyes lock with hers and she wraps her legs around me and draws me in. I slide in to the hilt and the sensation causes my entire body to shudder with delight. We both gasp at the feeling and she pushes and pulls on my hips trying to start a rhythm. The last thread of my control snaps and I thrust into her warm little body. This position feels awkward at first, so I spread my feet a bit so I can proportion my weight more evenly and not crush her. Kagome's high breathy gasps urge me onward and when those hands start rubbing my ears I think I must have died and gone to heaven. Granted this position is more energy consuming then mounting from behind, but having this goddess writhing and shuddering in ecstasy under me is well worth it.

Kagome's POV

At last, we are finally making love. In between kisses and nibbles I try to keep my eyes open for Inu Yasha, I want to look into those wells of golden light when he fills me with his seed. It's almost surreal how quickly we have progressed in intimacy and love. A warmth spreads through my chest as my soul begins to heal, and I have never felt so happy in my life.

Inu Yasha's POV

I think Kagome is getting close to climax. I can feel her muscles gripping me and it makes me thrust harder into her. I want to release when she does, I want to hear her cry out my name again. My eye lids feel so heavy but I keep them open, in between the kisses and nips to her lips and neck, I feel so loved when our eyes lock. I don't think I can hold out much longer, we're both panting and grunting, I am so lost in the euphoria that I don't realize my teeth are gripping the juncture of her neck. Kagome nearly screams my name as her climax rips through her, bringing me along, and as the first pulse of my seed pumps into her, the taste of her blood fills my mouth. After my orgasm passes I begin to panic. I bit her, drew blood and left another scar to join the group. I release her neck quickly and look into her eyes.

"Kagome, I'm sorry, I didn't mean…"

"It's ok mate" she whispers to me

I begin to protest again and she silences me with a kiss. I begin to lick her neck again to apologize and she draws slow lazily circles on my back. I hold Kagome as tight as I can, rubbing her neck and face with my cheek, I purr for her. When she smiles, I calm down a little more and pull away from her. I move behind her and pull her to my chest and continue purring. Only shifting slightly so that her head is resting on my arm, I wait until her breathing slows. I know things will be much better between us, I'm being a good mate and I know Kagome will never leave me.

"I love you Kagome."

"I love you to, Inu Yasha."