InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Locked Away ❯ Sorrow ( Chapter 6 )

"Sesshoumaru was there." Inuyasha said as soon as we walked to the hut

I had been wondering who Sesshoumaru was the whole way back. I did not bother to ask Inuyasha about it for many reasons, one being that his temper scared me to no end. But now that we were back, I could not stop myself.

"Who is Sesshoumaru?"

There. I asked. Baaaaaad Kagome.

"Sesshoumaru-sama, is Inuyasha's older half-brother." Miroku answered me from across the room, Inuyasha did not look very happy

"Brother my ass. Like he ever cared about what happened to me, as long as he has father's land he could care less about anything else." Inuyasha spat out each an every word, like he was spitting every word on his brother

"So then, Sesshoumaru is a lot like Kikyou?" I could not stop myself from asking

Very baaaaaad Kagome.

"No. Not even Sesshoumaru would not do half of the things that Kikyou has done. She is a one of a kind type of evil." Sango was the one to answer, and the look in here eyes almost made me feel sorry for my "sister". Almost.....

"Then would that not make him a good person, at least partcially good?" I did not want to anger anyone with my questions, but I feel that I have some right to at least ask

"I suppose, but he is also evil in his own devices. For example, if you trespass onto his land he will kill you, no questions asked." Miroku said, trying to talk in a scary voice, which came out high picthed and crackly.

"But would that not be his right?" I asked, but all it did was get me a few looks

"What I mean to say is, it is his land. so does he not have the right to punish intruders no matter how cruel it may be?"

No one said anything for a few minutes, so I decided to give up.

"It is late, I think I will go to bed now." I said as I walked into the back room, no one saying anything as I at left

Later that night when everyone else had go to bed, I began to think. I was good at thinking, it was all I had been doing for the many years I had been locked away in that god-forsaken mask. But tonight I would not think about that, or about what these people wanted me to do, and I would not think about the one who made my life miserable. No...tonight I would simply think about how I have another chance, and about how I saw the most beautiful creature on this very day.

I did not understand how everyone could think that someone that beautiful could ever be as evil as they tried to tell me that he was. Of course, I hear that my sister is a great beauty, and she is as evil as the devil himself. But there was something about Sesshoumaru that made me think that there was something more to him. I may never find out what it is, and I may never see him again, but dreaming of him for one night would do me just fine.

"I thought that I was not going to think about Kikyou and her evil deeds for tonight." I whispered with a sigh as I turned over in my futon

Sleep was not on my side tonight, it seems nothing was. And there I go, feeling sorry for myself again. I thought that after all of these years that I would have learned that worse things could happen to me and I should be thankful with what I have.

"But what if all that I have is my life?"

Some people would think that life is a great thing to have, but I have found myself dreaming of death for so long that life has lost all meaning, if it ever truly held any.

"You have a new start, another chance at a life that was stolen from you."

It was true, I do have another chance at life, but is it the life that I want. Sure I will have money, servants, anything that I would ever want...but who would I be? Kagome or Kikyou? Everyone will call me Kikyou, know me as Kikyou, Kagome would be no more. She will be a poor girl who died when she was sent away by her evil sister, Kikyou, me. I will be known as that evil monster, the one everyone despises, called the name of the one I have grown to hate the most.

"You should not hate. Hate will make you sink down to her level."

Hate. That is what will make me like her. If I hate her like she hates me, then I will be her. Hate is what made her like she is, that and power. She has power and with that came hate for anyone would might have a chance to take that power away from her, like her twin sister. If I was known to the world then I would have rights to the throne, no matter how small, I would still have them.

"And Kikyou hates me for that. For the fact that I was born and share her blood."

I have never met her, but I did see her once. She was there when I was taken from my home, she came to glare at me, to look me in my eyes and tell me that I was not suppose to be in this world, and that she would take me out of it. Her eyes said everything, she did not have to utter a single word, I knew what was going on even if I was just a child. I tried to forget her face for years, until one day I could not see it anymore, she left from my mind and I hoped that it was the last I would see of it.

"I was wrong. These people are trying to do good, but do they realize what they are doing to me?"

There I go, being selfish and self pitying again. I suppose I will never learn to think of anyone but me, and I owe it all to my sister, because of her I spent years worrying about myself, because I did not know anyone else.

"Not true. I worried about my care givers for years, years before I was told that they were killed."

Kikyou had them killed and then she sent someone to tell me. I remember crying that day, the first time that I can remember doing that, and they simply laughed at me. They laughed at a child that had her life taken away and the only people that she had ever loved killed by a girl she did not even know.

"People are cruel when nothing bad is happening to them."

I turned back over and closed my eyes. I may not have solved anything tonight, but at least now I can sleep.

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The next day Sango was to teach me how to act like Kikyou. I still have my doubts about this, and they were ten-folded when I was introduced to WHO was teaching me to act like Kikyou.

"Kagome-sama, this is Chico, the town whore."