InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love with Price of Pain ❯ Chapter 2 Sadness ( Chapter 2 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

The next few hours were a blur to Kimiko… Only thing she remembers is Papa Mitsu’s blood was everywhere in the back garden, the smell itself brought her to her knees in silent tears. Her little brother running into her arms and burying his self into her so much that you could only see the fluff of his tail. They stayed in that protective hug for a long time. No one dared to try to separate them, they all took in the horror of the scene, and as they did the pain, angrier, sadness grew more and more…
When she finally got up back to her feet and had given Shippo to Mama Izayoi. She walked to the stretcher where her darkest fear and reality was…
There was a black bag on the stretcher; she knew what was there inside the darkest of the bag. It was her loving godfather… Her true father’s best friend; who had taken her in after her parent’s terrible car accident. The man; who had cared for her ever since she was a pup… who she loved dearly…
She reached the stretcher; she reached for the zipper on the black body bag with shaky hands. She pulled the zipper down a little ways and Papa Mitsu’s scent and blood flooded her nose. She wanted to stop and fall to the ground crying… Nevertheless, she did not; she stood strong even though her body protested. She pulled the flap and revealed Papa’s blooded face. His face had the expression of darken fear upon it, cover in blood. She looked upon his face for only a few seconds but it was like long minutes… She finally touched his cold face with shaky hands…
The blood was dried to his tan skin, as she touched his face tears streamed down her face like a steady stream. Her hands roamed his face; a sudden cold chill ran up and down her spine. ‘I know this… a sight… a light to the darken questions…’ She closed her eyes and saw everything…
Her body shook and finally she let go of his face and she dropped to her knees crying in a fit of rage and sadness…
Inuyasha and Papa Takeo were at her side in seconds…
“Kimiko, daughter… what is it?”
However, she did not answer, her hands covered her face. She just cried… Papa Takeo picked Kimiko up bridal style and began to carry her to his car when the lead detective stops him…
“She has not said whether or not that is her god father… Takeshi Mitsu…”
Both Inuyasha and Takeo growled at the detective…
“Look at her, if you can’t tell from this, you shouldn’t be a detective…,” Inuyasha said in an angry and hateful tone.
The detective jaw drew stern and he took a step forward as if he was about to challenge the hanyou, which would be a stupid mistake for a regular human like himself.
“My son is right… However, if you need to hear it in words than, yes that was Takeshi Mitsu… I should know he and I have been friends with him since high school and we were business partners at one time… Now let us pass…”
The detective stood his ground a second longer and then finally wised-up. He moved to the side and let them pass… Izayoi and Kagome ran up to them…
“Let’s take them back to the house, they can stay there for a while…”
Baa-chan walked into Papa Takeo’s sight, he turned to regard her.
“Kaede-chan, please come… you are welcome to come… you are family…”
Kaede just smiled and bowed gracefully to Papa Takeo.
“Thank you, Takeo-sama”
He gave a small bow and they all went towards the cars at the front exit. That is all Kimiko remembers she fell into a dark and unease sleep…


Kimiko did not sleep well; she tossed and turned that whole night. Kagome stayed with her in Kimiko’s old room at Papa Takeo’s home. Several times during the night, Kimiko had whimpered and softly called out to Papa Mitsu and to her parents… Every time she did, Kagome would go over and sit down on the bed with her and would try smoothing her during the terrible dream and memories. However, nothing helped, it broke Kagome’s heart to see her friend like this and there was nothing she could do to help her… Finally, Kagome could not take seeing Kimiko going through her memories, so she left Kimiko to deal with her dark dreams…
Finally, when Kimiko did wake, it took her a few moments to realize where she was… She opened her eyes and yawned… She started to get up but she noticed that a small orange fluff ball was crawled up next to her. She smiled at her little sleeping kit brother, but soon the smile vanished… She started remembering what happened, she had hoped it all had been a terrible nightmare…

Nevertheless, Reality caught up to her…
All the emotions ran through her again, she was fighting from screaming out in rage and crying from the pain…
“Nee-Chan?” a small scared and hurt came from child’s voice…
She looked down and Shippo was holding onto her shirt with all his might, looking up at her with tear field emerald eyes…
“Shh… I am sorry, I did not mean to wake you; Shippo… Try and get some rest joro…”
He just looked at her…
“Come here, joro…”
Shippo moved into her arms, Kimiko sat up with Shippo hugged up to her… There was a long silence…
“Shippo… I know this is hard to understand and very… difficult… Nevertheless, I am here and I promise I will never leave you alone I will be here; we are both deeply hurt by what someone has done to our lives… However, we have people who love us and will help us… And we have each other… I know how you feel remember I told I lost my partners and Papa Mitsu loved me and took me as his daughter…”
“You became my nee-chan… hai…,” he just hugged her tighter. “And now, we’ve lost Papa… Nee-chan is hurting again… I want to help nee- chan…”
“I know, joro …,” she said after kissing him on top of his head.
She held him closer and tighter; Shippo just nuzzled her trying to calm her down. She nuzzled him back and kissed him again on the head.
“It will be okay, Shippo… I worry about you… But not much longer… I will take you into my custody and we will be together… I promise I will never let anything happen to you…,” she nuzzled him once more to let him know it was okay…
She looked down and Shippo; he had drifted back into a calm sleep. She laid him down upon her bed and covered him with the throw blanket that was at the foot of the bed.
She got up slowly from the bed so she would not wake Shipp. She made her way over to her old closet; she knew she would be able to fit in her old high school clothes. She took out a cream cotton pair of hip-huggers pants, white tank top, white footie socks, matching white cotton bra and panties and a thick long sleeve cream hoodie.
After she took off her party/work clothes and put on the clothes that she took out of the closet. She heard Shippo starting to toss and turn; she looked up in the closet. She was searching the top shelf that her stuffed animals were. She finally saw her most favorite animal; a long eared silverish/ white dog…
She took it down from the shelf, walked over to the bed, and tucked it under Shippo’s left arm. He immediately calmed and looked as if he drifted back into a dreamlike state of sleep. She smiled warmly at her little brother, leaned down, and kissed him on the head.
“Don’t worry, joro … I’m going to go think for a while; you just get some sleep…”
She got up and left her bedroom, she turned to close the door but only half way just in case…She heard her family talking in the kitchen…
She could hear Kagome talking to the rest of the family about how Kimiko handled that night. She stood there by her door and listened to Kagome telling them of her feelings and what had happened that night. She knew she had a rough night and she knew that Kagome had been in her room sitting with her. Hearing and remembering everything just sent Kimiko over the edge. She started running…


Inuyasha and Papa Takeo heard the fast hard rhythm of someone running towards the stairs. Inuyasha looked to his father and they both looked at each other with concerned looks. Inuyasha immediately ran to the kitchen entrance to see Kimiko at the bottom of the stairs.
“Kimiko?”
She turned and looked at Inuyasha with a scared and uncertain expression on her face. Inuyasha took a step forward… Kimiko shook her head and back way towards the front door.
“Kimmi?”
Papa Takeo walked over to Inuyasha and placed hand on Inuyasha’s shoulder to draw his attention. When Inuyasha turned to regard his father, Kimiko ran out of the house.
“Inu… let her go…; she needs to be by herself for a while.”
“But?”
Takeo looked at Inuyasha; who was staring back at him.
“Trust me, Inuyasha…I know what I am doing…”


She just ran she wanted to be somewhere she felt comfort and total security… She could only think of two places, she did not know where one of them was and the other she hoped it was still there after all these years? After a few minutes, it started to snow by than Kimiko was almost in the middle of the forest that was on Papa’s property.
It had been at least an hour since she had ran out of the house and the snow was coming down heavy. Course that did not mind Kimiko because she was immune to the cold (well, at least to a point.) During the hour, she had been out in the forest walking, she thought about the rough night she had. The memories, the images she saw in her vision, the running and the lack of sleep was now getting to her. She was in somewhat of a trance not really looking where she was heading but just letting her feet carry her as her mind raced with her troubling thoughts.
She looked up at the falling snow and sighed very heavily, than she focused her eyes forward and saw the den. In her numb minding trance, she still found herself outside the entrance of the den. As she looked upon it, she noticed that it looked untouched. It was somewhat weathered but still in good shape, she walked toward the hidden entrance. She moved the vines and the brush aside to enter the den, as she entered a scent filled her nose. Her breathe hitched and a shocked look came upon her face.
“Sesshomaru”
The den was filled with his scent of a spring rainstorm with a hint of lilies and oak.
‘I can’t believe his scent is still here after all these years…’
She continued in, she looked at the small but comfortable den. It seemed that time had stilled this special place for her; it was as if she was just here yesterday. But it had been 5 years since she had been there. She took some dry wood from the stack of firewood in the corner, she place it in the small fire pit in the middle of the den and started a fire (just in case.) She walked over to the earthed out daybed and laid upon the hay and comforters. She starred into the fire and yet again lost herself in the darken thoughts, but she did not seem as trouble as before. The den seemed to comfort her or was it his scent?


Finally turning onto the driveway that would lead him to his father’s country estate. He had been away off on business for his father, when he got the news about Uncle Mitsu. He immediately postponed everything and made his way back home. He wanted to make sure everyone was safe, but he was most concerned about Shippo and more so Kimiko… ‘Kimiko’… He wanted more than anything to make sure she was okay. She had already been through so much and now she has to go through again… ‘Why? Kami, why?’
As he drove down the driveway, his mind began to wonder off and began to think… ‘Who would kill Uncle? He was an elder in the council… also, he was a kind kitsune; he would not harm anyone inn less they were trying to hurt his family… Kimiko… Don’t worry Kimiko…’
He thought that caught her scent, he stopped the car and got out in the heavy snow. He stood at his car, it was hard to confirm if he was right or not in the heavy snow that was coming down. Just as he was about to get back in his car he caught it again, it was unmistakable it Kimiko. The smell of a winter crisp morning with jasmine laced in it. ‘Kimiko...’ The small hint of actually, seeing her made his feels and thoughts getting all mixed up and that concerned him; he had yet to figured out what his actual feelings were for her but at that moment that wasn't what concerned him the most… ‘Why would she be out here and not at Chichiue's …’ He noticed that her scent was laced with fear, sadness, and anger. He growled dangerously at that, and the fact that something inside of his chest twisted thinking of Kimiko was upset and sacred because of something or someone or both. 'There's only one place she would be if she was out this far from the safety of Chichiue.'
It did not take him long to reach the entrance of the den, he paused a moment to gather thoughts before entering. When he thought he was ready, he moved the vines and brush aside, as soon as he did Kimiko was brought out of her thoughts. She sat up and looked at the entranceway…
“Sesshomaru…,” she whispered unknowingly
He moved into the fire light and they remained still, starring at each other. Finally, Sesshomaru made the first move and walked toward her… As he got closer, Kimiko’s breathe hitched and her scent was laced with arousal and excitement. She was frozen still by just his presents and Sesshomaru noticed he mentally smiled. He sat beside her on the edge of the bed. He looked upon her face, she looked absolutely beautiful. She had a strain of hair at her lips; he reached up and tucked the strain behind her ear. He did not want to remove his hand from her soft skin, he gentle caress her cheek. She leaned into his touch and a soft moan of delight escapes her mouth. He took that as a hint to continue; he moved closer and caught her lips to his.
She felt his lips upon hers; she melted into him. Letting him take control like he always did when they shared each other’s company, the kiss was gentle but passionate. Sesshomaru was not sure if he should intense the kiss but he did not have to, Kimiko reached up and put her hand behind his neck. She pulled him closer to her; she could not wait for him to be cautious of her feelings. She knew she was pouring out all of her emotions into this kiss, she wanted him to respond (and soon.) Just as he was about wrap his arms around her to pull her even closer, they heard a loud roll of thunder in the winter snowstorm. Kimiko pulled away from his touch and starred at the entrance way as though someone was going to rush in and harm her. Her scent changed from the arousal and excitement to dread and terrified…
It confused Sesshomaru, ‘It was only thunder, why is she sacred of thunder. She never use to be what has changed her to make her at like a weak ningen. She looks like someone is going to come in and attack her any moment now, since hearing the thunder. I wonder if something else has happened besides the death of Uncle.’ He reached out to comfort her, but Kimiko shook her head as she looked at him with pleading eyes. He withdraw his hand that was reaching for her, he sat there waiting for her. The ache he was feeling in his chest earlier intensified dramatically, like someone had just twisted an invisible knife in his chest. He watched her closely as she now was looking at him; she seemed to be trying to tell hi something. Her eyes were cloud with emotions he had not seen her have in a long time, fear, worry, and so much pain that it seemed she was drown in it.
Several minutes past before a real word was actually spoken…
“I saw what happened… I reached out and touched his face… he was so scared… I felt the vision coming so I let it take me… I wanted to… wanted to know why…,” she spoke as she tried to hold back tears but she lost that battle, they started flowing down like fast little streams. “They were ruthless… thunder and lightning was crashing everywhere… blood everywhere… than a huge ball of lightening then… then death and blood…”She covered her face with her hands… “IT’S MY FAULT! It’s my entire fault…”
Sesshomaru moved closer to her and took her in his arms. He didn't understand what she meant that it was her fault because he could not believe that.“This isn’t your fault, Kimiko… you cannot blame yourself…”
She yet again pulled away from his touch but this time she was starring right at him, her scent was now laced with sadness and anger.”They killed him because of me…”
“What are you talking about?”
“They’re after me… in my vision I saw two blacken figures standing over Papa as he was dying… They said that they would get me … and what I was doing isn’t right… humans and youkais… the humans should be our servants, our enemies not allies…”
She could not take it anymore; the guilt, sadness, and loneliness were too much for her right now. All she wanted to do was forget everything but she knew that would not do her any good. If she could not forget everything than maybe, she could feel safe, loved, and calmed by the company that she was sharing with Sesshomaru. She moved closer to him and buried her face in his strong chest. Sesshomaru wrapped his powerful arms around her, wrapping her in a secure hold to try to calm her. To let her know that she was safe, nothing would ever harm her while he was there with her.
As they held each other in the soothing embrace, the embrace in tensed. Kimiko had entangled her hands in Sesshomaru’s long silvery hair and had his sweater in a tight hold as well. As for Sesshomaru, one was at the small of her back gently rubbing her back to sooth her and the other was enter laced in her thick black hair. Her face was still buried in his chest, not thinking he could hear her.
“I missed you, Sesshomaru…”she spoke so quiet that he could baring hear it, but he heard every word she said.
The fact that she missed him and was holding him so tight made the ache he felt in his chest ease some… ‘What is this I'm feeling for her, we've always have been friends. Well, maybe a little more then just friends but what is this? I have never felt this way before except when I am around her. I don't like this feeling, it's like this feeling dulls my sense and 'cause me to be ignorant like Inuyasha. There's no way I am going to at like that weak impulsive pup. No, I have to stop this...’ Then he noticed the scent of exhaustion and weak, he also noticed that she was getting a little heavier.
“Kimiko” he whispered in her ear.
Not wanting to speak because it would give away that he startled her by his deep voice, not counting the fact that he breathed in her ear. “Mm,” she breathed into his chest.
“You are getting tired, we should probable be getting back to the house besides the snow was coming down heavily when I entered the den. It’s probable has worsened by now…”
She pulled away and looked up into his deep golden honey eyes. ‘Kami, he is gorgeous… why is it he can always take my breath away’ just then her breathe hitched, ‘there it goes…Kami, if you can hear. Please give me the strength to get up and walk away…’ She than cleared her throat and pushed away from him, proceed to stand but a strong hand stopped her. She looked at his hand on her forearm then to Sesshomaru.
“I thought you said we should probable head back?”
He just looked at her and then realized what he done. He stood up and still holding onto Kimiko’s forearm, he helped her up onto her feet.
“Hai, but what kind of gentlemen would I be if I did not help up a lady. Especial if the lady is extremely tired…”
“Arigato…”she said as she lightly bowed.
Sesshomaru just gave a short nod back than they both proceed to leave the den. As she walked past the fire, she waved her hand at the fire and a cold snowy breeze blow out the fire. They exited the den and indeed the snow had picked up it was very close to become a blizzard.
“My car isn’t that far, it only took me a few minutes to get here…”
“Well, let’s go…”