InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Life As It Is... ❯ So Hard to Say "Sorry" ... ( Chapter 5 )

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Life as it is…-Chapter 5 – So Hard to Say "Sorry" ...


The following week was all about silence. Sango and Ayame said nothing to Kagome about what happened that day at the mall, they knew that more than anything, Kagome was hurt. They could tell by her eyes. It was true. Kagome was hurt. She didn't understand why InuYasha was so cruel to her. What had she done to him to deserve such cruelty. To embarasser in front of her two best friend and hundreds of strangers. That's why ever since that day she couldn't bring herself to look in his eye. They were full of pride and smugness. No remorse or anything. That's how she knew that the incident was no accident. InuYasha tried to get her to look at him, but she wouldn't. Their tutor sessions had been reduced to silent question solving. Kagome didn't dare ask any questions. Sure, this wasn't going to help her marks, but she didn't want to utter a word to him. He didn't deserve her words, much less she deserved his cruelty. It was a viscious circle.

Finally, the day of the Halloween dance arrived.

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My Halloween costume that I was forced upon that dreadful day at the mall hadn't left its' bag since. I still didn't know what it looked like, neither how it looked on me, just the awed faces of my two best friends assured me it was perfect.

The dance started at 8pm. I guess it was to give it a more dramatic effect to have the dance after the sun was long gone, giving an eerie inky black night.

Even though I was actually excited about the dance because that's all Ayame and Sango spoke about, I wasn't excited for who I had to see after school again before the dance. This dampened my high spirit.

I sighed to myself as I walked in between Ayame and Sango. It was already lunch time and we were heading to the cafeteria for some food.

"I'm so exceited about tonight, I can barely contain myself," Ayame squealed.

"I know, I'm looking forward to that haunted house, apparently they have some sort of special line for the entrance, or so I hear," Sango said.

I merely smiled and nodded, listening to them chatter back and forth abouth the party tonight.

I wonder in he's going...

"Kagome?"

I blinked and looked over to my friends concerned faces.

"Yeah?"

Sango and Ayame exchanged looks, as if they were planning on saying whatever they were about to say to me for a while.

"Are you ok?" Sango started slowly.

"Yeah, we've noticed that you've been acting kind of weird lately. I mean, your not always they brightest person, but you've never looked this bad before," Ayame quickly continued.

Sango looked and Ayame nodding and then back to me, "You haven't smiled geniunely since, well... you know." I could tell she was hesitanting and I knew exactly what she was going to say.

I merely sighed and looked down to my feet, "I'm sorry guys. I don't meanto bring you guys down with me, it's just-" Sango cut me off.

"Your tutor is a complete inconsiderate asshole-

"That cares for no one but himself." Ayame finished after she cut Sango off.

I couldn't help but give a small grin at this. It was true, and it made me feel better to hear someone else but me say it.

"Don't worry about me, I'm sure that once I get to the dance, I'll be having to much fun to even think about him. Hell, I'll even give the haunted house a go," I said triumphantly.

"Now that's my Kagome!" Sango said and threw an arm around my shoulders giving me a side hug.

"Hey, and don't foget about the fact that our seniors dance is being combined with the other local high school," Ayame said, and then a mystery glint came to her eyes, "and you know what that means?"

I shook my head a bit confused, "No... What?"

"Guys. Hot guys. That school is full of them, you'll have so many around you that you won't even spare I thought to that asshole of a tutor."

I smiled at this, "That's exactly what I needed to hear."

"And!"

Ayame and I looked to Sango expectantly.

"I heard that they have a great band from that school and they'll be performing live."

Ayame and I held each other up at this announcement. Band guys are the hottest around, oh, this was definitely starting to sound like it was going to be fun. Now if only I could survive the tutor session I have after school... That would be great.


-----InuYasha POV


I sighed again for the hundredth time. I was waiting for Kagome by my car. Even what I did to her at the mall, she still showed up for her lessons, but she never laid her eyes on me. I would be lying if I said I didn't care, every time I would try, she would quickly turn away and go back to her questions that I set up for her, and each time it would make my heart clench.

I couldn't stand the uneasiness that settled between us that day. The feeling felt familiar and that's what scared me the most. I would give anynthing to at least yell at me, at least then I would know that there's still some sort of emotion in her towards me, even if it were to be anger, anything would make me happy.

But what I missed most, was her smile... I missed her smile so much that I ached to see it again.

My mingers ran through my hair and I lowered my head pulling at it, I swore to myself over and over again. I don't know why I reacted the way I did when I saw her. I didn't know that it would go that far.

"Ready?"

I quickly opened my eyes and shot to hers. She blinked and quickly looked away, so quick that I couldn't even read a trace of any sort of emotion from those bright blue eyes of hers. I haven't seen them in so long that I was beginning to forget what they looked lik-

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

I blinked a few times letting that loud thought sink in.

So what if she was mad at me, what did I care?

I didn't.

I didn't care if she hated my guts.

Yet deep down inside I did...

My heart strings pulled again and I simply nodded to Kagome and walked around my car to the drivers' seat. She followed suit, not saying another word.

The car ride to my house was the same as it always has been since that day at the mall. Tense. Kagome didn't say a word to me as we drove. I held in a sigh, not wanting Kagome to know just how much she was affecting my attitude and emotions.

We arrived at my house in no time flat. As kagome got out of the car, she looked over at her dad's house, she did this everytime she has come over, and every time her eyes are filled with sorrow when she looked over.

She followed me into the house in silence, no one was home as I called it. This was a first, Sesshomaru was always home around this time, strange. I looked over at Kagome, she wasn't even paying the slightest attention to me, but merely looking around my house, like she always did.

I sighed, "I guess it's just you and me today." No reply, she didn't even make the slightest twitch to let me know if she heard me at all. "Well, let's get started then." I said to her, ignoring the fact that she wasn't listenting.

I started up the stairs, and heard her following. She pretty much knew the whole house plan by now, but she didn't bother to ask if she could see the rest of it. She never complained either about the fact that I tutored her in my room, which a bed only inches away from where we sat on the floor. She was very trusting for some one she knew nothing about. Though, I am not that type of person. Just to set that record straight.

Kagome quickly sat in her usualy spot on the floor without a word to me, and began to take out her math book and problems that she was having trouble with. I sighed once again, and sat down across from her.

I tried once again to start a conversation, any thing would do, I just wanted to hear her, see that sparkle in her eyes that I longed to see for the past week.

"So, what are we having trouble with today?"

She hesitately a moment, and seemed to give in. I guess she decided that she really had no choice but to talk to me a bit for me to totur her throughoutly.

She took in a breath and opened her book, sifting through the pages, she put it down and pointed to a question, "This one. My teacher gave it to me for you to look at and try to explain it better for me to understand."

She spoke, but her eyes never landed on me, but rather any where but my face.

I shook my head and took her work book from and and quickly scanned over it, reading the problem. It wasn't that difficult. The funny thing about Kagome and her math questions was that she understood the more complicated ones easier than the simple straight forward ones. I quickly explained what she had to do to solve and let her get to work on it.

I laid there staring at the ceiling for about half an hour and yawned for the hundredth time. She was really slow and hadn't said a word since I put her to work, she didn't even ask if she was doing it right. She just sat there, concentrating, writing and erasing, over and over again. I was starting to feel bad for her paper she was working on. Soon it's just going to vanish.

Suddenly I heard her shuffle, but waving it aside as her getting more comfortable I continued staring at the ceiling. But the ceiling the vanished to be replaced by her copy book she was working out the problem in. I then noticed that she was kneeling over me and holding the copy book in my face.

"Is it right?" she simply asked.

I took the copy book from her, gently, to show that I wasn't trying to be mean, and was actually trying to be nice to her and somehow make up to her what I did to her in the mall. She didn't notice, but she didn't move either.

I held the copy book in front of me and read it. She started it out right, the first two lines for the solution were correct, by the rest was wrong because of one little mistake she did.

"Well, the first line is correct, and the second line is right as well, but you made a slight miscaculation in the third, so the rest is wrong..."

She quickly tore the copybook back from my grasp and read it over, "Where?"

My eye brow twitched and I grabbed it back, along with the pencil that was in her hand. "Here," I underlined it, and handed it back to her.

This time she didn't snatch it from my hand, but rather took it politely and looked at the equation once more. Her eyes widened, "Oh shit! I see what I did wrong."

I smiled. She didn't bother to go back to where she was sitting before, but merely crouched over and erased the poor paper again, and wrote out the third line along with the answer. Her face was covered by her long dark locks of hair. The scent easily reached my nose, jasmine. She smelled just as good as she looked.

I turned my attention back to the ceiling. Nope, nothing has changed up there. I sighed, and Kagome moved a bit and shoved the copy book in my face again. I chuckled softly and took it from her hand, brushing my slightly against hers. Her hand twitched and was quickly pulled away.

I read over the equation once more and smiled, "Yup, you got it."

She squealed, but then coughed and said, "Uhm... thanks."

Nodding, I handed her back the copy book, "So what's next."

She hesitated, but handed me her math book, "That one," she said pointing to the question.

It was pretty much the same as the last one, but with different wording. I explained it to her, the same way I explained the previous question and allowed her to get to work on it. Once again, she didn't move from her spot by my side, which made me smile.

How am I going to apologize to her, I thought to myself. I also had to some how get her to forgive me. It was so hard to say it. I wasn't that big of a deal, so why did she act like it was so personal. But then I admitted to myself that what I did was kind of assholish. I sighed as I glanced at her, concentrating so hard once more. Why was it so hard to say sorry to such a likeable girl?

Sometimes I wondered how I came to be this way. I knew a part of me liked Kagome in a sexual way and couldn't help but wonder what she felt like under my own body, what she tasted like... and yet another side of me liked her for just her. She was pretty, no... beautiful, so friendly and considerate. I liked the little things about her. Then, why was it so hard? I know when I first saw her by the pool, I just wanted her for her body, but now... now that I gotten to know her better... and want her for everything she can offer, I want all of her.

My eyes widened as this thought passed through my brain. Did I really just think that? It wasn't possible though, is it? I mean, I can't have fal- No! Of course I haven't. That... That's just crazy thinking, that is.

But then again...

I looked over to her by my side. Just the mere sight of her made my heart skip a beat and my stomach turn into knots.

Since when have I looked at her like this? I thought to myself.

She then looked at me with a smile on her face. I couldn't control what I did next.

----- Kagome POV

I looked to InuYasha smiling and he was looking back at me, but my smile faltered a bit when I saw that glint in his eyes, and not being able to read it put me off balance a bit.

InuYasha then grabbed my hand and pulled me on top of him, his eyes still glued to mine.

His eyes were full of passion, and it made my cheeks tinge, but other than that I really didn't know what to do. I was in a state of shock. My body told me to stay, but my brain was screaming at me to get off him, fight back. My heart remained silent, it too was confused. He wasn't holding my wrist tightly, but loosely and I could easily get away.

His hand moved away from my wrist and moved up my side, the other up my back. My heart lurched in my chest and was now beating so fast, that I couldn't hear anything but the beating of my racing heart.

I took a gasp of air, and started to say something, "Inu-"

His lips pressed against mine in a firm kiss. I panicked. What was happening? What was he doing? He then rubbed his hand up and down my back, his head lifted and his lips pressing against mine, waiting for a response. I slowly gave one, it just felt right. He was being so gentle and reassuring. I slowly pushed my own lips against his and kissed him back softly. Just that simple kiss, involving no tongue at all, made my head swirl and spin. It was really breath taking.

My lips then felt cold as he back away and looked up at me with his burning golden eyes. I pouted slightly at the loss of warmth, but he merely looked back at me and smiled as he stroked the side of my face.

"I'm sorry, Kagome."

I blinked a few times. His apology was so sincere that it tore at my heart.

"Inu-"

"I'm home! Anyone here?"

My eyes widened and I jumped off of him.

InuYasha looked a bit angered at our interruption and yelled back, "Yeah, I'm upstairs with Kagome."

"Oh." It was Sesshomaru, "Don't forget to use a condom!"

My jaw dropped and my face reddend instantly, as did InuYasha and he growled back, "I'm tutoring her you asshole!"

"Sure sure, if that's what you kids call it now a days."

He growled some more, "Are you jealous 'cause you ain't getting any?"

My eyes widened again, but he looked towards me and winked, saying he was only teasing him back.

"Ha! You'd be dead if you were getting it as much as I was," Sesshomaru countered, but his voice cracked a bit.

I giggled softly and looked at InuYasha, and he smiled back.

"You want to be my date tonight for the dance?" he asked suddenly.

My smiled widened and I nodded, "Yes."

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Believe it or not, but this chapter was pretty hard to type out, it was in my head, but it just wouldn't come out onto the computer. I hope you liked it, and get ready for the next chapter, the Halloween dance! Thanks for the reviews, I appreciate every one who took their time to type them, and i hope that you'll be able to give me some comments for this one too.

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