InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lying From You ❯ Lying From You ( Chapter 31 )

Song-fic chapter! Individual lines in [brackets] and italics are lyrics, okay? Let's go! ^_^ (By the way, for the sake of my sanity and the continuity and flow of this chapter, some of the lyrics of this song will be omitted-please forgive me.)

Chapter 31: Lying From You

"No… no…Sesshoumaru…" Kagome fell to her knees, shaking her head and dug her finger into the dirt as she let out a scream of agony.

[When I pretend, everything is what I want it to be]

Inu Yasha slowly approached Kagome, a heavy feeling in his heart. He placed his hand on Kagome's shoulder and soothed, "Kagome… shh… it's gonna be okay…"

Kagome fell forward, against Inu Yasha's shoulder, and shook her head as hot tears poured from her eyes. "How can it be? I loved him, Inu Yasha-and I… I…… I'm such a terrible person…"

[I look exactly like what you always wanted to see]

"It wasn't your fault, Kagome…" Inu Yasha looked down at Kagome, a thin smile spreading across his face. [The circumstances aren't exactly great… but maybe now she can be at my side once more…]

Kouga stepped forward, clutching his bloody sword. "When he revived me… he told me something… Kagome, he knew what was going to happen. He said, 'Take care of the woman I love; watch over Kagome.' Kagome, he wouldn't have it if you went beating yourself up like this."

[Stealing second after second, just 'cause I know I can…]

Kagome drew in a few sharp breaths as she clutched the silken material of Inu Yasha's kimono. Her eyes snapped open for a brief moment as she felt Inu Yasha wrap his arms around her shoulders and pull her closer to himself.

"It's okay, Kagome… I'll take care of you…" Inu Yasha spoke softly to calm Kagome.

However, upon hearing Inu Yasha's voice, Kagome became anything but calm. "Now that Sesshoumaru is gone you'll take care of me again, huh?"

[I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay…]

Kagome's tear-stained face twisted into a scowl as she pushed Inu Yasha away from herself. She seemed to seethe in anger as she stood. "Is that what you've been waiting for? Something to happen to Sesshoumaru so you could let me come running back into your arms?"

[I'm just trying to bend the truth.]

"Kagome, I-" Inu Yasha backed up, hoping that the gesture would clam Kagome. "I would never do that… I'm just trying to be here for you."

"No, you weren't-I know you well enough by now Inu Yasha... That kind of sympathetic tone isn't just for any friend… You always used to talk to Kikyo that way…" Kagome shuddered as a new wave of tears began streaming over her cheeks. Memories of Sesshoumaru began flashing through her mind as she slowly backed away from Inu Yasha.

"Please, Kagome-"

[No, no turning back now… I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go.]

"Just leave me alone!" Kagome turned around and began running. She had no idea where she was going, just so long as it was away from Inu Yasha. [Why? Why does he have to act like that? I mean… I just… …. Sesshoumaru… I'm so sorry… I didn't mean to… I thought that you were… no…]

[No turning back now…]

Kouga slowly approached Kagome. In a rage, she had run away from the rest of the group and now was in the middle of the forest, crying and slamming her fist on the trunk of a tree. "Kagome? I… I know it's stupid to ask if you're okay… but… well, do you need to go anywhere?"

Kagome looked up at Kouga through tear-blurred vision and nodded slowly. Her voice was hoarse and no louder than a whisper as she replied, "I wanna go home…"

[Let me take back my life… I'd rather be all alone… anywhere on my own.]

Kouga nodded as he helped Kagome to stand. He chuckled lightly as he began making his way through the forest, only shortly ahead of Kagome. "You know… it's sort of odd, not having those shards in my legs… Naraku took them before you guys came…"

['Cuz I can see… the very worst part of you is me.]

[The jewel shards… heh, if I had never broken the jewel in the first place, I would never have cause all of this… So many people died, just because of one stupid mistake… Sesshoumaru died… because of my stupid mistake.] Kagome slowly withdrew from her pocket the majority of the Shikon jewel, the shards that she and Inu Yasha had collected, and the shard that had come from Kohaku's back. She plucked the shard that she had put into her bow out and pushed the shards into the jewel. As she concentrated her energy onto the shards, they fused with the larger piece of the jewel. "There's still one left… I'll have to come back, I guess… I just hope that I don't hurt anyone else…"

Kouga slowed his pace and glanced back at Kagome. "It can't be that bad, Kagome… You didn't do that intentionally; you aren't the type. Anyhow… we didn't find any proof that he died… He could very well be somewhere else right now… he could be looking for you, Kagome."

Kagome managed a thin, yet false smile as she moved closer to Kouga. "I can only hope that it would be that simple… but even my heart tells me that something is wrong. I guess that if he was still here that I would have to tell him that I'll be back in a few days… my mom must be really worried by now… I've never been gone this long."

Kouga hooked his arm over Kagome's shoulder and pulled her closer to himself. "I think that there's a very good chance that he's okay, Kagome. When you come back, I want you to promise me that you won't do anything stupid. You'll take some time to look for that last shard and then, if you haven't found any clues by such time, dedicate some time to looking for him.

"I don't think it will take long. I know you well enough to know that you won't give up on a good cause. I know that Sesshoumaru is among the most powerful yokai in all of the territories in all of the lands-he won't die so easily. I'm sure that he's out there somewhere, Kagome. You'll look back and laugh at yourself for being so insecure, okay?"

Kagome turned around and pressed her forehead on Kouga's shoulder as she began crying anew. She didn't react at all as he wrapped his arms around her shoulders and held her comfortingly, as a friend would. "Kouga-kun… I'm so scared… I would rather face a hundred Naraku's than face losing him…"

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[I remember what they taught to me…]

[I don't understand…] Inu Yasha, dumbfounded, watched as Kagome ran away with Kouga following shortly behind her. He thought back to all of the lectures that Kouga had given him about why Kagome was always so mad at him-because he wasn't sincere enough when he spoke. But, just now, when he spoke with such sincerity, Kagome only angered even more at him.

[Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be…]

Every other time, Kagome had gotten mad at Inu Yasha because he shrugged off most responsibility and sincerity. Why had she gotten so mad at him now? Was it really because he acted as though he was trying to get close to her because Sesshoumaru was gone? It was not too far-fetched a possibility, seeing as Inu Yasha had wished for Sesshoumaru to be dead several nights prior-but he didn't want that now. He saw how happy Kagome had looked with Sesshoumaru, just to still be her friend was plenty for Inu Yasha. Besides, he felt guilty going after her while Sayaka was there.

[So I pretended up a person who was fittin' in and now you think this person really is me.]

Inu Yasha sighed as he turned back to Sayaka. He did feel guilty when he looked into her melancholy navy eyes. He knew that she had taken a liking to him-Kagome had told him what Kagura had told her. She was rather attractive and had a lot in common with him-why not try?

[I'm trying to bend the truth.]

"Ano… Sayaka…" Inu Yasha nervously scratched the back of his head as he moved closer to the hanyou girl. He bowed his head in apology. "Gomen ne."

Heat rose in Sayaka's cheeks as she slowly shook her head in confusion. "You're apologizing?"

Inu Yasha looked to Sango and Miroku for help, but noticed that they seemed to be having troubles of their own. His expression turned stern as he saw a tear slide over Sango's cheek. "Hey, Sango, what's wrong?"

Sango looked up to Inu Yasha with a frantic look in her eyes. "Inu Yasha, have you seen Kohaku?"

Inu Yasha shook his head slowly as he looked around the empty landscape, as though expecting the boy to suddenly appear. He jumped in surprise when he heard Kagura's voice from behind himself. "I saw the boy. He was running toward Naraku just before Kagome shot the arrow. I don't know where he could have gone, but I can't see that he would have been hurt by the miko's arrow."

Inu Yasha nodded in agreement. "If he went in that direction and disappeared after Kagome's arrow, but was gone by the time you cleared the dust from the air…"

Inu Yasha rubbed his chin in thought. The fact that Kohaku seemed to have disappeared in the same place and time as Sesshoumaru seemed little more than coincidence.

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A.N. Whew… First, I really apologize for taking so long to get this chapter up. I had a glitch in my computer and then the adapter for my keyboard broke, so I've been virtually unable to use my computer-which happens to have this chapter on it. I've also been pulling my hair because I just now found out about this recall for a part on my car and the parts have been forever coming into the dealership.

Anyhow, for those of you who are currently looking up my address so you can avenge your lost minds, I can only hope that the last line of this chapter will give you enough hope to put done your various weapons and promise not to kill me. (At least, not right now.) I didn't really want to put that in this chapter, but it seems that if I don't, I'll have a few of you knocking on my door, ready to lynch. (At least, that's what it feels like after getting a few… well, less than happy reviews. ^_^;;)

Well, got to go make the next chapter,

Ja ne,

Ryoko Yuy / V Shape Otaku