InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lost Memories ❯ Needing You ( Chapter 5 )

Okay, sorry about the long wait but as I've explained in Engaging Enemies, my Internet connection is acting stupid and I can't sign on so I'm posting these up while I'm at school just so you people don't send me hate mail. Gomen ne but this may take a while until my Internet's back up so, bare with me onegai.

Sadly, the last chapter was actually half of the story. Yes, but Lost Memories is actually not a long fic but one I'm still fond of. I liked it so much that I decided to write a sequel and am in the process of gathering ideas for the trilogy, if permitted I ever finish the sequel first. And gomen nasai Inu Yasha and Kagome are a little OOC. We all know that Inu doesn't like to show his feelings toward Kagome too much and Kagome isn't this frail. But this had to be like it is because…that's just the way things are and will be…at least, for me. So with that said, on to me fanfic, Ikuyo!

Inu Yasha walked through his forest, letting his feet carry him wherever. It had been two days since Kagome had awoken, completely forgetting everything and anything she knew.

`Inu Yasha, I wouldn't forget about…And I especially wouldn't forget about you…Not now, or ever. Never. I promise, I won't.' Her words kept repeating in his head. Kagome had forgotten him, her promise, everything about her.

That was when he heard soft crying and sobbing. He also noticed that Kagome's scent was heavy, along with the smell of salty tears. "Something's wrong with Kagome." He rushed off in the direction he knew Kagome was in.

When Inu Yasha arrived, he found Kagome curled up by the roots of a huge tree. She had obviously been crying and was trying to calm down. She held her legs close to her, and her head rested near her knees.

He couldn't smell any blood on her so he was confused as to why she was crying. "K-Kagome, what's the matter?" Inu Yasha walked slowly over to her, but she didn't budge. He knelt down and carefully placed his hand on her back. She immediately jumped at his touch. He withdrew his hand and tried again to make contact with her. "Kagome, what is it? Are you okay?"

"Go away. Leave me alone," Was all she said.

"But…don't be that way. What's wrong? Come on, you can tell me."

"I said go away! I don't need your help."

"Yes, you do. You need my help more than anyone else's. Like I need yours." Kagome lifted her head just enough to see Inu Yasha. What he said surprised her. For the last few days, while Sango, Shippou, and Lady Kaede tried to help her regain her memories, Inu Yasha just sat there across from her side of the hut, glaring at her. Now, he was trying to…help her.

"Why do I need your help? And why do you need my help?"

"Because, I know you more than anyone here. I know what you feel, though I may not know why."

"Is that so?" Kagome sat up some.

"Yeah, and you know me better than anyone. I should know. You know how I feel, even if I try to hide it. You've always stayed with me, no matter what. You've never left my side, not even when I wanted you to."

Kagome looked straight into his eyes. "Inu Yasha…" Was all she could manage to say.

"Now, tell me, what's the matter?" Kagome bowed her head and brought her legs closer to her. Inu Yasha gently held her arms, bringing her closer. "Come on, Kagome. Tell me."

Kagome looked up, tears welling up in her eyes. "Inu Yasha…it's just…I can't remember anything, anything at all. I've tried and tried, and Kaede and Sango have tried to help, but it seems in vain." She couldn't hold the tears back anymore, and they came down swelling.

Inu Yasha brought her into his arms and tried to pacify her tears. He rubbed her back up and down, and she eventually calmed down. When she did, he finally spoke up.

"So you're just gonna give up?"

Kagome lifted her head enough to speak clearly. "Wh -What do you mean?"

"You fall down once and think it's all over. You can't even pick yourself up. You try once, fail, and say it's impossible to accomplish. You just give up and let others help you without even budging to try one more time. You say you gave it all you've got and can't do anymore. Feh, I guess you weren't the Kagome I thought you were."

She lifted her head to the point where she just stared at Inu Yasha's chest. "But I told you, I've tried and tried as hard as I can. Nothing works. I…"

"Excuses! I don't give a rat's ass about them. The Kagome I knew would never give up so easily. She had a determination and persistence that was unparalleled. No matter how drastic or desperate the situation was, she always knew how to overcome it. But I guess I was wrong."

"That's not it." Everything he said was finally sinking in. All she could do was contemplate over his words.

"So what is it?"

"I only remember very small bits of things, but none of them make any sense. I'm not trying to give up, but it seems to be that way, and I can't stop it."

"You've come this far, and you're giving up now? If you can remember even just bits of your past, then you've made progress. You've accomplished something that'll help you bring back your memory."

He sighed and continued in a softer time. "Just give it a little time. You'll remember in due time. I know you will. You're Kagome. You've proven many times to me before; you're not as weak and helpless like most demons think humans are. You're strong enough to get through this ordeal; I just know you are." Kagome looked up at Inu Yasha and saw something that she had never seen from him within the last few days. His eyes held a sort of marvel and knowing. The golden depths of them possessed a beautiful wonder and owned so many emotions that they poured out to her as his words also captured her soul. "Listen. I've been wondering these pass few days; what happened to Kagome and why did it happen. I never thought about anything else when I should have been trying to help find a way to help you recover. Kagome, it's been hard on me almost as much as it's been for you if not as much. If you gave up, then what is there for me to even hope? Without you, I'd be lost, so I can't let that happen to you."

Kagome stared at him as a feeling of relief and serenity settled over her. "You really mean it?"

"Of course. Why wouldn't I?" He gave her one of his rare smiles. Kagome smiled back.

"Inu Yasha?"

"Hmm?"

"Do you think you could tell me more about myself and some things that I've done? Please?"

"Sure."

They sat there, Inu Yasha and Kagome, Kagome in between Inu Yasha's lap with his arms wrapped around hers, talking about their adventures in Sengoku Jidai. Inu Yasha told her about different times that they were stuck in desperate situations but always came through. He told her about how they me Shippo, Miroku, and Sango and about Sesshomaru, Naraku, Kagura and Kanna, Naraku's offspring. He specifically left out Koga for jealous reasons. Time passed as Inu Yasha reminisced on all the good times they had and despised all the hard struggles they had encountered.

"Inu Yasha, Sango told me about how on certain nights you turn human; but I thought demons couldn't turn human."

"True, they can't without the Shikon no Tama. But I'm a half-demon, remember? That means I'm half-human, too."

"Oh, yeah. I forgot about that. But, do you hate your human half? I mean she and Kaede told me you hated being half human, so is it true?"

"Truthfully, yes, I do, well, used to. It's my most vulnerable side. I guess because I feel weak and don't have my usually keen senses; also because I'm overwhelmed by human emotions. My human side wasn't exactly my most loved side, I guess you could say. But that's before something happened that changed my mind some."

"Care to tell?"

"Why not." He thought for a minute before continuing. "It happened a week or two after we met Shippo. We were going down a stream when a girl named Nazuna fell off a cliff, and we helped her reach the temple she was staying at. The priest invited us to stay the night, and convinced me to stay, against my will."

"I forced you to stay there?"

"Not exactly. I was hoping to cross the mountains by nightfall; but the priest said the m9ountains were rumored to have spider heads demons all around there. So, I decided to stay. That night, the spider heads had surrounded the temple without my knowing and attacked us. We escaped, but, during the process, I changed into a human. You see, I become human on nights of the new moon, when the moon becomes fully dark. You became upset because I hadn't trusted you with my secret. That's when I told you that I had never trusted anyone, that's how I always was."

"Was?"

"Yeah. Something that night changed everything. I went back with Shippo because we left the shards in your backpack at the temple. The priest had turned out to be a spider head in disguise and had poisoned me. Even though I told you to stay with Nazuna in the forest, you came anyway with Tetsusaiga and rescued me. You took me to a store closet where Myoga was able to suck out the poison in my blood. When I regained consciousness, I asked you why you were crying. You were crying when you were trying to free me from the spider head. You told me that you were afraid that you were gonna lose me. That was the first time I saw that you really cared, that you didn't care if I was a half-breed. It was also the first time I was truly nice to you." He specifically left out the embarrassing part when he told her she smelled nice and had lied about hating her scent the first time.

Inu Yasha looked up at the evening sky and noticed that they were seated under the sacred tree Goshinboku. Old memories came flowing back to him, between him, Kagome, and Kikyo.

"Hey, Kagome, did you know that this is the very spot where we first met?"

"Really? I had no clue."

"Yeah, it's been a little more than a year. You had just arrived here in the feudal era. You were taken to Kaede's village because they thought you were a spy from another village. The village priestess Kaede saw that you resembled her older sister Kikyou and untied you. She let you reside in her hut for the night before Mistress Centipede attacked. She was looking for the Sacred Jewel, which was embedded inside you. You ran here, and, somehow, I was reawakened. You see, 50 years ago, I searched for the Shikon no Tama, longing to be a full-fledged demon. The jewel at the time was protected by the priestess Kikyo; the same Kikyo that's Kaede's sister. Well, something happened to cause Kikyo to seal me to this tree, Goshinboku. In the process, she died and burned the jewel along with her body. It is said you are supposedly Kikyo's reincarnation. You arrived here 50 years later. I was put into a deep sleep and was to never wake up; but somehow, you awoke me. I had first mistaken you for Kikyo but later saw that you were different."

"Inu Yasha? You mentioned this Kikyo a few times, and so has Sango. I asked her who she was but she told me to ask you."

Inu Yasha had been hoping to not mention her for a while but reminiscing on old memories and new ones, he just couldn't help himself. "How `bout next time? It's getting pretty late, and everyone's probably worried."

"Okay. Go on ahead." They stood up. "I'll catch up to you in a minute."

"Sure." He pressed a light kiss on her forehead. Kagome blushed. She watched Inu Yasha as he walked off to the village. More visions became clearer when Inu Yasha told her about her past. She was beginning to believe she would recover her memories and probably understood something else about Inu Yasha. Thank you, Inu Yasha, She thought to herself.

She looked up at the huge Sacred Tree. She saw some roots that resembled something of a stairway on the other side. She climbed them and saw a huge spot where the bark was deranged. So this is where I first met Inu Yasha. She lightly ran her fingers over the bare wood. She smiled. She completely understood the vision of Inu Yasha pinned to a tree looking peaceful and content, oblivious to her and the rest of the world. He looked so…

An ominous wind blew, and the canopy opened, showing the clear, dark sky of twilight. A figure on outstretched branches descended towards Kagome. One of the branches grabbed her as she screamed for help.

"INU YASHAAA!!!" The branch gripped her tightly around the neck until she passed out from panic and lack of air.

Inu Yasha came rushing back but was too late. All that was left were the trees and Kagome's panicked and frightened scent.

HAHA! Evil cliffhanger. Or is it just the author who is evil? Hehe.

Review acknowledgements time!

StaryKegome: Well, hey, she never really liked Koga that way so, and sorry if Koga's a little OOC. He would never really go that low to get Kagome, I don't think he would.

InuFan292929: thank you, I've already finished writing it. Just gotta type it.

Marfbag: is it really possible to hug something that is really made up of data and numbers and letters and is on the internet in words?

TennyoKameko: Yes, I will update spoon, er, soon. Long live the Inuyasha spoons. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

sailor-saturn550: thank you for recognizing my humor. Most times I'm not really funny, but my friend still wants to know what I've been sniffing and wants some so she can act as crazy, if not crazier. Kag might get her memory back soon, if I let her… hehehehe.

Well, that's all for now cause my internet's still down and I'm in the middle of working on a project in engineering class. Latur!