InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lolita: Sesshomaru and Rin ❯ Calming Down Part 2 ( Chapter 13 )
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By: animetributes 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 02.03.2016 | Pages: 1 | Words: 864 | Visits: 197 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 02.03.2016 | Pages: 1 | Words: 864 | Visits: 197 | Status: Completed
(A/N: I'd like to thank the people who read this with an open mind even though it wasn't the kind of thing they'd usually read about these two. I appreciate that. Back to Rin's P.O.V.)
Rin's plan is underway, and she is saving up money. I will be out of here as soon as possible.
I think Sesshomaru is becoming paranoid about my meeting boys. I could go to the dance with a group of my friends, if invited by a socially acceptable group in Butler's Academy for Boys, and I could have parties with groups of boys and girls at the house-but even then he continuously watched me, and I was never allowed alone with a boy despite my protests.
Except for Shippo. Shippo was homosexual, and had been in contact with Jaken in...weird ways. I do not understand Jaken sometimes...but hey, he's good company.
One night, after a group outing with a bunch of kids from school, a boy gave me a ride home, and we stopped in front of the house to chat a little bit before I went inside. I could've sworn that I saw the curtains move from the upstairs window in Sesshomaru's room, like he was watching us, and when he drove off the curtains swished closed. Asides from talking, I never spent much time with any boy so I don't know where this paranoia came from.
Because of my own experiences with him, I knew where his tastes led-young girls my age. Therefore I never brought any of them home. I refused to spend too much time socializing with other girls for fear that one of them would end up like me. One of them might become seduced by his looks, and being naive young girls, get attached to him, go along with him and then...find out what it's really like. I can't have that happen, so the only person my own age that I kept for company was Shippo. He was my only normal friend.
Shippo was also on the play with me, and he'd come home after school to work on The Taming Of The Shrew. He told me one day that Sesshomaru had come to him and asked him if I had any boyfriends, and he told the truth and said that besides the occasional celebrity crush, I did not have any interest in boys. Shippo also told me that Sesshomaru had drilled him with question after question after question about the dance, how it went, if I had been active and had a good time, was I doing well at school, what he thought of me, and anything he could think of.
"But he is gorgeous, that Sesshomaru!" Shippo exclaimed that day.
I sighed and rolled my eyes in digust. If he only knew, he wouldn't be saying that. Good thing that Sesshomaru was completely straight and I knew that Shippo, unlike my female friends, was in absolutely no danger.
The truth was, after my first consensual sexual encounter with Hakudoshi taught me about what had happened with Sesshomaru, I developed a distaste for boys in general. Well, the straight ones. And my relationship with Sesshomaru confirmed all of my suspicions. The male species were disgusting, foul, and sick no matter how old they were. Little boys-little Hakudoshis would grow up to be men-Sesshomarus-and then turn around and did things to girls like me. Only boys like Shippo, who had no taste for the opposite gender, did not.
That is my opinion, and I don't care what anyone else tells me.
Girls and boys develop their opinions and views about the opposite sex and relationships based on what they witness in their father figures and their parents' relationships. Since I do not really remember my real father, the person who had become the most influential father figure, the most prominent adult male in my life was Sesshomaru, whether he wanted to be or not, whether either of us liked it or not. He was the one with that responsibility.
And look what he taught me.
I don't even wanna think about what kind of relationship he had with mother.
Shaking my head, I returned to my homework. The door opened and Sesshomaru walked in for what I felt was the fifth night in a row. Goddammit, what does he want now?
"Not again." I sighed in exasperation.
He tilted his head and, ignoring my feelings, reached for me. I shrugged him off. "Can you please leave me alone? Please, please."
Finally he left, and I put my head in my hands. It's times like these that I wish mommy was still here. She would've been able to do something. Even if she was gonna shout at me, even if we had to fight again, I'd be happy if only mother would come and take me away with her. I'd happily listen to her complain forever.
Rin's plan is underway, and she is saving up money. I will be out of here as soon as possible.
I think Sesshomaru is becoming paranoid about my meeting boys. I could go to the dance with a group of my friends, if invited by a socially acceptable group in Butler's Academy for Boys, and I could have parties with groups of boys and girls at the house-but even then he continuously watched me, and I was never allowed alone with a boy despite my protests.
Except for Shippo. Shippo was homosexual, and had been in contact with Jaken in...weird ways. I do not understand Jaken sometimes...but hey, he's good company.
One night, after a group outing with a bunch of kids from school, a boy gave me a ride home, and we stopped in front of the house to chat a little bit before I went inside. I could've sworn that I saw the curtains move from the upstairs window in Sesshomaru's room, like he was watching us, and when he drove off the curtains swished closed. Asides from talking, I never spent much time with any boy so I don't know where this paranoia came from.
Because of my own experiences with him, I knew where his tastes led-young girls my age. Therefore I never brought any of them home. I refused to spend too much time socializing with other girls for fear that one of them would end up like me. One of them might become seduced by his looks, and being naive young girls, get attached to him, go along with him and then...find out what it's really like. I can't have that happen, so the only person my own age that I kept for company was Shippo. He was my only normal friend.
Shippo was also on the play with me, and he'd come home after school to work on The Taming Of The Shrew. He told me one day that Sesshomaru had come to him and asked him if I had any boyfriends, and he told the truth and said that besides the occasional celebrity crush, I did not have any interest in boys. Shippo also told me that Sesshomaru had drilled him with question after question after question about the dance, how it went, if I had been active and had a good time, was I doing well at school, what he thought of me, and anything he could think of.
"But he is gorgeous, that Sesshomaru!" Shippo exclaimed that day.
I sighed and rolled my eyes in digust. If he only knew, he wouldn't be saying that. Good thing that Sesshomaru was completely straight and I knew that Shippo, unlike my female friends, was in absolutely no danger.
The truth was, after my first consensual sexual encounter with Hakudoshi taught me about what had happened with Sesshomaru, I developed a distaste for boys in general. Well, the straight ones. And my relationship with Sesshomaru confirmed all of my suspicions. The male species were disgusting, foul, and sick no matter how old they were. Little boys-little Hakudoshis would grow up to be men-Sesshomarus-and then turn around and did things to girls like me. Only boys like Shippo, who had no taste for the opposite gender, did not.
That is my opinion, and I don't care what anyone else tells me.
Girls and boys develop their opinions and views about the opposite sex and relationships based on what they witness in their father figures and their parents' relationships. Since I do not really remember my real father, the person who had become the most influential father figure, the most prominent adult male in my life was Sesshomaru, whether he wanted to be or not, whether either of us liked it or not. He was the one with that responsibility.
And look what he taught me.
I don't even wanna think about what kind of relationship he had with mother.
Shaking my head, I returned to my homework. The door opened and Sesshomaru walked in for what I felt was the fifth night in a row. Goddammit, what does he want now?
"Not again." I sighed in exasperation.
He tilted his head and, ignoring my feelings, reached for me. I shrugged him off. "Can you please leave me alone? Please, please."
Finally he left, and I put my head in my hands. It's times like these that I wish mommy was still here. She would've been able to do something. Even if she was gonna shout at me, even if we had to fight again, I'd be happy if only mother would come and take me away with her. I'd happily listen to her complain forever.