InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lord Angel ❯ Mother of mine. ( Chapter 2 )

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Okay...Lessee how this works out, m’kay?
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Though it had always been and always would be, the dark was somehow colder than ever before. It clung to me tightly.
I had started to walk away from my death woods. Deciding that finding Father was more important than some need to walk near this forsaken forest.
The girl had yet to fall behind. She seemed to constantly be shaking the farther away we walked.
Inferior. Only annoying this Sesshoumaru with her constant shaking. Her constant chattering of teeth.
I stopped. This girl was far too annoying. I had to get rid of her before...
“Ahh...” A hiss of pain escaped from her lips. She crumbled slightly but kept walking behind me. Her eyes were losing focus and her feet drew nearer each time to an opening in the ground.
That fool.
I stopped in front of a rather large opening in the ground. It was near invisible and the edges were sharp, deadly. I knew with the girl’s state of mind she would fall through, suffer endless pain as she fell endlessly and I would be rid of my annoyance.
I was about ready to step aside and let the girl fall into it.
“Lord Angel? I-I can’t see you. Where have you gone?”
I looked at the girl. She was barely standing, her hands held to her sides stiffly. Her eyes were clouded over.
She can’t see? It seems humans are affected more deeply by breaking away from their death beds.
“Please, don’t leave Rin behind. I need...to protect...Lord Angel...”
Her strength gave out and she started to fall. Yet, she managed to stay upright with shaking legs.
A human protecting a demon? Ridiculous.
“M’lord, do you need Rin’s help?”
“I am here.”
She tried to look in my direction, a smile stretched across her face. She fell to the ground before seeing me, though. Her head met the ground with a light thump. Her hand was extended over the edge of the hole.
Foolish human.
I grimaced as I lifted her up with what should’ve been my arm. Making my way farther away from the woods. Her body was cold as ice and her shaking only grew worse.
I had to wonder how I ended up carrying this girl with me. She had done nothing worthy of praise. She was human and deserved none.
Yet, this is a different world. Being demon or human does not seem to matter here. Being strong is what keeps you...from being sucked into the shadows.
“What are you doing here?”
Hmm...that voice? Here?
“I asked you a question...What are you doing here?”
It sounds like-
“You weren’t- weren’t supposed to be weak.”
I wonder if she still smells of dust?
I turned, slowly as I could. The girl wasn’t much of a burden, I just wanted to hide her as long as I could.
Once I turned, I knew I shouldn’t have. She was angry with me, the look on her face was beyond hatred. I could remember, those times when her hand met my face.
“You came here, forsook yourself, for this human whelp?!”
She stood across from me, her hands clenched. She wanted to beat me. I could tell she wanted to show me I was wrong, as she used to do. I smiled.
“Why do you not hit me?”
I could see she was trying to restrain herself. Her fangs were digging into her chin. If we had been alive perhaps she would have bled.
“Have you already realized how much more powerful I am than you?”
She was starting to rip her hands with her claws. I let my smile slip.
“Are you frightened of your own child?”

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I remember I had fallen. It was so cold, too cold. I didn’t want to lose my angel but I couldn’t keep going. I tried. But I couldn’t.
It had felt as if I was trying to walk through mud as cold as ice. It stung me and followed me. I tried so hard to follow him. He left me behind, I know he did.
“You came here, forsook yourself, for this human whelp?!”
A woman’s voice? What’s happening?
I couldn’t feel anything, not really. I don’t know why I was even able to hear. Perhaps I was dreaming.
A cold shock ran through me.
Lord Angel, was he a dream? Did I only fall down, asleep, while walking out into the woods? Was he just-just my imagination? He was so beautiful. Too beautiful for this world? Too beautiful to be real?
“Why do you not hit me?”
I suddenly remembered. He couldn’t be a dream. Even if I couldn’t see him, he was with me. Right there. He was my angel.
Lord Angel, you are with Rin.
“Have you already realized how much more powerful I am than you?”
You are real. To Rin, you are real.
“Are you frightened of your own child?”
I wanted to reach to him. Soothe him. Because...
Lord Angel, you sound hurt. What is wrong?
“Why are here?! You idiot! Why couldn’t you be strong! You are just like him. Loving humans.”
“You think I am like Father?”
Rin must save Lord Angel. She couldn’t before but maybe here...she can.
I heard some muffled noise. A sad choked sound.
“No, you are cold. At least, you have given me that.”
Cold? Is Lord Angel cold? What does she mean?
“What reason do I have to give you anything?”
I heard a loud smack. Then, a growl.
“You ungrateful child! I have been tormented endlessly since your birth! Perhaps you were meant to die early! If only to torment me yet again!”
“S-s-stop...”
It was the only thing that would leave my lips. Nothing else would come.
Please stop. You’re going to make Lord Angel sad.
I couldn’t hear anything now. I was forced to slip back into the strange sleep I was in before.
Please, you can’t make Lord Angel-. You can’t. It-it isn’t right to make an Angel cry.

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Everything had stopped as soon as she had requested it. Her blue lips had barely moved. I hadn’t even realized she was awake.
“Why do you carry this insolent human?”
She had said it so quietly. I was still looking at the girl’s face.
She’s sleeping now.
She was standing close to me. Her gray hair falling loose. I didn’t want to look at her, she was from the past. The past and the future should not mix.
Father is from the past.
“Why, even after all my lessons, do you choose to have a human by your side? Do you wish to cause me so much pain?”
No.
“You are the one causing yourself pain. You should not be so worried over what I do with myself.”
She slipped a cold hand to my face. It was still as gray as when she had lived.
“My dear little one. How can I not worry over you? Perhaps this place has weakened me? Perhaps I have never been a proper demon?”
She paused to brush away an invisible strand of hair.
“My Sesshoumaru. I cannot forget you. You are my only child. You are the first being that ever made me happy with just your smile.”
I continued to look down at the girl. She was shivering again. Shaking more and more.
“This girl is important? Does she make you smile?”
“What importance is a human to me?”
Her hand moved from my face to the girl’s. Her gray hand spread over the girl’s own pale face. It both calmed and irritated me.
“She will be lost in the darkness if you take her further.”
And would you have me leave her with you?
“Do you really need a human with you on your journey?”
What would it matter to you?
“It can only cause her pain to travel with you.”
I thought you enjoyed human pain?
“Surely, she is scared of you.”
How would you know?
“She’s too scared to try and leave you.”
Why would she be scared of me? I have done nothing.
“She is following you because she is scared not to. Humans are controlled by fear, you know.”
I looked to her face. There was a soft smile there. However, something sinister hid behind it. I noticed her claws trying to dig into the girl’s human flesh.
“You’re jealous of a human. How pathetic.”
She turned to me, running claws through the girl’s skin. She went to lick the blood off her claws only to find there was none.
“Why have you chosen a human over your own mother?!”
She’s too hot-blooded. No wonder she died.
“The girl chose me. I did not choose her.”
She took her claws away. Hid herself behind her thin curtain of hair. There were tears running down her face.
“She was right to choose you. Please, go forth on your journey,” she looked up, her eyes were shining, “my Sesshoumaru.”

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That day, when she left, I wished I had left with her. She was all alone. Father had been unable to bring her back to us, if he had mourned I did not notice.
I did not know she had left until he told me. I thought...I thought she would come back. She didn’t.
Father took me away. Perhaps to help ease my silent heartache at the memories the house provided. Perhaps because he was the one who needed to distance himself from his memories.
In any case, I was without her.
Did I miss her? I suppose I must have, at sometime. Do I still? No.
I knew her for a very short time. She was no influence on my life. Except, perhaps, her leaving.
But she was unimportant. She wanted me to know that. She would not let me have attachments to those that were below me. She believed herself to be below both her mate and her child.
Was she below me? Yes.
There was no denying that if pitted against me in battle, she would be the one to die. She let her emotions speak for her, I locked mine deep within. She did not hesitate to kill, I...I killed when needed.
And, of course, she had died much sooner than I had.
We had both left. She left us, I left...no one.
Perhaps, she had been more important than I thought?
No, that wench is no more than the past. And that is where I shall leave her, in the past.

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Not very long for a second chapter. But here it is. It took me a couple tries to get it right. The first time I wrote this chapter it had Urasua in it and voices in the head...it was just really weird and dug me into a hole.
So I decided to do something I’m usually too lazy to do and start all over on the chapter. It felt a lot better than sitting in front of the first version and trying to force myself to write more.
At the moment...I’m not sure when chapter 3 will be out. I’ve been so busy lately.