InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Loneliness of the Free wind ❯ Sunset of pain, memories and warmth ( Chapter 3 )

Written by: Zelix

Story type: One-shot… or a five chapter one-shot to be precise.

Contains: Sex, romance, drama and slight angst.

Pairings: OC/Kagura

Time and Place: Modern timeline.

Disclaimer: I will never own Inuyasha so stop bugging me with these! Shit, no one is listening… *sigh*

"Talking"

`Thinking'

If this was an OAV or OVA whichever is the right term:

Opening theme: Steve Conte & Yoko Kanno - Stray

Ending theme: Angelic Layer - The Starry Sky

Loneliness of the Free Wind

Chapter 3: Evening of pain,memories and warmth…

Kagura couldn't run any further, she was near her apartment and there weren't a lot of people out at the moment, she tried to cover her eyes again with the sunglasses but they were broken, just her luck… Kagura leaned against a wall at a street corner and felt her eyes stinging with tears again, they were one of the reasons she couldn't run any further, she couldn't see shit… also, she was so emotionally drained that she didn't even feel like running anymore… she wiped the tears on her sleeve and kept cursing herself, had she really become this weak? This pathetic? During the old days almost nothing could get to her but now… now she was living while desperately trying to cover her real appearance, haunted by nightmares, living alone and crying almost everyday… she couldn't take this anymore, she just couldn't… just now though, just now she had thought that someone had come along who just might understand but after seeing the look in his eyes confirmed to her that there was no hope at all… Kagura the wind lady, free as the wind… yeah right, by becoming free she became more of a prisoner than ever before… a prisoner of her own mind instead of her body… if needed to compare, this was far worse than the time her body was the prisoner…

Arcerdo was running the streets, keeping trail of Kaguras scent, it was hard because it was getting faint really fast… yet, something in him kept pressing at him to keep going, to keep looking and so he kept looking, ignoring some of the stares he got from people around him. All the while he kept thinking: `What is this? I feel so… frantic, my chest feels like it's trying to crush itself, my heart is beating like crazy and my mind is screaming to find her! Why? Why do I feel so… horrible? I remember the look in her eyes at the park, just seeing all that… sadness and pain in them is enough to make me feel… well, like crying myself… I can't explain it but I feel like if I don't find her, I will lose her… shit, I really must ask my parents what the hell this is when I get back…' And so he kept running, feeling her presence and scent fading faster and faster and as it kept fading, Arc increased the speed of his running, making him move so fast that he was leaving after-images of himself… (You know, whenever Sesshoumaru moves in battle? That's what it looks like.)

A little further ahead was a small group of people, about the same ages as Arc was, they were standing in front of a street crossing point waiting for the light to turn green, there were five of them, three girls and two guys, they were talking about this and that, nothing important in particular… until one of the girls with a blonde hair said: "You know guys? I have been wondering about something for a while now…" Then another one with ear piercing asked: "What? You still wondering if that history teacher is single?" she finished with a giggle which made the others chuckle and the one with the blonde hair blushed and said quickly: "No! And even if he was I still wouldn't try to hit on him… he's twice my age for god's sake!" Then the last girl with red hair said: "But you have to admit, he is just SOO hot…" the others had no choice but to sigh dream like, except for the two boys in the group who just looked at each other and shook their heads, thinking the very same thing: `So typical…' and sighed at the same time.

Then the one with the blonde hair said a bit more seriously: "But seriously, that guy, Arcerdo… I'm kinda worried about him…" the girl with the piercing said then with a snort: "Why? You have a crush on him or something? That guy was weird from day one… not to mention he's a loser…" to that, one of the boys retorted: "Hey, don't say that about him! He is my friend you know…" the boy had orange hair and green eyes and if you looked carefully you could see that he was clearly more mature than his appearance suggested, he seemed more like an adult than a teenager… this made the other guy react too, he had black hair and hi had a `wolfish' like feeling coming out of him: "Mine too, my family has known his even before he was born and I really like them too… Arc is weird, yes, but he is quite okay when you get to know him…"

All three girls were silent, these two were Arcs friends? The two most popular kids in school? The one with the black hair said before any further comments came out: "I don't know why he is so depressed all the time, or why he is so timid… he became like that after his 12 year birthday, must have heard something he wasn't supposed to… I don't know, he doesn't want to talk about it." Right at that instant one of the girls asked with a confused voice: "Eh… guys? Is that Arc running towards us?" Everyone turned around and sure to say, it was Arc but… something was wrong, they had all seen how he runs during PE suffice to say, he sucked at it but now… he was running like a bloody rocket!

The lights were still red and cars were passing by like water, the group tried to shout at Arc to stop but he wasn't even listening, in his eyes there was nothing, the world was just a massive pile of smoke and all he saw in it was Kagura's scent and he was following it with determination and nothing was going to stop him, Arc wasn't thinking or feeling, just acting like a wild beast tracking his prey… then something else did penetrate his thick skull, a loud *HONK HONK* sound… (Guess what that is.)

The group looked at what was happening in horror, they had seen that Arc was running like crazy and try as they had, he hadn't even slowed down but ran straight against the red light into the maze of cars and they heard a speeding car honking and the sound of brakes screeching like crazy, yet it was too late, the car would not stop in time no matter what kind of brakes it had… as they all feared the worst something really incredible happened and when I say incredible I mean something humans could never dream of seeing in real-life: as the car nearly hit Arc, he just suddenly, in a blink of an eye, jumped and while twisting in mid-air he flew over the car and landed gracefully like he had been floating, it was amazing that the car that had been braking did not hit any of the other cars, yet as more cars kept coming, Arc just moved among them like a shadow, never touching them and finally when he was reaching the end of the road to enter a sidewalk again, a large truck came out of nowhere and nearly hit him, it would have hit him but he did again something that was impossible to comprehend, he crouched and then jumped over the incoming truck like he would have jumped over a small puddle of water… after that, he landed to the side walk and began running again like a rocket… ignoring all the stares and all the people who were still trying to figure out what the hell just happened…

The group was staring with their eyes wide as saucers, they're brains still trying to register what the hell just happened, had Arc, the schools number 1 person of moodiness, depression and the biggest loser known to them, just rushed into traffic and avoided getting hit by a dozen cars and a truck by jumping over them? As the silence reigned over them, the two boys whispered to one another with a bare audible voice, starting with the black haired one: "That was Arc wasn't it?" The orange haired one answered with the same kind of a whisper: "Yeah, no doubt about it, the scent was un-mistakably his… but, something was wrong with his eyes…" black haired boy replied: "Yeah, I noticed it too… like he was in a world of his own, ignoring everything else…" orange haired kid: "Well, we can't discuss it now, we have to say something to these three first and then go directly to Arcs house and tell his parents that their son has decided to finally start accepting his peculiar bloodline…" both nodded and turned to the three girls to try and come up with some kind of a lie to make them convinced that that guy WASN'T Arc…

Kagura had just gotten inside her apartment and after removing the jacket and shoes, leaving her with only those blue jeans and a white t-shirt, she for some reason felt like her body weighted more than she could bear, `It must be because I now know that there really is no hope for me in this world or this lifestyle, I was born to be alone, I have lived alone and now I will die alone… no matter what has happened or who I have met, the bottom line is that after all that nonsense and insanity, there was no light at the end of my tunnel… just more loneliness and more darkness, just like in my book `Soul of Darkness', total tear jerker… *sigh* Naraku won, others won because they killed him but even after he is dead I could not win against him, it is just like Kanna said before her death: "We were born out of Naraku and we will die with Naraku, sooner or later… by our own hands or by someone else's hands…" Goddamn it all to hell… all this time I have been saying that I am a strong full blooded Youkai but now that I think about more closely, I was born out of a hanyou and I am not really a human or youkai so how come I keep thinking that I am a full Youkai? Must be because during those times thinking I wasn't would have been fatal… shit…shit, shit, shit, SHIT!! I really don't have anything, my birth origin is not my own either and neither is anything I have, all were given by that cock sucker (Living in modern world can increase ones swearing vocabulary quite a bit…) who even when rotting in hell is still having a final hold on me, not my heart but my mind…' She stumbled to the bathroom to get some aspirin; her head was pounding like crazy from all that thinking.

Arc had arrived to the place where the scent was at it's strongest, he was still seeing only smoke, there were so many scents around here and most of them were overwhelming but above them was the scent he was looking for… he was glad to have found it but also frowned, the scent was mixed with so much pain, tears and sadness, it made him feel sick to the stomach… there was not a single hint of happiness or warmth in all that scent of despair, it was a scent that belonged to someone who had abandoned hope and was truly alone… he felt himself being filled with hate, hate towards anyone who had made her feel all this despair and sadness, then he acting on pure instinct crouched down, strained his leg and waist muscles and then leaped up so hard the concrete ground below him cracked a bit, he climbed through the air towards the scent he had been madly looking for…

Kagura emerged from the bathroom and felt more miserable than a few moments ago, the aspirin did take away the headache but now she felt empty, the headache had at least been something… now there was nothing, no pain, nothing… and it felt horrible, not to feel anything… it makes you miserable, well, at least she could walk straight… she walked to the kitchen to see if there was anything to eat, maybe that would take her mind out of this shit…

Arc landed onto the balcony of where the scent was originating, if he had been desperate on founding the scent before, now that his nose was assaulted by a fresh scent of despair and emptiness he started to feel frantic, frantic to make it stop… the world around him was getting visible and instead of smoke he saw clearly again, yet he was still acting purely on instinct, no thinking what-so-ever… and acting on those instincts he slowly flexed his arm and it changed from a human arm into a clawed hand, with these claws he opened the balcony's glass door silently and slithered inside the apartment and closed it again.

Kagura was in the kitchen checking out what she had, not much was there but at least something… but before she got into doing anything, she felt a small breeze of wind pass through her and with it came a familiar scent… she stiffened right away, it was not possible, he couldn't possible be here… she had locked the door so he couldn't have gotten in from there, she had ran with her demon speed so he could not have followed her and there was no way he could have gotten in through the balcony, this was the 6th floor! But… the scent was mixed with something, it tickled her senses and instincts about that she knew what it was but couldn't place it… okay, it was official, Kagura the wind lady had lost it, she was nuts, insane, cracked, gone ballistic, lost her light etc. she slumped her hands against the kitchen table and sighed with irritation… as well as defeat… but before she got to think about anything, she felt a pair of arms snake around her waist and pull her against someone, normally she would have tackled whoever dared to do that, but now she just didn't have the energy or the willpower to resist anything… also, she thought that they weren't real either, just her insane mind making her feel things that aren't there… so she leaned into whoever it was…

Arc had smelled her scent in the kitchen but was a little hesitant, how should he approach her? He also began to wonder if it would be for the best to leave, but then a new wave of scent of loneliness came out of her and that made him decide to stay… so he slowly, without making a sound sneaked into the kitchen and stood behind her, admiring her form and scent, even when filled with so much despair and loneliness, it was still so pure… like nature itself… after seeing her slump towards the table her scent became sad again and that was it for him, his instincts took over completely and he pulled her back to his chest and held her protectively and placed his head on top of hers…

Both were silent for a long time, even if neither knew the other they didn't care… for now, neither felt alone or empty, this was a feeling both had needed, to feel another person close like this… Kagura, with her emotions and sense of reason drained completely and Arc with his senses taken over by his instincts, neither couldn't really control what happened next but it did happen: Kagura turned her head and Arc lowered his so their eyes met, blood red met obsidian black, if both would have patterns in their eyes they would fit together like the blue colour fits the sky… then as Kagura raised her face towards his and he lowered his towards her and as their eyes closed their lips met in a chaste, tender kiss…

The kiss lasted for only a few seconds and after they parted both of their minds were clouded in a mist of longing and need, they stared at each other for a few moments before they're pupils turned into beast like slits and his arms tightened around her and her right arm went to tangle itself into his steel grey hair while her left arm covered one of his that were around her waist and then she pulled him down into another kiss, except this one was more fired up than the previous one, it was deeper, harder and filled with passion and warmth.

The kiss becomes more and more demanding, both are completely addicted to the taste of one another, to Arc Kagura's taste reminded him of nature, the purest taste in the world, while to Kagura Arc tasted like something wild and sweet, like nature during spring… as their instincts started to take more and more control, Kagura felt Arcs hands move up from her waist to cup both of her breasts and start to fondle them in a slow circular motion and she gasped and moaned deeply into the kiss as her hand tightened around his head… during this time Arc could feel himself getting harder and his nose was hit with the scent of her arousal, making him purr into the kiss and that made her nipples grow hard underneath her t-shirt… soon their tongues were also battling against one another, both demanding one to submit to the other, making them both moan and he kept kneading her breasts with a bit more force and she eventually pulled back and cried out softly…

As their breaths calmed down a bit, Arc moved his mouth to her milky white neck and began to kiss, suck and nip at the pulse point, making her pant and moan as her arousal grew more and more and the between of her legs was throbbing and her wetness continued to increase as his kneading of her breasts continued, her arm went to his back to try and feel his skin through his school uniform with her claws, she felt him shiver from the contact and as his mouth moved to her ear and he licked it lightly she whimpered with need, then he whispered into her ear: "I want you…" which made her spine shiver with anticipation… she then answered with a seductive voice: "You think you can handle me, boy?" Those words had come out only by pure instinct but that was what she wanted in her sub consciousness and now that she was acting only on instinct… well you get the idea.

Arc growled as a response, so she was taunting him eh? Arc wouldn't normally be nearly this aggressive or anything but instincts are a funny thing you know? After the growl he turned her around, scooped her up bridal style and with speed that would make Sesshoumaru pale in comparison had moved them to the living room and literally thrown her onto the couch, then he immediately moved himself on top of her and looked at her through his beast like eyes and growled at her, the growl was an order of submission. Kagura was not sure what had happened but after taunting him Arc somehow more faster than her mind could register had grabbed her, moved them to the living room and after throwing her to the couch had straddled her hips again and was now growling an order of submission, in her instinctual state her youkai senses warned her not to mess with him, he was the stronger one of the two and so, she only let out one sound: "Eep…" Then she first relaxed and then slowly put her arms behind his neck and pulled him into a kiss as an act of submission, he growled both as an acceptance of her submission and as his approval, then he responded to the kiss and his arms sneaked under her t-shirt to rub her breasts and their hardened nipples.

Kagura was in heaven at the moment, the taste of Arcs mouth and the feel of him fondling her breasts was sending shockwaves of pleasure throughout her body and she kept arching into his touch while mewing and moaning into his kiss as he growled and purred into her mouth. Arc, even if not fully aware of what he was doing because his instincts were in control, was enjoying this, he could feel his blood and mind roaring with pride for subduing a strong female like this and his primal male like pride was also pleased with itself for making her beg for more like this.

Arc moved his arm back to the bottom of Kagura's t-shirt and pulled it up over her breasts (No bra, she says they're a waste of time.) and moved his mouth from hers and after the cool air of the room hit her nipples she whimpered for more contact, after this he moved his mouth to her left breast and began to lick the areola around the nipple and as he did this Kagura cried out in pleasure and placed her arms over his head to keep him there and her shortened claws were digging into his scalp and she moaned his name in broken and sometimes in incoherent phrases, he smirked and then took her breast into his mouth and began to suckle on it and his left arm went to the un-attended twin to knead and tweak it, making her let out sounds that were something between mewing and moaning.

During this, Arc was painfully stiff now and make some of it ease down he rubbed himself against her through his pants and her jeans, making him grunt against her breast while her breath was caught in her throat, even if he had his pants on and she couldn't see him, Kagura could tell he was big, she was already wondering how it will feel like when that… behemoth was inside her…

That, was the trigger that made first her, then him, to stop this…

(Sorry Hentai fans, not yet.)

Right after that thought had hit her passion and lust filled mind, her eyes suddenly snapped open and instead of being beast like slits anymore, they were now wide open again, in her eyes, the person she saw wasn't Arcerdo but Naraku! He was slowly coming closer to her with that sick smile on his face, she tried to get away but pain shot through the spot where her heart was supposed to be, she managed to see him holding her heart and squeezing it, causing her pain, then he said with a voice that made her sick to her stomach: "You've disobeyed me for the last time Kagura, you thought you could be free when they kill me tomorrow? Even you, a worthless creation should realise that they cannot kill me, tomorrow I will kill all of them and once the Shikon no Tama is complete I will become un-stoppable… but you, when I get the jewel and use it, I have a very special purpose for you… but for now, you will get the first taste of what it is!" After that, there she felt the most intenseness pain she could ever have imagined possible…

Kagura, in her confused, panicked and scared state of mind suddenly tensed up beneath Arc and her hands, instead of trying to keep Arc in place began to frantically to try and push him off while screaming in pure panic: "NO! GET AWAY, STOP IT!!" And Arc, even if his instincts were deep in control, regained his senses after hearing her cry of despair and smelling that the scent of her arousal left her and was replaced by panic and fear he pulled himself up right away and could only watch with his eyes trembling from both realising what he was doing and seeing what was happening to Kagura: right after he had gotten off her, she had pulled herself into a cocoon (best word I can come up with.) with her eyes shut tight and shaking like a leaf and was shedding tears as well as mumbling things that made no sense but were clearly of fear, pain and panic… Arc was least to say, scared to the bone, had he caused this to her? She didn't look like an adult at all, more like a little child trying to hide from something REALLY evil… when he got some of his guts back, no, more like he felt a jolt of instincts and lot's of other things he did not understand go through his mind and body, one thing became clear: Help her damn it!

Kagura wasn't sure what was real anymore, was she really free? Was she really here in modern day Tokyo? Or maybe… maybe all this is just a crazy dream and now is the time to wake up, maybe she really is just laying there… on the spot where… no… `It can't be…' she thought to herself: `Please, don't make me go back there! That asshole is dead damn it! He is dead!! Why can't he let me go already?! Why can't I make him go away?!?! =Because you are alone…= NO! I am… I am free! =No, you are not, you will always be alone after what he did… because he took…= SHUT UP!! DON'T SAY IT!! =Stop fooling yourself, the only one you can go to is him, since no one will ever want you, a scarred, used up useless little creation…= No… no…' she argued in her head, it was too much, she had just remembered the one thing she did NOT ever want to remember, yet it came back… she was ready to just close off her mind completely and stay in her own little world but then she felt someone slide behind her and grab a strong, steady hold on her, that made those memories flash throughout her mind again and she began to struggle against whoever it was with desperation, her mind replaying Narakus face over and over again until she screamed out: "You're dead!! You died over 500 years ago! So why can't you just leave me alone?!"

Arc without thinking had slid behind her cocooned form so they both were on their sides facing the room and while letting his instincts guide him he grabbed a strong, steady and firm grip around her to prevent any kind of movement and then waited for Kagura to start her struggling, Arc knew she would do it, since he had seen what people do when they're in a state of hysterical panic… and just like he expected, she began to struggle like crazy… he waited for an opening, if she said something now, he could tell her whatever she is seeing right now was not real… but what she said got him by surprise: "You're dead!! You died over 500 years ago! So why can't you just leave me alone?!" It took him about 7 seconds before he got his brains working again and then he pulled her so her ear was next to his mouth and he said with a stern yet comforting voice: "Kagura! Calm down! He is not here, he cannot do anything to you anymore! Calm down, what you're seeing is not happening anymore, you're just seeing it!" That made Kagura snap her eyes open and even though they were tear stained she could see where she was, it was not the past, it was not inside Narakus castle… she was at her home in Tokyo, away from that bastard… then, who was holding her? She tensed again because she really did not remember right away who it was…

Arc felt her stop struggling and heard her take rapid, deep breaths, her body relaxed at first but after a few moments she tensed again and Arc could hear her heartbeat start beating faster from fear and the smell of her fear became apparent again, so he quickly pulled her to against him, her form and curves fitting his perfectly and said to her with a low, re-assuring and warm voice: "Don't be panicked or afraid, it's me, Arc… relax, i won't let anyone hurt you anymore, you must have been through enough already…" He slowly loosened his grip on her and at first she thought about bolting away from him, but his words kept playing in her head so out of curiosity she turned around, still on her side but her body and face facing him, the setting sun that gleamed through the glass door of the balcony made his steel grey hair and obsidian black eyes look like they were made of living liquid, the sun also made his skin look like bronze coloured, giving him a mythological like appearance, she was looking into his eyes with her red ones, still glistening with tears… no sure what to do or say… she did not see any kind of shock, fear or disgust in his eyes when he looked towards hers, the only things she saw was worry, concern, warmth and… the last one eluded her but it was something big… then his voice broke her trance: "Kagura, I'm sorry about what happened in the park, you just caught me off-guard, no matter what you hear others say… from my opinion, you have the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen…" that was it, that was something she had wanted to hear from anyone, anyone to say those words… they maybe just words but to her, they were more than she could tell in words… she felt so warm and happy, then the dam that held back her feelings broke down completely and when her tears began to come out without slowing down she pushed her head onto his chest and started the long and hard needed cry, cry against someone who she could trust instead of crying alone…

Arc felt her tears dampening his school uniform but he didn't care, her tears made him feel a bit bad but he knew she needed this… ever since seeing her eyes in the park he just knew she needed to have shoulder she could cry onto… it took a while but eventually her crying seized and became simple sobbing and slight hick-upping, he had been holding her all the while and now that she was a bit more quiet he began to rub her back soothingly and said to her: "You poor thing, whatever you have been through, it must have been hell… relax now, whatever you have been put through, whoever caused you all this pain, I will not let anyone cause you anymore pain… I swear it…" that made her sob a bit more before her arms went around him and she clung onto him like a life-line, she then said with a voice barely above a whisper: "Hold me… don't let him come near me anymore…" He simply tightened his hold on her and said while kissing her forehead: "I won't let him come near you ever again, I will keep you safe with everything I have…" as he felt her nod against him, he thought to himself: `Wow… where did I come up with that? I have never gotten close to even kissing a girl and now just a few moments ago I was ready to… wow… really… wow… well, at least the worst is over now for her… for now at least… man, I should trust my instincts more often, I just wonder… just now I talked like I was trying to comfort someone I love… maybe, just maybe… I might love her… this feeling certainly is not lust or hormones, that's for sure… hmm… love at first sight? Shit, it might be true after all…I swear, I will never, EVER doubt romance novels or dramas EVER again…' with that, he just enjoyed holding the red eyed beauty against him, just waiting for something that would eventually brake this magical moment… wishing that it would never come though… Kagura, thought the same, both wishing it wouldn't end…

To be continued…

A/N: Wow, I'm both mushy and a romantic… shit, was that good or just horrible? Tell me, please.

- Zelix, Feeling a bit better.