InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love and War ❯ What does she really mean to me? ( Chapter 13 )

Part thirteen: What does she really mean to me?

Inuyasha kicked start the bike and sped out of the gates. His long white hair flowed freely behind him as he zoomed down the almost deserted streets. It was early the next morning and he took a route rarely traveled to a destination only few knew about. He had a meeting there that morning and it was one he knew he couldn't get out of. He leaned forward and pressed gas on the bike. He wanted to get there as soon as he could and settle everything.

He entered the almost secluded property and rode over to the water's edge. He saw the figure standing there all alone and brought the bike to a halt. He turned it off and parked it then got off and walked over to the lone figure sitting on the bank. He looked out onto the lake before taking a seat along side the figure.

"I thought you weren't coming," the person said.

"Have I ever turned you down?" Inuyasha asked as he looked at her. Kikyo looked at him with sad eyes.

"Not until recently," she answered softly.

Inuyasha looked at her then not being able to take her sad gaze he looked back at the water. He knew she was right. He'd always treated her like a bitch or a piece of property but they were always there for each other. That was until lately. He couldn't help it. Kagome had come into the picture and she was the wielder of the sword.

"I'm sorry. But she..."

"I know. She's the one the legends were talking about. The miko that can wield your mother's sword. I remember when you once that I was the one."

"Yeah."

When they had first met, Inuyasha was so sure the legends were talking about her. Though she couldn't control the sword and couldn't release its true powers, he stuck by her. They were young and in love and wanted each other above all. At some point he was even willing to give up this hunt for her but that was before he began taking lessons from his older brother. After that he became the cold hearted bastard he was as of late.

"What went wrong Inuyasha? What drove us apart?" she asked as she looked at him. he didn't answer and she had a feeling he really couldn't answer. "You loved me once."

"And I still love you!" Inuyasha was surprised that he said it. He didn't mean for it to come out but he guessed it was the truth. He had loved Kikyo once and something inside of him still loved her. He could never deny that. Though he had Kagome and could accomplish what he had been fighting for with her help he had always thought of Kikyo as his soul mate.

"Then be with me," she pleaded.

"I can't. I took Kagome as my mate."

"You mated with me first remember. Dog demons mate for life by right I'm your true mate."

"I had sex with you yes but I never marked you. you were just the first that I made love with. I'm sorry Kikyo. I love you but its too late for us now." Inuyasha regretted saying those words. He couldn't stand to see the pain in Kikyo's eyes. his breath caught in his throat as he watched a tears slide down her cheek.

"I understand Inuyasha. I hope you be happy." she stood and walked over to her own bike. She got on and with a last look she zoomed off.

Inuyasha followed her figure until he could see her no more. The only thought on his mind was he hope he made the right decision. He had just let go of someone who had truly loved him.

(Kikyo doesn't seem so much like a bitch now does she? For all you Kikyo lovers and haters alike....she's still a bitch.)

Kagome entered the gates of the mansion in her new car and pulled up to the front of the house. when she opened the doors, the first person she saw was Sango.

"Hey long time no see," the girl said as her friend walked over.

"Yeah. Sorry. I've been kind of busy."

"Yeah. We heard," Sango said with a grin causing Kagome to blush. Both girls headed for the kitchen where Sango grabbed a beer and offered one to kagome. the girl shook her head. "So what's new?"

"Not much. Just graduated of course so all I really wanna do is enjoy myself."

"That's gonna be hard to do since we're about to be put under house arrest."

"What?"

"Some of the dogs were killed in a drive by shooting last night. We didn't find out until this morning and everyone was put on alert."

"Oh man," Kagome said sympathetically. "Where's Inuyasha?"

"He went out this morning. But don't worry he can take care of himself."

"Yeah he can," Kagome said as she thought about something. "Sango I wanna ask you something."

"What is it?"

"Not that I'm wishing for it to happen, but what would happen to me if Inuyasha died?"

"What? Well I assume we'd take care of you. being his mate and all means your apart of our family now. If you wanted to live somewhere else we could arrange it."

"And if I had a child? Would I still be able to leave?" Kagome asked as she looked at her friend.

"Are you? Are you saying that? Oh my god Kagome! Are you having a baby?" Sango asked.

"Shh. I don't want anyone to hear."

"Well are you?" Sango whispered.

"I don't know. I visited the doctor today to take a blood test. I won't get the results until Friday."

"Why so long?"

"They're mourning for a loss in the family."

"Oh ok. My god a baby! I'm gonna be an aunt! Inuyasha's going to be.....my brother is going to be a father," Sango said with a frown. "Did you tell him this?"

"No. I only suspected and didn't want to say anything. Why?"

"Kagome I don't want to disappoint you or anything but I don't know if Inuyasha wants kids right now. I mean maybe some day he would but he's still trying to avenge our parents' deaths."

"What do you think I should do?"

"well I'm not the best person in the world to ask but I don't think you should tell him until you know for sure."

"Okay. Thanks Sango. I needed to talk to someone."

"No prob."

"I think I need to lie down now."

"Yeah."

The figure moved away from the wall before they were spotted. Oh what joyous news! It seems Inuyasha's mate was pregnant and the hanyou didn't know about it yet. Well this is one way to get to the hanyou. Through his mate and his unborn child.

"Lord Naraku," said Jakken as he ran into the hall.

"What is it?" the man asked annoyed that he was being disturbed.

"I have some interesting news for you sir."

"Well don't tell me you have interesting news! Tell me the news!" Naraku yelled.

"Yes sir. Well it seems as if the hanyou's mate is breeding."

"Breeding?"

"Yes sir. She was overheard in a conversation with the demon exterminator. It appears there's a high possibility that she's carrying Inuyasha's child."

"Really?" Naraku asked with a wicked smile. "That is interesting. Very interesting." he thought about all the possibilities as he grinned with joy. "Jakken find out more and get back to me. By the way good job."

Jakken stopped in his tracks and looked back at his master. He had never been complimented on a job before so he was surprised. He was now determined to do all he could to stay on the master's good side. He'd find out all he could about the hanyou's bitch.

Inuyasha held the sword in his hand and looked at it. It seemed like a normal sword except for the markings and engravings. It was his mother's. She was a demon exterminating miko. Sango hadn't inherited her miko powers but she was a pretty good demon exterminator. She even had her brother's afraid of her. Inuyasha smiled as he thought about his odd family. They were all so different yet fit together so perfectly. That was until Naraku tore them apart.

When he took away their parents he had made the children grow up before they were ready. He had filled their hearts with coldness and hate. Now it was back to them to set everything right. Inuyasha frowned as he thought of the direction his life had followed. He had not wanted to be what he was. A cold blooded killer. He'd always imagined him and Sesshomaru apart of the family's legitimate business and having families of their own. Now he was a ruthless gangster with a chance of dying before all of this was over.

The choices he made were not his own and that scared him sometimes. When it first started out, it was only the three of them but as time passed, Naraku wronged others who were willing to help in the fight of revenge. Inuyasha really didn't know how he became the leader of this whole operation but he was. He leaded them and if one of his choices were a bad one they were all affected. That was partially the reason he chose Kagome.

There was a legend that said one day he would meet his mate. She'd be able to wield his mother's sword and have the powers of a true miko running through her veins. She'd be the one to help him in his fight against evil. When he met Kagome, he instantly knew there was something different about her. He could sense it. The day when he handed her the sword it was all on a hunch. He had expected it to react so strongly to her. He'd always thought Kikyo was going to be his. No matter how he treated her she was always there now this new person entered the situation and had him confused.

Inuyasha didn't know what to do. He loved Kikyo but he cared for Kagome. She was his mate and the one to help in the fight against Naraku. Kikyo did help him though. She did a lot of life threatening things for him when she didn't have to. She was there from the very beginning but Kagome needed to be there for the end of it all. The man sighed. His life was shit and he knew it. He had to choose one but it was going to be so hard. No matter what they both held places in his heart and there was no changing that. Inuyasha looked up when he heard someone move behind him. He turned to see Kagome making her way towards him with a smile on her face. This was going to be one hard decision.

"I can't do that," the figure said. "She has some really strong powers and even if she didn't Inuyasha would surely kill me."

"Inuyasha is not a problem. leave him to me. He gets easily distracted when he feels he's near to killing me. All you have to do is harm the girl. I don't want her to die but I do want the child to."

"If I do that it'll blow my cover. I'm sure you don't want that to happen yet do you?" the person asked with a grin.

"I guess not."

"I'll do it," said a voice as the person stepped out of the shadows. "I haven't tortured Inuyasha in a very long time and I'm bored anyway."

"Fine then Kouga. The job of killing the hanyou's pup is left in your hands."

Kouga grinned. He couldn't wait.

"What's wrong?" Kagome asked Inuyasha as she took a seat beside him.

"What do you mean?"

"Well you look so sad that I figured something was wrong?" she said as she laid a hand on his shoulder.

"It's nothing I can't handle." He could sense she was saddened with his refusal to share with her but how could one tell his wife that he was having a hard time choosing between her and another woman.

"Okay," she said. They then collapsed into silence before Kagome had the guts to speak up again. "Inuyasha. What do you think about having kids."

The man's head snapped up and his eyes widened. "That wouldn't be a very good idea right now. Why? Are you trying to tell me you're pregnant?"

"No! It was just a question." (Okay I know that he could probably smell if she was or wasn't but this is my fic so let's just pretend that he could but was so lost in his own problems he didn't notice any change okay? Thank you.)

"Good," he said with a sigh. "Kids may be good one day but I don't want any right now. They'll just get in the way of what I'm trying to do. They may ruin my plans and that's all I can focus on right now. Besides I don't think I'll ever really be ready to have any. I won't make a good father." Inuyasha the jerk was too caught up in his feelings to realize that Kagome was almost in tears beside him. She blinked them away and tried to hide them. She succeeded just in time because he looked at her.

"Why do you ask?"

"Oh. I was thinking about Shippo and how he doesn't have a mother and father," she lied.

"Okay. Well you know you could always look after him if you want. I don't have a problem with that as long as it doesn't get in the way of our training."

"Yeah. Okay."

"Are you okay Kagome?" he asked. He was sensing that something was wrong.

"I'm fine. Just getting the flu is all. I think I'll go lie down."

"Okay sure." Inuyasha let her go not realizing his young wife was breaking up inside.

Kagome had made her way inside when she felt the dam broke and the tears fall. She hadn't wanted to cry but she just couldn't help it. What Inuyasha had said hurt too much. In the back of her mind was the nagging thought that maybe she was over reacting. Maybe there wasn't any baby to be crying about but she didn't care. There was a possibility that she was indeed pregnant and Inuyasha's words hurt her deeply.

"Kagome?" asked Miroku as he looked up. The woman had unknowingly walked into the game room where he was polishing his gun. He put it away quickly as he saw the tears in her eyes. "What's wrong?" he asked as he got up and went over to her. The girl looked up at him and was only able to shake her head before she fell in his arms. Miroku caught her then rolled her to look at her face. She had fainted. This wasn't good.

"What do you think is wrong with her?" Kagome heard from above her.

"I don't know yet. We have to run some test," said another voice.

"Can't you guess?" the first voice said angrily.

"How could I guess when there are so many things that can go wrong with the human body?" the next voice said equally angry. "Don't be an ass Inuyasha."

The man cursed as he stroked Kagome's cheek. The girl smiled as she opened her eyes. The first thing she saw was his amber eyes and the worried look in them.

"Kagome," he said softly. "Are you okay?"

"I think so," she said as she sat up.

"What happened?" asked Kaede from the other side of her.

"I don't know. All I remember was talking to Miroku then waking up here."

"You don't remember you fainted?" Kaede asked the girl as she got a chart and started writing on it.

"I fainted?" Kagome asked. She was worried. That was one of the symptoms of being pregnant and she hoped they didn't figure out that could possibly what's wrong with her.

"Yeah. You've been out for almost an hour. We were really worried. Do you mind if I run a few tests on you to see what is wrong?" Kaede asked as she looked down at her. She saw Kagome's eyes flicker to Inuyasha briefly before she nodded. She had a feeling something was going on there. "Okay. Just lie back and we'll get started soon."

(Okay now I realize I'm speeding things up but I want to get to a certain part in this story so please forgive me.)

A few days later, when Inuyasha finally allowed Kagome out of bed, she went for a walk. She needed the fresh air and some time to herself to figure out in her mind what she was going to do. She had such a weird life. she used to be just another ordinary teenage girl until that one situation in the alley. Kagome knew she would miss all of her friends that she made but she just wished everything would go back to normal. She wouldn't have to worried about anyone close to her being killed or being killed herself. when she was home she was always protected.

As Kagome thought about protection she thought about Inuyasha. He promised to protect her but she had doubts when it came to him. lately he seemed to be a bit preoccupied and never had any time for her. Kagome knew she was probably being selfish but she couldn't help it. Since she had met him he was a really big part of her life and now that things were not the same she felt lost.

"Hello Kagome," said a voice from behind her. Startled Kagome turned to look at the new comer and was surprised to come face to face with Kikyo.

"Kikyo," she said politely. "How may I help you?"

"If you really wanted to help me you would leave here and never come back."

"I cannot do that and you know it. I'm Inuyasha's wife."

"You're not his wife. You're his mate. There's a difference. Animals have mates humans have wives. The only reason Inuyasha even allows you to be on this property is because he needs you to fulfill the prophecy."

"Prophecy? What prophecy?" Kagome asked with concern.

Kikyo smirked. "You mean he didn't tell you? Well I thought you being his wife and all he'd tell you. I mean I knew from the very beginning."

"Cut the crap Kikyo. What prophecy?" Kagome asked getting annoyed.

"All right all right. There is some stupid prophecy that says the wielder of the sword of his mother would be the one to help him be victorious in his impending battle. I never believed in that garbage but apparently he does. If it weren't for that stupid prophecy you wouldn't be here right now. He doesn't love you or even wants you. he only needs you for one thing and that is defeating Naraku."

"Goodbye Kikyo. I think our conversation has ended," she said as she turned away from the girl.

"Okay but mark my words. When this is all over Inuyasha will return to me. You're only convenient for a while then he's all mine again." Kikyo smirked as she walked away from kagome. she was happy she put some doubts in the girl's head. Now she would just let everything ride out.

Inuyasha knew he had been a jerk to Kagome lately. He knew his cold words were hurting her although she didn't say anything about it. This was what he hated. If she had yelled or screamed at him it would give him an insight as to how she feels but she doesn't say a word. He had to make it up to her. He had to make it up to his friends too. They'd all been walking on eggshells around him because of his bad attitude. He knew they were annoyed at his behavior but none wanted to challenge their leader. Inuyasha sighed. He hated leading sometimes. Everyone looked up to him to do no wrong or to have all the answers when most of the time he didn't. very soon the shit would hit the fan and he had to enjoy himself one last time. He had no idea whether or not he would die from this battle but he decided to live life while he still had it.

He went in search for his brother and Miroku and found them both polishing weapons. The men were discussing something but stopped and looked at him when he entered the room. He shook his head and sunk down into the chair and they took this as a sign to continue what they were doing.

"I wanna go out," Inuyasha said. Sesshomaru tossed him a gun and pointed to the door. "No I mean tonight. A club. One last time. What do you think?"

The two men looked at each other. What did they think? "Sure," Miroku said as Sesshomaru nodded. "Not a problem. I'll let the girls know we're clubbing tonight. Who are we searching for?"

"No one. Let's just be normal tonight. Don't let down your guards but lets try to have fun." Inuyasha got up and left the room. The two men stared after him then looked at each other. What the hell was going on?

Kagome looked at herself in the mirror and frowned. The dress was gorgeous. It was a tight fitting short dress that ended just above her knees. It had a split that came up her right thigh and was red and shimmering. It wasn't that she didn't like the dress. It was that it felt tighter than usual. Sure she'd never worn in before but when she tried it on it wasn't this tight. She sighed and stepped into her shoes. There was nothing she could do about it now.

When Kagome was done she made her way downstairs to find the others gone and Inuyasha waiting on her. He looked so sexy that night that she had to smile at him. he looked her over and smirked. She knew that to be a good sign.

"You ready?" he asked her as she came closer to him. she nodded and he opened the door for her. They went out to his car and headed for the club. The ride there was quiet. Neither knew what to say to the other. For the past few days they hadn't spent much time together and Kagome felt that they were growing apart. She stared out at the scenery as they drove. The air was tense in the car but neither knew what to say to the other.

"Here we are," he said as he pulled into the parking lot. Kagome looked at the club dispassionately. Lately she wasn't interested in partying. She wouldn't mind spending a quiet dinner with Inuyasha but he didn't realize that was what she wanted. She felt resigned to the fact that she may never have what she wanted and had to get over it. She got out of the car and followed him into the club. When they got in the music was booming and people were dancing wildly. She saw the others were already dancing and having fun.

"Hey," Sango said as she came over.

"Hi," Kagome said with a forced smile. She wasn't feeling into it tonight. As a matter of fact she wasn't feeling like anything that night.

"Are you okay?" Sango asked as she saw the expression on the girl's face.

"Yeah I'm fine. just a little tired."

"Why didn't you stay home. We could've stayed if you wanted."

"No don't worry about me. Go on enjoy yourself. I'll be over here sitting down," she said as she pointed to a booth in the corner. It was dark and seemed the best place for her mood.

"You sure?" Sango asked skeptically.

"Yeah. It's perfect. I'll be fine." Kagome watched the girl leave then turned to find Inuyasha. When she didn't see him at first she thought maybe he went to order some drinks for them. She made her way over to the booth and took a seat. She scanned the club and looked over to the par. She did see Inuyasha then but what she saw upset her. He was there leaning over someone. It was obvious it was a female. It wasn't until he shifted that she could see clearly who it was. Kikyo. As if she sensed Kagome looking at her, Kikyo looked over in her direction and smirked. Kagome turned away from the two. Well that settled it. If she was who he chose then fine. she wasn't getting between them anymore.