InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love Is... ❯ So Much Pain ( Chapter 9 )

* * * * * * * * * * * Still At The Party Inuyasha's POV * * * * * * * * * * *

I can't believe she did that, my own fucking sister! I knew she never liked Kikyou, or me, but to go and pull something like that was just plain wrong. And what's even worse is that Kikyou believed part of it and she doesn't even care, she's dancing with some guy who I really want to hurt. I knew dating her would be different than dating Kagome, but they are nothing alike. Kagome always greeted me with a kiss, Kikyou did the first few dates, but then she just stopped. Kagome's eyes were always full of life and love, but Kikyou's don't even come close to it. I know I made a decision, but was it the right one?

"Of course, I have always wanted her. From the first time I saw her." I thought trying to convince myself it was the truth while I watched MY girlfriend dance with some bastard I would later end up killing if he didn't watch his hand

I can't believe I have to sit here and watch this, but what else can I do? I made a choice and I have to stick with it, or do I? Would Kagome take me back? I may not have been in love with her like I am with Kikyou, but she was so much better when it came to this dating shit. I never even saw her look at another guy, let alone dance with one when she was suppose to be with me.

"But I love Kikyou, not Kagome. I just have to make Kikyou see how much she loves me, once she does she won't look at any other guy."

* * * * * * * * * * * Kagome's POV * * * * * * * * * * *

We're driving back home, the party was okay, I mean I'm not much for rich people parties, but it was nice being there with people I know. I felt kind of sorry for Inuyasha, I had found out everything that had happened, Kira must really be mad at him to do something like that. And that look on here face told me that, that wasn't all she was going to do, no she had something else in mind and knowing her it was going to be bad, funny, but bad.

"As long as it doesn't kill him, it should be fine." I thought trying to ease my mind, I may be upset with him, but I don't hate him enough to not worry about what his older sibling might do

She rarely did anything to him while we went out, but as soon as I dumped him, the war began once again. I use to hear stories about the pranks they played on each other, or more like the pranks she played on him. He never got a chance to get her back for anything because once one prank was done another started right up. I wish I had my brother back, I never got to get close to him, and why is that? Because I liked to believe in my dreams of being a singer? Because he was only my half-brother? I never cared about that, he was still my brother and I loved him dearly, but his father never saw that.

"Were are you, Souta? Are you happy without me? Do you even remember me?" I asked those questions a lot, but less frequent than I had before I met Inuyasha and got a job at the casino

It helped to have friends like Kira and Sango, even Miroku was a good friend to me. They were the family I never had, but always wanted. I need to stop thinking about this and start thinking about more important things, but what's more important than your family? Okay, I need to just think about the songs I will be singing for tomorrow nights show, I can't believe I didn't get them picked out already.

"Well, that was an interesting party. I'll make sure I tell Kouga that right before I beat the crap out of him." I heard Kira say from the front seat, though I have no clue who she was talking too

"I'm sure he has a good reason for not showing up." I said trying to reassure her, Kouga was also my friend, so I at least had to try and help him out, though I knew it wouldn't work

"He better hope he has a good reason." Kira said in her scary I'm-gonna-kill-him-no-matter-what tone

Kira was scary when it came to her fiancée standing her up, I mean what woman wouldn't be? If it was me I probably would have long past killed him, but I guess I'll never know exactly how it feels. It's not like I thought that I would marry Inuyasha, but it was nice to dream about it sometimes, but now thinking about it, it was stupid to even dream it. I realize that I pity myself too much, I mean I have more than a lot of people and I'm feeling bad because some guy wasn't in love with me? I need to quit thinking about it and start thinking about getting my life together and getting a new place to live so I don't have to keep staying with Kira and Sesshouamru, because I know I will wear-out my welcome sometime.

"Would you like me to drop you off at his apartment, or would you like to go home and rest?" Sesshoumaru asked Kira, he was a good brother from what I have seen, he cares so much about his sister even if he doesn't show it all the time

"I want to go home, then I'll go over there and kick his ass." Kira said with a little smirk on her face, she was in her planning stage, this is not gonna be good

* * * * * * * * * * * Sessy's POV * * * * * * * * * * *

It was an interesting party, I rather enjoyed it and I never enjoy these parties. Oh wait there was the last one where my idiot half-brother got drunk and made a fool out of himself, I was just glad that Kira had brought the video camera. That tape will make an exceptional Christmas present this year, and perhaps maybe a birthday present. I never said anything, but I enjoy watching Kira mess with our younger half sibling, it's almost like she does this for the both of us. She does what she likes to him, and I yell at him later if he tries to do anything to get her back, it's like a team effort with us.

"I wonder what will happen tomorrow. Will father stop by to `talk' to Kira again?" I asked myself even though I already knew the answer

Yes, our father will stop by to have a talk with Kira about the tings she does to him precious Inuyasha, and the way she treated him and his ditz of a wife, but all Kira will do is nod and roll her eyes like she always does and he will be on his way. Father knew she never listened to him, but he thought that if he came and talked to her at least he can say he made an effort. I use to respect my father, but after a while that respect dwindled away, now I just care for him. Yes I care for him, I care for all of my family members in some way or another, but the only two I would admit to loving was Kira and my mother.

"Wow, it is so quiet in here. I'm turning on the radio." Kira announced, she knows I hate it when she turns the radio on, she liked that American metal, it hurts my ears

"No you will not, that music you listen to hurts my ears."

"Come on, I won't even listen to that station, I'll find a new one." she was almost begging me, and if I said no she would give me the big-eye pouty lip treatment

"Fine, but you will find something quiet to listen too." I said giving in a bit

"Okay, no problem there." she said reaching to turn on the radio, and I was surprised when she actually listened to me and found something that wouldn't rupture my ear-drums

As the song that we had been listening to ended, a new one began, and once it began Kira and Kagome started to sing along with it.

Why is love so much pain?
sitting on the roof starring at the stars
thinking to myself how could I have fell for someone so hard
when all I was told was lies
now that I think about it ,it makes me cry


To know someone I gave my heart to
just tore my heart apart
a love that is endless
why did this love have to start
feeling the love I have for you
just rushes through my veins
why does love have to be so much pain

Memories no one can take away
the pain that I feel each and everyday
and it is going to be hard ,but I will pull myself through
a real time that a get over loving you

To know someone i gave my heart to
just tore my heart apart
a love that is endless
why did this love have to start
feeling the love I have for you
just rushes through my veins
why does love have to be so much pain

So much pain . ..
So many nights so many tears I've cried (cried)
No one to be by my side
Stuck with misery and pain you are the one to blame
Cause it hurts to know ...

to know someone I gave my heart to
just tore my heart apart
a love that is endless
why did this love have to start
feeling the love I have for you
just rushes through my veins
why does love have to be so much pain

(Why does love have to be so much pain)
So much pain (so much pain)
Oh so much pain

After the song had ended, I could hear Kagome crying in the back seat. She wasn't crying hard, but as soon as we get home and she goes to her room I know she will end up crying herself to sleep. She did it last night, and I fear she will every night until she realizes that she doesn't need my brother to love her. Kira heard her too, but she knew not to say anything until we arrived back home and she and Kagome were alone. I never got how someone can have the perfect woman, yet leave her for someone that couldn't even compare, my brother truly is an idiot, and now this girl has to suffer because of it.

* * * * * * * * * * * Kira's POV * * * * * * * * * * *

Kagome was in the back seat crying, and it was tearing me up inside. I wanted to try and make her feel better, I mean she was practically my younger sister, but I knew I couldn't while Sess was around, so we would have to wait until we got home and into Kagome's room before she could vent all of her anger and sadness. She didn't deserve any of the bad things that have happened to her, yet that's all that happens to her is bad things.

"All of that will change soon, she will find happiness, and so will someone else I know." I thought as I looked over to my brother, I know he's trying to hide the worry he has for Kagome

He had been glancing at her every chance he got and now he had concern and worry in his eyes, I know he doesn't want to see her cry, but he won't say anything to her either. I may not have thought of it much before, but those two would make a good couple. My cold brother that works too hard, and my best-friend that's full of life and fun.

"Perfect, absolutely perfect." my mind screamed at me, I know I shouldn't play match-maker this time because those two would have to find out on their own that they would go together so perfectly

Now, back to my plan for my dear baby brother, he's just gonna love what I have next for him. I just need to sneak out tonight and sneak into his apartment, good thing he's a heavy sleeper because I would hate to get caught, well not really, but it wouldn't be as much fun. I was having so much fun thinking about what I was going to do to Inuyasha, that I didn't notice when we pulled into the drive-way. I got out of the car, making sure I stayed behind to wait for Kagome, she came before the plan of course if I planned to have her as my sister-in-law, I'm getting ahead of myself now, but it would be great.

"Are you okay, Kagome-chan?" I asked the poor girl walking beside me, she stopped crying for the most part, only everyone in a while did a tear fall from her eye

"Hai, I just couldn't help it. I loved him so much, but he left me for her." she answered me, we never really had a long talk about this, sure we talked some about what he had done and everything, but still not as much as we should have

"Would you like to talk about it?" I asked, hoping she would say yes so I would know what was going on and so she could at least get it off of her chest a bit

"No thank you, I just want to take a bath and then go to bed." she said walking past me, I guess she wants to be alone right now, I know how that is, that's why this makes me so mad, I know what she's feeling and it doesn't feel good at all

I walked into the house through the kitchen door, I needed a few things from there and then my room before I could get my plan started. The thing with Kagome tonight in the car made me want to do this even more, he would pay for everything he has done wrong tonight, I will make sure of it. I grabbed a few things out of the cabinets, and than began to make my way to my room.

"What are you planning?"

"Something that will get him back for breaking a young girls heart." I answered my brother who was no beside me

"Just make sure you do not kill him, he is after all family." Sess said, though I knew he didn't really care about the fact that he was family, he just didn't want me to get in trouble for murdering someone

"Yeah the kind of family you wish would go away and never come back." I said sarcastically

"Even so, don't kill him. Make him wish he was dead, but don't grant him that." he said then went down the hall into his own room

"Oh I will Sessy, I will."

I quickly went to my room and grabbed the bag I packed this morning, I knew I would end up having to do this sometime. I had this planned for a while, I just never knew exactly when I would be going through with it, that was until Inuyasha and Kagome broke-up. I walked out of my room, stopping at Kagome's door, it seems she was already taking her bath so it was okay to move on with my plan.