InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love's Lessons ❯ Inuyasha: The Fool ( Chapter 8 )

Chapter 8: Inuyasha: The Fool

 

Inuyasha went off with Kagome when she asked to speak with him. She had tried a few minutes of normal conversation, but getting nothing but grunts she decided to get to the point. “Inuyasha, you must tell me what is going on with you and Miroku. Why are you angry with each other?”

 

“We're not angry,” he replied sulkily, not wanting to tell her what had happened.

 

“Yes you are. I want to help. Come on Inuyasha, what's wrong?” She put her hand on his arm and tried to look into his eyes.

 

He turned his head away from her, “This is between Miroku and me; we can work it out on our own.” He shrugged her hand off his arm.

 

“It doesn't look like you two are doing a good job of that,” she said a bit angrily. ~Why won't he tell me? Why doesn't he trust me?~ She thought sadly. “I just want to help Inuyasha, please, you know you can tell me anything,” she softened her voice.

 

“That's part of the problem, you can't help with this,” he retorted, just wanting her to drop the whole thing. He did not want to explain, that while he had told Hissori all his secrets, he didn't think Kagome would understand. He thought she would pity him and Inuyasha hated to be pitied.

 

“You two have been best friends for a long time, you can't just throw that away,” continued Kagome, wondering just what Inuyasha found so hard to tell her. ~They must have had a really bad fight, what could it have been about? ~ She had never seen Miroku and Inuyasha act so angry with each other and she hoped they hadn't said things that couldn't be taken back.

 

“I'm not throwing anything away. Just drop it, Kagome,” exasperation was clearly showing in his voice as he tried to walk away.

 

Kagome ran up, standing in front of him to block his way. “Inuyasha, why do you do this? Don't you know we are all your friends, that you can trust us?” ~Trust me~, she thought. She was beginning to get mad at his stubbornness. ~I can be just as stubborn as you, Inuyasha. ~ “I'm just going to ask Miroku,” Kagome informed him firmly.

 

“NO!” yelled Inuyasha, grabbing Kagome's arm roughly. “Just stay out of it, it's none of your damn business,” he said, getting angry that she was pushing this so much.

 

She looked at him shocked and then she got mad. “Inuyasha you're such an idiot! SIT!!”

 

Just as she said that word, Inuyasha saw Miroku and Hissori returning out of the forest together as he hit the dirt in front of Kagome. Something in Inuyasha snapped. He didn't know if it was seeing Miroku and Hissori together or if it was because Hissori had seen him being subjugated, but the anger and bitterness rose in his throat like bile. As soon as he was able, he jumped up and yelled right in Kagome's face “Take these damn things off, NOW!!”

 

“Inuyasha, SIT!!” Kagome was so angry she couldn't believe Inuyasha was acting this way. She didn't notice the hurt look in his eyes as he hit the ground again.

 

He again rose, and looking at her straight in the eyes said, “Kagome, if you can't accept me without fucking sitting me all the time, I don't want to be with you. Accept me as I am or go home and don't come back.” He had said this quietly but firmly, anger and hurt glittering in his golden eyes.

 

Kagome was shocked, tears began to well in her eyes as she turned and ran. ~How could he say that so seriously? He really meant it; I could see it in his eyes.~ She was so hurt by his words that it didn't occur to her to just remove the necklace.

 

Miroku and Hissori just stood shocked at what had happened. Hissori felt so bad for Inuyasha when Kagome had made him fall prostrate in front of her. This was only the second time she had seen this and she realized it was the prayer beads around his neck and that word Kagome had used that had caused it. It reminded her of all the times she had to bow on the ground in front of her lord against her will. She couldn't believe her friend Kagome would do such a thing to someone she supposedly loved.

 

She ran to Inuyasha and tried to take the beads off from around his neck, they wouldn't budge. She had tears of anger in her eyes as she continued to try and break them when Inuyasha put his hand on her arm to stop her. “Only Kagome can take them off,” he told her softly, his face blushing red in shame. He looked up into Hissori's eyes and thought this was who he wanted to be with, he didn't want Kikyo; he didn't want Kagome. At this moment, he just wanted Hissori. He saw Miroku approaching with a frown on his face and not even thinking, he grabbed Hissori and leapt off into the night leaving an angry, yelling monk behind.

 

He finally stopped at a cave inside a hill overlooking a waterfall. He placed Hissori down and sat, feelings of sadness and regret coming off him so strongly that even Hissori could feel it. She went to him and put her arms around him, she then turned him so he could see her. She pointed at him, then put her hands over her heart, and finally pointed back the way they had come.

 

Inuyasha understood immediately “I don't know if I love her,” he spoke miserably. “I just know I want to be with you”

 

Hissori was shocked. She had no idea that Inuyasha felt this way about her. ~ I'm just a slave, he should be with Kagome, she's much better for him than me, and I like Miroku. ~ Even though she was angry with Kagome for sitting Inuyasha she knew they belonged together. She again repeated her actions trying to relay to him that she knew, even if he didn't, that he did love Kagome or it wouldn't hurt him so much when they fought. Didn't he realize that when he talked to her the conversation almost always turned to Kagome?

She tried a different tactic. She pointed towards where Kagome was then her heart and then to him.

 

“I don't think so, not anymore.” This thought really bothered him and he began to weep silently. ~Kami, what have I done?~ He was just so tired of not being trusted to be himself and these beads were a reminder of that mistrust.

 

Hissori again wrapped her arms around the hanyou in sympathy of his misery. She wished she could convey to him what she knew was in his heart, but that he didn't see himself.

 

“Do you love me, Hissori?” he asked, after getting control of himself. She again looked into his eyes; she was not going to lie to him. She pointed between herself and him and then crossed her fingers, trying to tell him that she felt close to him and cared for him deeply. She then put her hand over her heart and mouthed the word no looking him directly in his eyes to see if he understood. She saw his eyes lose a little of their light and she was sorry she had hurt him. He had helped her in so many ways and she felt she had betrayed him.

 

“You love Miroku,” he intoned in a deadpan voice.

 

She shrugged her shoulders. She liked Miroku but she didn't know if she loved him or not. It was too soon to tell, their relationship just basically starting this evening.

 

“I've been such a fool. Miroku tried to tell me and I wouldn't listen.”

 

Hissori looked at him, her eyes full of tears. She pointed towards Kagome and pulled him from the ground, trying to tell him to go after her and make it right.

 

“Yeah we probably should go back,” he agreed dejectedly. He was beginning to realize that maybe his feelings for Kagome were stronger than he thought, as thinking about her following his orders to leave forever was making him feel like life just wasn't worth living.

 

Hissori grabbed his hand in hers and placed their hands between them giving his a large squeeze. She looked into his eyes with all the care and gratitude she could muster. She wanted him so much to understand that she would always be there for him and that he wasn't alone, that he was her first and truest friend.

 

“Thanks Hissori,” he said. “You always understand.”