InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lost Hopes ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )

Author Notes: Ummm… this chapter is kinda weird. To me, it seems that. Why, I don’t know. It’s completely different from the way I planned it. Anyway, you may think that I am going too slow, but believe me, the story’s gonna pick up speed from the next chapter… I promise.

Chapter 5

The delicious aroma of roasted meat wafted, to his sensitive nose and it twitched, and his stomach growled. Inuyasha jumped up, out of his ‘bed’, promptly regretting his action, as a sharp pain shot through his back. He whimpered, slightly, as he sniffed more frantically, and this time, turned around slowly, to see pieces of meat, being roasted on a spike, in a small fire. Previous days had been a blur, and no matter how much he tried, he couldn’t remember anymore, than what happened at the hot springs, however, the pain gave him a pretty good idea as to what had happened. His ears perked up, picking up the noises, which told him, that Kouga was in the hot spring. He slowly moved, ignoring his protesting muscles, as he slowly crawled on his fours, towards the food. His stomach rumbled which each step, and he hurried towards the food, reaching out to take it, when suddenly, he stopped. A flurry of questions speed through his brain, confusing him to no end.

‘Should I take the food? Has Kouga eaten? Would it very good to eat before Kouga does?……..’

“Keh! Now why would I care about what Kouga wants?”

‘But you should,’ a voice in his mind offered, ‘he’s the alpha.’

“So?”

‘He gets to eat first, moron.’

“But I am an alpha too, at least, of my pack.”

‘No you’re not, not anymore.’

“What the fuck are ya a talking about, ya stupid voice, and get out of my mind.”

The voice laughed, ‘feel your butt moron, you’ll get your answer and you can’t kick me out, I am your subconscious, dog boy.’

“To hell with ya.” Inuyasha cursed, as his hands went to his cheeks of his backside, and he gasped. Tears immediately welled up in those large golden orbs, tears of humiliation, tears of sorrow. He was trapped, lowered to the position of an omega! What would he do now?

‘Why? What have I ever done to receive this?’ He fell back against the stone wall, his limbs to weak to support his body. He rapped his head roughly, several times, on the stone wall, as tears fell uncontrollably from eyes. In his haze, he had done the most undeniable horrible thing, he had forfeited his pride, his honour, his last belonging, to a wolf, and now he would forced to live the life of a lowly scum. No one would accept him……

He took a shuddering breath, sitting there, like a lifeless corpse, slowly, the tears ceased, as his eyes took on a vacant look. He had given, to an extent, willingly, what the wolf wanted, and he had no alternative but to follow his superior and wish, that somehow, he could get the honour, affection…love, he was meant to get. ‘I have no choice. I shall have to give him what he asks, even if it means my life now.’

However, he couldn’t get himself to hate wolf somehow. Every time he tried that, he found heart swelling with emotions….emotion, stronger than he had ever felt with Kikyo or Kagome…emotions, he hated himself for, possession of it… emotions of love. How he had grown to love the wolf, in such a short time, he didn’t know. Then, he had never submitted to anyone completely before, and it made feel…almost safe. But, he also knew, that Kouga would never love him, no one wanted to be with a half demon, it was considered to be a disgrace. But, hasn’t Kouga been undeniably and uncharacteristically gentle to him. ‘He had no reason to.’ He justified. ‘I am no more a threat to him, then why?’ Confusion and sadness welled up in him, but he refused to cry anymore, ‘nothing seems to solved with crying. I have been crying all my life, no one seems to care, so why waste them?’ He drew his knees to his chest as he stared at the ceiling, unblinking, the food, lying forgotten in front on him.

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Kouga squeezed the last of water from his hair, as he sighed happily. It was almost more than a week now, and he was glad to be relieved of his sexual tension. Tomorrow, the mating season would be over and together with it, the constant urge of sexual contentment. Not that he would have to worry about it anymore. ‘I can take the puppy anytime, anywhere I want to, and boy is he good,’ he licked his lips at the thoughts of the events of the past few days. They had made love…no (Kouga corrected), had sex, a countless number of times, within these last few days, and with Inuyasha, who had been, a more than willing partner ,and participative, after the completion of the marking, it had been simply mind blowing.

He couldn’t deny that he felt a little bad about marking the inu as his possession, but what was he to do, this was the only way he could have his ‘true’ mate, his Kagome.

“Kagome.” He sighed, a blissful smile gracing his features, at the feel of how the name rolled off his tongue. There was nothing that could stop him now, Kagome could never want an omega, and with Inuyasha under his control, he could easily pursue Kagome, to be his mate.

“Kagome, now you shall be mine,” he whispered, as he made his way towards the inu. However, this time, these words generated a sharp pang of guilt in his heart, as if he had done something terrible. He grunted, pushing the feeling down again. ‘It would not do to think about the mutt that way, he cannot give me heirs. Only Kagome can do that, she will bear me strong children. What can the mutt possibly do for me?” He snorted.

He would have continued with his reasoning, but, stopped short when he saw Inuyasha sitting close to the fire, staring up at the ceiling. Something about the inu, brought back the pain in his heart and he gulped. The scent of salt was strong in the air and the puppy looked so lost, so grave, so defeated. His inner wolf, roared to comfort the distraught hanyou, to make him feel warm and safe in his arms, to hold him and never let go. However, he could not allow himself to be weak now, any sign of debility towards the hanyou, and he would loose the battle, so carefully planned, forever. So, he changed his demeanour to the ruthless one and walked in, with his usual air of indifference.

Inuyasha snapped back to attention as Kouga entered the area, but refused to look at the wolf. He kept his eyes towards the small fire, it`s flame, trying to light up the emptiness in his eyes.

“I see you haven’t eaten yet.” Kouga remarked.

Inuyasha remained silent, his head bowed, his eyes still staring into the fire.

“You should eat,” Kouga said again, as he walked towards the fire, pulling out a stick and holding it in front of the inu. “Eat,” he commanded.

Slowly, Inuyasha took it from his hand, but still made no move to gulp down his food, as he usually did.

Kouga felt a bit puzzled by his actions. “What are you waiting for?” he snapped, making Inuyasha flinch.

“Wouldn’t you eat?” came a shaky question. Kouga stared at Inuyasha, surprised for a bit, before the side of his lips curled up in a small smile. ‘Mutt’s falling into a omega’s behaviour sooner than I thought.’

“No, I have already eaten, a lot, while hunting.” He answered, with a slight smile, “This is for you.”

He watched, as the hanyou uncertainly raised the meat to his lips, and began to eat, his eyes scrutinized the details of the inu’s naked form. Even in his melancholic mood, the hanyou looked quite fascinating, the small fire, bathing his pale skin in a golden hue. He licked his lips again, the urge to take the inu again, becoming stronger, however, he let Inuyasha finish his meal, as he walked to the other part of the cave, to open a secret panel and pulled out the inu’s crimson clothing. He walked backed to the hanyou, who had already finished eating. “Here.” He dropped the clothing in front of Inuyasha “Tomorrow, the season’s over.” He practically stumbled, when Inuyasha looked up at him, averting his gaze from the golden orbs. His eyes held so much agony, so much pain, that he knew not, whether what he was doing was truly worth it.

“I-I will accompany you back to the village.” He stuttered, to which, Inuyasha remained silent, only nodding. The hanyou had become extremely uncommunicative in the last few days. Except for the grunts, mewls and moans, that he managed to draw out of the hanyou, while they coupled, his usual brash behaviour, had changed to a subdued one. Although he would never admit it, this silence bothered him to no end. However, at the moment nothing mattered nothing except…

Need burned through his body, as he eyed the inu hungrily, once more. He moved up, to stand behind him and more once, bent to gather the naked hanyou up in his arms. He could help smiling slightly, at how the inu melted in his arms. The way his head fell on his chest, the white mane hanging around him, like a curtain. It is so perfect… he shook his head again.

Inuyasha stayed silent, his head bowed, just feeling the warmth from the wolf. He knew it would all be over the next day, he might as well enjoy these last moments with the wolf. He didn’t know why he was doing it, but today, he would enjoy himself…willingly and consciously… from the beginning, to the end. ‘Maybe… Maybe, that way, I will have some ‘happy’ memories…’

Kouga walked towards the straw, and slowly laid Inuyasha down, however, he was stunned, when Inuyasha leaned up to catch him in a kiss. Even before he could comprehend what the inu was doing, Inuyasha hands wound around him, and pulled him over the his body, his fingers burying themselves, in the ebony curls, as his tongue separated Kouga’s lips, to let his tongue enter into the wet orifice. He sucked and licked, revelling in the sweet tangy taste of his superior.

Kouga was truly speechless. This new behaviour was totally unexpected of Inuyasha. Although Inuyasha had submitted to him earlier, Kouga felt incomplete, for it was his youkai that had bowed down before him, but today was different. Today, Inuyasha was his own self, and he could only feel the air thickened with lust, but also, traces of extreme devotion and undying love, woven in it. It would have elated his feelings of guilt, but the things Inuyasha was doing to him, with his tongue and lips, left him so breathless, that he was unable to form any coherent thoughts. He felt himself drowning in Inuyasha, as the inu moved his hands, to gently graze his claws over his neck, before following a quivering trail over his back, finally ending, on the smooth cheeks of his backside. He gasped, as his globes were squeezed slightly, and the inu began a slow grind, as their groins were rubbing against each other, setting their bodies on fire. He growled ferally, in ecstasy, as he took over the kiss, literally devouring Inuyasha, as he ground into him harder, both moaning from the sensation.

“K-Kouga…ahhh.”

Inuyasha whined, in a puppy dog manner, at Kouga’s actions, sending tremors down his body. He moaned louder, letting Kouga know that he was enjoying his actions.

“Mmm….Yasha.”

Kouga would have danced around, wagging his tail like a happy puppy, if he wasn’t so busy, with nipping and sucking the feverish skin of his puppy, down his neck, to the smooth contours of his chest. He slowly moved downwards, and delved his tongue in to the hollow of the inu’s navel, suckling at it with all its worth.

“Nnnghh….Ohhhh.”

The moan and mewls were getting stronger, with every inch that the wolf travelled, farther down south. Kougas` hands massaged his thighs, squeezing and kneading, as Inuyasha spread his legs more, whimpering in anticipation of what was to come.

Kouga reached down farther, passing the patch of soft white curls, completely ignoring the twitching erection, as he lowered his lips, to gently lick at the soft sacks, making the inu arch like a bow, and a surprised gasp escape his lips. He smiled, as he placed more licks, craving for the sweet music, flowing through the slightly parted and swollen lips, and the rapid beating of the heart, that made it more tantalizing, and encouraging him to taste his puppy more. He slowly moved up, his hands holding onto the hips of Inuyasha, and he leaned forwards, placing an experimental and tentative lick, underside his shaft.

The result was instant…

“Ahhh….Kouga…o…onegai,̶ 1; came a pleading whine, as Inuyasha tried to push himself towards the ookami, begging him to touch him.

Kouga concluded, that he liked the taste of his puppy, and proceeded to slowly place more licks on his balls, making the hanyou shiver and thrash violently, under him. He slipped his shoulder underneath his knee joint, as he took the inu’s aching shaft in his mouth, giving it a long lick, before he swirled his tongue around the head of his member.

Inuyasha’s head, fell on the straw bed and his mouth fell open, his whole being, trembling from the molten lust, that pooled in his stomach. He gasped, his head moving from side to side, struggling to thrust hips upwards, not quite satisfied with the attention Kouga was giving him, and wanting more friction.

“Ahhh…”

Kouga increased his pace, sucking on the member like a lollipop, twirling his tongue around it, while watching every reaction, every emotion being, played out on Inuyasha’s flushed face, his wanton cries filling his ears. Inuyasha writhed under him, pleading him to go even faster. He complied, closing his eyes, concentrating on building more speed, and used his teeth and fangs, to very gently graze along the sensitised flesh, while slowly inserting one of his fingers in the tight hole, beginning to work his way in and out of the inu.

Inuyasha, was literally sobbing from the pleasure. The dual torture was driving him crazy, his back arched into a tight bow, as breath caught in his throat. He felt his climax, and cried out, informing the wolf of it. However, Kouga only pulled him deeper in his mouth, still continuing with his ministrations. He exploded, as his vision went blank from the pressure, spilling his seed, in the wet confines of Kouga’s mouth.

Kouga milked out every last drop, before realising the spent member. He lifted his eyes, to see Inuyasha fall in the bed, bonelessly, his heaving body, covered in a thin sheen of sweat, which practically made him glow.

Inuyasha panted heavily, trying to calm the tremors that ran through his body, however, his heart swelled at the treatment he just received from Kouga. He never expected it though, for wolf was merely concerned about his own pleasure at the beginning. but things seemed to going a bit different, and it kindled a minut flame of hope within his heart, perhaps, Kouga felt the same way as he did…perhaps, the feeling was mutual. But he had no time to ponder on these things, as he felt his legs being parted, and a wet tongue, slowly encircling the rim of his entrance. He moaned lightly, the slight shudders returning to his body.

“Mmmmm….”

Kouga let his tongue lubricate the inu’s passage sufficiently, before he positioned himself at the entrance. He slowly pushed in, capturing the delicate lips, in a soft and comforting kiss, with an aim to distract the hanyou from whatever pain he felt. Soon, he found himself completely sheathed into his partner’s wet and hot passage, groaning from the feel of every pulse, that ran through the insides.

Inuyasha, whimpered lightly from the intrusion, it still hurt a bit. However, the soothing kisses soon changed the pain into pleasure, and he too moaned relaxing completely, under Kouga.

Kouga released his lips, and placed small nips on the inu’s chin, before he gazed into the golden pools, that looked up at him lovingly in return. Inuyasha smiled at bit, before nodding his head slightly, and gyrating his hips a bit. Kouga took that as a sign, that the hanyou was ready. He pulled all the way outside, before easing his way in again, as he used his hands to tilt Inuyasha’s head back, burying his face on the side of Inuyasha’s neck, kissing lightly on the tender flesh.

Inuyasha groaned, as he felt Kouga suckling on his neck, while driving in and out of him. His stiffening member, trapped between their bodies, growing in length with every second. He encircled his legs around the wolf, pulling him closer to his body, as his hands caressed his back, raking his claws none to gently, as he moaned loudly.

“Oh…Kouga…mmm.”

Kouga kept on suckling harder, turning the area into a deep shade of red, while he thrust in, faster and faster, his groans mingling with that of the inu’s. Inuyasha’s cries only excited him more, and he drove in and out savagely, conquering his puppy’s form, in every way. The wolf knew that the inu was his, and he wanted to enjoy every bit of him, before he let go of him the next day. He found the last thought to be disturbing… a lot.

“Oh…Ko…Kou…ah…Kouga…Uh 230;” Inuyasha moaned out each syllable, as he reached closer and closer to his pinnacle, with each thrust. Finally, he felt the rush through his system, and cried the three words, as he reached his climax, that sent a cold, yet an unknown, thrill through Kouga.

“Ah…. Uh…I LOVE YOU!” Inuyasha spurted, coating Kouga’s chest, and his, with his seed, his eyes tearing up from the pressure, as he clung helplessly, onto Kouga’s body.

Kouga would have frozen on the spot, or perhaps jumped back from the pleasurable activities, if he hadn’t reached his peak at the exact moment, erupting, deep inside the inu. His whole body shook violently from the impact, and his breath seemed to be sucked out him. Pulling out of the inu, he collapsed onto his side, sleep seemed to overcome his senses, but he restrained himself. Inuyasha’s confession had him rattled, in the worst way, and he wanted to clear things up. However, when he was finally able to calm himself down, he looked, to see Inuyasha had already passed out beside him. He tried to shake him awake, but Inuyasha only groaned, shifting to face him, and snuggled close to body, sighing contentedly, as slipped off into the dream world. Kouga sighed frustratingly, he did not plan things to go this way, and this was not what he wanted. ‘There’s nothing I can do now. Perhaps we can talk tomorrow,’ he decided, and finally allowed the call of sleep, as he threw his arm and leg over his puppy, protectively pulling him even closer to his body.

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Inuyasha shifted slightly, coming awake, to the sound of the birds outside the cave. He yawned, slowly stretching, trying to sit up, however, he didn’t quite manage it, as a possessive growl sounded from behind, before being pulled back into his position. He almost yelped, before he realised, that he still was held captive, by the arm and leg, of a sleeping Kouga. Inuyasha turned his head, looking at the slumbering wolf, a sharp pain, welling up in his heart. He knew, that now, when they were no longer prey to the pull of lust, Kouga would now shun him, and his acceptance of love for the wolf, had made things worse.

He moved, holding in his breath, as slowly pried himself out of the ookami’s grasp. He sat up, crawling off the bed, and stared for a moment, at Kouga’s peaceful form. ‘God…he looks so beautiful, I wish…’ but he stopped himself from going further. No, he would not think of him in ‘that’ way, he was nothing more, than mere entertainment for the wolf, just a way to release his sexual tension. He turned sharply, tears welling up in his eyes, as he felt his heart rend into two, yet again.

‘Fool, he will never love you, leave…leave before he humiliates you even more. He will never respect you, for you’re nothing in his eyes.’

He suppressed the whimpers rising up in his throat, and walked to where his clothes lay, in a pile, and dressed quickly, trying to make as little noise as possible. His inu cried out to stay with his master, to feel more of the loving touches, and not to leave without seeking his permission, but his pride, some of which, had survived all the humiliation through the week, gave him the strength to walk away. He only prayed that the spell dissipated, for he no longer wished to be jeered at. He just wished to be left alone, yet he couldn’t stop himself, from walking to the straw bed, and placeing a feather light kiss on Kouga’s forehead.

“I love you Kouga, I do not understand why, but I do. I hope, some day, you will understand just a fraction of it. I lost everything I ever owned, yet I pray to the one lord who watches over us, to give you every happiness possible.” He whispered, to which, Kouga merely sighed, turning to the other side.

He felt a lump catch in his throat, as he got up and moved towards the entrance, ignoring the vast emptiness, that seemed to grow, with every step he took. He reached the entrance, and experimentally lifted his foot, sighing in relief, when he found the barrier not there. He stepped out, ignoring the bright sun, the warm soothing breeze, and the music of the forest, as he slowly disappear in the forest, his nose guiding him to his friend.

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Kouga came awake, noticing the absence of the usual warmth beside him. He yawned; groggily trying to feel the inu at the side, but his hand only met dried straw. His eyes snapped open, and he shot up, stretching his senses, to locate the inu.

“Darn it, where did the mutt go?” He jumped, up frantically searching the cave, his anger rising, with each passing second.

“How dare he leave the cave without my consent, that bastard will pay for this.” He gritted his teeth, pulling his armour over his head, in haste. He dressed quickly, rushing out of the cave, to follow the inu’s scent. But, as soon as he exited the cave, squinting his eyes from the sunlight, a howl rang through the forest, catching his attention.

“What the hell! What does Ginta want from me, now?” He wondered out aloud. He ignored the howl, stepping towards the path Inuyasha went, when another howl sounded through the forest, and he irritatebly, raised his throat, howling in answer. “Maybe I will talk to mutt-face later. But your gonna pay for leaving me Inukkoro, just wait.” With that, he turned towards the opposite direction, the tornado forming at his feet, as he rushed towards the direction of his cave.

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A/N: So what do you think of it. Tell me? I just put the lemon in, because it is going to be long wait for the next lemon to appear. Meanwhile, be prepared for more angst, and a heart-breaking event…

So, `til next chappie.

See Ya!

Inuchanpuppy