InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lust and Obsession ❯ Um... ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

AN: I updated this chapter at the same time as a sorry to all they who tried to check and see if I had updated over this long period in time, also the last chapter was way too, too short couldn't give you only that. I know how it feels and couldn't help myself I had to be somewhat kind.


**** Chapter 4 ****


**** Unwillingly yours ****


Sesshoumaru opened his eyes, not at all surprised that he had fallen asleep. His Kagome was still very much dreaming herself, this was good, he wanted to see her face as she awoke, wanted to watch her expression change from dreamy to shock, then maybe fear? Acceptance? Who knew, but whatever that was he'd be watching her the entire time.


Also, he wanted her again, just once more then he would be satisfied for the remaining hours until they went to sleep once again. After he had her again that was, then and only then would he allow her sleep, when he was satisfied, and that could take several times. The thought pleased him, being inside her, over and over again, relentless and merciless... It made him instantly hard.


Now eager for her to awake Sesshoumaru pulled her back against his chest and began to nuzzle her neck, she shivered and he smirked at it. As of then she didn' t yet realize her fear, but upon awakening she'd fear him, of that he had no doubt, she'd be so very afraid he would cause her pain again, but he would not, she was easy to adjust, and was already beyond the point of pain, unless he allowed her to keep her legs closed too long. After all, she was only a human, and a human woman would not adjust perminately to suit her mate's pleasure, as a youkai bitch would have.


Rubbing her belly was what got her to finally come from the land of dreams, but slowly at first. Like a hawk he watched her face, watched his little one's beautiful face do just as he predicted. First she was groggy, her eyes only half way open, then she blinked away sleep and yawned loudly a moment before he watched the momory flood her face.


She went deathly still in his arms, her heart beat loud in his ears but the color completely gone from her face, and both the smell and look of fear filled his senses. His little woman was afraid now, and though he wasn't pleased with it, there was no reason for him to be upset with her, as she had a lot to be afraid of.


"Good morning," he purred to her, of course he knew it was in fact early morning, she wouldn't though, as she'd been probably completely unaware of the passing time.


'What's so good about it?' was Kagome's first snide thought. She was sore, tired still, and also quite afraid, Sesshoumaru would want her again, and she had been foolish enough to let him have her willingly the night prior to this morn, and he'd anticipate willingness from her further. But he had hurt her, hurt her so very much more than most virgin had to feel. Not only that but now she had to worry about being a mother one day soon, very soon even, for he had filled her so fully, so much of him that she highly doubted one of them hadn't found her egg. Were that the case she didn't want to go home, she'd most definately stay in the past, or maybe she could claim she'd been raped? It wasn't too far from the truth, and her family would accept the child, also she'd be allowed to continue in school, and keep the child if she chose.


Wiggling she tried to get off of his bed, both her neck and her belly protested at the movement but Sesshoumaru happend to be the loudest of her complaints. Not so much that he had spoken to her, rather he had pulled her against him tightly and rolled her on her stomache as he stradled her back.


"Kagome..." he purred running his claws lightly down her back, being sure that he didn't cut her, though he did leave light welts down her back, she had done the same to him last eve. Of course, she'd used all her strength, and it was surprising to him that she had even stung him with light welts in the first place, but they had dissapeared moments later and had, in fact, enjoyed it.


"I believe, my little one, that we will join again this morning, you agree do you not?" he purred again, now leaning over her and kissing the back of her neck.


"No! I do not agree! Sesshoumaru, please I beg of you not again, you hurt me so last night... More so than any other virgin would have felt." She pleaded trying to stay deathly still as to not encourage him further. Unfortunately she could already feel him hard against her butt, letting her know he was ready to have her again, from behind no doubt, after all he was a DOG youkai, didn't it just suit him?


"Aye, this is true my little one, but it matters little for you are my mate, bound to me through laws that you could never break. I will not be celebat the remainder of my time on this world, due to a fear as unreasonable as this." Sesshoumaru moved between her leg and pulled her hips up. Not that moment would he have her, he'd wait a moment more, he'd torment his own body in doing this but it was all he could do, he did want her to be willing, though if she didn't start agreeing soon he would care no longer and take her by force if necessary.


She begged again, but he would not allow such to stop him, he inserted two fingers within her, she was bone dry, but it mattered not, she began to become wet as he pulled his fingers in and out of her. Amazing how tight yet she still was, but it wouldn't take long to loosen her completely to him.


When she was slick enough and her muscles not so tight against him, trying veignly to keep him out, he inserted another finger, forcing her to stretch, and to feel pleasure from what he could to with her body.


Now she was whimpering to him, "Please... I know there is not much I can do to stop you but Sesshoumaru-sama, please I beg of you, stop..." her voice was helpless and she knew it. However Sesshoumaru would doubtlessly ignore her if she were to act strong, and she couldn't hardly fight anymore, her body was drained physically and her mind exhausted. If again he chose to have her she couldn't stop him, and she knew this, and also she knew that she'd never truly feel pleasure from him, he'd take all that a man could from a woman's body, and leave her with nothing, nothing but a sore and swollen belly that was.


Sesshoumaru didn't like the change in her tone, perhaps he had in fact pushed her too far? Though he had studied her in his obsession, he had completely forgotten more than once that she wasn't able to handle that which a youkai bitch would be raised to anticipate. A youkai bitch, unlike his Kagome, would have fought him until she could no more, the aphrodisiac and wine would have made not for but less fight, then once he proved he was dominant, by taking her anyway she would accept him as her master, ruler, protector, lover, and sire to her pups. Questionlessly and without fight, and for some reason, probably instinct, he hadn't anticipated too much rejection from her, or anything like she was now. No the whimpering and helplessness was hurting him, and making him grow soft.


Then no choice was left to him further, he'd let her go this morn, but tonight there would be nothing for her to do. No whimpering, crying or pleading would keep him from her for too long, his new mate, and his blood was calling for her, demanding that he have her, just as strong as it had called for her all the innumerable times he had observed her bathing ritual. This was a very good sign as it meant he had chosen the woman that was in fact to be his mate, and not just a one night whore to be tossed away.


Sitting up he let out a string of small curses at his frustration. He allowed her to turn around and look up at him, she looked sad and depressed, just wonderful. "Dress then, if you should not let me have you this morning willing, then tonight will have to make due, but be warned," he looked to her firmly, watching as her eyes lit up with hope, "I will not be able to hold back more than this night, I assure you this my mate, I will have you plenty a time more before the moon reaches full. Else you would be the one to suffer."


Standing he dressed himself and soon realized that there were no appropriate clothing here for her, he had many clothes himself, and that made him smile as he watched her searching for the shreds of clothing that she had worn the day previous. "Do not worry yourself with them, they've been ripped beyond suitability for wear."


Kagome looked at him sharply, her face was tired, or perhaps she was still simply in shock from the ease with which he had manipluted her body, he knew not of which and couldn't care for she'd not wear that expression long. "Then what am I to wear Sesshoumaru-sama?" she asked meekly, looking to the ground and hidding herself as best she could with only two hands.


Sesshoumaru, displeased by this walked strait to her and pulled her arms away from her body forcefully. "You are my mate, and I will see you whenever it is I wish, do not cover your nude form in front of me, I wish to gaze at your beautiful young body." though even as he said it he was gazing into her eyes, not her body, yes he loved the way she looked but her eyes captivated him. They were a window to her soul and they showed she was weakened, he knew as much but his plans for the day would help remove that fear from her, and perhaps bring some of the fire back into her soul. Of course he had need of patroling his lands that day, as did he everyday, he and seven of his most faithful men.


Of course he'd been neglegent in that recently and four more men had to pick up the slack, but they too were loyal, loyal as any man could be, they'd follow him beyond death if that were what he wished. His entire army was just this way, loyal as hounds they were, and what could one guess, from inu youkai of the highest breed?


Ah, and as far as breeding was concerned... Sesshoumaru looked to Kagome and down to her stomache before he pushed her back down onto his bed.


"S-Sesshoumaru-sama?" she whimpered feeling worse than she had previously. He had basically said he wouldn't rape her as she was sure he wanted to badly. He had basically promised her hadn't he? She whimpered again, hoping for an answer or response. However instead of answering her whimpered cry he started simply sniffing all over her, and put his ear to her belly.


"Damn..." he cursed as he stood up and off of her. "Yet is it still early, I would not be able to tell for three weeks more, but had I hoped..." his voice was calm even as he cursed.


"Hoped what?" Kagome asked naive as a dove.


"That I would be able to tell if yet you were breeding." he said simply walking over to his wardrobe, where many of his clothing hung safe from dust and from wrinkles.


Now Kagome wasn't used to hearing that particular term used, but due to the fears she herself could feel running fast through her mind she doubted not it's meaning. He wanted to see if she were yet pregnant. Frightened she shivered he was anticipating her pregnancy while yet she dreaded it, wanted not any part of such, but if it were to be so, she'd care for her child as if it had been a planned pregnancy, or planned on her part anyway. That was just her nature, as she had already taken in one child not her own, when she was still even a virgin...


That thought sent a jolt of pain through her heart and she unconsciously put her hand where it was she felt the pain. How could she have given in? How could she have handed over her virginity as though it had no matter to her at all. It hurt, physically in her body it hurt, she wanted to bathe then, so badly, wanted to wash any remnant of Sesshoumaru off her, rub her skin raw and bleeding.


Now attached to her, through being her mate Sesshoumaru sensed her distress as he pulled out one haori of his. Quiet as death he went to her and watched as she held her hand to her heart and tears spring to her lovely eyes. Had he done such a terrible damage to her, hurt her so badly? No, that was not the reason and he could sense this as well, she was upset over a lost thing on her part, the loss of her virginity undoubtedly, it was something to be prized in both the human word and his own, unless a woman planned on becoming a whore, then it mattered not at all, to the male or the female.


But his Kagome, she was no whore, and she wanted to keep her virginity intact, and he felt not bad about taking it from her. Still yet he did wish her to relax in his pressance, and to feel safe with him, assured, happy even.


Sesshoumaru walked behind her, and she noticed not of his pressance until he wrapped his haori over her body. She had jumped momentarilly but he held her in a loose embrase, then helped her into his too big haori. "Kagome, you should not fret over no longer being virgin, as it simply does not matter, you belong to me, is this understood?"


Shocked she stood still, that was right, he had warned her of this, she was his forever now. Or until the end of her time in this world, but hadn't he said he could prevent that? The thought wasn't pleasant to her, she wanted desperately to be away from him, not allow him to keep her forever.


"Answer me mate." he commanded her.


At first she was going to remain silent, quiet as a mute if she could stand so for long, but a nagging feeling burned for her to answer. Regardless she kept her trap shut until he said again.


"Answer me," his voice now dangerous as magic dripped from his lips, "tell me whether it is you understood, do you understand that you belong to me, and me alone?"


The need to speak was deep in her throat and pushed out without her having wanted it to, "Yes." she said her voice squeeky from the restraint.


"You also will learn that when I command that you do something as my mate it will be done. 'Tis no longer within your ability to say nay to me, mate. I can not command you to feel things, changing your heart or such, but if I tell you to answer, you will do so, if I tell you to kill my hanyou brother you will do so, if I tell you to stop fighting me in bed, you will no longer be able to fight. Do you understand me?" and the question was dripping in the magic she now knew.


This time she could resist less, the pressure in her throat to massive to contain. "Yes." she said again her voice squeeking from restraint. "Sesshoumaru-sama..." she added looking down from him.


"Look at me," he said and was surprised when the magic was unecessary as she looked strait up at him, hatred burning bright in her eyes. So light with youth, the color of the cherry tree's bark. Beautiful, even full of hated she was utterly beautiful.


He smirked down at her and her eyes widened confused a moment before he kissed her. Lightly, a command hidden there, but not a feirce kiss. "Come, I wish to show you something before I must leave." her eyes sparkled at that statement but he said, calmly as though he hadn't noticed her eyes change. "However you will remain here when I leave." the magic again and she could feel it do his bidding. It made her feel so totally helpless that she just started to shiver, again casting her eyes downward.


It was her fault, for allowing him to take her as she had, he'd made to her a promise that he wouldn't take her unwillingly until the morning next, this morning. But she had been so weak against her own body, against his body, she hated being weak and was now determined to be stronger in front of him, at least, he was leaving and once gone though she couldn't leave she would go into the room that was "theirs" now and cry to her hearts full content, then find someone who would tell her where the nearest place to bathe was and remove the smells of sadness from her, long before he returned.


It was decided and she again looked up at him, her eyes shining with all the defiance she could muster up. Unfortunately she wasn't even alloted this small victory, for he was smirking at her, smilling really, something she didn't like on his face.


"You look magnificent in my clothing," he informed her taking a step back to admire her. His white haori was far too big on her indeed, covering her down to her knees, more than even her green "uniform" as the students from her school had called it, would cover. There was also a small thin white belt, the kind used for kimonos, and it revealed that she had a very small waist, and her breast were perfectly sized and only exposed enough to entice a man into wondering what was hidden, but not to arouse his lust to its fullness.


Kagome pulled the clothing tighter around her, embarrassed under his scrutany, his eyes madly roaming over her body as though she were still nude, as though he were still ready to leap upon her and ravish her. She knew it to be true and could suddenly sense it was so, sense his want for her, could tell exactly where on her body his eyes went though she had her own very well closed.


"Spread your arms wide, Kagome." he ordered her and she opened her arms even before she felt the tingle of magic in her arms. It made things worse for her as he gazed now at her breast, now slightly cold since his haori was spread more than before when her arms had been slack.


Sesshoumaru approved of all he saw, and knew that no one, especially in his own home, would dare let his wish to bed her be known. Or even hinted for fear that he would die, it was strange in the youkai world for sure, a man who was mated could have no other, but a woman could be with any man she chose to, or any other man could have her, if and only if she agreed, otherwise she'd be protected by magic. Still he didn't want to take chances yet with her, his home would be safe from men, but outside not so. Perhaps one day he could show her his entire territory, and then soon after he would take her with him when he traveled. So many plans for her had he, and yet it all demanded that one thing happen, she agree to having him herself, forever.


"You are, more beautiful than any creature to ever walk this earth." he said and she could feel in her soul that he believed his words, thought them true even if she didn't think so herself. It actually lightened her spirits slightly, made her feel less like crying and in fact, actually brought a light smile to her face, barely did it reach her eyes, yet it was there on her face for all to see.


Sesshoumaru walked forward and kissed her again, this time more deeply, but he didn't kiss her long as she didn't choose to react to him, it was all well and fine with him, so long as he had the promise of the future. However he couldn't have stopped himself from taking from her that kiss that moment for it was her first true smile since she had come there, and he would cherish many more smiles from her, many thousand more smiles.


"Come now," Sesshoumaru said taking a step from her, "there are many things more in my palace, our bedroom is not the only sight to see."


Kagome blinked a little before walking after him. She hadn't actually though about it, what did his palace look like? Was it an inconspicuous palace, like Naraku's fortress, or was it something grand, eleborate, and unfitting in the Sengoku Jedia? Probablies say it was grand and all, very grand indeed for she could see that nothing in this place was made of dried bamboo, the walls seemed of stone, or brick, colored with either magic or oil paint. Also the bed was so high off the ground there could simply be no reason for it, or rather it was easier to get out of the bed sure, but in this era it was unheard of.


Sesshoumaru led her through a set of extremely large double doors, they were solid and thick wood, probably cherry wood actually. He lead her through a hallway and down a flight of steps, also unheard of, what had he done, gone to Europe and grabbed a castle or something? Maybe he had just mimiced the arcitecture or something but he had to have been in Europe at least once before.


Not once did he pause long enough for her to stare, sure she knew that this was a westerned fashioned castle but she had never actually been inside of one before. However he probably thought that she'd have four or six millenia to look at this place to her hearts content, that bothered her so much she couldn't even look at the walls any longer, and simply followed him, as a slave would.


Finally Sesshoumaru stopped, in front of an even larger set of double doors, well within the ability to stop an army. The door were wood, yes, but it would take several men to open them using a pully system, but Sesshoumaru grabbed the two metal handles on the door and pushed them open without effort. She gasped at that, unable to believe such awesome strength, Inuyasha didn't even have that kind of strength, and the thought made her stomache churn unpleasantly, Sesshoumaru could have easilly killed Inuyasha on a number of occassions.


Turning to face her Sesshoumaru held out his hand for her to take. He could smash every bone in her hand efferotlessly, with all the strength it took to smash a fly, and she didn't like that knowledge in the least. However when she stayed still far too long she felt the magic work in her body, his gesture now a command apparently.


He took her hand in his, and he was so gentle with her she could've sworn it wasn't real, it was a firm grip, but not at all unpleasant, and if she really needed to she could remove her hand from his. That pleased her, he wasn't all brute and no heart, or at least not completely all brute.


Then he tightened his grip slightly and pulled her forward, slamming her against him, but not painfully, just enough to shock the wind out of her for a moment. She looked up at his smirking face, his eyes smirking just as much as his upturned lip was.


Suddenly he bent down and picked her off the ground, holding her high enough that she didn't have to strain her neck to look at him. Then without warning they were up in the air, she shreiked and held onto his haori, the one he was wearing of course, for dear life. And just as soon as the flightless flight had begun it was over, Sesshoumaru stopped moving and Kagome had the sense that there was ground beneath his feet, if not hers.


Sesshoumaru planted her on the ground and she looked up at him momentarilly before looking around her. Her heart stopped in her chest, but it wasn't an unpleasant stop, it was just shock.


All around her were flowers, trees of so many sort she could never have before imagined. There were fenses lining the place for no reason apparant, if you discluded the beautiful patterns the flowers made as they climbed them, and all of the colors! Green was obviously the dominant color yes, but there were just so many she felt her heart still and she sighed. It was beautiful to be sure, but why had the had to go up?


Kagome looked around again and saw that the garden was encased by a stone wall, twice her hieght to be sure, and it was thick as well, or at least that's what she though, she couldn't see high enough to determine for herself.


Sesshoumaru smiled, something never did he do yes, but he did smile as he watched his mate look about the place like a child at a gift they'd yet to recieve. Her eyes went back to his and his smile vanished miracuously within the second, she was happy he could see that, very happy indeed and he could already sense her lightened mood, it pleased him and he wanted to share more of this garden with her.


"This garden, my little Kagome," he purred holding her against him again, "is very old, and supported only by nature, there is no magic in the garden itself." he informed her, knowing that she'd like that knowledge very much, even if he wished himself to use magic on it, so that not one flower would wither and dye, but it could not be helped much. "However there is magic involved,"


He saw the strange look she gave him and smirked as he lifted her into his arms again.


Leaping into the air wasn't so frightening for her as it had been before, and he didn't jump so long, instead he landed right on top of the stone wall. What she saw brought her heart to a nearly fatal stop in her chest. She knew the wall was twice her height, but it wouldn't go this high, far above the treetops. It made sense to her instantly, this was a floating garden.