InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Living Death ❯ Living Death ( Chapter 1 )

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By: TriGemini
Kagome suffers in silence when she sees Inuyahsa go to Kikyou. Inside she's slowly dying from the heartbreak that she's suffering from. This is her version of how she truly feels.

(One-shot)

Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst | Type: One Shot | Uploaded On: 02.26.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 711 | Status: Completed

Living Death
By TriGemini
Disclaimer: Don't own any of the Inuyasha characters. So please don't sue.
 
This is how I always feel every time Inuyasha goes to see Kikyou.
Every time he goes it's excruciating and devastating to watch.
It was as if my heart was breaking into a thousand pieces every time he went to her.
It was pure torment.
Seeing him running to her while I slowly died every moment.
Slowly!
Bit by bit my will to go on is lessening.
I don't want to go on.
I know that my love for him has gone unrequited all this time.
I've gone on knowing that he chose `HER' the one who so many years before betrayed him. He blindly follows her into a fool's paradise.
She wants to drag him to HELL.
She wants for him to suffer.
But I know Hell and I know suffering.
For I live with it every moment of the day.
Doesn't he understand how much he's hurting the one person who truly loves him?
Who is willing to accept him for what he is.
No he doesn't understand.
He doesn't see.
Me the one who has been by his side faithfully since the beginning and willing to sacrifice anything, or everything just too see him happy.
No!
He's blinded by faith, love, guilt, and his vow.
For a woman who is a mere empty soulless shell.
Who is plainly evil and has ensnared Inuyasha with her false lies, and has played upon his guilt for her death.
He doesn't see the harm he does to me.
He doesn't see my tears or hear my screams.
What happened to his vow to protect me?
After all I've been living death all this time and have had to endure it.
This living death will be my end.
My sanity, my soul will all go away.
I live in this hell of pure misery until the very end.
When will he see?
Will he ever see?
My suffering!
My pain!
I have lost the will to go on living in this world of complete emptiness.
No longer wanting to see what could have been, but wasn't meant to be.
Living death is quite heartbreaking.
Especially, when one's heart if full of heartache and there's no one to confide in.
Leaving all this behind would be too easy.
For I have made a promise to Inuyasha to stay beside his side no matter what the consequences.
And if I truly have to suffer as the time goes by and I close myself off.
I will only make it as far as I can go without any harm to anyone.
For living in silence is better as well.
For I live a living death until it is my time to go.