InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love in strange places ❯ The moon that never shines ( Chapter 17 )

Chapter 18

Manei sped towards the castle as tears streamed down his face. He feared for his surrogated mother and his lil unborn brothers and sisters. He ran like he had never ran before hoping that his mother haven't noticed him. He ran into the castle ignoring any cries of surprise as he sped away from the servants he headed down the hall at top speed towards Sesshomaru's door he was only twenty meters away now.

A sudden hand grasped his tail and pulled him against his captor. At first he struggled against the youkai but soon it's scent filled him nose.

"Mother." He cried as he turned and hit her at full force sobbing into her kimono as he pounded his tiny little fist at her chest gently. " Why…why are you leaving me." He cried tears slid down his cheek as he clung onto her and wished for to stay with him and never leave. He couldn't bear to lose her.

Kagome was trying to act natural. " what are you talking about Manei I'm right here I'm not going to leave you my pup." Her heart clenched in fear, hoping that Manei did not know about her conversation with Suki. But her conscience told her other wise.

"Oh momma…I was there… when you spoke with Suki.." He cried as Kagome went stiff her heart had just hardened into a decision but now she wasn't sure anymore as she saw the reaction of her pup. A tear slipped down and landed on his fist. He tilted his head up and looked upon his mother's tear stained face.

" I have no choice… my son." She said as she tried to remain calm for the sake of him. But she felt as if her heart was tearing into shreds. It hurt her to see her son, so young to have to go through the grief of losing his parents and now his surrogated mother. Sorrow should not grace of the face of such younglings. She tried to sound cheerful.

"But you'll always have Sesshomaru….and Suki will soon be your new …..mother." she choked upon the last word as more tears spilled down her cheek. She glanced at Sesshomaru's door *Oh Sesshomaru….if only you knew.* she thought sadly.

"But momma I want you….I just want you…." Manei never felt such intense pain. It wasn't physical, but he couldn't describe it. It was like his heart was going to rip out of his chest. He whimpered at the feeling once again pulling at Kagome's heart. Kagome slides against the wall onto the floor as he whispered over and over to him hoping to sooth his pain.

" I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I will forever watch over you." She said the she heard a creak of a door. She quickly whipped away her tears and hid her scent of sorrow and strengthened her illusion and scent spell. Sesshomaru stood in his door way since Kagome was facing her side to him and he could only see the back of her head because she was whispering to the teary child.

Manei raised eyes to see his father and once again tears sprinkled to the floor. He lowered his gaze and clenched his teeth. But before he could say anything Kagome quickly tried to cover her secret.

" what is wrong?" Sesshomaru questioned as Manei refused to meet his gaze. He had never seen such a broken look upon the young child's face. Manei sobbed and his tears splattered down to the ground.

"He…he's just upset about his parents that's all." Kagome gave him a fake wavering smile. As Manei ripped him self away from her and ran down the hall towards his room with such speed that Sesshomaru was shocked speechless. A door was heard slammed as a howl of a broken heart met their ears.

"I'll….i'll go take a bath and give him some time to think." She said unsurely not looking into his eyes. She quickly departed and bolted for the hotsprings. Once in side the water hot waves of tears splattered into the water as she cried for the pain she had caused. She slashed at the water and she blamed herself over and over wishing that Manei had never met her.

……………………… …….Manei…………………… ;…….

He was on his bed sobbing into his pillows as he slashed at the bed out of anger, sorrow, fear and the feeling of loneliness.

"Why mother why?" was the question he yelled out over an over again. He wanted to tell his father but every time he looked at him the picture of him and Suki popped up. The picture of him forgetting his mother and taking Suki as his mate right after his mother sacrificed her self. That was the future. And he could not change it.

Waves of emotions made him breathless as he finally calmed down and just sat there staring out of the window. He wondered. His mother the most beautiful, powerful, kind, caring demoness was willing to let herself and her pups die. What he didn't understand was why mother would choose this. Why would she choose death over love. He didn't understand. If she loved Sesshomaru she would stay with him. Then it hit him. The part where Kagome had whispered to Suki that he could not hear.

"Sesshomaru….die….way…life for life…..sacrifice…replace." It all made sense. Oh mother he cried for his mother… for all the pain she has to go through. To have to give up her love to someone in order for him to survive.

"NO MOTHER!" He roared as he punched the wall with such force that it was destroyed.

……………………… ……Kagome…………………… ;…

She sat in the hot springs crying for the pain she had burdened upon her son. Then she heard a loud sound. It was coming from Manei's room. She quickly got dressed and ran into this room. What she saw stabbed at his heart. His bed shredded Manei sat on the floor with bits and pieces of the floor around him. His fist bleeding but was not tended to.

Kagome rushed up and him and embraced him into the heartbreaking hug.

"oh Manei….my son." She cried as she cradled him against her as he let out his frustration in tears. Sesshomaru arrived on the scene to see both mother and son crying and the room destroyed. As soon Manei caught his eyes he forced his eyes down to the ground he couldn't bare to see his father. New tears formed and was absorbed into her kimono.

Sesshomaru walked towards them and sat beside them wrapping a comfortable arm around his family. Hoping to take away the pain. But one thing he was sure of was that there was more to what they were willing to tell him.

…………….Two weeks later………….

Two weeks have passed as Kagome and Manei put on a cheery front. But Manei now every night stares at the moon and it's significance. For once he did not enjoy it's beauty but the pain that it could create.

Sesshomaru could sense that something was wrong as he watched Manei from above. His young son wore an expression of pain and sorrow as he stared at the moon. It has been like this every night since the incident.

Sesshomaru watched as Manei's gaze wandered to his mother's room. As soon as the room came to his view hot tears rolled down his face. Manei did not sense his father. Sesshomaru was now scared for Manei knew something he didn't. Something that had sadden him into the state of depression.

*oh Kagome…. What are you keeping from me.* as he landed on her balcony to only see her staring at the moon with tears down her face the same as Manei. *The moon ……. What is the connection to the moon* he wondered as he too turned to watch it.

"I shall have no regrets" Kagome turned and wiped her tears as she settle down on her futon. Not noticing the concerned amber eyes.

Kagome's words played over and over in his head. *' I shall have no regrets'* Kagome what ever you are planning I hope you won't succeed for the sake of my heart* he thought as he took one last look and leaped into the sky howling at the moon in pain.

He glared at the moon. " WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS" he roared into the fields to no one.