InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love and Insanity ❯ Wanted Solitude ( Chapter 19 )

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Love and Insanity





A/N: YO!!!!! Hello my wonderful readers! Have I told you just how much I love you all? Well, If I haven't, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!! lol. I was just going through my reviews and well... I just HAD to write more after reading them all. I love reading so many! Its great to know my work is appreciated. Well, anyways, enough with my mushy bullshit and on with what everyone's been waiting for, the story! Enjoy!




Chapter 19



Wanted Solitude



Its been 2 days since Rin took that potion which caused her mind to fall into the horrid grasp of insanity. Two very very long days. Rin never left Sesshomaru's side, not even for a second. She wouldn't even let him go to the bathroom without her! Most the time, Rin was quiet and staring into nothing, but she didn't appear to even have a thought in her head. Sesshomaru was somewhat thankful for those moments for sometimes it appeared as if she wasn't even there. But her presence was always known to him. He felt frustrated not being able to be alone at all. He wasn't use to so much attention, not even from Rin before she lost her sanity.

He was no longer in the company of Inu yasha and his human companions. He left right when he found out that the ceremony could not begin for at least another week. There was no reason to stay. He would return in 5 days time. Until then, he had to deal with Rin following him around. He looked to Rin's sleeping form as he sighed. Jaken had already let his thoughts be known to Sesshomaru on the whole matter. "Why not just leave the human child?" he would ask. Of course, he didn't answer his question, for he himself wasn't sure why he could not leave Rin. Why did he keep her around? Perhaps he was just curious. It made him un easy to know that he had a weakness, and no matter how much he would deny it to himself, he now knew it to be true. He learned this once he saw Rin screaming in tortuous pain 2 days ago.

Yet he still didn't know why he felt the need to keep her safe now. He certainly didn't feel like a father to her, or any actual emotion at all toward her. He did find her somewhat fascinating though. This human definitely spiked his interests. 'She knows nothing of my life... or the people who have died by my hand. Yet she trusts me with her own life' he thought to himself. He was stirred out of his thoughts when he saw her shiver in her sleep. He stood up silently as he went to go get firewood. This is the first time he had left her since that day. He gathered wood quickly and was on his way back to her. He had only been gone for a moment when he heard Rin shriek out his name over and over again.



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"Its so dark in this place... where am I? How did I get here?" Rin said out loud to herself as she walked around in total darkness. "Jaken!!!! Are you here? JAKEN! This better not be some sort of sick joke or i'm telling Sesshomaru-sama!" she called out. She waited for something, anything! But nothing happened. Jaken wasn't there. Where could he be? "Please... someone, anyone, is there anyone there? I don't like it here..." Perhaps she was dreaming? She couldn't tell, she could feel cold wind blowing at her, causing goosbumps to form on her arms. It felt to real to be a dream. But where was this horrid place? She could hear screams in the background, but she called out over and over again and got no reply.

Soon she realized that the screams were her own, as if reminding her of the horrible pain she had gone through. It sent chills down her spine. "Jaken! Sesshomaru-sama! Where is everyone?!" she said as she continued to walk, not knowing which way she was going, it was to dark to see anything.

"Are you lost my child?"

Rin's head snapped around in the direction she heard a woman's voice. "Where are you? I can't see you"

"I am here" she said as she was suddenly behind Rin. It was Kagome! "Oh Kagome-chan! I'm so scared! I can't find Sesshomaru-sama or Jaken-sama! Do you know where they are?"

Kagome started to chuckle lightly at her words. "Don't you see it Rin?"

"See what?" Rin said in a confused tone.

"They left you... they left you to die Rin..."

Rin's eyes widened as Kagome said this to her. "No... no that can't be! Sesshoamru-sama would never-"

"Never what? You don't know Sesshomaru very well... he despises humans. He hates you Rin, he always has and he will NEVER care for you as you do him" Kagome said as her face turned into a look of pure evil. Rin backed away from her as she stepped towards her. "Why do you say such horrible things Kagome-chan?"

"Because they are true Rin. Look, there he is now, your precious saviour" Kagome said as she pointed off into the distance. The place she was pointing at suddenly turned light as she could see Sesshomaru from afar. "Sesshomaru-sama!" Rin yelled out as she began to run to him. Yet he just seemed to keep going... as if he didn't even hear her. "SESSHOMARU-SAMA!!!!" she said as her legs collapsed under her. She put her hands over her face as she cried into them. "No, it can't be!"

Kagome's light chuckle grew into wicked laughter as she put her hand on Rin's cold shoulder. "See? He hates you Rin. He wants you to die..."

Rin stood up quickly and turned to face her as she pointed an accusing finger at her. "YOUR WRONG!"

"Goodbye Rin" Kagome said as she pushed Rin. Rin lost her footing as she fell back into a never ending whole, screaming the whole way down.

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Rin awoke suddenly from her horrible dream. It was dark, and she could not see Sesshomaru anywhere. "SESSHOMARU-SAMA!!!! Sesshomaru-sama!!!!" She cried out over and over again.
"Calm down child, Sesshomaru-sama will return soon!" Jaken said as he tried to calm her down. It didn't help, she just kept kicking and screaming. Jaken tried to hold her down to stop her kicking and try to settle her until Rin's foot came flying at his face and knocked him back to the ground.

"Rin, be silent. I am here" He said as he returned with firewood and sat down next to her. She heard Sesshomaru's voice and stopped her crying as she looked up to him. "Sesshomaru-sama!!" She yelped as she wrapped her arms tightly around his waist. Sesshomaru slightly backed away from her at this action. She had never hugged him before... no one had ever hugged him before.

"Oh Sesshomaru-sama! Kagome said you wanted Rin to die!"

"It was a dream Rin..."

Rin looked up to him with her sad puffy eyes. Right then, it was like she totally forgot about the whole thing. She smiled brightly at him. Sesshomaru was surprised to see such a sudden change in her emotions. "Did you know that you look just like a little puppy!" she said as she grabbed onto Sesshomaru's tail and latched onto that instead. He sighed as Rin started to pet his tail. He certainly wasn't going to let this go on. Yet strangely enough... it felt somewhat enjoyable. Like what an animal feels when you pet its fur. Even so, he wasn't going to let this go on.

"Stop that Rin"

But she didn't stop, she just continued to do so, like a happy little child playing with a puppy. Rin normally never disobeyed him, but she wasn't exactly normal right now. He flipped his tail over and set it back over his shoulder as Rin's weak grip let go and she landed on her butt with a 'umph' sound.

"HEY! I was playing with that!" She said as she shoved her face right in front of Sesshomaru's.

"And now, you will go back to bed..."

"Awwww, I don't wanna!"

"Rin, you will do as I say"

"What will you give me if I do?" GOD was he tempted to say 'I might not kill you!' But of course, he didn't. Rin was NEVER this much trouble. She always did exactly what she was told and never talked back. He couldn't wait until the ceremony.

"Go to bed, NOW" Rin jumped at the harsh tone he used for the last word. Her goofy smile turned into a look of sadness as she laid back down and shut her eyes.



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"The jewel is almost complete..." Kagome said to Inu yasha as they started to head to the bone eaters well. "What are you going to do with it once it is complete?" She asked him.

"I don't know anymore. I use to want it to become a full demon, but I know that's not what I want anymore. I don't want to hurt you Kagome"

"Then what will you do with it?"

"I... don't know, anyways, I'll have plenty of time to decide that when we have the rest of it and- (sniff sniff)"
"What is it?" Kagome asked as she looked around. Inu yasha sighed deeply as he stood closer to Kagome. "Its that wimpy wolf again" he growled.

Right then, what appeared to be a tornado came rushing toward them and came to a halt right in front of them.
"Oi, Kagome! How are you feeling?" Kouga said as he stepped up to her.

"Much better now"

"Your not still... errrr"

"Crazy? No" she chuckled.

"That's good to hear, I was worried about you" He said as he took her hands in his. Inu yasha growled at him as he pushed him off her. "Don't fucking touch MY mate" (He's even more so protective of her now that they are mates)

"Inu yasha!"

"Your what?!" Kouga said in disbelief. He walked up to her and turned her head to the side. He saw the bite mark on her neck and growled viciously at Inu yasha. "You son of a bitch!" Kouga said as he pounced on Inu yasha. Inu yasha and Kouga smashed into the ground as Inu yasha punched Kouga right in the face. That was all Kagome could really see of the fight, after that, they were going so fast and fiercely that she couldn't keep up with what was going on. It was like watching dogs fight!

"Stop it you two!" She yelled above their loud growls. They didn't listen, they just kept going. Kagome was about to say 'sit', but realized how bad of an idea that really was. They were surely going to kill one another at this rate! If she said it now, who knows what might happen to him. Then they flew back 5 feet from each other. Kagome ran in between them as she yelled "SIT!" and blocked Kouga right when he was already in the air about to strike. Kouga's eyes widened as he used his super fast legs to spin him away from her while in mid air. He crashed hard into the ground, only an inch away from her.

"Kagome! You could have been killed!" Kouga shouted at her.

"It was the only way to make you guys stop fighting! So NOW, you'll listen to what I have to tell you!" Kagome commanded. Kouga didn't say a word and Inu yasha was still trying to get to his feet.

"There is something important you need to know Kouga... Naraku is dead"

"Dead?! You... you guys killed him?!" Kouga asked in disbelief.

"Yes... He's gone" Kouga looked down to the ground as she said this to him. He wanted to be the one to avenge his tribe, it was HIS revenge, and now it was gone. Unless...

"What about Kagura? Is she dead?" He asked in anticipation.

"I don't know... she ran once Sango practically cut her in half..."
His facial expression seemed to brighten up slightly, though he still seemed pretty depressed.

"So... this is what you want? You chose him over me?" Kouga said as Inu yasha finally got up from the ground.

"Yes, this was my choice"

He sighed deeply before turning around, facing the forest. "I guess I'll see you around then... I have to go..." and with that, he was off with the speed of the wind.

"MAN am I glad thats over wi-... HEY WAIT!!!!! WE NEED THOSE SHARDS DAMNIT!!!"

"Don't worry Inu yasha, we'll get them eventually... we need to get more supplies for Sango and Miroku right now"

"Aye" He said as he jumped into the well.

Kagome looked back into the forest where Kouga's trail of dust was still thick in the air. "What will you do now?" she sighed before jumping in after Inu yasha.



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Kagura inhaled deeply, trying to not concentrate on the pain. Her wounds were healing now, but they still hurt like hell. She had allot to think about to distract her though. All she ever knew was gone now. She thought about going back and killing that stupid wench that caused her so much pain. She thought about it, but then she thought about something else. She now had no reason to ever see them again. She was free of Naraku... she didn't have to go after Inu yasha anymore.

All though freedom was all she ever wanted, this thought made her somewhat un easy. What was she to do now? Where should she go? She had no one to turn to, she had made many enemies at the right hand side of Naraku. She always thought that Kanna would be here with her. Even though Kanna didn't have a soul, she still kind of missed her company. Her days now would be in complete solitude. She didn't mind that to much... she would rather be alone and free than still be a slave of Naraku.

Right then, something caught her nose. She knew this sent from somewhere...

"Shit"

Kagura tried to stand up, but she was still to weak. She needed more time to heal! There was only one way to describe her situation right now.

"I'm fucked"

She pulled out her fan for her protection. Not like there was much she could do... but she would be damned if she was going to die without a fight.

"Aye, you are fucked..." Kouga said as he stopped right in front of her.



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A/N: You know, it's funny. I hate to read an update only to find a cliffy at the end, yet I write so many chapters like that LOL! I think thats a great place to leave it until I get back though... hehehe. Well, I wanted to post this chapter before I go to Nevada City. If I have access to the internet there, I'll try to post up Demonic Demons there, if not, then I'll post it once I get home which will be about a week. Thank you all very much for reviewing. Let me know what you think of this chapter ^.~

Arianna