InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Loneliness of the Free wind ❯ Severe the past, open the Future... - Final part ( Chapter 8 )

Written by: Zelix

 

 

 

A/N: Well, it's the end of the road for this one, it's been fun writing this and I hope you've liked it too… though I would have hoped for more reviews but oh well… Anyway, I've made this one extra, EXTRA long as thanks for those who reviewed. Also, excellent news for you lemon readers: the lemon is also extra long! Anyway, enjoy, this is my first multi chaptered fic that I've completed! JAHOO!! Oh yes, this chapter is dedicated to the following people at Mediaminer.org:

 

Rukusho100: Thank you for being my first reviewer and I hope if you're reading this you're drop one last review since this is the last chapter after all… see ya around.

 

Jasmine Hamilton: Thanks for giving your review and encouragements, too bad this was the only review you gave me *Sniff*… but, thank you for at least giving me this one.

 

Wow… (Odd dame, I know): Thanks for the… rather strong worded review, LOL. Glad to see other people see it my way, this is how I saw Kagura and so I decided to let people know it, thanks for the review and I hope to catch you again in the future!

 

GML13: Big thanks for the review and compliments about my original character, I really am grateful for that, you know what? When I thought about that OC, Arcerdo, I didn't plan anything, I just wrote what I felt was right… so, you could say I created the guy out of nothing in a moment of inspiration, pretty good huh? Anyway, thanks again for the review.

 

Now, The main reason I made this chapter super long and made the lemon long, hot and steamy, here she is, the one who gave me a review that truly warmed me to the very core of my heart:

 

 

LONE VIXEN

 

 

Thank her that this chapter is so long and full of things, her review was just pure and simply something that made my writers blood boil with inspiration and motivation, she has reviewed my other stories as well and thanks to her I will update them all soon, truly, thank you LONE VIXEN, you really can make someone's mood rise to the top of the world, this chapter is dedicated to all those above but YOU are the one I truly wrote this one for, I apologise for the wait, now, enjoy to your fullest the final chapter of my first completed drama fic!!

 

 

 

 

Story type: One-shot… or a five chapter one-shot to be precise… damn, this story evolved into one big drama huh?

 

Contains: Sex, romance, drama and slight angst.

 

Pairings: OC/Kagura

 

Time and Place: Modern timeline.

 

Disclaimer: I will never own Inuyasha so stop bugging me with these! Shit, no one is listening… *sigh*

 

“Talking”

`Thinking'

 

If this was an OAV or OVA whichever is the right term:

 

Opening theme: Steve Conte & Yoko Kanno - Stray (Full size this time)

Ending theme: Angelic Layer - The Starry Sky (Full size this time)

 

 

 

Loneliness of the Free Wind

 

 

Final Chapter: Severe the past, open the future… - Final part

 

 

“Lonely Free Wind breezes across the field, seeking a companion to end it's loneliness.

 

A Soul that is sad walks across the field, trying to find someone who could understand it's pain.

 

The two meet by chance at the same field they're crossing, they head to the same direction but will they walk it together or will they be alone in the end?” - By the Author of this Fic, Zelix.

 

 

 

*The park*

 

 

Kagura felt something she never thought she would be able to feel again… nervousness, she was a nervous wreck at the moment… a part of her was eager and exited to see Arc again, the other was scared and nervous and wanted nothing more than to run, which was unusual since the last time she wanted to run from something was Naraku and that was just so she could be free from him… it was hard to admit but she was scared, scared about what would happen between her and Arc…

 

 

She arrived at the bench near the fountain, the place where they would meet in… 10 minutes, she watched around her and saw the people doing things they did everyday: Talking, holding hands… it made her frown, if she had the Shikon no Tama right now… she would wish that even just for one day, just one day she could make the past go away and be in the arms of someone who would take care of her… she knew that thinking like that was a serious sign of weakness and as a Youkai she shouldn't be so dependant on something… but… she couldn't help it, times have changed and people with them, pride or status didn't mean anything around here anymore… there were no battles to win or enemies to destroy… this was an era of peace, the time when you must put fighting behind you and find someone to spend your life with…

 

 

Kagura's frown turned into a bitter chuckle, it was so ironic… for a long time she had always thought of herself as the wind, free and independent… but now, she realised that besides the fact that she was a Youkai or that she was free like the wind… at the end of all that, when all those defences and words are torn down, all that remains is a normal woman who's been to hell and back and is now on the ground and tries to find the strength to get up… to try and feel the warmth that was torn away…

 

 

As Kagura was sitting there, with her sunglasses and dressed up in the same clothes as yesterday, she kept thinking: `Freedom… what is it really? What does it mean to be free…? I have always thought it was like being the wind, to just go where you want and do what you want… only now do I realise how wrong I was… a wind can be free because it was born to be free and cannot be anything but free… but a living being, whether it's a human or Youkai, cannot be like that… a living being needs someone to be with, the wind cannot be with someone because there is no one it CAN be with, the wind is free but completely alone… no living being could live like that… I am no exception, being alone all this time, it has always been painful but I have kept that feeling away… but now, I can't shut that feeling away anymore… all those years of being alone are now taking they're toll on me… all the memories I kept locked away, all those feelings I've buried… they're caught up with me and attacked when I was least ready for it… then, he came… Arc… because of him, I was able to forget, I was able to fight off that pain… he gave me the strength, the very strength that I could never reach on my own… that must be why I am so scared, I am afraid of losing this feeling of comfort and security…'

 

 

Kagura was also trying to figure out just WHAT was Arc? Sure he had Youkai blood but… he wasn't a hanyou, his scent didn't have that in it, it didn't hold the scent of mixed blood… it held something completely different, a weird scent of `wholeness'… also, his aura held that the most intense purifying power she had ever felt… it reminded her of that un-dead Miko, Kikyo's power… but unlike hers, it was more warmer, that meant it had never hurt anyone before… it also reminded her of that young Miko who had brought her here, Kagome… the aura was very similar to hers, almost identical except… maybe more powerful… and more… stable… it was also a mystery as to how he could have purifying powers because of his Youkai blood? She had never heard of anything like that happening anywhere… Purifying powers were a natural enemy to You-Ki, just like water was to fire… so even if not intended, if those two come in contact it will cause pain, so how…? Even if you're born with those two in your body they shouldn't be able to accept one another... so did Arc do it? It wasn't natural…

 

 

She shook her head and thought: `Well… natural or not, it doesn't mean anything… he is the person who has given me something I can never pay back for: A will to go on living, I was ready to kill myself until I met him, how ironic, I try to find a reason to live so hard for all those years and then when I least wanted one, I didn't find it but instead it found me… fate is such a weird thing… but… what happens when… what would happen when he finds out about everything? About my past, my actions and… that I am… not pure anymore? Even if his blood is only quarter Youkai, his instincts must have already sensed it and… *Grips her heart* this is not fair, I finally find someone I could learn to love… no, I think I already love him… but it doesn't matter, even if I love him his own heart will never accept mine, Arc himself is not like other Youkai so he would not just abandon me or treat me like dirt but… his heart or instincts would never accept me as his… unless the feeling I felt yesterday and this morning is right… the chances are so minimal… I don't want to get my hopes up, I already know it will never be like that, because of all those horrible things I did… then what Naraku did to me… this must be some kind of a punishment that the god's above wanted me to suffer… for all the evil things I've done… but if, if Arc too is just a part of the same punishment, then at least… at the very least, I felt what it's like to be cared for…'

 

 

She could feel a tear in her eye, she quickly wiped it off… Arc would be here soon, she had only a few more minutes to compose and collect herself, today… even if it's only for few hours she wouldn't let the past get to her, today she would just enjoy life with the boy she had met only yesterday but already had fallen in love with…

 

 

Arc arrived at the park after dropping of his stuff at home, of course his parents weren't there at that time, his mom had gone to work, she worked at a women's magazine publishing company… when the magazine did a list of things of how to make sex more enjoyable, she had given some pretty hot `tips'… being a hanyou's mate gave you quite the knowledge and experience about just how enjoyable sex could get. His dad was a security guard… or as Arc thought about it, he was more like a `guard dog'… being an Inu hanyou and all… but what better job for someone like him than security? His nose could pick up the scent of guns and many other things…

 

 

It worried him a bit because both of them were practically immortal so they didn't age like humans, they had been at those jobs for over 10 years now so… people would start to notice it eventually… but they had planned on that already, by the time people would begin so suspect anything, Arc would be somewhere around… 23 years old and when that time comes, they would simply leave for another place… or if the worst came to worse… they would go back to the past, it would be dangerous but they would go prepared… that's why Arc was worried, it would be about 6 more years until that happens or begins to happen but… well, if they would go back to the era where they might need to kill in order to survive, he would need to be able to fight as well… but luckily that was the last resort, they had multiple plans and back up plans, the well that would take them back to the past was the last resort among last resorts.

 

 

As Arc walked through the park dressed in everyday clothes, (Just for the sake of argument, I suck at clothing names so use your imagination.) he too kept glancing at other people… then his eyes caught the sight of a father playing with his child, a 8 year old boy by the looks of it… they looked so happy… he remembered the time when he himself and dad were like that… things had been so simple back then… he also understood why his parents didn't tell him at that time about his unique bloodline, he had looked like a human and acted like one… no Youkai traits, inward or outward… if he had known… could he know what being happy is all about? He had a happy childhood, something his dad was denied from having… why take that innocent happiness away…?

 

 

He felt bad about being angry for his parents about that time… if only he had understood things better at that time… but… what could he have done at that time? If there would have been a time they would have told him about his bloodline, that time was not the best possible one… not at all… after that `incident' with those bullies, that's when he was told about it… at the worst possible time and situation… but now, now he understood better… maybe, when he gets more settled down with his abilities and his feelings towards Kagura, he would tell both his parents that it was alright… that he understands… he then suddenly remembered a saying… it was… `If you want to walk towards the future, you must first face your past and severe it.' It made so much sense now… when it came to him, the `past' meant his Youkai blood and that `incident'… he had began to accept his Youkai blood and was already going to apologise to his parents about that time so he had severed his past… but now he had to face something even more scarier, the part where you choose your path and walk towards the future…

 

 

Then her scent, that pure scent of fresh wind… her scent, the woman who had helped him accept his blood and also showed him that he wasn't the only one who knew what loneliness is all about… it was funny, that one meeting, with one person could turn everything in your life up-side down in one day… Arc would never have thought that all this could happen, it was so strange… yet, his Youkai side was swelling with pride, it was Tai-Youkai blood after all, the blood of a leader who was respected for it's strength… but, like they say, behind every great leader there is a great woman… because how can you call yourself great if you can't have the love of a single woman?

 

 

He chuckled to himself, great, he was already thinking like a regal Youkai… but that didn't matter at the moment, he saw her now… the wind Youkai who had a pained past, Kagura… he was still nervous about all this but he kept calm by reminding himself about the fact that he had sworn he would be there for her, no matter how this turns out… nothing would make him break that mental promise.

 

 

When he got close enough, Kagura too picked up his scent and they're gazes locked, even if her eyes were covered by those sun glasses, he could still feel her gaze on his own eyes… it was as if those sunglasses weren't even there in his eyes, instead her red, sad yet happy eyes were bare for him to see…

 

 

He sat down next to her and said with a warm, confident voice while smiling: “Funny, we only met yesterday and already it feels like a year since I saw you…” Kagura hadn't expected that, she had expected him to be timid or say something simple like `hello'… Arc was… different, he seemed more… confident, like he had become a man or like her Youkai instincts would say to her: A strong, prideful and without a doubt, one *hot* male… whatever had bitten him in the ass to make such a change possible, she wasn't complaining one bit… in fact, it just fit him perfectly.

 

 

But she too was a female with strength and pride, well whatever was left of that pride, so she said back with an equally confident voice, though it held hidden sadness, since if Arc had been irresistible to her before, now he was beyond that, he was an ideal mate for any female… strong, handsome and just downright hot like fire itself… so she said: “Really? Well I hope it was worth the wait…” she finished with a chuckle, though in the back of her mind she scolded herself… her? Worth something? Those words didn't fit in the same sentence anymore…

 

 

Arc noticed a change in her scent… or more like, with his purifying abilities he felt her emotions change… like she was hiding her sadness… he was first a bit confused but then his talk with Ako replayed in his head, she was from 500 years ago after all, there these mating laws were iron hard… so she must be feeling that she's worthless… he wanted to tell her that it didn't matter to him but… what would that accomplish at this point? He wanted to give her hope but what if he wouldn't be able to back it up? He so badly wanted to know, was she his intended or not? He wanted to talk about that but couldn't bring himself to ask anything… he was too scared, so instead he answered with a bit more normal voice: “Well, to put it bluntly… yes and no…”

 

 

Kagura looked at him with a raised eyebrow, wandering what the hell did he mean by that… he saw this and answered with a smile: “I mean that yes, it was worth it, seeing you again is the definite highlight of the day… but the `no' part is because I have been a nervous wreck about seeing you since… well… (drops his head in embarrassment)… this is the first time I've talked to woman as long as this besides my mother…” Kagura couldn't help it, she burst into laughter, making him blush, well… even if he was accepting his Youkai blood he still had a weakness that made him timid at times… it had a name too: Kagura.

 

 

Kagura laughed and after she was settling down she thought with a bit more relieved mind: `Dear god's above… he's become such a hot male with pride and strength and yet he STILL can't let go of his timid nature?! Oh boy… how does he do this…? How can he make me laugh like this? It's like a second nature to him or something… but are you kidding me? A guy like this has not talked to girls before? with his looks alone he could have girls or women crawling all over him… especially now since he seems more… mature but he hasn't talked to any women besides his mother? Wow… but… now that I think about it… who are his parents anyway? What's his last name?' With those thoughts, she calmed herself and asked: “By the way… `boy' (both grin)… I didn't remember to ask you yesterday but… what's your whole name?”

 

 

Arc tensed, he was afraid of this one… I was inevitable and would come out sooner or later but… how would she react? Well, sink or swim… he answered after hesitating a bit: “Well… It might shock you, since after what I heard from my parents about you… (She tensed too)… my full name is… Arcerdo Higurashi…” Kagura's jaw, literally, dropped… Arc saw this as a bad thing but… if something like this was enough to break everything between them this fast, then maybe they really weren't soul mates after all…

 

 

Kagura's mind was drawing blanks, not because the shock had been bad but because now, now it all started to make sense… the scent, the painting frenzy, the thoughts… the feeling she received when staying with Kagome and Inuyasha… Arcerdo… it had been Arc that… he had been the… it… wasn't… it wasn't possible… she had to be mistaken… why would the gods send… for someone like her…? She then noticed the sad look on Arcs face and then it hit her, Arc knew… he knew everything, that's why he had said it would shock her… then the next things he said made her feel hope again: “I'm sorry, I know you never wanted to be in contact with my family again after you left… but even if you don't want to be near me anymore, I'll still be there for you… loneliness like the one I felt is nothing compared to yours and I could not live knowing you would be alone, with no one to trust…” That was all she could take… he knew, he knew about her past and all those things she had done and yet… yet he still wouldn't hate her or… she couldn't help it, tears were slowly coming out of her eyes and without really thinking, she quickly took of her sunglasses and before even he could think about anything, she had put her arms tightly around his neck and pulled him down onto a deep yet desperate kiss.

 

 

Arc had been, least to say, taken completely off guard… with his Youkai nose he could smell the scent of her tears and with his Purifying powers he could feel the desperation behind the kiss as well as the deep longing it held… he wanted to pull back since all those feelings were overwhelming but his instincts warned him not to even think about pulling away, so he did the next thing he could think about, he responded to the kiss and closed his eyes, relaying some of his own feelings against hers, to sub-consciously calm her feelings down…

 

 

As the kiss slowly ended, Kagura slowly put her head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat… Arc put his arms around to hold her against him, he said after a while: “Kagura… I…” She just tightened her hold on him and cut him off by saying: “Don't say anything… please, just… hold me and don't say anything, I just want to stay like this a little longer…” He understood, he shut his mouth… he remembered reading about moments like these in those romance novels and those drama movies his mom sometimes watched… he never thought a moment like this actually existed, where you didn't want to say anything but instead just feel… he was confused about her reaction though… did she know something he didn't? Well naturally she would but what? Well, that could wait, right now he really did feel like some regal Inu Tai-Youkai… holding his mate like this, like shielding her from the world around them… `There it goes again,* my mate…* damn… no matter how many times I think about it still doesn't fit into my head… is she my soul mate? If she is… damn, there is just so much I don't know about all this…I know the practical basics but I don't know everything yet…' Arc thought with a confused yet happy smirk.

 

 

They stayed like that for what felt like an eternity… just enjoying each others warmth and presence, no words, no thinking… just feeling. Arc and Kagura were both in the they're own world, where only the two of them existed, no one else but the two of them… a world of many different coloured lights and feelings… after a little more while, Kagura slowly lifted her head so she could look him in the eyes, her own eyes that were still slightly damp from the tears widened in surprise… for some reason, the face she saw was not Arcs, his hair, eyes and skin were different but… it was Arc, the aura and scent were un-mistakable…

 

 

This person she saw in this world where only the two of them existed had Arcs aura and scent but his appearance was… simply divine, the steel grey hair had turned shiny silver/grey mixture that looked like it was on fire, it was flowing in the air, carried by the winds and the shining it let out made her think only one word: Celestial… his skin also looked more harder and more tougher than before, especially in his face, his face held black and violet patterns in it that made him look mystical, fearsome and so sexy… but the sexiest thing were the three wolf cut like stripes over both his eyes, from above his eyebrows to his cheeks, those made him look like a wilder beast… untamed, raw, instinctual and passionate…

 

 

But… one thing, just one thing made his entire appearance mesmerizing and could override all those other things that made him look so hot… his eyes, blood-red eye balls, apparently inherited from his father, that hanyou Inuyasha… she had seen those red eyes once and they had scared the shit out of her… but those red eyes, they didn't hold that violent desire for blood… they held red hot passion and primal strength… then his pupils, the colour was so unreal, she had never seen that colour ever before: Shining silver, Inuyasha's had been deep amber gold but these were shiny, celestial like silver… as if heaven itself was being reflected from that colour…

 

 

In this appearance, Arc looked like… well, literally… a god, whose wrath would be un-imaginable, whose passion and strength un-rivalled and… his tenderness and love un-questionable… Kagura couldn't talk even if she wanted to, this appearance was just so breathtaking… was this Arcs true self? Or simply an illusion she saw…? She wanted to know because… this image was… just like…

 

 

Kagura's thoughts were cut off when Arc slowly moved his behind her neck and pulled her so he could kiss her again, she was a bit… terrified about kissing him, he looked so divine it made her think that if she touched him he might accidentally burn her to ashes… but she couldn't resist his slow advancing and frankly didn't really want to resist either… then, right at the instant his lips touched hers, her mind was literally over flooded with such an enormous feeling of absolute peace and calmness, it was so enormous she really thought Arc was some kind of a divine deity and he had just touched her very soul, his presence taking away everything that made her feel un-easy or hesitant… the feeling took over her body, she instantly gripped him harder against her to deepen the kiss once again, she didn't ever want this feeling to end…

 

 

Arc wasn't sure anymore what was going on, he felt so… weird… but it wasn't unpleasant, it was… a feeling of wholeness, like right now, at this instant, everything was perfect and in place… whenever he kissed her, he could feel her past pain and sadness clawing at her soul… but he somehow made that pain and sadness go away, he somehow was able to make her feel peace and calmness and… he wanted to keep doing that, he wanted her to know what the feeling of peace and wholeness is…

 

 

They kept kissing, both completely oblivious to the fact they were at a public place… Some other younger couples had seen them kissing and couldn't help but feel envious for some reason… even an older couple had passed them and had said something about `just like when we were young…'.

 

 

Eventually, Arc could feel Kagura's tongue licking his lips, asking for entrance… or more like pleading for entrance… he couldn't deny her nor didn't want to deny her either… they began a small tongue battle and were tasting each others mouths, she moaned quietly into the kiss as she tasted him, the taste made her remember the wilderness of the Warring states… the pure wilderness...

 

 

Kagura's taste though made Arc feel like he was floating in the clouds and her taste was the wind that kept him floating up there… he was drowning in this feeling, he could feel something moving inside him, his Youkai side… it wanted to continue what it started yesterday… that's what scared him, what was it wanted? Not that it was obvious HOW it wanted it but… what for did it want it?

 

 

After a little more while, they had to brake apart for air…both were still riding high on the feeling they just felt, they're faces were flushed and both were panting desperately for air.

 

 

A few moments later they had collected themselves again and had gotten they're breathing under control, Kagura was now simply leaning her head on his shoulder while his arm was wrapped around her and his head was leaning on top of hers, she still had a nice line of pink under her eyes for remembering all she felt during that kiss… not to mention her mind had played a rather interesting erotic fantasy where Arc in that… `divine' form as she called it, had made love to her… she had to fight really hard not to let her aroused scent out, she didn't want to make an fool out of herself, not now…

 

 

Kagura also thought with content sigh: `This is a strange feeling, he holds me like I'm fragile or weak… and yet, I don't feel like it's demeaning to my pride… for once, I don't feel like I'm worthless, or that I'm Naraku's creation or even that I'm a Youkai… I feel… I don't know how I know this but…I feel like a normal woman, a woman being held in the embrace of a loved one…I don't ever want this to end, I wish this could go on forever, that I could stay by his side, wake up by his side forever every morning from here to the end of time… (She is a writer after all so she gets poetic sometimes.)' She then slowly lifted her head to look at Arc once again, he too looked at her and smiled, his smile was so damn innocent and warm… so pure… she then asked: “Arc…? I'm curious, you know what I have done in the past and yet… how can you still look at me with that face, like it doesn't bother you?”

 

 

He simply looked up at the sky for a second and then replied: “Let's take a walk, I'll tell you during that.” She looked at him quizzically and asked: “Why?” He smirked and answered while holding his ass with both arms: “My back and my ass are getting stiff, that's why…” She laughed again, that's Arc for you… somehow he always makes her laugh, so after putting her sunglasses back on she too stood up and they began to walk around the park.

 

 

During the walk Arc began: “The reason why I can keep looking at you without being angry is because… well, why should I be angry? You did those things many years ago and even then you didn't have a choice in the matter… how can I hate you for something like that?” Kagura didn't say anything, she just fidgeted with her fingers… there was a moment of silence before Arc asked: “Umm… Kagura? It's been bothering me but… you know who I am now, so…” She figured out where he was going with this so she cut him off: “It's really hard to explain… but… to say it simply, I don't really hate your parents or anything… it is just that… after everything that happened in the past between the three of us, after I tried to kill them so many times they still took care of me for 2 years after I came to this era… I just didn't feel comfortable around them, it was just too much I guess… then there was the fact they had the complete Shikon no Tama and I still held influences from Naraku… (Arc growled at that name) so I couldn't trust myself to stay near the jewel without something bad happening… they had been so kind to me and… I just didn't want to cause anymore grief…”

 

 

Arc could hear and feel the strain in her voice, it hadn't been easy on her either to walk away from them like that… they stopped walking and he put his arms around her again, then pulled her against this chest and purred softly, trying to calm her down. Kagura felt the purr like vibration in his chest and it made her feel calm again, it had been painful talking about that time but… his purr just made all that melt away… she mouthed a `thank you' against his chest, making him smile.

 

 

After a moment she pulled away and smiled at him, then they resumed they're walk around the park, talking about various things they had seen and felt while she had been here at the modern era, though Arc mentioned that she shouldn't worry about the Shikon no Tama, his mother and father had told him they had already used it for something… though they never told him what did they use it for. They talked for an hour about everyday things and such, neither caring about the bigger problems at the moment, just enjoying an everyday talking… they eventually walked out of the park and stopped by at a coffee shop to grab something small to bite, after that, Arc got a message in his pager saying: “Working late, take care, love you. - mom” this meant both his mom and dad would be home really late… or not at all… today was Friday so he didn't have to worry about school tomorrow, so that meant he had pretty much the rest of the evening and night to spend with Kagura… he couldn't quite decide whether it was a good thing or a bad thing… though he wanted it to be a good thing.

 

 

After he had explained to Kagura that they had the rest of the evening to themselves, they decided to go back to Kagura's apartment… since she did feel a bit awkward about going back to Arcs house… or the shrine if you will. Before going back though, they decided to rent a movie or two, Arc had half suspected they would rent some kind of a tear jerker movie but VERY much to his surprise, they instead rented a classic action movie… she was a Youkai after all, not a human female so she needed to see some violence now and then… but they did rent a drama movie as well, which he had seen coming.

 

 

After getting some snacks too they were on they're way back… though VERY much to his displeasure his and Kagura's noses picked up that three people had been tailing them ever since they left the movie shop… Kagura did not know who they were but Arc explained that it was the schools gossip/rumour empress, Natsume… Arc had told Kagura about they're little… `talk' earlier that day, though he did cover the fact he had thought of Kagura as his mate and such… since he was still insecure about all this, that did make Kagura chuckle a bit because the image of Arc the timid little boy making someone feel the lord's wrath on they're necks was too much…

 

 

It had been a pure coincidence that Natsume had spotted the two of them, that much Arc knew as well as Kagura… she must have thought with her friends to tail them without being spotted… why though, he wasn't sure and didn't really care. He then tried to decide whether to confront those three again or just lose them… he looked at Kagura while holding one the bags where they had they're snacks and asked while rubbing his chin: “Kagura, it is obvious those three will follow us no matter what so… (Smirks) do you want to have fun messing with they're heads or shake them off our trail?”

 

 

She merely smirked as well and said: “Well, as much as I would LOVE to mess with they're heads… I don't want to ruin this evening by getting into some worthless bitch fight or something… so let's lose them.” Both smiled broadly and began to walk again, they could hear them walking a good distance from them and when both of them saw an alley ahead, they slipped into it and quickly used they're jumping abilities to reach the roofs of the apartment buildings in which between the alley was.

 

 

They looked down and saw the three of them look around confusedly, they had been so sure they had seen the two of them slipping into this alley… but instead both had disappeared like fart in the wind… Arc then decided to try something, Kagura looked at him curiously and he just winked at her, making her think that he really should decide whether be a timid little boy or a confident male…

 

 

As the three girls below walked a bit deeper into the alley, Arc let out a dog like growl, which echoed in the walls all the way down to the alley and it made all three of them look around in panic, it sounded like a bloodthirsty wild dog… Kagura was barely able to keep herself from laughing her ass off, Arc continued the growling and slowly reached out into her shopping bag and pulled out a bottle of ketchup (She needed to buy more of that, it was running out) and slowly opened it, making Kagura more confused, he then carefully aimed the bottle so a rather large drop would hit Natsume on the shoulder… as the drop prepared to drop out of the bottle, he changed the growling into barking and then into a sound of a dog attacking it's target, making the three girls look around in total panic and then Arc landed the last hit, he suddenly screamed like he was being attacked by a wild dog and made sounds of flesh ripping and then… the ketchup drop hit it's target, Natsume's shoulder… the effect looked like blood had hit her hard from some direction… it didn't take even 2 seconds until all three of them ran out screaming like there was no tomorrow…

 

 

(Pathetic joke… I know…)

 

 

Arc and Kagura were laughing they're asses or while clutching they're bellies at the roof top… both were also rolling on the ground and could feel they're ribs beginning to hurt… when they finally settled down, Kagura couldn't help but wonder… just how could Arc change that much in one day? Last time he had barely used any Youkai things and was like a shy little kid… now he was a confident male… she could never get enough of his personality, he was really one of a kind… then something hit her mind, a question that bugged her to no end… if Arc was this strong, how come he never used those abilities before?

 

 

After they settled down a bit, they decided to stick around the roof top for now, there was a nice breeze blowing so why waste it? They laid on the roof top, Arc was on his back and Kagura was snuggling against him, she felt so… girlish doing things like this with Arc, snuggling against him, leaning on him etc. but she didn't care, this sure was better than being alone… it felt so warm and good.

 

 

Kagura was making small circles on Arcs chest with her index finger and felt his muscles vibrate underneath her finger and he purred from the attention, this made her smile, she then stopped which made him grunt in displeasure… he opened his eyes to look at her and saw concern in them as she asked: “Arc… this may sound a bit personal but… why have you never used your Youkai traits or abilities before?” Arc visibly tensed and his eyes turned into sad ones, she regretted asking that but before she could say anything more he started: “It's not an easy topic for me… I'm only going to tell it once so don't interrupt me, okay?” She nodded and laid her head over his heart, making her own purr like vibration to ease his un-easiness like he had eased hers… it worked, not as well as his purr worked but it worked a little none of the less and he was grateful for that.

 

 

He began with a deep breath: “I never knew I had Youkai blood in me, I was just a regular kid with no worries what so ever… until after my 12th year birthday… I still remember it… some bullies I had had trouble with for a long while now ambushed me on my way home from school, normally my friends Shippo and Katou… you remember Shippo?” he asked suddenly, she thought for a minute and then nodded, he then smiled and continued: “Yeah… Shippo is still the regular trickster… anyway, normally those two would help me out since my Youkai blood did not do anything, so I couldn't defend myself properly… especially when they were older and there was always 3-4 of them…” He took another breath… then continued: “They ambushed me while I was alone and on my way home, they beat the crap out of me and taunted me to no end… then I remember one of them talking something about me being a weak, that I was so weak that I would forever be a mommas boy or something… I don't know why but that angered me to no end, probably because I have Tai-youkai blood and insulting it like that was the same as calling my parents weak as well as myself… i… I don't have a clear memory of what happened, I just remember an extreme level of hate and the feeling of beating someone… then there's a black out and the next thing I know is I wake up at home, with my parents looking worried like hell…” He turned his head to look up at the sky instead of her and sighed.

 

 

Arc then finished his story: “I don't want to go into detail, but after waking up I'm told that I beat the crap out all those bullies so badly they were currently in the hospital, which meant shit for me… not to mention that was the time I was told of my Youkai blood… it seemed like during the beating they gave me, I had lost my mind and my Youkai blood had taken over me… like my dad's did a few times back in the past, I was lucky that they awoke just then, had I been a year or two older I would have killed all those bullies… but least to say is, I hated them, my parents, my friends, everyone… they had all known about my blood and yet didn't ever tell me anything… it hurt me, I trusted them with my life and yet they had all been lying to me… I… didn't talk to my parents for a whole month, I didn't talk to anyone… I hated them all, I didn't want to ever even see them anymore…”

 

 

After saying that, Arc curled onto his side, trying to stop the tears from coming out… yet his shoulders and body trembled with pain from remembering all those feelings… Kagura felt bad for bringing that up, he had been shocked at that age and felt betrayed, it is heavy… especially for a inu youkai at that age, he had been a pup whose faith to his `pack' and parents had been iron hard… and when it was broken he must have felt horrible… no wonder he never used his abilities, they were like a direct link to that feeling of being betrayed… she slowly reached her arms around his waist and pressed her chest against his back, making him tense a bit but then her purring entered his back… it took away the tenses and the bad feeling in his chest… a few tears leaked out but he wasn't hurting anymore… she wanted to make him feel at ease, it wasn't fair that he could make her feel at ease and secure while he would suffer silently and she wouldn't be there to calm him…

 

 

He slowly eased her arms of his waist and turned around to face her, the lone tears were still slowly coming down and Kagura couldn't help but notice that even when in tears, he looked so adorable, like a little puppy… he said one last thing: “I wasn't ever going to use them, my abilities… but, when I saw you on the park bench that day, crying silently alone… I felt my blood stir, it wanted to comfort you… like I too wanted… then, when you ran off with those sad eyes, my blood and instincts took over, I found you and… well, here we are… I must thank you, if I hadn't met you on that day, I might never had accepted my blood and I would still be living a sad, devastated life…” He then suddenly pulled her into a tight hug letting the tears now drop freely, she responded to the hug and said with a warm voice: “Arc… I should be thanking you… I have been alone for so long, always having nightmares about that asshole… that day at the park when we met, I was already considering suicide… just to stop all this pain and insanity… but, meeting you gave me something to go on for, to meet you today… that was more than I could have ever asked…” She finished with a soft sigh.

 

 

Neither said anything else, there was no need… they just laid there on they're sides and held one another, keeping each other convinced that this was real, that both were really there… If someone was looking at the moment, they could see a purple silver aura glowing around the two of them…

 

 

After several minutes, both got up and cleaned some dust of they're clothes and shook they're heads to straighten they're thoughts. As they were picking up they're things, Arc suddenly remembered something from the story his dad and mom had told him… he briefly wondered and thought about and then decided to try it, he turned to Kagura and asked with a small grin: “Ehh… Kagura? There is something I would like to try with you… I heard about it from my parents and it's killing me to try it…” Kagura looked at him with an raised eyebrow and was wondering what he was talking about… but her curiosity got the best of her and she nodded.

 

 

*About 40 seconds later.*

 

 

Kagura must have been blushing 10 shades of red right about now… this had to be the most embarrassing, interesting and yet at the same time one of the best feelings she has ever felt… truth to be told, she had always wondered what it would be like to do this, since after seeing Inuyasha and Kagome do it so many times she had been just dying to know what it would be like… she could do it by herself with her feather but she wasn't expecting it to feel THIS great…

 

 

Arc was chuckling to himself, so this is why his dad always had insisted on doing this with her mother all those years ago… the feeling and the rush it gave him were simply superb… who could have thought that carrying Kagura on his back like this would produce so many different feelings? (Were you surprised? Like father, like son they say…) To hold her against his back and jump across the rooftops like this… this was so good and fun… no wonder his mom and dad had always enjoyed it… though one thing did make it feel a bit weird and slightly un-comfortable: Her breasts were rubbing against his back through all the clothing they had… it made his head dizzy… which wasn't good at this situation, one misstep could be rather bad…

 

 

Kagura was in a similar state, this was one of the greatest feelings she had ever felt, sure she flew around with her feather a lot but somehow, riding on Arcs back like this made her feel so much better than on her feather… must be because she could feel his body against hers, even when fully clothed she could still feel his back rubbing against her chest and it felt sooo hot… she literally had to bite the inside of her mouth to keep her arousal in control, so they wouldn't accidentally drop or something…

 

 

The arrived at Kagura's apartment (Both sighed with both relief and disappointment, since that had been nice…) and entered through the balcony, right after entering Arc stopped and took a deep breath, then just remained silent for a moment with his eyes closed… The silence was making Kagura rather nervous since she had no idea what he was thinking right now… so she a bit hesitantly put her arm on his shoulder while his back was facing her and asked: “Arc… what's wrong?” Almost right after she asked that he put his own arm over hers and said with a sigh: “It's just that… this is the second time I'm here and I still entered through the balcony… deja-vu…”

 

 

Both chuckled at that one, he then added with a bit more serious voice: “But… I'm sorry about that time… I just entered like a burglar and we almost… you know…” He couldn't face her, his own face was burning with a VERY interesting shade of red and he kept scolding himself for going that far at that time…

 

 

Kagura too blushed a bit, it had indeed been a really interesting, confusing and weird experience… though, had it not happened, she would be dead right now since it had happened while she had been preparing to kill herself… she had panicked though when the memories of what that mother fucker Naraku did to her on that day re-surfaced like that but maybe that had been a blessing in disguise since… even though it was an embarrassing thought and it made her feel like a romantic fool or to be more accurate, a regular woman…. but what she had been thinking afterwards was that if… and empathizing the word IF… she ever would go all the way with Arc, even if she would never be his, she wanted to do it while being herself… not in a state of Youkai lust but being herself without succumbing to her instincts, to feel everything from start to finish… it sounded stupid and like some teenage girls day dream but then again… who wouldn't want to feel special even just for one night?

 

 

She slowly pressed herself against his back with her arms around him and said with a sigh against his shoulder: “Don't be sorry about it… if anything, I should thank you for it… even though I wasn't myself at that time… it made me feel cared for, something I have longed for so long now…” Arc bit back a low growl for feeling her breath on his neck, not to mention her chest being pressed against his back, her words were literally echoing in his heart… he was glad he could make her feel good and happy but… he couldn't help but to feel bad that he had caused some extremely evil memories to surface in her mind, so as he slowly turned around so they were face to face he put his arms around her waist and back to pull her against him (Man, they do that a lot now huh?) and said with a low voice: “But… I caused you to remember something you didn't want to remember… even if I wasn't myself or didn't know about it, I feel horrible for causing it… they way you panicked scared me, i never want that to happen again, to make you feel panicked like that…” He empathized just how horrible he had felt by pressing her tighter against himself and purred softly.

 

 

The purring made Kagura feel so warm, she truly wished that this would be forever, that they could belong to one another, mind, body and soul… but she had buried those hopes, at very least, they could be together like this… though, the words he said at the park and the things she did last night when he left made her feel small amount of hope but she didn't want to raise them… for she didn't want to feel false hope…

 

 

She really loved Arc, she was sure of it… it wasn't because of his strength or looks… it was simply because he just was who he was, sometimes a timid little boy and when needed a strong male with confidence and tenderness that would make anyone fall for him… even now he was so sincere and kind, not to mention she could simply FEEL his concern and attempts to reach out into her own heart and take away all those bad memories… she felt like crying… but held back, crying wouldn't help anything… no, tonight she would just be a normal woman without worries or regrets and simply spend time with the man she loved… or in this case, the `boy' she was in love with… she snickered mentally at that one…

 

 

She then answered to him: “Don't blame yourself… it was horrible for me too to remember but… because you were there to calm me down, it was worth it… it was the first time someone cared for me and… when you held me and I cried against you, I felt so relieved… I didn't have to cry alone…” Arc could feel and smell small tears from her, he had made her cry again… he hated himself for it… (Like father like son, that's the iron rule.) so he slowly pulled her head back to look at her red eyes, he could see small tears slowly making they're way down her cheeks, he wanted to make them stop… so he slowly moved his thumb to gently wipe them off with such gentleness that his touch felt like a soft wind caressing her cheeks… he then put his forehead against hers and said with a warm smile: “Kagura… no matter what happens from now on, I don't care what happens or someone does, if you ever… and I mean EVER need someone to talk to or just need a shoulder to cry on… I'll be there, no matter what I'll be there… so don't force yourself to take everything on by yourself, okay?”

 

 

That… was too much for her, this was also something Kagura could never understand… how could Arc make her feel so many different things? He could make her feel happy, he could make her laugh, feel safe and cared for… not to mention this, what she was now feeling: Overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with happiness, relief, trust and love… all those at the same time, it was too much for anyone, even for a full blooded Youkai to handle at once… she could feel her eyes and heart trembling with so many things, her mind was also screaming at her to let it go, to let him know just what happened on that day… what that bastard did to her… but a part was scared about what would happen, what if…? She didn't have time to think about that because his voice pierced her thoughts, it was full of concern: “Kagura…? What's wrong? Did… did I say something wrong…?” That was it, she felt the wall that kept that feeling away breaking fast and she needed to let it out… so without thinking at all, she flung herself forward, wrapping her arms around his neck and pressed herself against him (How many times will they do this…?).

 

 

Arc was taken completely by surprise when she flung herself at him, making him lose his balance and stagger backwards until his feet hit the arm of the couch and he fell on his back onto the couch with Kagura on top of him, trembling and sobbing… his mind was drawing blanks since he had no idea what was going on… but his instincts did tell him to do one thing: Hold her, make her calm down, so he obeyed and put his arms around her and cradled her against himself… trying to ease her distress…

 

 

This lasted for about a minute until Kagura's sobbing began to settle down but she was still trembling, Arc didn't say anything since he didn't know what to say… he just kept holding her but this time he began to purr once again, it had some of the desired effect, she began to calm down but wouldn't stop trembling or loosen her hold on his neck, she kept her head buried on his chest and he could feel her lips moving, as if trying to say something but nothing came out… so Arc trusted his instincts once again (He's doing that a lot, have you noticed that?) and slowly sat up with her on his lap and slowly pulled her head away from his chest so he could see her and before she had any chance to think or respond, he pressed his lips on hers… not too roughly so he wouldn't scare her but instead tenderly and lovingly, waiting for her response…

 

 

Kagura had been a bit scared when he suddenly got up and pulled her head away from his chest, she had thought she'd done something wrong but that thought disappeared when his lips descended on hers and held her there, tenderly and lovingly… she could feel his You-Ki entering her being and make contact with her own You-Ki… this sensation was unbelievable for her, in an instant, all her fears and pains were washed away and replaced with warmth and feelings that were completely indescribable… she responded to his kiss while closing her eyes with the same tenderness and love as his… She could feel his You-Ki wrapping around hers and she felt her own You-Ki respond and wrap itself around his without hesitation and it only added to the warmth inside her heart and soul, she then realised what this was…

 

 

This was not an ordinary kiss, this was a `Soul calmer'… a kiss that only mates or soul mates could perform, it was meant to be performed if either side was distressed about something and could not speak about it, in other words, Arc's `Soul' was now entering her own `Soul' to see what was wrong… this made her feel so many different things, confusion, warmth, hesitation and so many other things… but only one thing penetrated all those: Hope.

 

 

(Warning: Mentioning of Rape ahead, nothing detailed but still… read at your own risk…)

 

 

It was not describable what happened next by words alone… it was as if… watching a movie of some sort… or in this case, a memory, a very painful one at that… she wasn't sure how she was seeing it or how was it possible to even see it but… she was scared and terrified, this was the one memory that she never wanted to remember again, yet… she knew she had to face it or it would haunt her for the rest of eternity…

 

 

The day it happened had been ordinary, Naraku had cooked up some half-wit plot to destroy Inuyasha and the rest of them and as usual Kagura herself and Kanna were sent to see it happened according to plan… which naturally failed and they got they're asses kicked, it failed mostly because Kagura had `accidentally' failed it… she had done it simply out of spite she held for Naraku… but after returning to he castle Naraku had summoned her, to punish her for failure as usual… she was used to it by now, the torture he gave her was a routine now and held nothing to be surprised about… how wrong she had been on that day, if she had known… no, even if she had known what could she have done? It would have made no difference…

 

 

Kagura had entered Naraku's chamber, nothing new about that… but before she had had the chance to do anything else, the place where her heart was supposed to be was suddenly filled with pain, unbelievable pain…

 

 

She couldn't watch this, no… she couldn't… it was too much, she just wanted to shut this out, to forget… then she felt another presence there, if her You-Ki was red and black coloured, this one was silver, white and blue coloured… like a god of some sort… it cradled her aura into it's own and soothed it wordlessly… =Arcerdo…= the name echoed in her soul, giving her the strength and willpower to raise herself to watch, with him by her side…

 

 

Kagura had passed out from the pain and had woken up on Naraku's bed, naked, she had tried to move but as soon as she did, her heart(?) was filled with that same pain once again, making her just grunt and lay back down… that's when he came into view, naked as the day he was born… she had tried again to move but the same pain just kept being repeated… making it impossible to run… he had then told her that she had failed for the last time, that this was her punishment… he said many other things as well but what he said lastly made Arcs aura darken with hatred, he had said that this was also a small sample of what her role would be when the jewel was in his hands…

 

 

Kagura couldn't watch any further, she simply hid herself on Arcs aura and heard as Naraku took her without mercy… how he ripped through her virginity and made her feel pain that was easily comparable to hell… it went on for at least 2 hours, until he finally reached his climax and just before he came he pulled out and instead came onto her stomach, making her feel even more tainted… she was in and out of conscience from the immense pain he had inflicted… then he had said with a sadistic grin: “Even if you escape me, no one will ever want you, I made sure of that…”

 

 

(Sorry, I hated to write that… but it was inevitable, hope you won't flame me for it…)

 

 

Kagura slowly opened her eyes, her head was against Arc's chest and her eyes were glittering with tears… he knew now, he knew just what that asshole had done… she couldn't lift her head to face him, she felt so ashamed… she couldn't help it, she had been raped by that asshole and could do nothing about it, like a helpless human she had just taken it and hoped it would end… what caught her by surprise was to the scent that hit her nose, tears… not her own… but his… she slowly lifted her head to watch him and saw small tears in his eyes and he was gritting his teeth together, then something hit her, why wasn't she feeling any pain in her heart or mind? Sure tears were coming out but no mental pain was there… then she realised it, Arc… he was without really knowing taking her pain into himself… to shield her from it…

 

 

Thousands of thoughts ran through Arcs head, most of them were about but butchering a certain asshole… but mostly they were about just how badly Kagura had been hurt… he wished more than anything that he could go back in time into that moment and stop it… to stop it from happening… he couldn't help it, a few tears escaped his eyes… he tried to say something but couldn't, the feelings that rushed through him were too intense, the pain, the aftermath… everything, it was too much… his eyes were screwed shut and he kept gritting his teeth and could swear if he gritted any harder his gums would break… then something warm touched his cheek, he stopped his gritting and tensed up, the warm feeling was moving up and down his cheek and then moved to the other… he slowly cracked his eyes open and his heart stopped from what he saw: Kagura was… licking away the tears?

 

 

Arc was dead still, he had no idea what was going on but… somewhere in his instincts his Youkai side was VERY pleased… it also said something about this being a mates way of showing affection or gratitude for something… this time he didn't object about the `mate' part, it did sound nice, not to mention after what he just saw he was sure of one thing, this wasn't simply lust he felt, if it was… it would have died down from seeing her being taken by someone else… instead of feeling revolted of being near her he was now more determined than ever to make sure she would be happy… no matter what…

 

 

As Kagura kept licking away his tears he began to purr once again, to let her know he was greatly enjoying this… this made her smile and after she was done she kissed him on the nose and said with tears in her own eyes (Man, they cry a lot huh?): “Thank you… Arc… I… I am so happy… that I met you…” She then slowly closed her eyes as the overwhelming feeling of happiness rushed through her, she was just so overwhelmed, Arc had just done something… something so great for her that she was sure that even if she lived forever there was no way she could ever repay him for it… he had literally, taken the heaviest of falls for her, without a second thought… it was more than she could have ever dreamed about anything.

 

 

Arc saw her tears but this time didn't feel bad, his purifying side could feel the feelings rushing through her, she was happy… he was glad… but, his instincts were telling him to repay her for showing affection and gratitude towards him so he slowly moved his to hers and started licking away her tears, they tasted salty but also held in them the emotions of what she felt… all in all, they tasted rather sweet…

 

 

Kagura tensed a bit as his tongue made contact with her cheek, but being a full Youkai made it easier for her to adapt into this… he was showing his affection now… his tenderness… his tongue felt rough, like a dogs but it felt so good, it made her skin tingle and goose bumps were going up and down her body, she too began to purr and could feel him smiling from that.

 

 

As he stopped licking her tears away, he then without really thinking moved his mouth over hers once again and kissed her, she gasped but didn't waste a second before responding into it, they clutched onto one another as the kiss changed from tender to passionate and finally it became a battle for dominance, she was sitting on his lap and tried to push him down onto his back but Arcs instincts as a Tai-Youkai kicked in slightly and he instead pushed her down onto her back, making him straddle her hips without breaking the kiss, both moaned into each others mouths as they're tongues were entwining with one another to taste each other deeply.

 

 

When they finally broke free for air, both were panting heavily and were a bit disappointed that they had to break apart… yet, they both knew that should this keep up, they're Youkai lust would flare up again… then Arc realised something and said with a grin: “Déjà vu…” Kagura looked at him with a confused face, after seeing it he chuckled and said: “Well, this is the second time I'm here, on this couch, with you below me and were already starting to go at it again… (Both chuckle, then he frowns) not to mention I made you remember those memories again…” He looked away ashamed and sad, which just tugged another smile at Kagura's lips, she then turned his head towards hers and gave him a quick kiss and said with a low chuckle: “That is true… but, you also helped me face them… for that, I can't express how much it meant to me…” He then rolled them over so they were on they're sides staring at each other, neither said or thought anything, just stared each and let they're feelings be enough…

 

 

They stayed like that for about 10 minutes, then they both remembered that they had rented those movies and the things they've bought, so they slowly but reluctantly got up and started putting things ready for the evening, Arc had removed his jacket, leaving his upper body covered with only in his black and white t-shirt.

 

 

The sun was starting to set by the time they had finished watching the movies, the action movie was interesting because the stunt moves that were pulled in them were so ridiculous and the two of them ended up making bets that which were possible to perform without special effects and what were not… it was a laugh when Arc screwed up somewhere around 7/10 of all the moves they bet on…

 

 

The drama movie had been rather typical but they still found it fascinating, since they're situation had been rather similar… not to the letter but you get the idea… and in the end they started talking about how movies really do mimic real life sometimes and that not everything you see in the movies are purely fictional… well after considering that both of them were Youkais from the past and at one of they're homes there was a well that would take you 500 years to the past… so the next time they were watching a fantasy movie or a movie about some kind of supernatural things… well, they should consider just how much of it hits the spot and what parts miss the spot.

 

 

It was getting late, the sun had already began to set and Kagura was currently taking a shower and Arc knew that he should call his parents soon and tell them just how much longer he would be here… that was when his pager went off again and it read: “IF YOU COME BACK HOME NOW, U R FUKD AND DEAD, BRAT - dad, *grin*” He sweat dropped, was his dad implying what he thought he was implying…? That freaking bastard… He knew more than he had let out! But… wait a minute, how the hell did he know that he was about to come home? Then the pager went off again it read: “YOU'RE SO PREDICTABLE, THAT'S HOW - dad”

 

 

… Okay, now he was getting scared… how did his dad know what he was thinking? Then the pager went off for the third time and he was a bit hesitant to read it… but curiosity got the best of him and he checked it, it read: “IT WAS JUST COMICAL RELIEF, IGNORE IT AND GET ON WITH THE STORY - the author, Zelix” He just made a silent `oh' and breathed out with relief…

 

 

(Sorry, I had to do that)

 

 

So, his dad hadn't only given him permission to stay here for the night but it was more like an order… he needed to ask Kagura about this too but that had to wait for now. Arc looked at the apartment from where he was sitting in the living room, he hadn't paid much attention to it when he was first here because… well, you know… but now he was taking a more careful look at it, it was nice, clean and could easily support a small group of people… but… with his purifying side he could feel the old emotions that were hanging in the air… and it made him frown, there was nothing but sadness and loneliness in this entire apartment's atmosphere, it was thicker in certain spots and unbearable at other points… but, the couch where he was sitting at right now, it was the only point that held different emotions, such as happiness and it made him smile because he knew he had been the cause of it.

 

 

He closed his eyes for a moment and let his Youkai and Purifying side feel the emotions floating around this spot… all of them were new and each of them made him smile, he made a small mental promise that he would make the sad atmosphere in this place go away, it would take time but he would make it go away… that was when his instincts were hit with a new feeling, he couldn't place what it was but it… made him feel… un-easy… like it was… teasing his nerves and mind, as if luring and calling him… letting his instincts guide him his gaze followed where the feeling was and where it was going, it lead into a room… that must be Kagura's bedroom… he knew he shouldn't enter it without asking her but… he wasn't in control of his body anymore so without thinking he slowly entered the room…

 

 

His nose was assaulted with a river of scents, paint, pencils, notebooks… they made his nose hurt and his eyes became un-focused… he quickly covered his nose for a moment so he could get used to this crazy amount of scents. After a minute or two his nose calmed down, his gaze became focused again and he looked around the room, it was quite nice… there were self-made paintings hanged here and there, he could tell because they all held Kagura's scent in them and the smell of the same paints that this room held… the bed itself was rather large, probably because of the nightmares she had, they would make her twist and turn so much that had the bed been smaller she would fall off… the thought made him frown again, the bed held the strongest amount of that sadness he felt everywhere around her apartment… he wondered what it would be like to hold her while laying down on that big, soft and warm looking bed… he shook his head, he wasn't sure if that was meant to be perverted or just comfortable…

 

 

When Arcs gaze turned a bit more, he saw another painting… it was new, just recently made… it was… a portrait, of a person… or something that looked like a person… it was extremely well made, it looked like it was alive, the colouring and everything just made it look so alive he felt that if he touched it then it would move or react somehow… whoever the person was, he looked familiar… in the portrait he was standing with his arms crossed and was dressed in what looked like a kimono from the warring states… black coloured with white outlines and had two red Kanji's on it's chest parts, he wasn't an expert but the one over the persons heart meant `Engetsu' (Crescent moon) and the one over his right part of the chest meant `Fuyubi' (Winter Sun)… lastly, at the figures back there were two katana swords, the crossed one another forming an X.

 

 

The scenery behind the figure was a snowy land, with a full moon shining, around this person was an empty village and he stood in the middle of it, like a guardian… he looked at the persons face, it was tickling his nerves… he knew this guy but, he was clearly a Youkai or at least partly Youkai, his eyes and facial marks gave that away… silver eyes, cool but highly unusual colour… then it hit him… his breath was caught in his throat, he took a step back and tried to make his breathing calm down, this guy… this guy was he himself, Arc! But… how… how could this be him? He didn't have silver eyes or facial tattoos like that! But… he just knew, that was him… is that what… his Youkai traits would look like? They were damn cool… those patterns and those claw like cuts running across his eyes, man… with those kind of marks he would be the `gothic king' of his school…

 

 

But… how was a painting like this in Kagura's room? Did she do this? But how… how could she have known he looked like this? Even he himself didn't know what he looked like with his traits since he had no idea how to bring them out! Then his eyes landed on the drawing/writing table behind the painting, he shouldn't have but he still did walk to it and looked at what was on it… there were sketches, lot's of them, piled up… at first there were regular sketches about different sceneries and people but after about five of them he found something that made his heart stop… there, right there was a sketch of himself and Kagura, sitting on some grassy hill, watching the sunset…

 

 

(I would like this moment to apologise to the author `Hanyou Slave', I got this idea from your fic `Sketches'… I hope you don't mind, I just couldn't resist, it fitted here so damn perfectly… if you're offended I apologise deeply.)

 

 

Arc felt his heart becoming warm, even if they were only sketches, they were damn nicely done… the four that followed were also nice, one was a single picture of Arc without a shirt (Which made him blush), the next one was about him again, it was a picture of him with a small leather jacket but no undershirt, it made him chuckle, he looked like some sort of a stripper… but if it was for her eyes it might be fun… he shook his head again, damn, his thoughts were really getting out of control… the next one though really caught him off guard, they were both in it except they were dressed in some formal, ceremonial like looking old fashioned kimonos and were dancing, like a royal couple or something… he had to remember that one for later.

 

 

Last one was about both of them again, it made him smile… he was holding and kissing her with a crescent moon behind them, she had a tear running down her eye and was holding him as well… he wondered though, when did she draw all these? From they're scent he could tell they were done with haste and when one was done the other was started… she drew all these with speed like that and they were this beautiful? She was a bloody genius, or then just had incredible talent for this… he then noticed that there were more of them, he hesitated a bit… should he really be doing this? Going through her stuff and works like this… well, considering all her sketches were about the two of them… what would the harm in it be? It might give him the idea of what to do when they met the next time…

 

 

With that, he looked at the next one and after seeing it, he was sure his heart skipped a beat. He felt his cheeks light up with heat, his Youkai side was now more interested as well about these sketches… the sketch he saw was… a… very detailed picture of both of them naked in a spring, kissing with passion and rubbing against one another, even if it was a picture he could literally FEEL the heat and passion emitting from it, which made his `little brother' twitch with interest… the next one was yet another sketch about them naked, he was laying on his back on a grassy field and she was on top of him and the wind was whipping her long hair (After loosening the bundle holding it) and her eyes were half closed from the heated passion… this one made his Youkai side make wolf whistles and his human side was not faring any better…

 

 

The next one was even more heated, in this one he had her against a wall with her legs around his waist and her head was thrown back from the pleasure with him attacking her throat… the last one though, made his raging desire calm down a bit and was replaced with a loving feeling, the last sketch was both of them on the bed of her room, naked with her cuddling against him with a sweaty skin, his skin was sweaty too and one of his arms was around her while the other's fingers were entwined with her own fingers, then at the bottom was a text, or more like they're words and then a title, after reading them, he felt something inside him:

 

 

Kagura: “I love you Arc…”

Arc: “I love you too… my mate.”

Title: “Dream that will never be…”

 

 

Arc was completely still, his brain, heart, body and soul were all frozen… this was too much… this was the answer… this was the answer to the most critical question he had in his entire being… he couldn't help it, he felt a tear of relief coming down from his eye, accompanied by a feeling that made his body and soul feel like he had just entered a place of extreme happiness… he had found his soul mate, no doubt about it… then a voice broke him out of his thoughts, it was her voice, small and un-steady, she said: “Arc…? What are you…?” Arc turned his head and saw her there, his heart began to beat faster at the sight of her: Her hair was not tied with into a bundle, it was almost waist long and was glistening with water drops from the shower, the black texture made it look so mesmerizing… she was dressed only in a bathrobe, loosely tied up but still covering her, her eyes were looking at him with mixed feelings but one thing he did see clearly: She was uncertain, most likely because this was a point where you really didn't know what to think, you know, a guy you've dreamed about finds sketches you've made and where you've drawn you're deepest fantasies in? They had known only for a day but well, when you're a Youkai and it's your soul mate, things evolve rather quickly.

 

 

Kagura just stood there, not knowing what to think… she had been in the shower and thought about things, mostly on how much she loved Arc… then to the fact that he had performed `soul calmer' that only mates or soul mates could perform, he had used it without knowing it but he did it anyway… were they really…? But… Arc was mostly human and capable of using purifying powers so maybe it wasn't because of them being soul mates but because of that… it saddened her, almost to the brink of tears but… at least, at the very least, he would be there… he had said it himself, no matter what happens he would be there… that was enough… with that she had exited the shower and after drying some of her hair with her wind abilities and putting on her bathrobe she had left the bathroom only to find Arc gone…

 

 

At first Kagura had thought he had left because his time was up but there was no scent of him that went towards the apartment door, so he was still here… but where? That's when his scent hit her nose, it was coming from her room… a cold feeling hit her heart, she had not put away all those sketches and that portrait yet! So after entering her room with an un-easy feeling in her entire body, her fears were confirmed, Arc stood there, looking through her sketches… with a myriad of different feelings running through his face… she wanted to be angry at him for entering her room without permission and going through her stuff like that but… she couldn't… she felt like a deer in the headlights, what would he think about her now? They had known only for a day and now he had literally seen just how badly she needed him… she saw a tear in his eye but couldn't decide if it was because he was disgusted or something else… she was uncertain… she wished with that time would stop right now or that the earth would open and swallow her up…

 

 

Neither moved, they were so deeply absorbed into they're own worlds and thoughts… Arc knew that this was most likely the most critical moment ever, any wrong thing he said now or any wrong action he took would have an everlasting effect on what would happen between him and her… his human side was uncertain of what to do, it had absolutely no idea what to do or say… his Youkai side was more certain on what to do and say but that's exactly what Arc feared, what his Youkai side would do actually? What would it say? Could he trust his Youkai blood enough to let it guide him? But… what if…? He then saw her eyes turn sadder… NO! She mustn't be sad anymore! With that desperate thought, he let his Youkai side take over… but, if this ended badly because of it, he swore he would personally cut his arm open and drain all of his Youkai blood out…even if it killed him.

 

 

The silence had a bad effect on Kagura, he hadn't said anything or even taken a step towards her… he must be thinking she is obsessed with him or something… well, it was partially true that she was but she is a Youkai so it's different for her… then, just as she began to feel sadness rising in her heart once again, she was just about ready to say something but before she could even blink, he was standing right in front of her and gently but firmly pressed her against the wall behind her, she was both confused and slightly panicked about what he was doing but before any of that could grow he pressed his lips onto hers firmly and lifted her slightly off the ground to trap her between himself and the wall.

 

 

At first she had been shocked about what he was doing and wanted to run, she had seen the look in his eyes, his Youkai side was kicking in and… but, right after his lips touched hers, he pulled her up and trapped her between the wall and himself, that was the point where she was getting really scared… but then, his purring… he purred against her lips and chest, the vibrations that were sent through his t-shirt and through her bathrobe, they made her calm down… her Youkai instincts told her that this was not a purr of pleasure, but a plead from a male that the female would relax and calm down… that he didn't want to her to be sad or scared… in other words, he was asking her to trust him… and she did.

 

 

Arc felt her purr against his lips and her body becoming less tense, he was relieved… then he felt her purr turn into a low whimper, his own instincts told her it was her plead from her to him to comfort her, he wasn't going to deny her, not a snow balls chance in hell for that to happen…

 

 

Kagura pressed herself against Arc, making her bathrobe open slightly, he moved his arms to her legs to wrap them around his waist, she immediately complied and wrapped them around him tightly, pressing him closer to her and both separated to hiss through they're teeth as his hard member touched her through his pants, making both of them blush slightly but that didn't stop her from wrapping her arms around his neck to pull him into another kiss, except this time it was demanding and passionate, his arms went around her lower and upper back to pull her closer as he too applied pressure to the kiss, both were purring and moaning into the kiss, they're eyes were closed and they're tongues were already battling it out, making his member harder and her womanhood to become more hot and wet… this time she didn't even try to hide her aroused scent and from the scent around them, neither was he… they wanted one another, they wouldn't deny or even try to deny it anymore…

 

 

After what seemed like forever, they finally parted and panted with flushed faces, they're eyes were liquid like from the desire they felt for each other but even if they wanted each so badly, the Youkai lust was not flaring up, meaning this wasn't a simple act of raw desire but instead it was deep, passionate love…

 

 

Arc took a breath, now was the time, the time to say what he felt and wanted, there was no more doubt left… he then put his head on her shoulder and breathed onto her skin, making her shiver with delight and asked with a warm voice: “Kagura… those sketches… is that what you want? Do you want me as much as I want you?” Kagura drew in a breath from his words, she then pressed her own face into his shoulder and said with a tiny, low voice: “Y… yes… I want… no, I… NEED… you, Arc… I need you so badly… please…” He then pulled away from the wall, with her still wrapped tightly around him and using his Youkai abilities he, sort of like, `glided' onto the bed and sat down in the middle of it and gently loosened her legs around him and before she could protest or say anything he turned her around so she was still sitting on his lap but with her back against his chest, he immediately started kissing her neck and she moaned in delight, arching her head sideways to give him better access as her pulse and breathing fastened…

 

 

Kagura was trembling slightly, these feelings were so new to her… new and so good, she never wanted this to end… yet, she wanted more… his lips were kissing and sucking up and down her throat, occasionally using his now lengthened fangs to graze her skin, making her cry out of bliss and her arousal was only getting heavier… she wrapped one of her arms around his neck to keep him there and kept panting, mewing and moaning out of heated, passionate pleasure…

 

 

Arc loved the taste of her skin, so fresh, addictive and completely indescribable in words… her moaning and pleading was only making it all the more better… his Youkai blood was howling with delight and kept chanting `mine' over and over, it felt so right… his arms weren't still either, they gently started to remove her bathrobe, her free arm was not staying still either, it reached out behind him tug at his t-shirt and she let out a whimper… wanting to feel his skin against hers… he parted his lips from her throat to pull his t-shirt away, taking his pants off as well, leaving him in his boxers.

 

 

Kagura mewed in protest when his lips left her throat but instead of just waiting she got up slightly and removed her bathrobe so it was down to her waist line, leaving her bare chest and back for all the room to see… she then remembered the scars that covered her back and arms… not to mention her chest and instantly felt her eyes being filled with un-shed tears… how she wished that those scars and marks were to disappear… she then felt two strong arms wrapping around her stomach and heard his voice whispering to her in concern, having smelled her tears: “What is wrong? Why are you crying…?” She turned her head slightly to look into his obsidian black eyes, those eyes that were now filled with worry… she turned her gaze down onto her palms she was squeezing together and said with a broken and cracking voice: “I… I feel so hideous… (Few tears drop now) my body… it's permanently scarred… I hate it, every time I… I look into the mirror and see them… I can hear him laughing and… (starts trembling)… and mocking me, mocking me for my efforts to be… to… be… free… of him… he will always be here… I can… never escape him…” She then covered her face with her palms and sobbed, she couldn't help it…

 

 

Arc felt his Youkai side trembling with fury, how dare that asshole scar what was his?! He then heard her sobbing and the scent of her tears made him calm down, that asshole was gone and there was nothing he could do to him anymore, instead, he had to make sure his presence would never haunt his mate anymore… that's when his purifying powers and his Youkai blood got an idea, Kagura's body could not heal those scars on they're own since he could smell the poison that was used to make them, it reeked of negative things… creepy shit… but… that's where his idea kicked in…

 

 

Kagura's sobs were suddenly stopped when she felt him pull away slightly to touch one of the scars on her back, his touch… it was so… warm and soothing… it made her tears dry up slowly and succumb to the wonderful sensation, so wonderful that her eyes closed and her breathing was coming out in calm, even breaths… she felt his arms move up and down her back, making her arch her back slightly and moan… she could feel his aura coming in contact with hers but… there was something else in it now… something… pure and… warm…

 

 

Arc smiled to himself, it was working, he didn't know how he did this but it was working… when he was done he pulled Kagura to him again and began to kiss her neck and shoulder, using his tongue and teeth to make her cry out yet again and arch deeper against his chest, her arms wrapping around his neck, she was mewing and panting again as her arousal filled the air in the room, making him grunt and growl, his self control was slipping but he needed just a bit more time…

 

 

Kagura had her eyes tightly closed from the feelings and sensations Arc was invoking inside her body, then her breath was caught in her throat when his arms slid up and down her stomach and ribs, the same sensation as he had invoked when he had done the same to her back was returning… it was so good it was getting unbearable, her arousal was so heavy now it was making her core hot, wet and achingly painful with need… Naraku may have given her pain, taken her purity but all that didn't matter one bit, she was so hot and ready for Arc… she wanted, needed and was already willing to start begging for him to take her…

 

 

Kagura surprised Arc a bit when she turned his head towards hers and initiated the most aggressive, demanding and heated kiss neither had performed so far, she was desperate to alleviate the throbbing in her womanhood and the kiss was distracting her slightly from it… Arc answered to the kiss with the same aggression, demand and heat, making it turn into a war, instead of battle between tongues…

 

 

Kagura could not believe these sensations, Arcs hands and tongue were working magic on her entire body and core, it was maddening! His arms moved slowly and steadily all over her body but it felt like his hands were everywhere, satisfying her every need and sensitive spot, it was as if he had more than two arms… but none of them touched her in he places she wanted to be touched, it was as if he was teasing her to the limit of her control and sanity…

 

 

Arc smirked against her mouth, it was done, he could feel it… he wanted to tell right away but he could smell her extremely heavy arousal and the pleading whimpers and mews against his mouth told him to satisfy his soon-to-be mate before telling her anything… so without further hesitation he moved both of his arms to cup her full breasts and gave them a gentle, yet firm squeeze and began to knead them in synch with his tongues movements.

 

 

Kagura pulled out of his mouth and cried out towards the ceiling… that felt so good… just the right spot… she couldn't believe how well Arc was giving her pleasure like this… then he pinched her nipples slightly, making her cry out his name in a lust filled voice, as his mouth descended down onto her throat once again, his right arm left her breast, making her whimper in protest but that soon turned into another cry out of pure pleasure as his hand travelled down onto her womanhood and cupped it, firmly.

 

 

Arc was not sure how he knew all this, all these ways to pleasure her… he was just doing what his instincts were telling him to do and he was glad he did it… her sounds of pleasure and pleading were only making his Youkai blood growl and howl with delight and pride.

 

 

Kagura could feel tears coming out of her eyes, not of pain but from agonizingly pure pleasure… his hand cupping her breast and the other rubbing her aching womanhood was simply too much, it was so good it made her cry out tears of pure happiness and pleasure… the feeling only heightened when she felt him lapping away the tears rolling down her cheeks, he didn't stop there though, he kept cleaning her face with his rough yet warm tongue and she simply loved the attention, it was making her more aroused than before…

 

 

When she felt an unknown feeling beginning to gather in her stomach, like something huge, hot and painful was beginning to wind up tightly, ready to explode… it got higher and higher as he kept up is tongue and hand ministrations, she was silently begging for more… then he suddenly stopped, she growled and grunted in protest, he pulled his hands away from both her womanhood and breasts and slowly turned her around, he used his hands to remove her bathrobe completely before laying her down onto her back, her body was trembling for being left like that… she asked with a weak, pleading voice: “Wh… why did you stop…?” He simply kissed her tenderly and said with a warm, small smile: “Be patient, you'll feel wonderful soon…” with that, he lowered his head and took one of her breasts into his mouth, making her arch her back of the bed into his mouth, she tried to scream out his name but her voice was caught in her throat…

 

 

Arc wanted to taste her breasts longer but his mates need was now almost painful so quickly lowered himself so he was facing her dripping, hot and wet womanhood, the scent of her arousal was intense, he was growling from it and relying on his instincts once again he took a small, quick lick of her entrance and was hooked to the taste on that instant… he saw her arch her hips from the touch so her took a hold of her hips to keep her in place and she said with a low, pleading voice: “Please… Arc…” He didn't want to deny her, so he dipped his tongue against her moist, hot and dripping entrance and began to run his tongue in circles, getting more and more aroused by her taste and scent.

 

 

Kagura was thrashing her head from side to side and kept saying things in broken and incoherent phrases, she tried to move her hips to take his tongue into her but his grip was iron hard… instead she wrapped her legs around his neck to hold him there while her clawed hand were ripping they're way through the sheets of her bed… all the while crying out his name in broken phrases, her insides burning with raw pleasure and desire.

 

 

The winding in her stomach and core was getting more and more intense, she was sobbing for Arc to stop, go faster, harder… anything! Anything to make the unbearable pleasure release out of her… then she felt his tongue penetrate her entrance to taste her insides, making her cry out so loud the neighbours in the whole building wondered what the hell was that? Arcs tongue was tasting, drinking and touching her inner walls, making them spasm and constrict with intense heat… then his tongue made contact with something sensitive and that was it, she screamed out his name as the feelings that had winded up suddenly exploded and dispersed, taking her to a whole new reality of purest pleasure…

 

 

Arc felt her muscles contradict and spasm harder and tasted her release, his Youkai side was immediately addicted to it and greedily lapped and drank everything that came out of her, after finishing he cleaned up her entrance and watched as her back slowly lowered back onto the bed and her chest began to heave with slow, long intakes of air… her body was covered in a heavy layer of sweat and her eyes were fluttering open and closed, as if trying to stay conscious… he raised climbed up until he was face to face with her and just watched as she slowly began to regain herself, her red eyes fluttering open, they were filled with love and desire, it was a beautiful sight to hold… she then tried to say between her intakes of air: “That… was… was…” He just kissed her forehead and said while rubbing cheek: “I know, before we begin the main part though… you must see something, it is my gift to you…”

 

 

Kagura was confused about what he meant, after what just happened she doubted that anything would ever be better… Arc slowly helped her up to sit and then pointed towards the large, full body mirror at the corner of the bed, (From chapter 1, remember?) Kagura watched her own reflection from where she was sitting and at first didn't realise what he was trying to say… then her eyes widened as she saw used her Youkai vision to look at her body more intensely… she could feel her eyes watering with tears, tears of pure happiness.

 

 

Kagura turned her gaze slowly towards Arc and saw him smiling to her warmly and lovingly, she tried to ask him but no words could come out… so he answered her silent question while stroking her hair: “This is my gift to you, your scars were infested with negative and evil, which prevented them from healing… so I used my Purifying powers to destroy those negative energies, allowing them to close and disappear… that's why my touch felt so… unusual on you…” Kagura could not think, she couldn't say anything either… her scars… the scars that forever reminded her of that asshole were… they were… gone… GONE!! This had to be a dream… it had to be…

 

 

She looked at Arcs smiling face, her tears coming out completely freely now, if this was indeed a dream, she prayed to every possible god that was listening that she would never, ever, wake up… she still wasn't thinking, instead of thinking or saying anything… she flung herself on him, making him fall onto his back with a surprised face as she clutched her arms around him and with her face buried deep into his shoulder she cried, her happiness was overwhelming… she kept saying against his shoulder: “Thank you…” over and over again… Arc put his arms around her, one hand rubbing her back while the other was rubbing her head, he was whispering to her: “It's alright… I wanted to do it… you're free of him now…”

 

 

After what seemed like forever, Kagura stopped crying against his shoulder and just stayed still for a moment, then slowly she raised her head to meet his eyes, they were so warm right now, to her, at this moment… he was like a god from heaven… Arc slowly raised his head lick away her tears once again and she just purred from the attention, this was heaven for her… after an eternity of hell… she finally felt heaven… after he was done, she dove down onto him and kissed him with passion and desire, she never wanted him to let go of her… to hell with freedom, to her, nothing was better than being with him, freedom comes and goes but this was something you'll only get one chance to feel… they parted after a while and she said to him with a loving, warm voice filled with life again: “I can never thank you enough… Arc… I am so happy… don't let me go, please…” Arc then slowly rolled them on they're sides and after putting his forehead against hers he said with a warm smile: “I don't intend to let you go, not now or ever… Kagura, I can't picture my life without you anymore… my Youkai and human blood want to be with you and I myself want that as well… so, I ask you, not as a human or a Youkai… but as your soul mate: Kagura, will you be my mate from this day until forever…?”

 

 

Kagura's eyes widened and her breathing stopped for a second… he… did he just…? Did he just say…? He… her…? He wanted…? Was this a dream? No… it wasn't… she knew it was real… this was… she couldn't think straight, her body, mind and soul were overflowing with feelings and sensations unlike anything she had ever even hoped to feel… so after a few seconds of silence she put her arms around Arc and pulled him on top of her and after kissing him with a soul searing kiss she said with a voice beyond happiness: “Yes! I will! Arc… I want to be your mate forever, to be with you from now until eternity… I love you, Arc… I love you so much…” Arc felt small tears in his eyes… this was indeed a wonderful day… to be together with Kagura forever… it was like a distant dream that became a reality… he then said with a slightly cracking voice: “I promise to you… nothing will ever tear us apart… not death, fate or even time itself… I will be by your side no matter what… I love you so much as well, my mate.”

 

 

Kagura also felt more tears in her eyes, she was free from Naraku, her scars were healed, her memories would not haunt her anymore and she had found her soul mate, her loneliness was over… now she was truly free, free to love her mate and be with him out of her own free will… this is what true freedom is, to be able to sever the chains that bind you to your past, to be able to face the future along side your true love… The Arc used his purifying abilities and, in a way `teleported' his boxers off of him, Kagura briefly thought while smirking mentally: `Now that's a handy ability…' she then slowly wrapped her legs around his waist, pulling his still rock hard member against her wet and eager core, making both of them gasp and blush slightly, his left arms fingers entwined with her right ones tightly, her left arm coming around to his shoulder blades and his did the same, he then asked her with a warm, passionate voice: “Kagura, my love, my mate… tell me what do you want now?” She looked at him in the eyes and her blush became deeper as she said while looking slightly away from his eyes: “I want… I want you to take me, make me yours, your mate… your soul mate… make love to me, take me to heaven with you…” He looked her for a moment, she slowly met his gaze again and he said: “I will, my little wind angel, I will make you reach your heaven…” Then he kissed her tenderly, yet deeply as he slowly applied pressure to the point where they joined and pushed his large, hot and thick member into her warm, wet and welcoming womanhood… making her gasp and moan deeply out of the whole new wave of pleasure into the kiss...

 

 

It had hurt, since Arc was rather… well, `huge' was an understatement, considering he was a quarter Tai-Youkai… so it had hurt when her walls stretched to take him inside her to the hilt, her cries of pain were swallowed by the kiss they were sharing but her hand which was gripping his shoulder blade was now digging it's claws into his skin, leaving red marks while the hand which fingers were entwined with his fingers just squeezed harder, few tears of pain also came out but the purring he let out was making her body become less tense…

 

 

Arc had pushed his member into Kagura all the way to the hilt, the sensation was just… un-believable… the feel of her walls clamping down on him, the heat and wetness that surrounded him was making his blood boil with relentless hunger and heat… but, the scent of her tears and the way she clutched onto his body was making his instincts as a mate to make her feel at ease first, her first time had been brutal and so he had to take this easy, it was his first time but for once he was glad about his instincts, they knew more about this than he probably ever would…

 

 

So he began to purr into the kiss in an attempt to make her body calm down, even if she was physically ready for this, the phantom pain sensations from that time with Naraku were still there… her body was trying to resist him from the phantom memories and sensations but the purr was starting to have the desired effect, her body was calming down, slowly but surely… he then lifted his face from hers to look at her in the eyes, which were still closed intensely, tears were slowly coming down from her eyes and they made him frown slightly, so in a more intimate attempt to calm her down he once again licked her tears away, this time they tasted of pain which made him growl inwardly from anger… how dare that bastard break her like this and then get himself killed before he got the chance to tear him a new asshole?!

 

 

Arc was caught off guard by his own thoughts, he really was becoming more and more like a dog, protective and possessive… and he liked it, it made him feel like, well, `him'… like he had found his true nature at last or something… anyway, as he was licking away the tears he could feel her body tense at first but then become more relaxed, her breathing slowly turned into panting as her scent changed into arousal again, after he finished cleaning her face, Arc lifted himself on one elbow to look at her directly, she was panting slightly but her eyes were still closed but not so tightly anymore… Arc kissed her softly and then said with a warm voice: “Kagura, open your eyes, look at me, don't be frightened…”

 

 

The instant Arc had entered her with his member, Kagura's body had went into some kind of a threshold like state, the pain of the past was burning her memory, as if warning her not to take this step… she wanted to step over the threshold and move forward but… the memories and the past pain would not let go… she couldn't even open her eyes, she feared that if she did he would not see Arcs face but `his' face… Naraku's face smirking down on her… she did feel him stay still inside her, she also felt his purr in a worried attempt to calm her down but it wasn't enough, she desperately wanted to open her eyes and see Arc, her mate, look at her and tell her it was alright, that he was there… but her body and mind refused to cooperate with one another, she felt so pathetic… here she was, in her soul mates arms and were just an inch away from becoming mates and she was hesitating like this…

 

 

Kagura then felt his tongue again, she must have been shedding tears again… but, the licks he gave her… they were so soothing, so warm… she felt herself becoming more and more relaxed, for a moment she caught a mental image about the two of them, being a writer and a painter it was a very artistic one too: She saw both of them floating in space, with stars all around them… he was a huge, shining silver/grey dog with four enormous tails… she was a winged, human shaped figure… he was coiled around her in protective manner and she was leaning onto him with a loving sigh… the image made her past pain diminish rapidly, the fear she felt was also becoming smaller and smaller… then his lips touched hers softly and his voice reached her, his warm voice: “Kagura, open your eyes, look at me, don't be frightened…” his voice was the final step for her.

 

 

Kagura slowly opened her eyes and she could feel herself crossing the threshold, when she saw Arcs face looking at her with those liquid like obsidian black eyes, his face turned from concern to loving and she felt her heart becoming filled with the love she felt for him, she had walked through the final threshold, she had severed her past at last… now she was embracing the future and by the look of it, it was more than worth it. Arc was about to ask something but instead she pulled him into another kiss, this one soft and tender like the one he gave her, after the kiss was over, she nodded her head and said with a low, warm voice: “It's alright now… make me yours, please, I love you…”

 

 

Arc saw her eyes open, she looked different… like… like she had just let go of something… he realised what it was, she had severed her past pain and memories from her heart and soul… her body was now fully relaxed and he could feel his member twitching inside her, her warmth and heat increasing steadily… he then tried to ask if she was ready but instead she kissed him and said: “It's alright now… make me yours, please, I love you…” Could he deny her? No, it was impossible for him at this point to deny her from anything… so while slowly pulling out of her, until the tip of his manhood was barely inside her he put his chest on top of hers, making her hard nipples rub against his chest, bringing out a deep moan from her and then he said: “I love you too… now, let's dance, my mate…” with that, he slowly slid back into her, making him grunt from the incredible sensation it caused in his loins and it made her arch her back towards his, she made a silent cry of pleasure, she wrapped both of her arms tightly around his upper back and her legs locked tightly around his waist, the sensation had been… least to say, heavenly…

 

 

Both of them were in a completely different world, as Arc waited for her to lay back down on the bed, he slowly slid out and pushed back into her throbbing, eager and welcoming core, making her cry out yet again… Kagura couldn't believe it, just two thrusts and she was already feel that same hot, unbearable good and tight feeling in her stomach starting to wind up… yet, as he kept up the same, agonizingly slow and heavenly pace, the feeling kept winding tighter and tighter but not fast enough… the feeling was driving her insane with pleasure, pressure and anticipation… his long, hot and thick member was first filling her to the very brim, then emptying her out completely, then the same over and over again… she couldn't believe how good it felt, yet she had hard time believing the fact that his huge manhood was fitting into her so well, every time it moved in and out it hit every sensitive spot in her and was touching the entrance of her womb… Kagura was sure that if this kept up she would die from these immense sensations he was making her feel… but, what a way to go huh? Being pleasured to death… the thought made her shiver and only heightened both her arousal and the winding up in her stomach...

 

 

Arc wasn't sure whether he was alive or had just died and descended up to heavens, she felt so good, so hot, tight and simply perfect… he kept the pace as slow as possible, making her tunnel widen to fully take him into her and with every slow thrust he made into her the friction grew and both the heat and wetness of her core increased. Her walls were massaging his member with each movement in and out of her and it made his Youkai side simply howl with delight and pleasure, his human side wasn't faring any better either… the feel of her perky nipples rubbing against him was only adding to his animalistic tendencies but kept them at bay for just a little longer…

 

 

He could feel Kagura's walls beginning to slowly tighten and throb around him and his instincts were telling him she would climax soon, yet, he could feel he was not even close yet… being a quarter Youkai had it's perks huh? Stamina for one…

 

 

Kagura was clutching even tightly onto Arc, with both of her arms and legs, her legs working in synch with his movements, so that every time he pushed in she would tighten her legs to bring him deeper into her, making the head of his member slightly penetrate her womb and her arms were digging into his shoulder blades, drawing blood slightly, which only made him grow even longer and harder inside her, it was like he was trying to reach her very soul itself… and she loved it, this was a feeling only lovers could feel… this was an act only mates could perform… this was lovemaking at it's peak, the ultimate dance of life… more older than the whole humanity around them…

 

 

Arc was feeling his Youkai side struggling to get out, it wanted to be fully released damn it! Arc merely told it to sit down, soon it would have it's turn but not now! He then heart Kagura beginning to moan and mew even louder than before, her walls beginning to massage and convulse around him, just a few more thrusts…

 

 

Kagura was going insane, she was sure of it… the need to release the heat and tightening inside her was getting maddening… her eyes were going from half-lidded to screwed shut as he kept pushing in and out with that cursed slow pace of his! Yet, she didn't want him to go faster, the pleasure was too heavenly… but the intensity of they're union had to be increased, so as her head was buried into his shoulder she said with a low, husky growl: “Harder… please…”

 

 

Arc smirked against her shoulder where his own face was buried, he knew what she was after and who was he to deny it? So he lifted his face to face hers and said with a pleased growl: “Alright, mate.” With that, he kissed her roughly yet passionately and she responded without a second thought to it, then he pulled out almost all the way, only to plunge back in with greater force, this made her break the kiss and scream out his name, it felt so incredible… he kept still for a few seconds, then said with a smirk: “So, you like that huh?” Kagura gasped from his voice, it didn't sound like him, this one sounded like a true Tai-Youkai… which she didn't mind, it was quite the turn on but she was a bit concerned if his Youkai lust would flare up now, she wouldn't mind it flaring up but… she wanted to have they're first union to be done in a way they both were fully conscious about what they were doing… yet, as she saw his eyes, they were slightly tinted with Silver… he also grew fangs, which meant he was steadily getting ready to mark her as his… the thought made her feel even more warmer but she was a bit worried, was it now Arc in control or…?

 

 

He felt Kagura's body trembling from the feel of not being completed yet but what caught his real attention was the look in her eyes, she was worried… why? Then he lifted himself from her and looked a bit to his side to the full body mirror and saw his own eyes being tinted with silver and his fangs being lengthened… his Youkai traits… yet, he felt he was in complete control, at least for now anyway… so he looked back at her and said with the same voice as before but with a warmer smile: “Don't worry, it's still me… so relax, mate.”

 

 

Kagura heard Arcs voice and was relieved, he was still there but… how much longer? Not wanting to waste anymore time she pulled him back onto her and said with a desperate, cracking voice: “Arc… please, keep going… I need you to complete me… please, take me hard… make me your woman, now…” He felt his control slipping even further from her desperate plea and without saying anything pulled out a bit and pushed right back in, hard.

 

 

Arc kept the same pace but increased the intensity with each thrust, he could feel her walls milking his member harder and harder and her screams of his name and her please for more kept getting more intense as well, her pleading for him to go harder were suddenly making his own end approaching faster as well, her end was right at the tip of her tongue as well. His instincts told him that when two Youkai become life mates they're first climax would happen at the same time, later on it was up to they're own stamina.

 

 

Kagura was letting out incoherent phrases and sounds that made no sense, her instincts and body reactions were out of control… the winding up in her stomach went to the extreme level and when she was certain it wouldn't get any better, he thrust in one last time and the winding in her stomach exploded, she screamed his name for all the world to hear as her walls took his member into a vice grip and tried to milk it dry from his hot seed, she then heard him literally roar out just before she felt his member spasms and shoot it's white hot seed in a long torrent deep into her body, drenching her inner walls and womb completely, the sensation caused her own climax to become even more intense…

 

 

The next thing she felt was his lengthened fangs sinking into her neck, hard enough to draw blood, it wasn't painful, quite the opposite, it only made her climax even longer and more intense than before and she sunk her own fangs onto his neck, also drawing blood, making him growl deep in his chest as his member shot off another, smaller torrent of his seed into her…

 

 

They had marked each other… as life mates… until one of them dies, they will be bound forever to each other… even after death, they would still be together, nothing would tear them apart anymore… nothing…

 

 

They lapped up the wounds the caused each other, making them close and leave behind a mark, they formed into a silver coloured crescent moons. Arc then collapsed on top of her, his member being too swollen and big to pull out her so they stayed connected as she was still clutching onto him, her legs had loosened but her arms were still clutching onto him, both were panting from the incredible, body and mind blowing experience just now… they weren't sure just how it was possible to reach such a high plain of pleasure… but neither complained about it, it had been so intense…

 

 

As both regained some of they're breath, they're bodies were steaming and sweating from the activity just now… they're eyes met and both smiled warmly, he slowly leaned towards her and both kissed softly, not having the strength to deepen it at the moment… his eyes were still being tinted with silver but that only made him look so sexy to her… Kagura's arms finally loosened around him and were just circled over his back lazily, neither spoke a word, not wanting to ruin this perfect moment… they were just silently feeling the after glow of they're love making… the sun had set already and the moon light was surrounding them, making the sweat on they're bodies shine brightly…

 

 

Arc then said after a few minutes of silence: “That… was simply… perfect…” he said between breaths, Kagura answered while nuzzling his neck to show her affection for him: “Yes… thank you… I'm so happy…” He nuzzled her neck as well and said: “I'm glad… it's so weird… would you have guessed… that we would… be doing this… after meeting yesterday?” Arc chuckled at his own words, this was indeed weird… She too chuckled and said back: “Life is weird… right? I wouldn't… have thought about… this either… that we… are mates now… and you kept your word…”

 

 

Arc felt his strength coming back, so he lifted himself to look down on her with a confused expression, she smiled warmly and answered: “You did take me to heaven with you… mate.” They shared another kiss, except this time with they're strength returning, it became deeper and more passionate with each passing second. Kagura then felt his manhood twitch inside her and as he rocked his hips slightly she broke free from the kiss to gasp and moan from the feeling… then, one look into his eyes told it all, his silver eyes had become beast like slits, the Youkai lust was now flaring up and this time, there was nothing he could do to stop it… neither one minded one bit at this point thought. He then, without a warning dove onto her chest and took one breast into his mouth, using his tongue to lick around it and his fangs crazing it's surface slightly, making her clutch her hands into his hair to keep him there and she began to say his name repeatedly in a hot, moaning voice and soon her other breast was being kneaded and squeezed in erotic fashion by one of his hands, this sensation made her cry out yet again and she could feel her womanhood becoming wet and hot again, they're aroused scents were filling the room with they're spicy scent and both growled out with delight.

 

 

Kagura was feeling her own Youkai instincts kicking in as well, her vision became slightly hazy as her mind became primal like, only instincts were left… and her instincts had only one thing in mind: To fuck her mate senseless and milk him dry of his seed… his attention to her breasts only made her sink deeper and deeper into this haze of lust so she tried to move her hips to make him pound into her but she then noticed his free hand was keeping her hips still… he was toying with her! Well, two could play this little game… so as he kept torturing her with his ministrations to her breasts, she began to squeeze and flex her inner muscles around his now newly vigour filled manhood… making him growl at her warningly but she paid no heed to that and instead kept doing it and growled back at him, daring him to do something about it…

 

 

As Arc lifted himself up to loom over her menacingly, trying to make her realise her place but instead he was caught totally of guard when she suddenly rolled them over and ended up with her on top of him. Arc looked at her first in total surprise and then it turned into an evil smirk, so his mate was defiant of him? He liked this, she had fire in her spirit… that made him even more aroused and he tried to roll them over but before he could do anything she lifted herself up on his member and then brought herself roughly back down, making him grunt from pleasure and buck his hips upwards to meet hers… he looked at his mates face and saw her head being thrown back and hearing her cry out of pleasure… her hair cascading down onto his thighs, making him shiver with delight… so she wanted to be the dominant one huh? To his own surprise, he liked the idea of her like his, riding him…

 

 

As his arms took a firm hold of her hips, Kagura looked down onto her mates face with her own beast like slit eyes, she tried to move up but his grip kept her in place, she wanted to feel him, feel him move inside her, to feel him taking her again and again and filling her with his hot seed until both would pass out from the pleasure… so she resorted to pleading, this torture was too much for her… she placed both her arms around his neck and leaned down to kiss him desperately while mewing and whimpering for him to let her move, for him to pound up into her, he growled his approval and lifted her hips up and brought her down again, hard and sharply, making moan and whimper again, so as she straightened her back he began to move her, up and down, fast and hard on his hard manhood, over and over again…

 

 

She threw her head back once again, howling out her pleasure as her arms steadied themselves on his thighs, making her move even faster and harder on top of him, making him grunt and growl from pleasure, his arms left her hips to cup her breasts once again, he began to knead them in sync with his upwards thrusts, making her tunnel become more and more hot and wetter, not to mention it was beginning to massage and convulse again… she kept screaming out her passionate pleasure from they're mating, feeling his long, hot member pushing upward into her again and again, she mewled, moaned and whimpered her need for release as her insides were beginning to burn with the nearing climax…

 

 

He felt her climax nearing and he could also feel his own coming up fast, he had indeed found his soul mate, they're bodies were reacting to one another with such ease and both knew exactly what the other wanted and when… his thrusts became more faster and forceful as his kneading of her breasts was also becoming more faster and intense, she didn't mind one bit though, she was loving the rough attention her mates was giving her, because it was meant only for her… he was her mate, her life mate… her soul mate and he knew exactly what she needed and when…

 

 

She then felt herself being washed away to the sea of pleasure as her climax hit her, hard, her inner walls convulsed around his member, tightening and milking him almost violently for his seed, her head was thrown back and her back arched as she screamed out her release. He felt her climax all around his member, her juices covering his member and her inner muscles and walls milking him violently for his seed, he howled and arched his hips against hers, his member going even deeper into her womb as it began to spasm and shoot another torrent of his white, hot seed into her, filling her to the brim once again…

 

 

Kagura collapsed on top of him, panting and purring against his chest, feeling his member still spilling it's seed into her and it made her moan with warm delight… she could feel some of her senses returning for a moment so she said to Arc: “Arc… I love you…” He too felt his own senses returning for a moment and answered while panting: “I love you too… Kagura… sorry, I was a bit rough… that time…” She just purred again and said with a blush on her cheeks: “Don't be, I liked it… I love it when you're tender and I also love it when you're rough… because it is you whose doing it, my mate, my love… my sexy beast god.” He looked at her with a smile and surprise, so she liked it a rough… but not too rough… had to remember that one. Then he felt the same lusty heat filling his being once again and suddenly pushed her forward onto her back, making her squeal out of surprise and delight, before she could say anything he kissed her deeply and rocked his hips, making her moan again and she got the picture, time for round 3 huh?

 

 

As his eyes became slits once again he said: “So I am your sexy beast god then? Well then, my sexy wind goddess, let's see who passes out first, shall we? The loser cooks breakfast.” All she managed to get out was a nod and a deep moan that sounded like a `you're on' as he rose onto his knees and pulled her hips of the bed so her shoulders were touching the bed, he then plunged back into her with his hands on her hips, pulling her towards him with each hard, long and fast thrust, making her scream and cry out from extreme pleasure as this new angle made him go all the way to her womb, the last coherent thought that ran through her head before her Youkai blood took over was that she wished for the night to never end…

 

 

They're lives would be different from now on, new responsibilities would come in the near future and changes would continue to happen… but, no matter what happens from this moment on, they would never be torn apart, not by anyone or anything…

 

 

*Back at the Higurashi residence*

 

 

Inuyasha and Kagome were both sitting on the roof of the house, she was sitting on his lap as they admired the moon… Inuyasha though, was a bit distracted… for a while now, his nose had caught the scent of his son… it had changed, it was more like a Youkai at one moment and then normal and then back to Youkai… not to mention Kagura's scent was also there… he grinned, so those two found out huh? Took them long enough, just one day but still… he did wonder though… it's true that soul mates are destined to be together… but if that's the case then it means that Kagura and Arc have a destiny to fulfil somewhere… just like he and Kagome had, they're destiny had been to destroy Naraku and guard the Shikon no Tama… but now, they had made a wish on that jewel long ago… so they're destiny was now over and Arcs had just began… what would it be?

 

 

Kagome noticed the feelings going through her mates face and knew what he was thinking about, she too had felt the changes in they're sons aura, he had a mate now but it was a soul mate… meaning his fate had just began, whatever it would be… she then smiled and looked at her mate and said: “Don't worry, mate… we knew it was inevitable, that he would have a destiny somewhere… ever since that day…” Inuyasha looked back at Kagome and said with a frown: “I know, ever since that day, I have known that someday his fate would begin… but, it still worries me, we don't have any idea what his fate will be or where it will take him… damn, I hate not knowing anything…”

 

 

Kagome just kissed his softly, he answered into it and after parting she said while rubbing his ear, making him purr: “Mate, you're forgetting he is not alone anymore… he has someone he wants to protect now, not to mention were here for him, so is everyone else…” She then stopped her rubbing of his ear, making him whimper and whine in protest, she then said with a bit sadder voice: “Except… those two…” Inuyasha knew who she meant so he pulled her into a warm embrace and then said: “I know, I miss that lecherous bastard and Sango as well… but, you know they could never learn to live here… not to mention they already decided to stay in the past, where they're home is.”

 

 

Inuyasha felt him nod against his chest and he began to purr, it was never easy for Kagome to part from those two, especially since Sango was her `sister'… but they had to move on… as he kept staring into the distance, he thought to himself: `Brat, you guard what's inside you… and your mate… because if you fuck this up, in any kind of way, I will give you a spanking you won't forget even after a hundred years…' He grinned at that image… he also sighed, things were right once again… his sons depression was over, he had a mate… everything was okay… for now… even after hearing Kagome's assuring words, he still couldn't shake off the cold shiver that ran through his spine, he just knew, that whatever fate had in store for Arc, his son and his mate, Kagura… it would not be easy to deal with… because it runs in the family, he and Kagome had to go through hell before they could be together like this, he just hoped that fate would not put Arc through something like that…

 

 

=All the Gods above, don't make my son go through anymore grief…=

 

 

The End…?

 

 

Final A/N: YES!!! COMPLETE AT LAST!!! WHOOO!!!

 

 

Well, good news for anyone whose read this one so far, check out the next and final chapter for some CRUCIAL information before reviewing, thank you.

 

 

Oh yes: If someone is interested on the lyrics of the opening and ending themes mentioned above, here are the links to them:

 

 

Opening theme link: http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/wolfsrain/wolfrainstray.ht m

 

Ending theme link: http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/angeliclayer/thestarrysky. htm

(Make sure there are no spaces between the letters)

 

 

I just hope I'm not breaking any rules by posting these links…

 

 

- Zelix, with a deep breath and bow…