InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love Letters Lost And Found ❯ Chapter 1: Declarations of love, If only to paper. ( Chapter 1 )

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Love Letters Lost And Found

Chapter 1: Declarations of love, If only to paper.

AN: Thoughts are in Italics, since there isn't any dialogue in this chap “ “ will be used around the words written in her journal. I don't own any bit of InuYasha… sigh.

“Hi InuYasha how are you, I am fine.

Hi InuYasha I miss you.

InuYasha I love you.”

Kagome stared at her journal, her pen was poised to strikeout the last line like she had the others, but couldn't. I can't lie to myself. She thought. I do love you InuYasha. She stared out her window mournfully; she always missed him when she was gone. That's why she had started writing letters to him in her journal, not that she was planning on ever giving them to him. It was just something she had started to ease the loneliness.

It had started when she first realised that she loved him, she remembered the first letter. It had started out almost the same way, but the first one just ended with the declaration of love. She had been writing letters for the past 6 months, every time she came home. Not only did it ease the loneliness but it also eased the stress, the stress of keeping her secret inside. That day in my own time when I finally realised I loved him. I cried in my mothers arms at the enormity of the situation, and at last being able to accept the truth to myself.

She sighed and brushed the hair out of her eyes. What should I write today? she thought. She stared at the word that she had written, love. She began.

“InuYasha I love you, I have for a while now. I know you still have feelings for Kiekio but I know you love me as well. I don't resent Kikeo, or even you for that. I know that you love me, and I know that you can't show it. Emoting isn't your strong suit.”

She smiled wryly at this. Remembering his always standoffish behaviour. Definitelynot his strong suit, she thought again.

“I know you love me, I can see it in your eyes every time you try to protect me, every time I'm hurt, every time we're alone. I know that one day we will be together; I know this because I've been planning it, waiting for it. For that day when I finally decide to tell you I love you. I'm just waiting a little while longer; I'm waiting for my 16th birthday. On that day I will finally tell you, just like I've longed to. I know that you feel affection for me as well so I'm pretty confident that you will accept me. I know you love Kikeo, but she is just a shell of a person, not alive; you love her, the memory of her. But she is just a memory of a person now, I know you still feel for the woman you once loved, but I love you enough to accept that. It hurts me every time I see you with her, but I know you don't love her like you love me. I do love you; I want us to be together.”

She steeled herself to write the next line.

“That's why on my 16th birthday I plan on becoming your mate. If you accept me I will be yours for eternity. I don't know why you've never confessed any feelings towards me but I have a few ideas. You think loving me will be dishonouring Kikeo, you don't think your good enough for me; you don't think I love you. But I do, and I plan on telling you on my birthday.”

Kagome looked at the calendar posted above her desk; there was a large circle around her birthday. She smiled and wrote,

“In two weeks we can finally be together; in two weeks I will be ready to give myself to you body and soul. I love you InuYasha.”

She sighed and closed her journal, getting that off her chest was a huge relief. She got up and placed the book in her backpack. She stretched and looked out the window again. Well as long as I'm here I might as wellenjoy a bath. She thought.

She started the water in the tub and took her clothes off. She glanced herself in the mirror, eyeing herself critically. She ran her hands across the hard planes of her stomach, rising upwards to cup her breasts. Not too big not too small. She thought, caressing herself. I'm fit, I'm curvy, I hope InuYasha will like my body, I know he's seen it before but I've never been able to judge if he enjoyed the view. She laughed to herself remembering the few times when he had come upon her when she was naked, his bright red face, totally embarrassed. She turned away from the mirror and turned off the water.

She sunk into the depths relishing in the blissful warmth. She looked at her arms the water glistening on her skin. I hope he doesn't mind the few scars. She thought of his toned body and felt herself get warm, the heat having nothing to do with the water. She rarely got to see his body; it was usually completely hidden by his massive outfit. I only ever get to see you when you'recovered in blood, she thought and frowned.

When she did so she couldn't help but fantasize about his lean hard body, his strong arms holding her, his muscled chest hard against her soft one as he caressed her skin. She shook her head blushing from head to toe. She dunked her head under the water trying to clear the thoughts of him from her mind. Soon, she thought to herself and smiled.

She came up gasping for air. She sighed then had an idea. Another perk of being at home, alone at home. She slid her hands up to her breasts tweaking her nipples gently. She sighed softly as her other hand moved down towards her small wiry patch of curls. She thought wryly as she began to stroke her clit, yes it's nice sometimes to be alone.

If she were in the feudal era there was no way she could touch herself. InuYasha Shippo and every other demon with a nose would be able to smell her obvious arousal, would be able to hear her near silent moans and gasps. Yes it was nice to be alone, but it would be much nicer to be alone with InuYasha in 2 weeks.

AN: like so far? This is my first InuYasha fanfic, I've been watching the episodes on YouTube for the past week. I'm up to episode 95, but the damned things in Spanish :( I couldn't help but start a fanfic, all those damn sexy scenes are driving me nuts. I'm always practically screaming at the screen just tell her you love her! Ug they better get together (no one tell me) can't wait to watch the rest of the episodes. I love reviews, so pretty please review? InuKags forever! <3